Nkhaniyi ndi yayitali, koma ndikuganiza kuti izi zingakhale zolimbikitsa kwa anzanga ambiri.
Ndinabadwira ku 1989 kum'mwera kwa Asia ndipo ndinayamba kuseweretsa maliseche panthawi ya 10. Ndinkaganiza kuti atsikana (atsikana a m'kalasi, atsikana akuluakulu a m'mudzi mwathu, ojambula mafilimu, mafilimu m'manyuzipepala) ndi kuseweretsa maliseche pa iwo. Ndili ndi zaka 13, ndinaganiza zosiya monga ndikudziwa kuti sindikuchita bwino. Ndimakumbukira kuti pa nthawi ya FIFA dziko la 2002 (Korea-Japan), ndinalonjeza kuti pambuyo pa masewera omaliza ndidzasiya chilakolako. Koma zonse zinapita pachabe ndipo ndinapitirizabe kuseweretsa maliseche, kamodzi pa tsiku.
Kumayambiriro kwa 2003, mmodzi wa anzanga a m'kalasi anandipatsa CD ya vidiyo yolaula, yomwe mwina inali kanema yoyamba yolaula. Ndinapitiliza kupeza mavidiyo ambiri kuchokera kwa anzanga ndipo zinapitiliza. Mu 2006 ndinamaliza maphunziro anga a 10 ndikuchoka kunyumba yanga ku likulu la dziko langa chifukwa cha maphunziro apamwamba.
Zaka zinayi zotsatira, maliseche anali gawo nthawi zonse la moyo wanga. Kugawana mavidiyo olaula pafoni, ma CD, ma DVD anali ofala pakati pa abwenzi. Kenaka ndinachoka m'dziko langa kukhala amodzi a mayiko a Nordic kuti apite maphunziro apamwamba kumapeto kwa 2010. Kenaka, chotsatira, adadziwonekera pa intaneti. Palibe chifukwa cha ma CD, ma DVD kapena mavidiyo olaula, koma ndimatha kuchita zolaula monga momwe ndikufunira nthawi iliyonse. Ndiye zolaula ndi kuseweretsa maliseche ndizinthu zomwe ndimatha kuchita ndikadakhala ndi nthawi. Zaka zisanu zotsatira (mpaka 2015), ndinayang'ana zolaula ndikuziphatikiza ndi maliseche. Ndinkangogwiritsidwa ntchito kwambiri ndi zolaula za pa intaneti.
Panthawiyi, ndinali ndi chibwenzi (2011-2017) amene anabwera kuchokera kumudzi wanga ndikukhala kudziko la Nordic. Mumtima mwathu ndinadziŵa kuti, chibwenzi chachikondi chomwe chingamvetsetse ndikukondana ndi ine, chidzandithandiza kuchoka ku zolaula zomwe zimapangitsa kugonja. Koma zinthu sizinakhale monga momwe ndimaganizira. Iye ankakonda kundikonda ine mosaganizira, palibe funso pa izo koma analibe chidwi pa kugonana. Ndinadabwa kwambiri kuti angakhale bwanji choncho. Tinali ndi zaka 5 koma tinkagonana kamodzi kapena kawiri pa mwezi, ndipo ngakhale pamene ndimamukakamiza. Pambuyo pa miyezi ingapo ya ubale, ndinadziwa kuti sindingathe kuchotsa maliseche awa chifukwa sakanatha kumvetsa ndi kundithandiza. Ndiponso, sindinkafuna kumukakamiza nthawi iliyonse. Atamufunsa, anandiuza kuti alibe chidwi chilichonse pa nkhani yogonana ndi zachiwerewere ndi zolaula. Ndinkaganiza kuti ndikanakhala ndi mwayi wotani ndikadakhala ndi maganizo ngati iye, wopanda zolaula komanso zilakolako zogonana. Ndinamukonda kwambiri moti sindinamulole kuti apite koma panthaŵi imodzimodziyo ndikuvutika kwambiri chifukwa sakanatha kugonana nane mokwanira. Kotero, njira yokha ndiyo kubwereranso ku zolaula za pa intaneti. Kuti ndiphunzire zambiri, ndinachoka m'dzikoli ndipo ndinasamukira ku Central Europe pamapeto a 2015. Ngakhale kuti tinali osiyana thupi, tinali kulankhulana nthawi zonse.
Ndinazindikira nofap mu Novembala 2015. Nthawi imeneyo, ndimaganiza kuti ndiyesetsa kudzithandiza nditha kuthana ndi PMO. Mu Januwale 2016, ndimadzitchinjiriza kuzinthu zonse za PM ndipo ndimatha mwezi umodzi wokha. Komabe kunali kupambana kwakukulu kwa ine. Koma ndinabwereranso, ndipo kuchuluka kwa PM kunakulanso. Kenaka ndinapitiliza ndi PMO, ndimakhala ndikudziletsa kwa sabata limodzi ndipo tsiku lobwereranso ndimakhala ndi maliseche kwa maola ambiri. Koma ndimakonda kuwerenga nofap.com kuti ndikhale wolimbikitsidwa ndipo ndimakonda kuwerenga nkhani zambiri zopambana. Kotero mu 2016, ulendo wanga wa nofap unayamba koma sindinaperekedwe chilango. Komabe, ndinatha kuchepetsa kuchuluka kwa PM ndi 30% - 40%.
Ndinkadziwa kuti sizinali zophweka ngati ndakhala ndikubwereranso nthawi zambiri. Koma pamodzi ndi izo, ndinadziwanso kuti tsiku lina ndidzatha kuyendera ulendo wanga wotsiriza, kenako sindidzabwerera ku PMO. Kumayambiriro kwa 2017, ine ndi chibwenzi changa tinaganiza zokwatira. Monga mukudziwira kum'mwera kwa Asia, chilolezo cha makolo chimakhudza kwambiri ngati mabanja ali ndi zibwenzi. Makolo anga anali okonzeka, koma makolo ake sanali. Iwo adapeza zofooka zambiri mwa ine ndipo anakana zondipempha. Ine ndi gf wanga tinadabwa ndipo ngakhale kuti tinalankhula zambiri ndi makolo ake, sitinathe kuwatsimikizira. Kenaka nthawi inafika, pamene makolo ake anamufunsa kuti asankhe iwo kapena ine. Ndimatha kuona kuti adathyoka mkati mwa miyezi ingapo yapitayi. Ndinkawona kuti anali kumapeto kwa kupsinjika maganizo komanso phokoso lina lililonse, mwina kuchokera kwa makolo ake kapena kuchokera kumbali yanga, adzagwa mozama mu dzenje la kuvutika maganizo. Pomaliza, ndinayankhula naye kuti makolo ake ndi ofunikira kwambiri kuposa ine. Angapeze mnyamata wina ngati ine koma osati makolo ake. Kotero, ndi izi ndinaganiza zothetsa chiyanjano kuti adzikhala ndi nthawi yoti aganizire zonse zazing'ono kapena kuti sakadandaula. Anakwatirana patadutsa miyezi iwiri ndi makolo ake akusankha ndipo anandichititsa kuti ndikhale mumdima wodetsa nkhawa. Komabe ndinapeza njira yothetsera vutoli, ndipo ndinayenera kubwerera ku PMO.
Cholinga chilichonse chomwe ndinakhala nacho chifukwa cha nofap chinawonongeka ndipo PM, pamodzi ndi udzu ndi njira yokhayo yomwe ndingaiwale chirichonse chomwe chimapita m'moyo wanga. Ndinabwerera ku dziko langa mu June 2017 kuti ndikachezere banja langa lomwe linandithandiza kwambiri kuti ndigonjetse zonse zomwe ndinkakumana nazo. Nditabwerera ku Central Europe, zinthu zinachepa. Ndinabwerera ku maphunziro ndi kuyunivesite yanga, koma PMO inapitiliza. Ndinkakonzekera kuti ndiphunzire maphunziro anga mu March 2018 komanso ndikudandaula za wothandizira wanga komanso Yobu pambuyo pa maphunziro.
Pa XUMUMI December December 26, ndinaseweretsa maliseche pa intaneti pa maora asanu ndi limodzi. Sindinkadandaula pambuyo pa maola a 2017 a katchulidwe ndi maliseche. Ndimakhala wosangalala monga momwe zinalili panthawi imeneyo kuti ndikhale wokondwa. Koma patapita kanthawi, ndinakhala wokhumudwa monga momwe ndimadziwira mkati mwanga kuti ndikhoza kuchita chinthu chofunika kwambiri kuposa PMO. Ine ndinagona pambuyo pake koma pamene ine ndinadzuka, ine ndinali ndi kumverera komwe kungakhale kolaula kunali kwa zinthu zonse zomwe zikuchitika mmoyo wanga. Ubale wosasunthika ndi chibwenzi changa (zokhudzana ndi kugonana), makolo ake amanyalanyaza ine kwathunthu, nkhaŵa zonse zomwe ndimakhala nazo, kusowa machitidwe ndi zina zotero. Ndiye tsiku limenelo, ndinadziuza ndekha kuti ndiyenera kusankha moyo wabwino komwe intaneti ikuyenera kutha, ndipo ndikuyenera kuwonetsedwa kwa anthu ena onse ndi ntchito zomwe ndakhala ndikuziopa mpaka pano. Kenaka ulendo wanga womaliza wopita ku nofap unayamba pa 6th December 27.
Tonse timadziwa zovuta za nofap nthawi zonse. Ndikulemba kuti ulendo wanga nditatha bwanji ulendo wanga wotsiriza wa nofap.
Mlungu woyamba udapanda mavuto ambiri. Ndinali ndi zilakolako zina, koma analibe mphamvu zokakamiza kuti ndibwerere ku PMO. Ndinamvetsera nyimbo zambiri, ndikusinkhasinkha, ndinapita ku masewera olimbitsa thupi ndikuyesa kukumbukira monga momwe ndingathere kuti ndilowe m'malo mwa PM ndikupatsa dopamine zokwanira kwa ma neuron anga. Koma kuyambira tsiku la 13th, mzere wanga wapafupi unayamba. Ndinayamba kupenga, ubongo wanga ukutuluka pakhosi chifukwa sindinathe kupereka dopamine yokwanira kudzera muzochita zina. Njira yokha yomwe ndikanawonera nthawi imeneyo inali kubwerera ku PMO. Koma kenako ndinadziuza ndekha kuti ndiyenera kupita ku hule ndikukhala ndi mwamuna m'malo mobwerera kwa PM. Pa tsiku la 19th, linali lochuluka kwambiri kuti lisagwire ndipo ndinapita kukaonana ndi hule, ndikugonana naye. Zogonana zinali zokhutiritsa kwambiri ndipo ndi masiku a 19 opanda PMO, ndinamva kuti 60% ya zolaula zanga zomwe zinapangitsa kuti anthu asamayende bwino. Mu maminiti a 30, maminiti a 20 anali otikita minofu, kukwapula, kuyankhula ndipo ndinkatha kugonana kwambiri pogwiritsa ntchito maminiti a 10. Pambuyo pake, lingaliro la kugonana ndi zolaula zinachoka m'maganizo mwanga kwa milungu iwiri yotsatira. Kachiwiri pa tsiku la 33rd, chikhumbo changa chinaponyedwa. Koma ndinali wamphamvu kwambiri pamenepo. Ndinatha kulekerera chilakolako chachikulu ndipo patatha masiku ochepa, chilakolakocho chinatha. Panthawi imeneyo, ndinali kulembera mbuye wanga. Ine ndinayang'ana chotero kuponyedwa miyala pa nthawi imeneyo. Mwazi wanga wodzaza ndi testosterone, ndi malingaliro anga pansi pa chitsimikizo chomaliza. Sindinakhazikike koma mwa njira ina, ndinadziyang'anira ndekha. Koma zinali zovuta kwambiri. Ndinasokoneza malingaliro anga ponena kuti, iye ayambe kumaliza nkhani yanu ndipo inu mukhoza kuyendera hule kachiwiri. Kutonthoza kumeneko kunabisa maganizo anga kuti ndatha kumaliza masewera anga (masamba a 110 panthawi yanga yochepetsetsa). Ndapereka pa 1st ya March 2018. Patsikulo, ndinali pa 65th tsiku la PMO (limasiya kunyalanyaza nthawi yomweyi ndi mayi wachiwerewere monga momwe ndatengera ngati mankhwala kuti ndipitirize ulendo wanga wa nofap).
Ndimamva kuti ndili ndi nthawi yochuluka. Nyengo inayamba kukhala bwino ku Central Europe, ndimatuluka panja tsiku ndi tsiku kuti ndikhale ndi maola a 1.5 pafupi ndi paki yomwe ili pafupi, yomwe ili ndi nkhalango yaying'ono ndi nyanja pafupi nayo. Ndinkapita kumeneko m'mawa kwambiri ndikukhala chete kwa ola limodzi kapena kuposa. Ndiye ndimakhoza kukhala ndikusinkhasinkha ndi yoga ndi pemphero m'chipinda changa. Panthawi imeneyo, ndinalibe mwayi wakuwona kusintha kwakukulu komwe kwandichitikira. Koma patsiku langa lamasewero (zochitika ziwiri, kamodzi ku yunivesite yanga ndi kamodzi ku kampani komwe ndinapanga kufufuza kwanga), ndinazindikira kuti ndili ndi mphamvu zambiri ndipo ndikudalira kwambiri. Sindinadandaule, sindinkachita mantha, mawu anga anali ozama, ndipo luso langa lofotokozera linali lochititsa chidwi. Ndidakali wodzikuza ndekha kuti ndinapereka mauthenga pamaso pa anthu osapitirira a 20 German asayansi. Ndili ndi mayankho abwino ndikuwapatsa ambuye anga ndi mitundu youluka. Ndipo inu mukudziwa chomwe, ine ndinapatsidwa ntchito ya kafukufuku wophunzira patangotha kuyankhula kwanga ku yunivesite yanga.
Tsiku lina ndinali kubwerera kunyumba kwanga ndikupita ku chipinda changa (kutenga pafupifupi 15 maminiti onse pamtunda ndi basi), kunali kuzungulira 9 pm, ndipo pafupifupi tsiku la 70th pa ulendo wanga wa nofap. Mtsikana wina wandiuza kuti ineyo ndikupita naye ku siteshoni ya basi. Izi sizinayambe zandichitikira ine kale, msungwana wosayankhula akuyesera kuyankhula. Ndinayankha kuti hi ndi basi anali kale, choncho tinakwera basi ndikukhala pamodzi, moyandikana. Pafupi ndi 4 ulendo wa basi, tinatha kugawana maina, ndi chidziwitso ku yunivesite, nyumba, banja, ntchito ndi kusinthanitsa nambala ya foni. Tinafika pamalo omwewo ndikukumbatira tisanayambe ulendo wathu. O munthu, ine sindinakhulupirire zomwe zinachitika mu maminiti asanu omaliza. Izi sizinayambe zakhalapo kale ndisanachite manyazi ndikusafuna kukhala pagulu. Koma ine ndikudziwa Izo zinali chifukwa cha nofap. Kwa owerenga ena, chinthu choterocho chiyenera kuti chinachitika nthawi zambiri, koma kwa ine chinali chinachake chimene sichinali chisanachitikepo.
Koma ine ndinali akadakali pandege yanga gawo ndikuganiza. Chilakolako cha kugonana chinali kusefukira nthawi zina, ndipo ndinkatenga madzi ozizira, kapena ndikuyenda kuti ndidzidodometse ndekha, koma kufuna kwanga kunakula kwambiri kuti ndizitha kunena mosavuta zolaula ndi maliseche. Lero pa 18th April 2018, sindiri tsiku langa la 114th. Pa tsiku la 113th, ndinakumana ndi amzanga ochepa ku yunivesite ndipo simukukhulupirira zomwe zinachitika. Misonkhano yambuyomu, ndinkakhala mbali ya gulu, mnyamata kumbali akumvetsera nkhani koma dzulo ndinali mtsogoleri. Aliyense ankandimvetsera ine mosamala kwambiri pa mutu uliwonse umene ndinauza. Kotero, Lero ine ndiri ndi cholinga ichi kuti ndigawane nkhani yanga. Ndinkafuna kulemba nkhaniyi pa tsiku la 90th koma ndinali wotanganidwa ndi zinthu zina.
Simungakhulupirire koma mutatha ulendo wa nofap mmodzi wa abwenzi anga ochokera ku mayiko a Nordic komwe ndinkakhala poyamba, ankafuna kuti ndiyambe kampani yanga yongoganizira za ujini ndikundipatsa gawo la 50 peresenti. Tili ndi ndondomeko yokhala ndi polojekiti yaying'ono yotchedwa 200k euros, yomwe idzatulutsidwa chaka chimodzi. Tonsefe tikugwira ntchito panopa. Komanso, ndinayamba kampani ina pa intaneti m'dziko langa, ndipo panopa ndimagwira ntchito zopanga pa intaneti za 2. Chimodzi ndi chovuta kufotokoza apa kotero ine sindikufotokoza izo. Yachiwiri ndi maphunziro a pa Intaneti pa ophunzira. Ndili ndi ndondomeko yowamasula m'miyezi ya 4 ndipo ngati izi zikuyenda bwino ndikupitiriza ntchitoyi pa intaneti ndi ntchito zina zamakono m'tsogolomu ndipo ndizowonjezera maphunziro ambiri pa intaneti pambuyo pake.
Zomwe zimalimbikitsa kukwaniritsa malingaliro anga pa nthawi, kupereka mauthenga popanda mantha, kukhala ndi chibwenzi ndi abwenzi, osayanjana ndi atsikana, ndikuyambitsa makampani awiri omwe ali ndi polojekiti itatu kumene anthu a 12 ayamba kugwira ntchito, nthawi yochepa kugwira ntchito ku yunivesite ngati wothandizira kafukufuku, kuphunzira piyano, kugwiritsira ntchito ora limodzi m'nkhalango, yoga nthawi zonse ndi kusinkhasinkha, kukonza chakudya ndi madzi ozizira, kuganiza bwino, kuganizira zambiri, zonsezi zandichitikira kuyambira pomwe sindinayambe ulendo waukulu. Sindinganene kuti "izi si chifukwa cha nofap". Inde, izo ziri. Sindinayambe ndakhala ndi chidaliro chochuluka komanso ndondomeko yoyenera kale.
Ndidzalembanso m'miyezi ingapo. Ndikukhulupirira kuti zochitika zambiri mu nkhaniyi zimagwirizananso ndi zanu. Ngati mukuwerenga izi monga gawo la ulendo wanu wa nofap, ndiye ndikudalira ine, muli mu njira yolondola. Ndinali kumapazi anu, kusokonezeka ndikulakalaka zolinga. Koma khulupirirani ine, mudzapambana. Ndi nkhani chabe ya nthawi ndi khama lanu. Ndikukhumba inu mwayi wabwino ndikupemphera kwa Mulungu kuti athandize aliyense wa ife amene akuyesera kusintha moyo wathu.
Chonde ndipempherenso ine. Ulendo wanga wa nofap ukupitirirabe. Ndipo ndikukhumba ine mwayi wamapulogalamu anga pa intaneti.
Mukhoza kuyang'ana pa chithunzi chojambulidwa cha ulendo wanga.
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