Chifukwa chake ndakhala pa "streak" pafupifupi masiku 40. Sindikonda chidwi ndi "ma streaks" chifukwa ndidapeza kuti njira yochiritsira idayamba tsiku lomwe ndidaganiza kuti ndili ndi vuto, ndipo sindingapitilize PMOing 3 patsiku, zomwe zinali zaka 1.5 zapitazo tsopano. M'miyezi yaposachedwa, PMO wanga sapezeka, ndipo monga ndidanenera ndisanakhale masiku pafupifupi 40. Sindinganene kuti ndakhala ndikubwezeretsanso, ndipo ndadutsa pansi. Chokhacho chomwe chilipo pakadali pano ndikumangokhalira kusinthasintha (komwe kumatha kuchitika ndi chilichonse) komanso maloto azolaula.
Posachedwa ndidakumana ndi msungwana yemwe zinthu zikuyenda bwino naye. Ndipo takhala tikugonana. Timasamala za wina ndi mnzake, ndipo tidauzana wina ndi mnzake pasadakhale kuti zachiwerewere sizinali m'malingaliro mwathu. Kukhala ndiubwenzi ndi munthu wina kwakhala zina mwazosangalatsa komanso zosangalatsa zomwe ndakumanapo nazo. Zatsopano kwa ine, popeza machitidwe anga akale a PMO adandipondereza kuyendetsa ubale wapabanja komanso kuyanjana kwanthawi yayitali.
PIED yanga kulibe, ndipo kugonana kumakhala kosangalatsa, ngakhale sindimaliza "kumaliza". Nditafika pa nthawi yovuta kwambiri pa moyo wanga wa PMO, ndinataya unamwali wanga ndikumangokhalira kugwiranagwirana komwe kunali kofooka komanso kopanda kumva, ndinkadana nako. Sindikanatha kusunga chonyamulira changa ndipo ndinkamva kuti ndili wopanda kanthu. Sindikuganiza kuti ndikuchedwa kuthamangitsidwa tsopano, ndimangozikoka kuti ndikufunika nthawi yambiri ndi iye zonse. Ndizodabwitsa momwe kugonana kwamatsenga kumakhalira mukakhala ndi munthu amene mumamukonda komanso amene amakukondani. Nthawi zonse ndinkadziwa kuti zolaula zinali zonyenga komanso zabodza, koma sizinachitike m'maganizo mwanga momwe "kuzizira" kumafanizidwira ndi chinthu chenicheni.
Tonsefe timadziwa "maloto olaula" omwe timapeza tikayamba kudzipatula ku zolaula. Ndakhala ndikukhala nawo pano ndi uko. Ndikulingalira kuti zikutanthauza kuti ubongo wanga ukugundabe. Ndikudziwa polankhula ndi ena pamsonkhano uno kuti siwachilendo m'njira iliyonse. Amatha kuyambira pakukhala olimba mpaka kufatsa. Nthawi zambiri amandipatsa kudzuka kumasuka kudziwa kuti anali maloto chabe. Maloto oyipitsitsa anali tsiku lina, komwe ndinalota ndinanyenga bwenzi langa. Ndipo nthawi yomweyo ndimabera, ndimayang'ana zolaula pafoni yanga.
Ndidadzuka ndikufuna kusanza, popeza ndidali mtulo tofa nato komwe sindinazindikire kuti ndinali maso ndipo zonse zinali zoopsa chabe. Nditazindikira kuti ndadzuka, ndidakhala ndi nthawi yoganizira zomwe malotowo amatanthauza pamaganizidwe anga. Ndinasokonezeka kwambiri ndi chinyengo, komanso kulumikizana pakati pa izo ndi zolaula. Zachidziwikire kuti sindili "kunja kwa nkhalango" momwe ndimaganizira.
Ndikulingalira ndichifukwa chake amati kukonzanso kwathunthu ndi masiku 90 oyera. Ndizovuta, koma zopindulitsa kwambiri mukayamba kupeza zinthu zokhudza inu paulendowu.
M'malo mokhumudwitsidwa, ndimangokhalira kukondwera ndi zomwe zidzachitike mtsogolo muchiritso changa.
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