Moni kwa aliyense patsamba lino. Ndili pano, tsiku langa la 68th ndikupita tsiku 90 nthawi ino ndikulemba kuti ndigawane nanu nonse. Pa mwambowu, ndikufuna kulankhula za zosintha zomwe zakhala zikuchitika m'moyo wanga tsopano popeza ndadutsa tsiku la 60 lopanda PMO koma ndikulimbikitsa kwambiri zakusintha kamodzi komwe kwasintha kwambiri moyo wanga, ndikundipulumutsa ukapolo wamakhalidwe oyipa amenewo.
Tonsefe timadziwa zomwe zolaula zimachita muubongo wathu, tikudziwa momwe zimasokonezera malingaliro athu okhudzana ndi kugonana ndi anthu ena kukhala chinthu chosakhala choyenera, koma koposa zonse timadziwa bwino momwe izi zimadza nthawi zambiri zimaphatikizira kuwonongeka kwathu ulemu, chifukwa chodya kwambiri zolaula. Ndizokhudza izi makamaka ndili pano kuti ndikalankhule.
Monga ndanenera kale m'mabuku ena kuti kusuta kwanga kumatha kubwerera ku 2005 pomwe zinthu zimandivuta kwambiri. Koma ngati pali chinthu chomwe chidakhalapo panthawiyi ndikuti sindinakhalepo ndi bwenzi m'moyo wanga wonse, zomwe zili m'moyo weniweni chifukwa ndinali ndi chibwenzi chotalika kalekale, chomwe ngakhale sizinayende patatha zaka ziwiri ndipo miyezi iwiri inali nthawi yosangalala kwambiri m'moyo wanga, ine ndi mkazi wanga wakale timagwirizana ngakhale.
Tsopano, zonsezi zimasewera bwanji pachidakwa changa cha PMO? Chabwino, sindizibisa kuti nthawi ina m'moyo wanga ndidayamba kukhala ndi malingaliro osayenerera komanso osayenerera azimayi. Chidani? Ayi. Chosiyana kotheratu ndi ichi: Ndinalakwitsa kuwona akazi ngati zinthu zosafikirika zaumulungu zomwe zimafunikira chidziwitso cha arcane kuti awawonenso. Kudzidalira kwanga kunali kotsika nthawi zonse, kufunafuna zifukwa, njira zodzitchinjiriza, zimadzinamiza ndekha kuti nditha kuwononga zowononga, ndipo apa PMO ndi yomwe idandipatsa yankho kwakanthawi pamavuto.
Izi zidamasuliridwa kuti: Ine sindinathe kufikira msungwana aliyense yemwe ndidamupeza wokongola, chifukwa ndimadzimva kuti ndine wocheperako. M'malo mwake ndimakumbukira momwe munthu womaliza adachitikira ndi mphunzitsi yemwe anali wocheperapo ine pazaka zochepa (ndinali 24 pa nthawiyo) ndipo anali wokongola kwambiri, koma ndinamvanso mantha ndipo sindinayese nkomwe, ndiye ndimapeza kuti ali ndi china chofunikira (makamaka zomwe zimachitika nthawi iliyonse ndikakopeka ndi winawake). Ndipamene ndinanena kuti ndinali ndi zokwanira ndipo ndinayamba kupsinjika mtima pomwe chizolowezi cha PMO chimandigunda mwamphamvu kuposa kale. Izi zimachitikanso zomwe zimawonjezera vuto. Ndiyamba kuyang'ana azimayi omwe ndikudziwa kuti atuluka mgulu langa, ndipo sindikutanthauza ma celebs, ndikulankhula za azimayi omwe amatengedwa, makamaka okwatiwa kapena azaka za 40 m'moyo wosiyana kwambiri ndi wanga. Ndinkadziwa kuti ndilibe mwayi, koma ndimakhala bwino ndikungowaganizira ndikuwakhumba, popeza ndimakhalanso otetezeka ku zowawa kapena kukanidwa. Lingaliro lotsata mayi wachikulire lidakula, ndikuganiza kuti lingandibweretsere chimwemwe komanso kuvomerezedwa komwe ndimafuna. Zinali zosokoneza komanso zachiwawa.
Tiyeni tiwone zomwe zikuchitika pano. Ndakhala ndikuchiritsidwa kwa miyezi 4 kale, ndipo ndikutha kuwona masiku awa 68 opanda zolaula apindula. Ndawona maubwino monga kudalira kwambiri, osafunikira kuvomereza ena komanso kudzikonda ndekha, kulingalira bwino, kuyendetsa kwambiri kuti ndipeze zokumana nazo zenizeni. Koma koposa zonse, malingaliro owopsa awonongedwa kuti apatse mwayi kwa athanzi atsopano.
Njira yofunika kwambiri momwe ndimawonera akazi: Sikuti ndimangomvetsetsa kuti palibe chifukwa chokhazikitsira aliyense pansi, zomwe zimapatsa wina mphamvu zochulukirapo chisangalalo chanu. Koma ndikumvetsanso chinthu china: Zolaula zidasokoneza malingaliro anga pomwe ndimangothamangitsa mkazi wopondereza, zomwe sindimanyadira koma ndimadzikhululukira. Kufunafuna kwanga mkazi wangwiro, yemwe adakhazikika muubongo wanga kuchokera pazithunzi zolaula komanso zinthu zina zodzutsa kugonana sizinangobweretsa mavuto. Kuzindikira ndikuvomereza izi sikunali kophweka, koma kunalowa m'malo mwa kuchira kwanga. Pakadali pano sikuti sindikumva kuti ndikufunika zolaula, ndimanyansidwa nazo ndipo sindifuna kanthu kochita nazo.
Zomwe ndikufuna pakadali pano, ubale ndi mtsikana yemwe ndimamukonda kwenikweni komwe chikondi chenicheni ndi ulemu ndizofala kwambiri. Ndikudziwa kuti kuti ndikwaniritse izi pali ntchito yambiri yomwe ikukhudzidwa, palibe chinthu monga mphotho yomweyo (china chomwe PMO adachita kale), ndikudziwa ndiyenera kuyesetsa. Izi zimakonda kundiwopseza, koma ndi momwe zinthu zilili, ngati mukufuna china chabwino pamoyo wanu mutuluke m'malo anu abwino ndikusunthira patsogolo, ndipo ndizomwe ndikufuna kuchita. Zonse mu nthawi yake popanda kuthamangira zinthu kumene.
Zowona, pali masiku omwe ndimasungulumwa, ndine wamunthu ndipo zinthu ngati izi ndizabwinobwino. Koma ndinganene izi: Ngakhale nditakhala wosungulumwa, kapena tsiku loipa bwanji, sindidzayambiranso zolaula. Ndikufuna kuti kusintha kumeneku ndi malingaliro atsopano akhale pano kuti akhalebe, chifukwa chomwe sindimalola kuti ndizikhala tcheru nthawi iliyonse mosasamala kutalika kwakanthawi.
Zonsezi ndi zapano. Zikomo powerenga.
Ndi kusintha kwa momwe ndimaganizira ndikukhalira ndi moyo. Zikomo Nofap, Zikomo.
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