Ndikufuna kugawana nawo malingaliro ngati wamkulu pa positi iyi. Sindinalembepo kalikonse patsamba lililonse koma ndikufuna kunena pano. Tikukhulupirira sizingamveke ngati munthu wina yemwe akufuna kutumiza zidziwitso zake zodabwitsa zomwe aliyense adazimvapo kale nthawi chikwi.
Ndili ndi zaka 58. Zolemba zambiri pamutuwu zikuwoneka ngati zazing'ono kwambiri kuposa ine. Ana aku sekondale. Ana aku College. Ndimadabwitsidwa ndi malingaliro ndi nzeru zina zomwe amabwera nazo pankhani yosiya kubala zolaula komanso kufunikira kwake. Zimandilimbikitsa kwambiri. Tsopano musandilakwitse. Ndine munthu wapakatikati wokhala moyo wapakatikati. Wokwatiwa, ana awiri, wazaka 17 ndi 21 wazaka. Sindinalepheretse malingaliro aliwonse.
Koma ndimakhudzidwa ndi zonse zomwe ndikadatha. Ndikadakhala ndi chidwi chambiri pa moyo komanso zokhumba zambiri, ndikuwunika kwambiri. Kwa zaka zambiri, ndili ndekha ndipo nditha kuthera nthawiyo ndikuchita zina zomwe zinganditsogolere ndikukhala ndi moyo wopindulitsa kwambiri, koposa momwe ndimathera nthawiyo ndikulakalaka ndikumera ndikutsatira komwe kudatha. Ndikadakhala wanzeru ndikadalandira thandizo, koma ndidakula ndikumaganiza kuti ndili ndi nzeru zokwanira komanso munthu wokhoza kuthetsa mavuto ake. Mukakula mukuganiza kuti muyenera kuchita zonse nokha ndipo sizigwira ntchito, zimabweretsa moyo wobisala. Kukula ndi zolaula ndimikhalidwe yopangira moyo wobisala.
Mukumva ngati kuti aliyense akuchita zabwino ndikukhala moyo woyenera mukakhala mchipinda chamdima mukuyenda kuchokera pazithunzi kupita kuzithunzi kufunafuna wangwiro, mukubwereza mobwerezabwereza ndikuganiza kuti uyu adzakhala womaliza. Mumakhala mwamantha kwathunthu kuti mudzadziwike zomwe muli. Simungayang'ane anthu m'maso chifukwa mumangodziwa kuti atha kudziwa zomwe muli nazo.
Mukakhala nokha ngakhale, kwa mphindi zochepa izi ndinu Mfumu Yadziko Lapansi. Koma ndiye muyenera kupukuta cum m'mimba mwanu ndikumavutika nthawi yayitali ndikubisala. Mwanjira ina mumatha masiku onse kuntchito. Ndiwowoneka bwino. Mutha kugwira ntchito zochepa kuti anthu adzaganize kuti mukuyenda bwino. Koma mukusowa pagalimoto. Mulibe chilakolako. Anthu ena azibwera ndikusunthira mwachangu, koma simukufunadi. Zaka zimadutsa ndipo simukuzindikira koma nthawi ikutha. Ndakhala ndi anzanga omwe adakhalapo ndikumwalira munthawi yochepa kuposa momwe ndakhala ndikuganizira za moyo wanga kutali.
Kutuluka kulikonse mu chipolopolo chanu ndikudzipeza kuti mukuthamangira kuchipinda chanu chamdima ndi kompyuta yanu. Zinthu zilizonse zopanikiza ndipo mumapezeka kuti mukubwezera pazenera lanu. Koma chinthucho ndikuti, pamene mukukhala moyo wobisalawu, zochitika zonse zimakhala zopanikiza. Kukambirana mwachizolowezi ndi anthu omwe mumakumana nawo kumakhala kopanikiza. Ndalama zonse zomwe mumatumiza zimakhala zovuta. Malo aliwonse odzaza amakhala opanikizika. Mukungofuna kusiyidwa nokha kuti mudzitsekere m'chipinda chanu ndikupeza mkazi wangwiro yemwe sangadzipemphe kuti akupempheni kuti mugonane naye kwambiri chifukwa amatha kuwona kuti ndinu wokondeka kwambiri. mobwerezabwereza pamene muyenera kupukuta jizz m'mimba mwanu ndipo mwawononga tsiku lina lachisoni.
Koma zinatheka bwanji? Kodi ndi vuto lanu? Kodi pali chilichonse chomwe mungachite? Chowonadi ndi chakuti, mwina simulandu wanu kuti uwu udakhala moyo wanu. Zidachitika musanazindikire zomwe zikuchitika. Tazingidwa kuyambira mphindi yomwe tidadzuka m'mawa mpaka titagona mochedwa kwambiri ndi kukondoweza kwakukulu. Kutulutsa nyimbo mwachangu, kulikonse komwe wina akutiuza zomwe tikufunika kukhala nazo, zithunzi za anthu okongola omwe akukhala miyoyo yodabwitsa kwambiri yomwe ifenso tikukhala. Timawonetsedwa zinthu zonse zomwe anthu ena ali nazo ndipo ngati sitipezanso sitidzakhala ozizira monga iwo. Ndiuzeni kuti sizopanikiza. Kukhalapo kwathu konse kumagulitsidwa kwa ife maola 24 patsiku, ndipo ambiri amamangiriridwa mwanjira ina yake yogonana, chifukwa zogulitsa zimagulitsa. Evan ngati simukuwona zogonana, zili pansi pake penapake.
Kwa zaka masauzande ambiri, anthu ankakhala moyo wawonthu mwakachetechete, ndi malingaliro awoawo, nthawi yamakono ndi nthawi zochepa zokondweretsa. Kaya mutha kuthamanga kuchokera kuchirombo china mukuyembekeza kuti musadye kapena kugonana ndi mmodzi wa anthu ochepa omwe mumacheza nawo, chifukwa nthawi zambiri mumakhala tsiku ndi tsiku mofulumira komanso muli ndi chidwi chochepa. Ndi momwe anthu anasinthira
Tsopano ife timaponyedwa maola a 24 tsiku, makamaka mwa kugonana, ndipo sitimangidwenso. Azimayi opanda malire ali pambali pathu amangopempha kuti tipezeke.
Zatipanga ife, osachepera ife omwe tikuwononga miyoyo yawo pochotsa jizz m'mimba mwawo, ku mankhwala osokoneza bongo. Ubongo wathu wakhala woledzera ku dopamine kuthamanga kumene kumachokera ku kukakamiza kwakukulu kwa mapepala omwe akufuna ife ngati openga. Sitili osiyana ndi adokotala a heroin omwe amaba chilichonse chomwe angathe kuwathandiza kuti adye. Sitili osiyana ndi osokonezeka omwe amatha kukonzekera ndikugona pabedi pomwe maso ake akubwerera m'mutu mwake pamene akupewa moyo ndi dziko lenileni. Ndife timabe nthawi. Timabe kuchokera mtsogolo.
Timayang'ana osokoneza bongo a heroin ndikuwamvera chisoni. Timanyansidwa ndichakuti amataya mwayi wawo wamoyo umodzi ndikukhala chipolopolo chamoyo chamunthu, popita kumwalira msanga. Mwina chizolowezi chathu sichowonekera kwambiri. Mwina sizowopsa kwenikweni, chimodzimodzi. Koma ndi wakupha m'njira zina. Zimatibweretsera ife kudziko lotizungulira. Zimatipha mpaka pano. Zimatipha ife mtsogolo. Zaka, zaka zimatha kupitilira pamene mukupukuta katundu wanu m'mimba ndikudziyang'ana pagalasi ndikudzifunsa chomwe chiri vuto ndi inu. Zaka zambiri kuchokera pa moyo umodzi wokha womwe mudzakhale nawo.
Koma, ndipo izi ndi zazikulu, zimatha kusintha. Palibe vuto ndi inu. Simuli achiwerewere, sindinu osokonekera, sindinu onyansa omwe mumadzilingalira. Ndiwe mankhwala osokoneza bongo, osavuta komanso osavuta. Ubongo wanu womwe umakonda kugwiritsa ntchito dopamine ukhoza kuyesedwa. Sizovuta, ndimavutikabe, koma mutha kusintha ubongo wanu. Njira zoperewera zomwe zatha chifukwa cha zolaula komanso kubisala komanso manyazi, zikagwiritsidwa ntchito, zimakhala zazikulu komanso zosadutsa.
Njira zatsopano zitha kupangidwa, ndipo kuchokera ku kugwiritsiridwa ntchito kosalekeza zimangokhala zotopa komanso kuyenda mosavuta ngati njira zakale. Njirazi zitha kukhala zilizonse zomwe mumakonda m'moyo. Chitani masewera olimbitsa thupi. Kulemba. Kuphunzira. Kuwerenga. Kuthandiza ena. Kugwira ntchito. Chilichonse chomwe mumakondwera nacho komanso chomwe mumamverera chimapangitsa moyo wanu kukhala wabwino komanso zomwe mukufuna kuti mukhale. Chifukwa chake, tengani tsiku limodzi. Khalani ndi mphindi zisanu, kapena nthawi yayitali, kapena maola 5. Pangani zovuta masiku 24 kapena zovuta za masiku 30 kapena chilichonse chomwe chimagwira ntchito kwa inu. Monga ndidawerengapo kale, mphindi zabwino zimaphatikiza maola abwino, maola abwino amaphatikiza masiku abwino, masiku abwino amaphatikiza milungu yabwino, ndi zina zambiri. Khalani otseguka. Khalani oyera. Gawani. Pezani thandizo kulikonse komwe mungathe. Pezani anthu ofanana nawo. Gwiritsani ntchito chilichonse chomwe mungapeze ngati cholimbikitsira. Chotsani kompyuta yanu.
Khazikitsani pansi moyo wanu ndipo ganizirani zomwe mukufuna osati zomwe ena akuwuzani kuti muzifuna. Chotsegula. Iwo akuyamwa moyo wokwanira kuchokera mwa iwe. Chitani zomwe mukufuna kuchita tsopano. Munthu yekhayo amene ali munjira yanu ndi inu nomwe. Mutha kusintha ndikupanga chilichonse chomwe mukufuna. Pepani za positi yayitali. Sindikutanthauza kulalikira chifukwa ndimavutika ndipo ndilibe mayankho onse. Zomwe ndikuganiza kuti ndili nazo ndi malingaliro ochokera kwa munthu wokalamba ndipo ngati ndingathe kugawana nawo ndi anyamata omwe ali patsamba lino omwe ndi ocheperako ndipo zimawapatsa chidziwitso chazomwe zingachitike ngati atakhala moyo wawo wochuluka galasi ndikudabwa chomwe chavuta ndi iwo, ndiye kuti winawake adzawononga nthawi yocheperako moyo wawo wamtengo wapatali. Zimaperekedwa moona mtima komanso chiyembekezo kuti zidzakhala zopindulitsa kwa iwo omwe ali achichepere mokwanira ndipo ali ndi zaka zambiri mtsogolo kuti achite zinthu zazikulu padziko lino lapansi.
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