Nthawi yoyamba yomwe ndidazindikira za zolaula zinali nthawi yofanana yomwe ndimachita maliseche koyamba. Onsewa ankakonda limodzi nthawi zonse. Kuyambira pamenepo, ndinasintha kuchoka pa mwana wolimba mtima ndikukhala munthu wodziimba mlandu, wokhumudwa komanso wamantha. Anthu nthawi zonse amandiitanira kumaphwando ndi zina zotero, koma ndinkachita mantha kuti ndizikhala pagulu ndikudzipusitsa. Komabe, pamapeto pake ndinapeza chibwenzi chaka chomaliza cha kusekondale, koma nthawi iliyonse yomwe timayesa kugonana, sindinathe kuyipeza. Nthawi zonse zikachitika ndimangoganiza kuti kuonera zolaula kumakhudzana ndi izi, zomwe pambuyo pake ndinaphunzira kuti zimachitikadi kwa amuna ambiri (zolaula zomwe zimapangitsa kuti erectile iwonongeke).
Posakhalitsa ndinapeza NoFap.com ndikuti anthu ambiri omwe ali ndi mavuto omwewo (monga kukhumudwa ndi PIED) anali ndi zotsatira zabwino popewa zolaula komanso maliseche! Ndinali kumapeto kwa chingwe changa kotero ndimaganiza za gehena ndikuyiyesa, koma sindinachite bwino nthawi yomweyo.
Ndipamene ndimayesetsa kusiya zolaula komanso kuseweretsa maliseche pomwe ndidazindikira kuti ndimadalira kwambiri. Ndikanangokhala tsiku limodzi ndikuyesera kuti ndisiye, koma ndimabwereranso poganiza zopezako mpumulo mwachangu ku malingaliro anga olakwika padziko lapansi. Koma tsiku lina ndinangodziyang'ana pagalasi ndikuti ndikwanira. Zolimbikitsazo zinali zoyipa kwambiri milungu ingapo yoyambirira, koma posakhalitsa ndidazindikira kuti zolimbikitsazi zinali zachilendo ndipo zonse zomwe ndimayenera kuchita ndikulimba mtima kuti ndisataye mtima ndikuyambiranso. Kuganizira momwe ndinalili ndisanayambe NoFap kunandithandiza kupitiliza. Tsopano zimamveka ngati ndili pamwamba padziko lapansi. Ndimakonda anthu akalemba zabwino zomwe amapeza kuchokera ku NoFap ndiye izi ndi zanga (ndipo ndikulonjeza kuti sindikokomeza chilichonse):
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Komabe, kuti ndikafike komwe ndili pano, ndikukhulupirira kuti simungathe kuseweretsa maliseche ngakhale mutasiya zolaula. Ndinayesera izi, koma ubongo wanga nthawi zonse unkandipusitsa kuti ndiyambirenso zolaula. Ndikuganiza kuti kusungidwa kwa umuna (koma zogonana zenizeni ndizosiyana m'malingaliro mwanga) zimathandizira kukonzanso / kuchiritsa ubongo wanu mwachangu. Monga wosewera wotchuka, Theo Von, yemwe akuyesera kusiya ntchito, anati mu imodzi mwa ma podcast ake, "Ndikumva ngati ndingabwererenso kamu yanga, ndikuganiza kuti zingandipangitse kuti ndikhale bwino." Ichi ndi nthabwala zoonekeratu chifukwa ndizosatheka kuchita izi, koma ndikuganiza kuti ambiri a ife taganiza momwe tikamakhalira tikumva kufooka komanso kutopa, monga mphamvu yathu yamphamvu idakhudzidwira. Kumveka kwa mtedza, monga momwe anthu ena amafotokozera izi, ndi dzina chabe lofotokozera zakumverera koyipazi, KOMA SIZOYENERA, ndikumva kwake komwe ndiko malingaliro abodza.
Ndili wokondwa kwambiri chifukwa cha dera lino komanso zomwe limaimira. Sindinaganize kuti ndikafika masiku 31, koma pano ndiri… wokondwa kuposa kale lonse! Pano pali masiku ambiri zolaula ndi maliseche aulere!
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