Hei anyamata mutakwera patchire zaka 3 ndikukhumudwa pagululi. Pamapeto pake ndinamenya masiku 91 patsiku la Khrisimasi. Moyo wanga watembenuka & zochuluka zatulukira mbali zonse za moyo wanga. Ndikumva moona mtima kuti chilengedwe chimakupatsani mphotho, kapena chimagawa nyanja mukachita khama. Nazi zabwino / zotsatira.
- Kupsyinjika kwabwerera, ndimamva kuti ndikufuna kuyanjana ndi atsikana komanso mpikisano wothamanga ndi anyamata. Ndikumva ngati kufunitsitsa kwanga kuli kolimba komanso kotsimikiza. M'malo mokhala wopunduka, ndimangonena ndekha & zomwe ndikufuna mdziko lapansi, & ndikutsatira.
- Kukhalapo ndikwabwino. Ndikakhala kwinakwake, ndimadziwa chifukwa chake & zomwe ndimayang'ana, kotero thupi langa limakulitsa ndikutuluka ndi cholinga changa. Ndimawadziwitsa anthu pano, mwaubwenzi osati motetezeka. & khulupirirani molimba mtima motsutsana ndi nthawi yomwe ndinkachita manyazi ndi kubisala.
- Ndasiya kusamalira mwanjira yayikulu. Malingaliro a anthu, malingaliro, alibe ntchito ngati kale. Ndinkakonda kuganizira zomwe anthu ena amaganiza za ine. Tsopano ndikhoza kupanga phokoso, kapena kudzipusitsa ndekha. Malingana ngati Ine ndekha, ndine wokondwa. & anthu amakonda kukhala bwino. Amamva ngati atha kundidziwa, & nditha kuwadziwa, m'malo mongosewera mosatekeseka. & ngati samandikonda, chabwino. Pitilirani.
- Chiwonetsero ndichokoma kwenikweni. Ndili ndi atsikana ambiri omwe amandiyang'ana m'maso, kumwetulira, & kudziwonetsera okha oyamba. Ndikamalankhula nawo, ndizodabwitsa kuti amangodzitsitsa ngati ali ndi nkhawa ndikutsimikiza kwanga. Kupatsa ine mphamvu & chapamwamba. Malingaliro anga anali "Ohh gee wiz ndikhulupilira kuti andikonda". Tsopano kuti "Ndine wotsimikiza kuti watsikira pansi". Ndikumva ngati ndikutha kuwona chidwi cha atsikana mosavuta, kuposa kale pomwe zinali ngati kumasulira mwambi. Makhadi ndiosavuta kusewera tsopano. Zimamveka zachilengedwe zonse.
- Kusangalala ndikosavuta. Ndimadzimva kuti sindimalankhula ndi anthu. Monga ndimatha kuwerengera zolankhula zathupi, magwiridwe antchito ndikuwamvetsetsa kuposa momwe zimakhalira. Zimathandizira kulumikizana ndi anthu mosavuta. Ndine wotseguka, wochezeka komanso wosewera. Kusintha kwabwino kuchokera kuda nkhaŵa zonena zoipa, kukhala wodekha Kwa zokongola & chidwi.
- Ntchito: Ndili ndi chidwi chakujambula. Ndidakwanitsadi ntchito yanga yamaloto nditachotsedwa ntchito. Poyamba ndinali ndi malonda otsika kwambiri chifukwa cha ulesi & kusowa kolimbikitsira kugwira ntchito. Pakali pano, ndili ndi zina mwazogulitsa kwambiri, ndipo ndimamenya zina mwazogulitsa kuposa akatswiri ojambula. Ndimakonda ntchito, ndipo ndipindulitsa kwambiri kubwerera.
- Banja… ndimawakumbatira kwambiri. Ndimasewera & kupulumutsa nthawi ndi iwo, makamaka adzukulu anga ndi adzukulu anga. Ndimaphunzira zambiri kuchokera kwa iwo ndipo ndimadzikumbutsa kuti ndikhale opepuka komanso onga ana. Ndili ndi nthawi yopambana, pomwe kale tinkachita dzanzi, & osanyalanyazana. Amamva bwino kukhala ndi magazi omwe amatipanga pamodzi.
- Thanzi likuyenda bwino. Kuyankhulana kwanga kuli kozama komanso kothandiza kwambiri. Ndili ndi mphamvu zowonjezera nthawi zina zomwe sindidziwa chochita nazo, zimakhala ngati ndili ndi ndalama zowonjezera. Chifukwa chake ndimachita masewera olimbitsa thupi, kuvina, kapena kuthamanga ndi adzukulu anga kuti alandire mphamvu. Ndikumvanso kuti ndikhoza kulimba mwa zinthu bwino. Kutsutsana ndi komwe ndidangosiya mosavuta.
Tikukuthokozani aliyense pagulu lalikulu lino. Kudzera munkhani zanu, upangiri, & nthabwala zotsogola… zonse zakonza njira & zandithandizira masiku a 91. Ngati muli ndi mafunso, kapena mayankho, omasuka. Imeneyi ndi mphatso yopambana zonse.
Ndikadakhala 24 mu january.
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