Kudikirira konse komwe ndidachita kudalipira lero. Chilichonse chomwe ndidapeza pa mdf chinali chowonadi. Zinandithandizira kugwiranso ntchito ubongo wanga ndikumverera zenizeni m'malo moonera zolaula. Lero, ndimatha kukagona ndi msungwana weniweni patadutsa zaka zopitilira 2. Zaka ziwiri izi zinali zovuta kwa ine. Ine ndinalibe chinthu chachikulu kwambiri chomwe chimapanga mwamuna. Tsiku lina, pamene sindinathe kumangirira ndi mtsikana, ndinamva ngati ndataya chilichonse. Zinali zotsika kwambiri momwe ndikadakhalira.
Pambuyo pake, ndimatha kukwanitsa kukonzekera kuonera zolaula ndekha m'chipinda changa, koma ndinasweka mkati. Kenako, patadutsa miyezi ingapo, ndidapeza pulogalamuyi, ndikuwerenga zolaula komanso zowopsa. Imeneyo inali nthawi yanga yoyamba kudziwa za zolaula zomwe zidapangitsa kuti erectile iwonongeke. Ndinawerenga zambiri za anthu ena komanso omwe anali kuvutika monga ine. Ndinasiya kuseweretsa maliseche komanso zolaula, koma sizinali zophweka. Kwa nthawi yayitali, zolaula zidandipulumutsa kuntchito komanso ku koleji chifukwa zidatulutsa dopamine muubongo wanga. Ndinkakonda kwambiri. Komabe, ndimaganiza kuti pali chiyembekezo, chifukwa chake ndidasiya pmo masiku 38. Iyi inali nthawi yayitali kwambiri kuchokera kwa PMO yomwe ndidapitako.
Kenako, ndidapeza msungwana kuchokera pa tinder ndipo tidayamba kuyimbira kanema ndipo idakulirakulira kotero ndidabwereranso ndikumuwona ma nudes ake. Ndinayamba kuonera zithunzi komanso zolaula, koma sindinadziwe kuti ndachiritsidwa. Zinapitilira motere mpaka nditakhala ndi mtsikana wina. Anayamba kundigwira, koma sindinapeze boner. Ndinapepesa ndikupita kuchipinda chotsuka ndikuyesera kupeza boner koma sindinapeze. Sindingathe kuchita chilichonse pambuyo pa chaka chopitilira chochitika choyamba. Ndinali ndikulira masiku angapo pambuyo pake koma nthawi ino ndidalimbikitsidwa kumaliza zomwe ndidasiya. Ndinayamba kukhala wotsimikiza kuposa kale lonse. Sindinapite kuphwando lililonse. Sindinalankhule ndi aliyense. Ndinali ndi cholinga chimodzi m'malingaliro mwanga. Kuti ndikhale mwamuna kachiwirinso. Masewera olimbitsa thupi adatsekedwa kotero ndidayamba kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi. Ndinkachita zodzikakamiza 100 tsiku lililonse komanso machitidwe ena. Ndinayamba kupita kukagwira ntchito masiku asanu ndi limodzi pa sabata ndipo sindinaphonye masewera olimbitsa thupi ndi yoga tsiku lililonse. Ndimagwira ntchito maola opitilira 10 tsiku lililonse kenako ndikabwerera kunyumba kukasamba ndikuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi. Ndinadzuka ndikupanga yoga ndikulimbitsa thupi. Ndinayamba kumvera Jordan Peterson m'basi popita kuntchito kapena kunyumba. Ndinayamba kudya ma steak, mazira, nsomba ndi zipatso zina tsiku lililonse. Sindinadziwe kuti ndimakhala wolimba nditapumula pang'ono ndikugwira ntchito yochulukirapo. Zonse zinali zamatsenga kwa ine.
Ndinayambanso kukonda moyo wanga. Anthu adayamba kuwona kusintha mwa ine. Mwadzidzidzi atsikana, amafuna kukhala ndi ine. Koma, sindinalole kuti mtsikana aliyense andichotsere panjira yanga monga zidandichitikira kale. Ndinali ndi maboner mwachangu ndikungolankhula ndi atsikana. Tsiku lina ndikugwira ntchito, ndinapweteka dzanja langa lamanzere, choncho sindinathenso kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi, ngakhale nditayesetsa. Sindinatenge kuvulala mwamphamvu ndikupitilizabe kugwira ntchito zolemetsa mpaka tsiku lina sindinathe. Ndinayamba kuwona Physiotherapist ndikusiya ntchito yanga, koma sizinakhale bwino. Kumeneko kunali kutha kwa ndandanda yanga yabwino kwambiri, koma sizinali zokwanira kuti ndileke kuyambiranso. Anzanga anayamba kundida chifukwa chosalowa nawo. Sindingathe kusokoneza chilichonse. Pambuyo pake, ndinatsiriza masiku anga a 90, koma pa tsiku langa la 117th ndinasewera maliseche, koma opanda zolaula. Sindinadziwe ngati zinali zolondola kapena zolakwika. Sindingathe kuzigwiritsanso. Ndinayamba kuseweretsa maliseche kamodzi pa sabata, koma sindinadzutse zolaula. Izi zidapitilira chonchi mpaka lero pomwe ndidakumana ndi msungwana weniweni ndipo ndidatha kuzipeza. Sindingathe kulamulira kumwetulira kwanga lero ndipo ngakhale misozi inayamba kutuluka, zonse zomwe ndinachita chaka chathachi zinapindula. Sindidzaoneranso zolaula, ndipo ndikulakalaka wina aliyense akanapulumutsidwa ku matendawa omwe amatchedwa zolaula.
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