Ndine wamwamuna wa 29yo yemwe wakhala PMOing kuyambira ali ndi zaka pafupifupi 14. Nditazindikira kuti ndayamba kuzuka XXUMX-5 zaka zingapo zapitazo. Panthawi yomwe ndimakhala ndikuligwiritsa ntchito pafupipafupi 6-3 patsiku kuti ndithane ndi zowawa za ubale wanga womwe udatayika, kulephera kwanga kupeza ntchito kapena kusukulu ya grad yotsatira koleji, komanso kulephera kukopa aliyense ofunika pamoyo wanga.
Ndinkadziona ngati wachabechabe. Nditazindikira gawo ili ndimamva ngati ndapeza chifukwa chenicheni cha mavuto anga onse. Sindingakhale ndikulakwitsa kwambiri. Ndinavutikira kupitilira zaka zapitazo, ndikuganiza kuti ndichepetse PMO kuti ndimatha kuthana ndi mavuto ena onse m'moyo wanga. Ndidakwaniritsa mizere ingapo yayitali panthawi yomwe masiku 90 adalimbikitsa kwambiri (zomwe zidachitika pafupifupi zaka 4 zapitazo). Koma sindinali pafupi kukonza zinthu zonse zomwe zidandipangitsa kudzimvera chisoni.
Zomwe sindinazindikire ndikuti nthawi zonse ndikapita mtunda wautali, ndimayamba kudzipangira ndekha zomwe zimandikankha pang'onopang'ono. Ndinayamba kugwira ntchito pafupipafupi, kusinkhasinkha mwa apo ndi apo, kufunsira ntchito ndi maphunziro a grad, pomaliza ndikupeza zonse ziwiri. Nthawi zambiri ndimafunsa atsikana kuti azikhala ndi masiku, koma palibe chilichonse.
Ndalephera semester yanga yachiwiri ya sukulu ya grad yomwe imagwirizana ndi masiku anga a 90. Sindinakhulupirire. Ndimaganiza kuti ndimachita chilichonse panthawiyo ndipo ndalephera pachinthu chimodzi chomwe ndimafunikira kuti ndichite pamoyo wanga. Zinali chifukwa chakulephera komwe ndidasiya nofap. Ndinaganiza zogwiritsa ntchito mphamvu zanga kusukulu, kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi, ndi zinthu zonse zofunikira zomwe ndimafuna pamoyo wanga.
Kwambiri ntchito. Ndinapambana mayeso amenewo poyesa kachiwiri. Ndidakhala bwino. Ndinanyalanyaza atsikana kwakanthawi, ndimalingalira zinthu zomwe zinali zofunika. Kuphunzira momwe mungachitire bwino m'dziko la akulu. Ndipo zinagwira ntchito! Zaka zingapo zidapita, ndipo ndidakali PMO, moyo wanga unakhala bwino. Atsikana anali ndi chidwi ndi ine. Ine ndinali chinthu tsopano.
Komabe, zonse zomwe PMOing zidandichititsa ndikusowa gawo limodzi lofunikira kwambiri, boner yanga. Munthawi yakanthawi, atsikana angapo adandiwonetsa ndipo amandifuna ndipo amafuna kugonana. Nthawi zosachepera 3, ndi akazi atatu osiyana, sindinathe kukhala ndi boner ndi azimayi omwe ndimakopeka nawo. Zosaneneka. Ndidachita zonse moyenera, koma sindinathe kuwonekera pagawo lofunikira kwambiri. Ndinkadzichitira manyazi kwambiri.
Chifukwa chake chaka chatha, ndidaganiza zothetsa nkhaniyi kamodzi. Sindingakhale bambo yemwe ndikufuna kukhala ngati sindingagone ndi mkazi yemwe ndimakopeka naye. Ndinali ndi mizere ingapo yayitali mpaka miyezi 2, koma pamapeto pake ndimatha kulakalaka zolaula. Unali moyo wanga wokha wogonana kwanthawi yayitali sindinathe kupirira nawo.
Ndinayamba kusinkhasinkha kwa mphindi 15 tsiku ndi tsiku ndikudutsa gawo langa la nofap. China chake chodabwitsa chidachitika chilimwe chatha. Ndinangokhala woleza mtima kwambiri. Ndinali wofunitsitsa kudzicepetsa. Ndikuganiza kuti kusinkhasinkha ndi gawo lalikulu la izo. Sindingadzikwiyire ndekha chifukwa chophwanya mndandanda ndi PMO. Ndikanangokhala "chabwino, zidachitika, mukudziwa izi zikuyenera kuyima, palibe chifukwa chomenyera izi".
Kenako Okutobala watha, ndidasewera maliseche komaliza. Zachidziwikire, sindimadziwa panthawiyo, ndimangoyang'ana mtsogolo. Mu Januware, ndidayamba kuwona mtsikana m'modzi ndikuchita nawo usiku umodzi woyamba zaka zambiri. Mu Marichi, ndimakhala ndi zibwenzi za 2 komanso malo ena usiku umodzi. Mwezi watha, ndidakhala ndi malo amodzi usiku umodzi ndikulimbitsa ubale wanga ndi mtsikana m'modzi yemwe tsopano ndi bwenzi langa.
Ndikupita ku Europe pano. Kusangalala ndi maubale osiyanasiyana ndi akazi. Mwezi wamawa, ndidzamaliza maphunziro anga kusukulu ya grad ndi ntchito yolandidwa kale. Moyo sungakhale bwinoko.
Ndimakumbukira ndekha zaka 6 zapitazo. Momwe ndidaliri wachisoni. Momwe ndidalephera. Zopanda mphamvu bwanji. Zinthu zasintha bwanji tsopano.
Malangizo anga kwa inu nonse: Pitani kunja ndikukhala moyo wanu. Pitani patsogolo zinthu zazikulu, khalani ndi zolephera, koma phunzirani maphunziro omwe muyenera. NoFap siyidzathetsa mavuto anu kupatula amodzi, koma ndikuganiza kuti mavuto anu amapitilira amenewo. Idzathetsa mavuto anu a boner, koma mudzayambiranso zolaula komanso kuseweretsa maliseche ngati moyo wanu sukuyenda molondola. Ganizirani mozama za mavuto anu. Pangani njira zothetsera mavuto omwe ali pafupi, osati china chilichonse. Kenako mudzapeza komwe mukufuna kukhala.
LINK - Ndidachita miyezi ya 6 ya nofap ndipo zonse zili bwino.
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