Ndine wachinyamata wamwamuna. Kuchita maliseche pafupifupi zaka 3 mpaka 4 kuyambira kutha msinkhu. Nditatha msinkhu, ndidayamba kukhala ndi maloto ambiri onyowa. Ndinkakonda kuseweretsa maliseche koma osati pafupipafupi ndipo ndimakopeka ndi amuna kapena akazi anzanga. Sindinayambe zolaula. Nthawi zonse ndikalota maloto ndimachita manyazi. Ndikamalota nditalota, ndimangosintha mathalauza ndikangodzuka popeza sindimafuna kuti makolo anga awone mathalauza anga atanyowa ndi umuna. Nditapanga kafukufuku pa intaneti, ndidazindikira kuti kuseweretsa maliseche masiku angapo aliwonse abwinobwino ndipo kumathandiza kuletsa maloto onyowa. Ndipo kuchokera pamenepo ndidayamba kuseweretsa maliseche pafupipafupi.
Ndinkakonda kuyang'ana azimayi munyimbo, zithunzi kapena china chofewa pa YouTube kuti ndichite zinthu zanga ndipo ndimawona zolaula nthawi zina. Poyamba zinali kawiri pamlungu koma nthawi zina zimakhala kamodzi tsiku lililonse. Nthawi zina ndimakonda kuchita pmo ngakhale thupi langa silikufuna. Izi zidachitika kwa zaka 3 mpaka 4, ndipo ndidayamba kuganiza kuti "Kodi ndimazolowera izi?", "Kodi ndimazichita mwachisangalalo osati ndikadzuka?", "Kodi kuseweretsa maliseche m'zaka zanga zokula kudapweteka? thanzi langa? ", Ndipo ndipamene ndidapeza za nofap.
Kenako nditawona maubwino ake ndikumva kuthana ndi mavuto ndi pmo, ndidaganiza zosiya. Pambuyo pa sabata la nofap ndinayamba kumva zabwinozo, osayang'ana zithunzi za azimayi komanso zolaula zimandipangitsa kukhala wamphamvu. Ndinapitirizabe. Panali masiku angapo pomwe ndimatsala pang'ono kulephera koma ndimadzilimbitsa ndekha ndipo mzere wanga woyamba unali wamasiku 22. Zomwe ndidaphunzirapo ndikusamba madzi ozizira tsiku lililonse zimandithandizadi popeza sindinkasamba tsiku lililonse. Ndidamuthandiziradi momwe ndinkamvekera kupweteka ngati sindinachite maliseche sabata imodzi. Osatsogola anyamata.
Nditamaliza kutuluka koyamba, ndidatsitsimulidwa koma ndimangokhala ndi malingaliro olimba kuti ndikhale ndi nofap. Zowonjezera zingapo za 20 + kenako mzere wanga wapamwamba kwambiri unali wamasiku 32. Ndinapitilizabe kudziyesa ndekha, ndikubisalira mu subreddit iyi kuti ndikulimbikitseni ndipo umodzi mwamizere yomwe idandigunda inali yofanana ndi "Pomwe mudayamba, mumalakalaka kukhala komwe muli pano. Ndiye bwanji ukufuna kubwerera? ”. Kenako mwezi wotsatira mbiri yanga yatsopano idakhala ya masiku 34 ndidali wokondwa nayo. Malangizo ogwirira ntchito komanso osakula adandipangitsa kumva bwino. Ndidazindikira kuti ndimatha kuyankhula ndi azimayi anzanga mosavuta ndikakhala ndimitambo yayitali ndikumva kuti amakopeka nane pamizereyo. Maganizo awa adachoka pomwe ndimayambiranso. Ndipo chonchi kanthawi padutsa chaka. Ndinali nditamaliza mayeso anga pasukulu bwino kwambiri ndipo ndinakwereranso ku kalasi lotsatira.
Tsopano mavuto abanja pang'ono, kukakamiza kuphunzira, kunandichotsera ku maphunziro anga. Ndidatsitsa Instagram kuti ndilembetse anzanga mosavuta zomwe zidakhala zolakwika kwa nofap. Ndinkangopunthwa pa chithunzi cha mtundu winawake ndipo nditha. Patadutsa milungu ingapo ndipo nditalephera kudziletsa, ndinayambiranso pmo. Patatha chaka choyesera, ndinadzakhalanso mtundu wakale wa ine. Izi zidachitika kwa miyezi isanu ndi umodzi, pamene ndidataya zabwino zanga zonse ndipo ndimangokhala ngati munthu wanga wakale.
Izi zitalephera kupirira m'mene ndimaganizira momwe ndimakhalira bwino, ndidasankha kuti ndisiyanso pmo. Pakadali pano chikwama changa choyamba chidangokhala sabata limodzi, ndimawonabe zithunzi zochepa ndikuganiza zongowajambula. Pambuyo pa sabata loyamba, malingaliro anga anali opangika, kotero ndinakhala pansi ndikutsegula zithunzi zonse m'mutu mwanga ndikujambulanso komaliza. Pambuyo pake ndinakhutira pang'ono ndipo kuyambira pamenepo chimphepo champhamvu chinayamba.
Ndidalimbitsa malingaliro anga kuti sindidzawona chithunzi kapena kulingalira zakugonana kapena akazi. Izi zinandithandiza kwambiri. Pambuyo pa mwezi umodzi wa nofap patatha miyezi 6 mpaka 7 ikukula, ndimakhala ndikumva kuti ndikusiya. Monga kumva pang'ono kuda nkhawa ndikupeza mutu. Nthawi zina mipira yanga inkamva zolemetsa ngati ndimakhala ndi mipira yabuluu. Koma kuyika malingaliro anga pacholinga chimodzi ndikuchichotsa pamalingaliro azakugonana kunandithandiza kwambiri. Sindinawerenge masiku patadutsa kanthawi ndipo amangowuluka.
Mwachangu mpaka pano ndipo ndili pa tsiku la 96 pomwe ndikulemba izi. Ndine wokondwa kwambiri kuti ndatsala pang'ono kufika masiku 100. Monga pafupifupi gawo limodzi mwa magawo atatu a chaka popanda pmo.
Tsopano maupangiri omwe ndikufuna kuti ndilembe pano kuti athe kusavuta kuwerenga: -
- Khalani ndi zowawa kapena malo osambira bwino kamodzi tsiku lililonse.
-Kudya ndi kudya wathanzi. Samalirani thupi lanu.
-Yesetsani kupanga zochitika tsiku ndi tsiku kuti mukhale ndi ulemu.
-Ukakhala pa nofap koma umayeretsa ziwalo zako. Khalani aukhondo.
-Mika mtima wako pacholinga chimodzi. Osakhala ndi malingaliro otsutsana. Khalani olimba mtima osakhala pmo osakongoletsa kapena kuyerekezera. Lingaliro lililonse lomwe limabwera limatsutsa izi nthawi yomweyo. Musalole kuti izi zikule ndikuwunjikizitsa malingaliro anu tsiku lonse.
-Maloto amakhala abwinobwino. Ndinkakhala ndimaloto amvula kwa masiku 2-3 mosalekeza. Koma kudzipatula kutali ndi zinthu zomwe zimayambitsa matenda kumathandiza. Ndinayamba kuvala mathalauza akuda kubisa maloto onyowa omwe amathandizanso mlandu wanga.
- Osapitirira. Osayerekeza ngakhale pang'ono.
-Okayikira za masiku, pangitsa moyo kukhala wopanda tanthauzo.
-Osamavala zovala zolimba ukagona, makamaka mathalauza olimba.
-Yesetsani kudzuka m'mawa. Idk chifukwa chani koma kudzuka mochedwa kumandichititsa kuti ndikhale ndi maloto onyowa. Maloto anga ambiri onyowa anali ndisanagalamuke mochedwa kuchokera ku nthawi yochepa.
Izi zatenga nthawi yayitali kwambiri ngati mukufuna kuti ndilembe maubwino anga chonde ndipatseni ndemanga ndipo ndikulemba positi yatsopano pa izo.
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LINK - Momwe ndidamalilira masiku anga 90. Positi. Malangizo anga kumapeto.
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VERSION YINA - Zopindulitsa zanga pambuyo masiku 90 a nofap.
Posachedwa ndamaliza masiku 90 pa nofap ndipo ndikugawana zabwino zomwe ndalandira. (Ndinaimanso kusintha ndikusilira)
- Nthawi yochuluka yochitira zinthu zaphindu. Mwakusayang'ana zolaula kapena kuwononga nthawi yoganiza kapena kuseweretsa maliseche ndinapulumutsa nthawi ndi mphamvu.
- Kuganiza mochenjera ndi kudziwikiratu kunawonjezeka.
- Ndinayamba kudya wathanzi komanso kulimbitsa thupi. Pa nofap ndidapeza zambiri zokulira.
- Kuyimitsidwa kuyang'ana akazi ngati zinthu zogonana. Tsopano ndimawaona ngati ndiziwapatsa chikondi, kuwasamalira, komanso kuwalanga pamene ndikwanira. Zili ngati kumverera kwatsopano kwa iwo.
- Chokopa china kwa akazi ophweka a tsiku ndi tsiku. Tsopano ndimakopeka ndi azimayi omwe amaphimbidwa kwathunthu (Mwachidziwikire azimayi omwe ndimawapeza okongola osati aliyense. Nthawi zina ndimakhala ndimawu ochepa ndikamalankhula ndi munthu yemwe ndimamukonda.
- Porn tsopano zimandipatsa kunyansidwa. Ndili ngati "Eww ndidaziwona izi, sindikufuna kuziwonera tsopano." Ubongo wanga tsopano umangondiyimitsa zokha ndikamakumana ndi china chake pafupi ndi zolaula wamba. Ndimanyansidwa kuwona ngakhale zinthu zofewa. Koma izi sizichitika m'moyo weniweni komanso ndi akazi enieni.
- Ma bonom osasinthika ndi matanda am'mawa adabweranso.
- Maloto a Wet adabweranso koma nthawi yowonjezera yawo imachepera monga ndimaganizira zochepa zakugonana ndi amayi.
- Tsopano ndimatha kulankhula ndi anzanga achimayi mosavuta. Poyamba zinkandivuta kulankhula ndi azimayi, koma tsopano ndimatha kukambirana nawo momveka bwino.
- Ubongo wadzaza ndi malingaliro ogonana. Ndikulingalira kuti ulendowu umapangitsa kuti ubongo wanu ukhale ndi zochepa m'malingaliro awa tsiku lonse.
- Zomangira zolimba kuposa kale. Tsopano ndikupeza zida zowuma zomwe zimandikhalira mokwanira. Zomangira zolimba kuposa momwe ndimapangira pmo.
- Kusakhala ndi malingaliro olakwika m'mutu mwanu pambuyo pa pmo ndikodabwitsa. Nthawi zambiri zimandimvetsa chisoni kuti ndichifukwa chiyani ndidapsa. Koma popeza nofap sindimakumana nawo.
- Ndimamva ngati kuti ndayamba kukhala wophunzira pa zomwe ndidakumana nazo kale kuposa momwe ndimakhalira.
- Ndimamvadi chidwi cha akazi kwa ine. Osati kwa onse koma ndimamva. Sanawafunse konse za izi. Ndikuganiza kuti ndi zenizeni.
- Kumverera kopambana, kuti "Inde, ndidachitapo kanthu kena kovuta" ndikungomverera kwakukulu.
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