Moni, ndine (John), LoseMyselfToSaveMyself.
Ndinali ndisanamvepo za pulogalamu ya NoFap isanafike Januware wa 2018.
Inali nthawi yomwe ndinalirira Mulungu kuti ndisiyedwe ndi M, mwachinsinsi, NoFap idayamba kuwonekera m'madyedwe anga. Kodi ichi, mtundu wina wanthawi yatsopano ya zaka chikwi ndi chiyani?
Koma popeza panali gulu pa intaneti, ndidasokonezeka! Sindinayenera kubisala mumthunzi, sindinakhale momwe ndimakhalira, zomwe zinali ngati zonyansa zonyansa pansi pa zinyalala ku ghetto.
Ndinali pa PMO kwa 28 zaka (izi zinali chabe tsiku langa lobadwa la 44th).
Pakati pazaka za 28, ndimaona kuti nthawi yopanda pake kwambiri yomwe ndidatola mwina inali miyezi ya 2, kukhala owolowa manja.
Miyezi ya 2 = masiku a 60 omwe adagawanika ndi zaka 30 = masiku 2 pachaka ndidalibe
Ndidakonda kwambiri zidziwitso zatsopano (nditatha kudziwa kuti ndi chiyani), ndikuyika lingaliro la tsiku la 16. Iyo inali yanga yayitali kwambiri kuposa mzere wambiri, mwachidziwikire.
Panalibe zosintha zambiri masiku asanu ndi awiri oyamba. Ndinali ndi zikhumbo zina, koma ndinali wokonzeka kuthana nazo, ndikuwona ngati ndingathe kumaliza chinthu chatsopano "choyambiranso" ichi.
Masiku 8 - 12 sizinali zophweka. Ndipamene ndidadwala! Zinkawoneka ngati malungo kapena chimfine. Ndinadziwa kuti sichinali. Cholinga chake chinali chakuti zizindikirazo zimangosintha maola ochepa kapena apo. Kutentha kwa thupi langa kudali kovuta, ndikulimbana ndi homeostasis.
Nthawi imeneyo, yomwe inali nyengo yozizira yozizira, ndimamva kutentha, kenako ndimazizira ndikubwerera. Nthawi zina khosi langa linkkaotcha komanso nkhope yanga inkazizira. Gawo lodabwitsa kwambiri linali pamene theka lamanja la chifuwa changa linali lozizira ndipo linalo linali lotentha. Sindingathe, ngakhale ndine wolemba.
Ndidavutika, selo limodzi, ndikukonzekera kuyimba 9-1-1, koma sindinatero. Zinali zofunikira kwambiri, kuchotsa uku. Pa Tsiku 13, ndinadzuka, ndipo ndinadzipukusa mutu padenga!
Ndinali nditayimirira 10 wamtali. Mawu anga anali mokweza, mantha anga anali atapita, ndimatha kuganiza bwino, ndipo malingaliro anga anali njira, mwachangu. Uku kunali kusintha kwina! Ndine ndani tsopano, wopambana kapena china chake?
Chinthu choyamba chomwe ndidachita ndikulemba buku. Ndidazindikira kuti nditha kudzisindikiza mwaulere. (osadandaula, sindilimbikitsa zinthu izi patsamba lino!) Ndatulutsa buku m'masiku 5. Pa tsiku lachisanu ndi chimodzi, ndinapanga kusintha kwa mphamvu, ndikuisindikiza.
Koma popeza mphamvu zanga zidachoka pama chart, ndinali ndi vuto. Sindimatha kugona, ndimakhala wofatsa nthawi zonse. Popeza ndinali ndi mbiri ya matenda ochititsa munthu kusinthasintha zochitika, ndinayamba kukhala wamisala, ndipo ndinayenera kupita kuchipatala tsiku la 16.
Zimakhala zochititsa manyazi kukhala mwamantha. Ndimadana nazo, ndipo ndimapewa monga mliri.
Madotolo atanditchinjiriza, monga zabwinobwino, adandichotsa pamalingaliro onse ogona. Kwa pafupifupi masiku anayi, ndimadzandikhomera pakama, pomwe oledzera pafupi nane ankangodziguguda.
Matenda anga amisala adakula kwambiri. Ndinayamba kupita ku psychosis yakuya. Sindingaganizenso. Maganizo anga anali osagwirizana. Ndingachite bwanji izi? Achipatala anali atapeza njira, komabe kuti asokoneze malingaliro anga omwe anali osalimba kale.
Malingaliro anga amayendayenda mozungulira mozungulira. Kuyesa kumvetsetsa malingaliro anga zinali ngati kumvetsetsa kwa Jackson Pollack. Ndinafika pa zitsulo zamagetsi, ndikuyembekeza kuti ndidzidzidzimutsa mu chipatala. Palibe chomwe chidachitika.
Pomaliza, ndinapempha wodwala matendawa kuti andibwezeretseko tulo tanga. Sindinapite mwatsatanetsatane wa "chifukwa". Madokotala samakhulupirira konse wodwalayo. Koma, anavomera.
Kufikira pamenepo ndidabweleranso kuchipatala pa kusefa chifukwa ndi chinthu chokhacho chomwe ndimaganiza kuti ndichite chomwe chingapangitse kuti ndigone. Zinali zolakwika. Mankhwala atatha, ndinayambanso kugona, ndipo pamapeto pake ndinatuluka.
Kubwerera kunyumba ndidayendetsa mpaka Feb 6, 2018 ndipo ndinabwereranso kwambiri - ndinayambiranso, masiku 97!
Linali masiku abwino kwambiri a 97 m'moyo wanga. Ndidachita zinthu zambiri, zinali zodabwitsa; Ndinalemba buku lina, ndinapanga malo, ndinalemba ntchito pa wailesi ya intaneti, ndinathamangitsidwa ndi wayilesi, ndinayamba kuimba nyimbo, ndinayamba kusewereranso nyimbo, ndi zina zambiri.
Mu 2018, ndidalemba masiku a 170 + onse. Ndidatenga nyimbo zingapo, ndimayendedwe apakati.
Lingaliro langa lomaliza, (mndandanda wanga wazokwaniritsa uli pansi) ndikuti pulogalamuyi imagwira ntchito bwino kwambiri, ndikulakalaka ndikadamva izi ndili mwana. Ndinkadziwa kuti PMO sanali kulondola, komabe, sindinathe kuthawa. Ndimaganiza kuti amuna onse achita izi, ndikuvomereza.
Gulu ili lakunja, omwe amapezekapo komanso omwe amapanga tsambali, ndi anthu omwe amadziwa kufunikira kwa NoFap, kapena kudziletsa pmo. Ndizodabwitsa, ndipo pemphero langa ndilakuti munthu aliyense wamisala azindikire zomwe zili pano, ndikufunitsitsa kuti asinthe.
Komabe, izi ndi zinthu zomwe ndidakwaniritsa mu 2018:
1. Kuyenda apa ngati kuti zayamba kale!
2. Mabuku osindikizidwa a 6 (imodzi idalembedwa kale ndi ine zaka zingapo zapitazo, ndipo amangofunika kusintha)
3. Idachitika pafupifupi 60 kapena magawo ena otseguka
4. Wojambula ndi nyimbo ya 10 (rock)
5. Nyimbo zosinthidwa kukhala Christian Contemporary
6. Nyimbo zojambulidwa za 3 (oimba amatuluka koyambirira kwa 2019)
7. OSAWA 100 lbs.
8. Adakhala yogi
9. Khalani mphunzitsi wa inu nokha (wotsimikizika)
10. Pomaliza ndidatsata njira zonse za 12 mumsanjano wopanga magawo, omwe anali amwano
11. Mudatuluka m'galimoto yanga yosakhwima, ndiri ndi galimoto yabwinoko, yopanda zabodza
12. Ndinakhala wothamanga mtunda, ndimakonda kuthamanga pafupifupi ma 3 mamailosi tsiku kapena kupitilira. Ndathamanga mailosi a 8 kawiri chaka chino, osayima
13. Kodi magawo a 30 ola limodzi la podcast yosintha moyo
14. Ndinayambanso kuthamanga kuthamanga, kupeza nthawi yanga imodzi yapansi pa 30 masekondi (pansi pa mphindi ya 6)
15. Phunzirani kusinkhasinkha, kuwerengera Mindfulness for Starters
16. Werengani Bayibulo (motsimikizika osati nthawi yoyamba)
17. Tinali ndi "maloto abwino" (osanyowa)
18. Yolemberana makalata ndi "wogwira ntchito m'boma" (adakalibe makalata amenewo)
19. Anachotsedwa mu masewera olimbitsa thupi chifukwa chothamanga kwambiri mopanda masewera
20. Siyani khofi ndi shuga (zimathandizira pakuchepetsa thupi)
21. Kuyesedwa kwambiri pamayeso a IQ (sindine wopusa)
22. Ndimakonda kukwera mkati, makamaka kotsatsa
Ndimakonda yemwe ndili lero. Zikomo Alexander & NoFap!
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