Moni okondedwa ena!
Ndikufuna kuyamba ndi umboni wanga ndikumaliza nkhani yanga ya 90 ya bwino tsiku.
Ndikulemba izi mwachidule komanso molunjika pomwepo.
Pang'ono za ine, ndine munthu wamba yemwe anali kulimbana ndi PMO monganso wina aliyense, ndine Mkhristu amene ndikufuna kukhala womvera kwa Mulungu koma amalephera pafupifupi nthawi iliyonse, koma ndine wokondwa kuti zimandipatsanso mwayi wina woti ndikonzekere.
Kukhazikitsidwa kwanga kwa P kulifanana ndi wina aliyense, ndinayamba kuiwona ndili mwana, ndili 6 ndinayang'ana pa chingwe m'chipinda cha makolo anga ali pantchito, ndi pabalaza pomwe anali kugona usiku.
Ndinayamba M ndili ndi zaka 17. Ndakhala ndikuchita izi kuyambira nthawi imeneyo ndipo ndinali ndi vuto lalikulu pamoyo wanga. Ndinkaona ngati ndikuledzera zomwe sindingathe kuzisiya. Ndinamva ngati wina aliyense akuchita izi kuti zimawerengedwa kuti zili bwino, ndimamva ngati mutha kupenga chifukwa chosiya kumasula, koma pamapeto pake sizinali zoyenera.
Chomwe chidandipangitsa kuti ndithetse chinali kutha kwanga komaliza ndi ex wanga. (Lets call this ex "Apple" popeza pali 2 munkhaniyi). Ine ndi Apple tinali ogonana. Ndiwakale wakale wa JW kotero chipembedzo chake chinali chokhwima kwambiri pankhani yogonana, titakumana, chinthu chimodzi chimatha milungu iwiri titakumana.
Pafupifupi miyezi isanu ndi itatu tili pachibwenzi ndimafuna kusiya kugonana chifukwa chofuna kukhala pa njira yoyenera ndi Mulungu ndikudikirira mpaka titakwatirane… .koma sizinayende naye. Anadzimva kuti amunyalanyaza, amadzimva ngati wosakongola, wosatetezeka, komanso wokwiya. Zinafika poipa kwambiri (Kuphatikiza pazifukwa zina) kotero kuti ndidaganiza zothetsa, zidasokoneza ubale wathu ndipo zimawoneka kuti adadzitaya.
Nditagona pabedi langa masiku 4 kutha kwa banja ndinazindikira kuti sindinali M kapena sindinayang'ane P, koma ndinayambiranso kulimbikitsidwa. Chifukwa chake ndidazindikira momwe ndingalimbitsire zolakalaka ndipo ndipamene ndidathamangira pa tsambali. Zomwe ndimakonda patsamba lino ndi mamembala ndi kauntala ya NoFap, zimandilimbikitsa komanso kuphatikiza wina aliyense amatha kuwona kupita patsogolo kwanga, ndipo palibe choyipa kuposa wina yemwe akuwona kukonzanso kwa masiku a 0.
Munthawi imeneyi (Pafupifupi masiku 30) sindinakhale ndi "mphamvu zoposa" koma ndimamva bwino, ndikudzidalira pantchito, komanso ndikulimbikitsidwa. Zotsatira za NoFap ndikuthandizira kudzipindulitsa nokha, komabe muyenera kuchita gawo lanu. Mwachitsanzo, simudzakhalanso ndi utsi muubongo koma muyenera kuyesetsabe masewera anu kuti mumve bwino zamphamvu.
NoFap (masiku 35) Ndinathamangira ku Banana wanga wakale (Banana) yemwe tinayambiranso naye ku 2014 kwa zaka 2 ndikuganiza kuti tipeze zinthu. Adazindikira kuti ndinali wosiyana kwambiri ndi nthawi yomaliza tidaonana ndikukambirana chifukwa chomwe tidasiyirana kalekale. Nthawi idadutsa (tsiku 60 NoFap) tinayandikiranso. Kenako amatsegulira momwe akumvera za ine ndipo amafuna kukonza zinthu ndipo ndimamumverera chimodzimodzi. Ndinamufotokozera kuti Chikondi sikumva koma chisankho, sitinagonane konse kotero ndimatha kumumvetsetsa bwino. Mukafuna wina osagonana ndi munthu ameneyo ndiye Chikondi!
Ndidamufunira iye ndipo tsiku la 91 tidakwatirana!
Ndikufuna kunena kuti webusaitiyi yandilimbikitsa kwambiri komanso yandithandiza kuti ndizichita bwino. Mukapanda kukhala PMO, mumawona bwino akazi, osati monga zinthu zogonana, monga Chikondi chimaperekera, osalandira.
Chikondi chachikulu kwa onse!
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