Zimakhala zosavuta. Ndikukumbukira mwezi woyamba, ndinafotokozera zolimbikitsa ngati "kuwukira kwa DDOS," chifukwa cha kuchuluka kwawo komanso kuchuluka kwake. Zimakhala zosasangalatsa kumva kuti zolaula zimayamba, ndikukhala nawo. Zili ngati kuyesa kukhala pansi ndikulakalaka kusefula, kukanda, kutsekula, kapena kupuma. Sindikudziwa kuti ndi iti yomwe ili yolondola, koma zili ngati CHINTHU chomwe mumakonda kuchoka pazokakamira kuyankha nthawi yomweyo. Izi zimakhazikika pakapita nthawi. Masiku ano, nthawi zambiri sindimafuna kuti ndiwonere zolaula, ndipo ndikatero, ndizosavuta kukana. Ndi chidwi changa chomwe ndimayenera kuda nkhawa.
Poyambirira, nthawi zambiri ndimalota zomwe ndayiwala kapena kulephera kulemekeza kudzipereka kwanga. Pakadutsa miyezi iwiri, ndidakhala ndi maloto omwe ndidawafotokozera kuti "Yang'anirani mopanda thandizo m'malire anga ndikamalowerera mpaka kuwonanso zolaula." Ndatenga nthawi lero ku Google "ndimalota zobwereranso," ndikupeza [gwero] amene amati maloto ngati awa siwoipa. Ndi zachilendo, ndipo mwina zimapindulitsa. Iwonso sanachedwe komanso kutaya mtima pakapita nthawi.
Maganizo anga ndi zolaula sizinasinthe konse. Ndinasiya chifukwa ndinkaganiza kuti zolaula zinali zovulaza kwa ine ndekha, ndipo kuzithandiza zinali zovulaza pagulu lonse, makamaka akazi. Tsopano popeza ndikumva kuti "ndapulumutsidwa," nkhawa yanga yaperekedwa kunja kuti iwononge ena.
Nthawi zina ndimafunabe kuyang'ana zolaula. Mtsutso wonyenga womwe ndimamva kuti munthu wokonda kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo akuti "Hei, popeza mwachita bwino kwambiri, bwanji osasangalala ndi zolaula pang'ono? Zachidziwikire kuti utha kutenga keke yako ndikudyanso, podzisangalatsa wekha komweko. ” Kupeputsa. Ndiwo lingaliro labwino kwambiri. Ndikadakhala bwinoko kuposa kale.
Komabe, sindikanakhala wopanda zolaula, ndipo kunyada ndi kudzilemekeza komwe kumadza sikungakhale china chilichonse. Kukhutitsidwa kwakukhutira ndi zachinyengo sikungafanane konse. Sindimabweretsa zomwe sindinapemphe, koma ndimakhala ndikunama ngati ndikunena kuti sindikuyembekezera mwachidwi wina kuti aganizire zolaula, kuti ndizitha kuwongolera. Ndikudziwa kuti izi sizabwino, ndipo sindingayembekezere kuti azilemekeza monga momwe ine ndimachitira, koma sindingathe kuzithandiza.
Kupatula kudzilemekeza kwakukulu, nazi zina mwazabwino zomwe ndalandira: Sindilinso wosamala za matupi azimayi. Ndine wachifundo kwambiri kwa akazi chifukwa chothana ndi abambo mdziko laubongo. Ndimakhala ndi maliseche ochepa kwambiri, ndipo ndimayambitsidwa ndi libido, m'malo mokhumudwa. Ndilibe mlandu uliwonse pazomwe zili pakompyuta kapena foni yanga, komanso kuchokera pazokonda zolaula.
Sindinaganizirepo zosonkhanitsa zanga kwakanthawi, koma kuyankhula za izo tsopano kumabweretsa malingaliro ndi malingaliro ambiri. Izi zitha kukhala zolemba zosiyana.
Sindinali wangwiro 100%. Ndinali ndi zolakwa zingapo panthawi zochepa. Atatu amabwera m'maganizo. 1.) Ndinawerengapo zolemba zolaula milungu ingapo nditasiya zolaula. Ndimaganiza kuti ndi imvi. Ndinawerenga zambiri, kenako ndikuchita maliseche. Zinali zowonekeratu kwa ine kuti, imvi dera kapena ayi, sizinali zomwe ndimamva bwino, chifukwa chake ndidasankha. 2.) Nthawi ina, ndimakhala ndikuwerenga zowerenga zamtundu. Zolimbikitsa zanga zidayamba monga chidwi chanzeru, koma zachidziwikire kuti kudziyang'anira kunayamba kuwongolera chidwi changa, ndipo ndinatsiriza tsamba lofikira la zolaula, ndikuyang'ana tizithunzi tina. Ndinatseka mwachangu. 3.) Ndikukumbukira tsiku lina ndikungokhala ndi chidwi chokhudza zolaula, ndikungopeza yankho la chidwi changa. Ndidatseka mwachangu nditazindikira, koma palibe kukayika kuti ndimayang'ana zolaula kwa masekondi angapo pamenepo.
Ndimangokhululuka. Inde, sindinathe zolaula. Sindingaganize kuti kudzichititsa manyazi chifukwa chosakhala wangwiro kungandithandizire. M'malo mwake, ndikudziuza ndekha kuti ndadziwombera ndiye zomwe ndiyenera kuchita kuti ndibwererenso ku zolaula monga kale. Zomwe zachitika zachitika. Ndikudziwa mumtima mwanga kuti sindinadzinamize. Popeza sindinadzikhululukire, ndidzanenanso kuti, pakadali pano, mwina ndikulakalaka zolaula monga momwe ndinalili poyamba. Kukoka zolaula ndikakhala patsogolo panga kuli kwamphamvu kwambiri kuposa pomwe ndinali wogwiritsa ntchito zolaula, komabe ndinatha kuchoka ndisanachite nawo chilichonse chotheka.
Ngati ndiyenera kupereka upangiri umodzi, ndikadakhala kuti: Aka sikanali koyamba kuyesa kusiya zolaula. Zomwe zidapangitsa kuti pakhale kusiyanasiyana ndikuti ndidasiya "kuyesera" kapena "kuwona momwe ndimakhalira," ndikungoganiza ndikudziwitsa anzanga mosapita m'mbali kuti patsikulo, ndinasiya zolaula kwanthawi yonse.
Ndikumvetsa chifukwa chake ndidayipangira kuti "kuyesera" kale. Kukhazikitsa cholinga ngati kusiya, ndikulephera kutero kumapweteka kwambiri. Zimaphwanya kudzidalira ndipo, choyipitsitsa, kudzidalira. Chiwopsezo "choyesera" ndi chotsikirako, chifukwa pomwe "ndidalephera," ndidasungabe lonjezo langa pazomwe ndidati ndichita, zomwe zinali kuyesa. Koma bwanji mungadziteteze ndi njira yocheperayi, m'malo modalira cholinga chodzipereka pamoyo wanu wonse? Ngati wina akufuna kusiya, ingosiyani, sichoncho?
Panali zinthu ziwiri zomwe zimandiyimitsa kale. Choyamba, sindinali wokhulupirika moona mtima kudzipereka kuti ndikhale ndi moyo wanga wonse pamoyo wanga wonse. Ngakhale ndikadadziwa kuti zinali m'malingaliro anga, ndimayenera kusankha kaye mwamalingaliro poyamba. Chachiwiri, panali mawu amantha. “Bwanji ngati ine nditi ndilengeze izi, ndi kulephera? Mwina ndibwino kuti musayike pachiwopsezo kulephera. Izi zithandizanso kuti ndizikondana kwambiri. ” Chithandizo cha izi, momwe chimamvekera, chinali kukhulupirira mwa ine ndekha. Ndinayenera kukhulupirira kuti ndikhoza kudzipangitsa ndekha kulemekeza kudzipereka kumeneku ndikudzipeza ndekha wofanana nawo, KAPENA, ngati pazifukwa zina ndalephera, ndikudziwa kuti nditha kuchira chifukwa sindinadziname ndekha poyesa kuchita zonse zomwe ndingathe. Ngakhale moyo wanga sunathe, ndatsimikizira kale kuti ndine wamphamvu kuposa momwe ndimaganizira poyamba.
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