Ndili mwana, ndinali mwana wolimba mtima. Ngakhale ndinali ku sukulu ya pulaimale, ndimakumbukira nthawi zonse ndikudzidalira ndipo zimawoneka ngati ndimakhala ndi gulu la asungwana osiyanasiyana omwe amandikonda.
Zinthu zinayamba kusintha ku Junior High ngakhale anzanga onse atayamba kutha koma ine sindinatero; Ndinayamba kudziona kuti ndili ndi nkhawa kwambiri ndipo pamapeto pake ndinatembenukira kuzinthu zabwino zomwe ndinali nditangophunzira kumene zokhudza kutulutsa maliseche kuti ndizilimbikitse. Ngakhale palibe chomwe chidatuluka, chimamvekabe bwino, ndipo ndidayamba kuchita pafupipafupi kuthandiza kuthana ndi nkhawa ndikudzisokoneza chifukwa ndidadzimva kuti ndilibe vuto lililonse pakukopa atsikana enieni.
Nthawi yonse yomwe ndidakwanitsa kutha msinkhu, nditatsala pang'ono kufika chaka chatsopano kusukulu yasekondale, ndidazindikira zolaula. Zinkawoneka kuti pali dziko lonse latsopano lazinthu zomwe ndimatha kuyang'ana uku ndikuseweretsa maliseche kuti zomwe zikuchitikazo zitheke bwino, tsopano ndinali wokhathamira kuposa kale.
Komabe, kungoti chifukwa ndinali nditafika pa kutha msinkhu, sizitanthauza kuti ndinali munthu wa azimayi amtundu uliwonse, ndipo zolaula (ngakhale sindinadziwe panthawiyo) chinali gawo lalikulu la izi. Ndinkadzikhulupilirabe ndekha komanso atsikana ochepa omwe ndidawauza kuti "ndimawakonda" onse adandiuza kuti angokhala abwenzi, zomwe zidandipangitsa kuti ndiziwonera zolaula komanso kuseweretsa maliseche kwambiri.
Kumayambiriro kwa sukulu yanga yasekondale, ndidazindikira kuti ndili ndi vuto ndipo ndidatumiza mameseji kwa anzanga omwe ndimawadziwa omwe samawonera zolaula kapena kuseweretsa maliseche ndikuyembekeza kuti andithandiza kukhala wowona mtima, ndipo zidagwira ntchito . Mukupita kwa nthawi, ndidayamba kulimba mtima, ndimawona kuti zibwenzi zanga zikuyenda bwino ndipo pamapeto pake ndidatha kufunsa mtsikana kuti andikhulupirire ndi zomwe ndakhulupirira ndipo adati inde, pambuyo pake ndikhale bwenzi langa.
Chabwino, ndinali bwino tsopano, ndinali ndi chibwenzi chomwe ndimafuna nthawi zonse, ndimatha kubwerera ku zolaula tsopano ndipo zonse zikhala bwino… kapena ndimaganiza. Nditayambiranso kuwonera zolaula, ndimatha kumva kuti ubale wathu ukupita pansi, zimangokhala ngati ndikuyika zolaula pa iye, ndinayambiranso. Tidamaliza kulekana, "chifukwa chachikulu" pokhala kuti apita kunja kukoleji posachedwa, koma ndimadziwa kuti foni idabweretsa kuchepa kwa ubale wathu, komabe, m'malo moyimitsa, ndimamva ngati ndilibe kalikonse kutaya kotero ndidangopitiliza.
Patha miyezi pafupifupi 5 kuyambira nthawi imeneyo, ndipo m'njira zambiri ndimayamba kumva ngati momwe ndimakhalira ndisanapange zolaula zanga zolaula, osadzidalira ndekha komanso osatha kucheza ndi atsikana. Ngakhale zizolowezi zochepa zomwe ndidayamba pa strak yanga yoyamba zidalipo, ndimamva ngati sindipita kulikonse, choncho pa Novembala 1st, ndidawona kuti ingakhale nthawi yabwino kuyambiranso, ndidapeza izi ammudzi (zomwe zandithandizira kufikira pano), ndipo ndidayamba pa mtundu wina wa sanali PMO.
Kunena zowona, ndikulemba izi chifukwa ndakhala ndi vuto lalikulu pafupifupi tsiku lonse ndipo ndatsala pang'ono kubwereranso nthawi zambiri lero ndipo ndimayenera kusiya malingaliro anga, ndipo ndikuganiza kuti zathandizadi.
Ndikudziwa kuti izi zinali zazitali koma ndimangofunika kupeza zochuluka kunja uko mwanjira yanga.
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