Ndakhala ndikugonana kuyambira ndili pafupi 10 kapena 11 (sindinathe ngakhale kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi panthawiyo). Ndipamene ndidakwanitsa zaka zachinyamata pomwe intaneti yidayimba idayamba kupezeka.
Ndimakumbukira zolaula zolaula zolaula zomwe zimatsitsa pang'onopang'ono ndipo ndimadikirira pafupifupi mphindi za 3 kuti chithunzi chimodzi chiziwonekera kwathunthu pazenera. Zitachitika izi, intaneti yothamanga kwambiri inatuluka ndipo ndidathedwa nzeru ndi zomwe ndingapeze paukonde. Nditangowonera zolaula, palibe chilichonse padziko lapansi chitha kundilepheretsa kuponya thalauza langa ndikumenya ndipo izi zitha kuchitidwa mpaka 6-7 patsiku.
Mukupita kwa nthawi ndinayamba kumva kuti sindili ndi nkhawa. Zinali monga ndimakhala ndikumva nthawi zonse kuti anthu akundilankhula komanso kuti panali mawu amkati omwe amalankhula ndi ine kumbuyo kwa malingaliro anga omwe nthawi zonse amadzinenera zinthu zoipa zokhudza ine. Kunali koopsa. Sindikudziwa kuti ndidapanga bwanji moyo wanga wonse. Ndikuganiza kuti kunali kupirira komanso kuti ndinali ndi chiyembekezo chamtundu wina kuti zinthu zikhala bwino koma sindinadziwe chomwe chimandivuta.
Kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula kunakula panthawi yanga ya 20's - 30's (tsopano ndine 31) ndipo ndikukhulupirira motsimikiza kuti izi zidasokoneza chithunzi changa chodziona kuti sindinali bwino ndi atsikana ndipo ndinali wamanyazi. Ndikulumbira kuti sindinali kuwoneka m'masiku anga aku koleji. Ndikutanthauza kuti ndinkaona kuti palibe amene angadziwe kuti ndili pafupi. Panali zovuta zina zamaganizidwe. Ndikugwiritsanso ntchito zolaula ngati kuthawa. Nditha kusewera zolaula zolaula zolaula kuzungulira 2-3 nthawi ZOSAVUTA TSIKU lililonse.
Komabe, sindikufuna kukhala ndi zolaula zingati zomwe zawonongera moyo wanga. Pali zovuta zambiri komanso zovuta zina m'moyo wanga zomwe zidachitika kuchokera ku PMO. Tonsefe timadziwa izi ndipo takhala tiri tokha. Komabe, mlandu wanga umaphatikizapo kuwonetsa kuthokoza ndi kuthokoza kwa Gary Wilson, mkazi wake, ndi tsamba lake la Yourbrainonporn.com. Zomwe ndikutanthauza ndikuti tiyenera kupereka kuthokoza kwathunthu chifukwa cha iye komanso kafukufuku wakhama komanso kulimbikira kuti apange webusaitiyi ndikupanga kuti azitha kuzindikira kuti zolaula komanso kuseweretsa maliseche zikuwononga dera lathu momwe matenda amawonongera munthu. Zikadapanda iye, ndimakhulupilira kuti gulu la "NoFap" kapena mtundu wina uliwonse wopewa PMO sukadabadwa kapena osakhala wamkulu komanso pakadakhala masauzande a ife omwe tikukhala mumdima .
Sizinali mpaka nditakumana ndi tsamba lawebusayiti lomwe ndimaganiza kuti PMO ndilabwino ndipo aliyense amatero. Nthawi zonse ndimaganiza kuti pakhoza kukhala mwayi kuti PMO ikundipweteka koma sindinadziwitse kwenikweni izi mpaka ndimawerengera nkhani yosamveka ndipo mwamwayi ndidapunthwa pa yourbrainonporn.com. Nthawi imeneyo ndimakhala ngati ndimakhala khola nthawi yayitali kwambiri ndipo munthu wina amangobwera mwadzidzidzi natsegula chitseko. Ndinamasulidwa kwenikweni. Nditangoyamba kuphunzira zambiri (monga makanema) patsamba lawebusayiti ndinasiya kuyendetsa zolaula ndikuwona zolaula zomwe zidandichititsa m'mbuyomu.
Pakuchira, sindinapite masiku a 73 osakhala PMO pamachitidwe ovuta (ndakumanapo ndi zochitika zapafupifupi masiku ambiri ano) kenako ndinabwezeretsa zovuta patsiku. Pamene ndinali kuyambiranso kuyang'ana zolaula ndinamva mphamvu m'mutu mwanga womwe sindinamvepo m'mbuyomu. Zinkakhala ngati kuti ndimayenda m'mutu mwanga. Izi zikuwoneka ngati zamaganizidwe koma sindinali zachinyengo. Ndikukhulupirira kuti zikugwirizana ndi zomwe Gary Wilson amafotokoza zokhudza dopamine ndi neuro-plasticity komanso kukonzanso kwa ubongo. Zinali ngati chinthu chodabwitsa kwambiri ndipo nditatha kuchita chinthu china chonyansa chidabweranso ndipo ndimamva ngati zinyalala.
Kuyambira pamenepo ndasiya kwathunthu ndipo tsopano pa masiku a 125 (mode ofewa) ndikumva ngati munthu watsopano. Ubale ndi mkazinso watukuka (womwe udatsala pang'ono kutha ndi kusudzulana ndipo ndi nkhani ina palokha) pomwe maumbidwe anga amakhala olimba pongogwira kapena kumpsompsona ndipo sindikukumbukira kuti zidachitikanso ndi mtsikana aliyense. Sindinathe kuyimitsa konse ndisanayime PMO ndipo kugonana kumawoneka ngati ntchito yachiwiri kwa ine. Tsopano ndikuyembekezera.
Zabwino zonse zomwe ndimawona zidatumizidwa pamaforamu ngati kuchuluka kwa mphamvu, chidaliro, kusangalatsidwa ndi anthu, kusangalala ndi zinthu zina, ndi zina zonse zomwe ndimapeza. Osati zokhazo koma ndili ndi chidwi chatsopano chokhudzana ndi chitukuko chaumwini. Ndimasinkhasinkha tsiku lililonse. Ndikuwerenga mabuku ngati Pang'onopang'ono, Ganizani ndi Kukhala Wolemera (lomwe ndi limodzi mwa mabuku abwino kwambiri omwe adalembedwapo ndipo lili ndi mutu wonse pazakugonana), kumvera zomvera zolimbikitsa komanso kuchita zinthu zina zomwe sindimaganizapo.
Tsopano ndayamba zachipembedzo ndipo ndikudziwa kuti Mulungu ndiye amachititsa moyo wanga watsopano. Ndimakopeka ndipo ndimakhala ndi chidwi ndi ubongo komanso zomwe zimatha. Mndandanda umapitilirabe. Malingaliro omwe ndimakhala ndikaganizira zangokhala kuti ndidapunthwa pa izi ndidakwanitsa zaka pafupifupi 13 ndimadandaula kwambiri kuti mawu sangathe kufotokoza.
Komabe, ndine wokondwa kuti ndazindikira tsopano ndipo ndimalinga kufikira onse omwe atha kusiya izi. Zomwe ndikufuna kuti aliyense atenge kuchokera pachiwonetsero chachitali ndikuti mawu a matendawa amatchedwa zolaula komanso maliseche ayenera kufalikira padziko lonse lapansi komanso ndi anthu ngati Gary Wilson (yemwe adalowanso kanthu pamoyo wanga) zotheka.
Tiyenera kuthana ndi izi ndizofunikira monga akatswiri ofufuza adatsimikiza kuti kusuta kumayambitsa khansa. Choyipa chachikulu ndikuti anthu ambiri sadziwa zavuto lomwe limayambitsa ndipo chifukwa chake kudziwa izi sikuyenera kukhala kosapeweka. Chaching'ono kwambiri chomwe tingachite ndikuwuza anzathu kapena okondedwa koma pamlingo waukulu komanso kudzera m'madera ngati Nofap, titha kubweretsa kudzazindikira kwavuto lomwe PMO limayambitsa.
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