Ndine mnyamata wazaka 26 ndipo ndimakonda zolaula. Zomwe ndikuyesera kunena pano zitha kupezeka ngati chidziwitso m'malo mokhala positi yomwe idaganiziridwa bwino. Khalani momwe zingakhalire, ndikukupemphani kuti mukhale oleza mtima ndikuziwona bwinobwino. Zikomo!
Ndakhala pano kuyambira 2017 ndipo ndakhala ndikuyesera kusiya izi kuyambira nthawi imeneyo. Poyesa kwanga kwachiwiri, ndinasiya PMO masiku 72 koma ndinabwereranso tsiku la 73rd. Pambuyo poyambiranso, sindinathe kupitilira masiku 20 popanda PMO. Zinaipiraipira chaka chilichonse ndipo mu 2020 chizolowezi changa chidayamba kusiya. Ndikuchedwa mochedwa, ndimakonda kudya zolaula maola ambiri usiku. Komabe, pafupi masiku 50 apitawo china chake chidasintha ndipo ndakwanitsa kukhala kutali ndi PMO masiku 52 mpaka pano. Mukufuna kudziwa zomwe zasintha? Chabwino, ndikugawana nanu.
M'mayesero anga onse akale oti ndisiye, ndimadalira zinthu zambiri, zomwe sizinachitike. Ndimasunga zolemba zatsiku ndi tsiku ndipo ndimalemba zochitika zanga za tsiku ndi tsiku usiku uliwonse ndisanagone. Njira yanga yopezera moyo wopanda chizolowezi inali yosavuta; Ndimawerenga mabuku othandizira ndekha ndikuyesera kukhala auzimu momwe ndingathere. Nthawi zambiri ndimawerenga mabuku a Pema Chodron. Mvirigo wachi Buddha yemwe mabuku ake amandigwirizana. Kusinkhasinkha ndiye maziko azikhalidwe zauzimu monga mukudziwa. Choyamba, sindinathe kudziletsa kuti ndizisinkhasinkha tsiku lililonse. Ndikakumbukira zolemba zanga, masambawo adadzazidwa ndi mawu ngati: "Ndiyenera kudzipereka kusinkhasinkha", "Kusinkhasinkha ndikofunikira pakulingalira" kapena "Chifukwa chiyani ndikupitilizabe kusinkhasinkha". Kupatula kusinkhasinkha (zomwe sindinachite pafupipafupi), ndimakonda kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi ndikuyesera kuseweretsa maliseche osawona zolaula. Sindikukuvutitsani ndi njira zosiyanasiyana zomwe ndimayesetsa kupewa zolaula. Mndandandawu ukhoza kukhala wosatha. Mwachidule, chilichonse chomwe ndimayesa sichinkawoneka ngati chikugwira ntchito. Sindinali wopanda chiyembekezo, komabe. Ndinkadziwa kuti kuledzera kumeneku kukuwononga moyo wanga ndipo ngati ndingazisiye mwangozi, ndimatha kuganizira kwambiri za ine ndekha ndikusintha moyo wanga.
Ndakhala wosakhulupirira kuti ndi gawo lalikulu la moyo wanga. Pali anyamata pano omwe amalankhula za Mulungu ndi Yesu. Amati Mulungu wawapatsa chipulumutso. Kunena zowona sindimatha kumvetsetsa zomwe anali kunena. Ndinabadwira m'banja lachisilamu ndipo ndili ndi zaka 16 ndinali wotsutsana kwathunthu ndi zipembedzo zonse. Komabe, ndimadziwa kuti ukadakhala munthu wokonda zinthu zauzimu, ukadakhala ndi mwayi wokhala ndi moyo wosangalala. Nditha kuwawona Asilamu, omwe samayang'ana zolaula chifukwa chotsutsana ndi mfundo zawo zonse. Iwo anali ndi chikhulupiriro kuti Allah (Mulungu m'Chisilamu) adzakhala ndi msana wawo, zivute zitani. Iwo anali osangalala. Sanalimbane ndi zinthu zomwe ndimayenera kulimbana nazo. Ndinkachita nawo kaduka mtendere wawo wamumtima, koma ndinkadziwa kuti sindingakhulupirire chipembedzo chilichonse. Ndidadziwa kuti zonse zinali zopanda nzeru (palibe cholakwa, umu ndi momwe ndimaganizira zazipembedzo osati momwe ndimawaonera tsopano. Pakadali pano pamoyo wanga ngakhale sindimakhulupirira zipembedzo zilizonse, ndimazilemekeza zonse. Kuwona anthu achipembedzo omwe anali ndi moyo wabwinobwino kunandipangitsa kuzindikira kuti ndiyenera kukhala munthu wauzimu kuti ndipeze mtendere ndikusiya zizolowezi zosokoneza bongo. Ichi ndichifukwa chake ndidayamba kuwerenga mabuku achi Buddha. Sanalankhule za Mulungu, zozizwitsa za Yesu kapena momwe mneneri Mohammad adagawanitsira mwezi. Zinali zomveka bwino. Ndinkakonda kulingalira kwa Buddha. Zinkawoneka ngati zosavuta komanso zothandiza. Panali vuto lokha, mosasamala kanthu momwe ndimayesetsera kugwiritsa ntchito mfundozi, nthawi zonse ndimapezeka kuti ndayambiranso. Ndimawerenga mabuku achi Buddha ndikuwasinkhasinkha, koma zomwe sizingandilepheretse kudya kwambiri komanso kuseweretsa maliseche pafupipafupi. Ndinasokera! Sindinadziwe chomwe chinali vuto.
Tsopano potsiriza ndikufuna kulankhula za zomwe zinandigwirira ntchito, koma ndisanayambe, pali china chimene muyenera kudziwa poyamba. Kuti tisiye izi, zomwe tikufunikira ndikufunitsitsa kusiya, komanso kukhala ndi malingaliro otseguka. Yotsirizayi ndiyofunika kwambiri kuposa yoyamba. Kupatula apo, simukadakhala mukuwerenga izi ngati simukufuna kusiya zomwe mumakonda. Komabe, pokhapokha mutakhala ndi malingaliro otseguka, mudzatha kuvomereza zomwe ndikunena. Monga ndanenera kale, momwe ndimaonera uzimu sizinkawoneka ngati zikuyenda bwino, ndipo sindimadziwa chifukwa chake. Masiku makumi asanu apitawo, munthu wina adandidziwitsa Zogonana ndi mbalame zosokoneza bongo. Anatinso kuti amapita kumisonkhano yamasiku onse ndipo pulogalamuyi imamuthandiza kwambiri. Anati zonse zomwe ndimayenera kuchita ndikukhazikitsa Zoom pafoni yanga. Kenako ndinkatha kupita kumisonkhano. Poyamba sindinatchere khutu. Ndinkakayikira. Koma kenako ndinalimba mtima kupita kumsonkhano woyamba. Kuyambira nthawi imeneyo sindinayang'anenso kumbuyo. Mudamvadi zamapulogalamu a 12 kale. Sindiwonongerani inu, koma ndiyankhula za izo pang'ono. Pulogalamuyi idadzaza mpata waukulu mu uzimu wanga. Zinandilola kusankha Mulungu amene ndikufuna kumkhulupirira. Kudalira mphamvu yoposa ineyo kuti indithandize pantchitoyi. Uwu ndi mtundu wa Mulungu. Muyenera kudzionera nokha. Ichi chinali chidutswa chosowa ndipo palibe tsiku lomwe sindithokoza mphamvu zanga zapamwamba kuti ndapeza pulogalamuyi. Ndikukhulupirira kuti gulu la Nofap lingathandize, koma thandizo lomwe mungapeze kuchokera ku SPAA ndilosiyana kwambiri, nthawi zamphamvu kwambiri komanso zakuya. Zowonadi, ndi kanthawi kochepa kuti ndibwererenso, koma china chake chasintha. Ndapeza chiyembekezo ndipo ndapeza mphamvu zolimbana ndi vutoli. Mulungu akudziwa momwe ndimakhalira wosimidwa. Ndikukhulupirira kuti positi ikuthandizani kuti mupindule ndi pulogalamuyi momwe ndidapangira. Izi ndi zaulere ndipo zonse zomwe mungafune ndikupezeka pa intaneti. Ndikukhulupirira ndidzaonana ndi ena a inu pa umodzi wa misonkhanoyo.
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