Nkhani Zobwezeretsa Edeni 3 ndi gawo la mndandanda wa masamba 8 wokhala ndi akaunti zazifupi.
Kuti mudziwe zambiri zokhudza akaunti za ED, onani Kubwezeretsanso Akaunti ndi Kubwezeretsanso Ma Blogs ndi Mitu Yakunja
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Ndinkaona Kuti Ndikupatsani Chiyembekezo
Moni nonse, ndimaganiza kuti ndibwere kudzandidziwitsa. Chabwino, ndinali pafupi miyezi 4 yopanda PMO kwa ine, ndipo popeza ndinali ndi nzeru zanzeru kwambiri, ndimamva ngati ndiyenera kuyesedwa kuti ndione momwe ndasinthira panthawiyi yopanda PMO. Kotero, usiku watha ndinaganiza zodziseweretsa maliseche ndisanagone. Chenjezo lofunika apa ndilakuti sindinagwiritse ntchito zolaula (mwachionekere) kapena malingaliro aliwonse. Ndinangogwiritsa ntchito dzanja langa, ndipo ndinagwiritsa ntchito pang'ono kwambiri. Palibe anaconda yomwe imakhudza anthu ambiri omwe amaseweretsa maliseche.
Cholinga cha mayeserowa chinali kuwona ngati ndingakhale wolimba popanda zoyeserera zakunja kupatula kumverera. Nditangoyamba kumene ulendowu, ndinawerenga malipoti angapo pomwe chisonyezo chabwino chakuchira chinali kutha kuseweretsa maliseche ndikungomva dzanja lanu. Chabwino, ndinadabwa kwambiri kuyesera izi. Ndinali wovuta pambuyo pamasekondi a 2, ndipo ndikutanthauza zovuta kwambiri. Sindinakhaleko nthawi yayitali pagawoli. Ndinali kuyembekezera yankho linalake popanda zolaula kapena zongopeka, ndipo wow ndikuganiza yankho lake linali lochuluka kwambiri.
Sindinakhale wotsimikiza, komabe, chifukwa sindinachite maliseche pafupifupi miyezi 4. Mwina sindinakhalitse chifukwa sindinachite izi kwakanthawi. Ndinaganiza zoyesanso lero, nthawi ino ndi kondomu. Ndisanapeze zotsatira, ndiyenera kunena kuti panalibe zotsatira "zoyendetsa" usiku watha. Palibe chikhumbo chowonera zolaula kapena kuganizira zolaula lero. Chabwino, gawoli lero linali lothamanga ngati masiku apitawa. Sindinaike kondomu pamavuto, ndinali yovuta kwambiri kale komanso pambuyo pake, ndipo sindinakhale ndi vuto lomaliza ndi kondomu. Zochita za kegel zimaperekanso malipiro. Ndinawona kukomoka kovuta kwambiri pomwepo, ndipo zinali zosavuta kudziletsa ndekha mpaka pomwepo kuposa zomwe ndimakumbukira m'mbuyomu. Izi ziyenera kukondweretsa atsikana amtsogolo
Ndinkafunitsitsa chizindikiro chodzidalira kuti ndikumakhala bwino ndisanagone ndi mayi, ndipo ndikuganiza kuti izi zandipatsa. Ndikuwona izi ngati zopambana, ndipo nthawi zonse mumakonda kukhala ndi kukumbukira kwanu kwaposachedwa kuposa kuchita bwino. Sindidzadwalanso kapena kuseweretsa maliseche, makamaka ndikukonzekera kuyimiranso kwakanthawi (mwina mwezi). Ndikudziyang'anitsitsa m'masiku ochepa otsatirawa pazotsatira zilizonse zoyipa monga kufunitsitsa kuwonera zolaula. Pakadali pano ndilibe chilichonse chomwe ndi chabwino.
Mwina ubongo wanga wadzichiritsa wokha koma sindidziwa mpaka chibwenzi changa chotsatira. Ndikusuntha mwezi umodzi kotero sindikuyang'ana madeti pakadali pano popeza ndili ndi vuto logonana (ndiye mutu wina) ndipo sindikufuna kuyambitsa chibwenzi kenako nkusiya boma. Ndikulankhula ndi mtsikana yemwe amakhala pafupi ndi komwe ndikhala, ndikukhulupirira kuti nditha kuyambitsa mayeso omaliza posachedwa ndili ndi izi zoti ndinene, mantha anga asintha chifukwa cholephera kukhala ndi chiyembekezo chokhala kwakanthawi zokwanira.
Ndinganene kuti nthawi zambiri ndinkachira tsopano . Ndinkapita masiku 30 osachita P&M (kale kwambiri pamene - onani zolemba zakale) koma tsopano ndikuchita M nthawi zonse, mwina kamodzi pa sabata, koma osaonera zolaula. Zolaula ndiye wakupha weniweni pano. Komanso, ngati makondomu akuwononga chiberekero chanu, onetsetsani kuti muli ndi kukula koyenera! Anga anali omangika kwambiri ndipo ankaletsa magazi kulowa, kotero ndinapeza akuluakulu. Ngati akumva omangika, mwina ndi omangika!
Ndikuwona kuti milungu isanu ndi umodzi osati P & M ndiyeno M kamodzi pa sabata ayenera kuwongolera amuna ambiri bwino!
Zizindikiro za kusintha kwa PIED?
Hei anyamata kotero ndakhala ndikulimbana ndi PIED kwakanthawi tsopano. Msungwana womaliza yemwe ndinali naye ndimatha kungodzuka akandiwombera koma mphindi yomwe ndimayika kondomu imangoti khuma. Ndine 22 tsopano ndipo ndakhala ndikuwonera zolaula zapaintaneti kwambiri kuyambira ndili ndi zaka 13. Pakadali pano patsiku la 56 la hardmode pakadali pano, ngakhale ndidawonapo chithunzi cha maliseche kangapo paulendowu. Posachedwa kwambiri ndakhala ndikupeza ma boners ovuta kwambiri omwe ndidakhala nawo kuyambira ndili mwana kusukulu yasekondale. Kodi pali amene angandiuze ngati ichi ndi chizindikiro kuti PIED yanga ikuchiritsidwa pang'onopang'ono? Ndingakonde kumva za nkhani zanu ndi zokumana nazo.
Achiritsidwa! Koma nkhani yatsopano
Momwemo ndimachiritsidwa ndikugonana pafupipafupi koma nkhani yanga yatsopano ndikutaya msanga msanga, ndimatha pafupifupi mphindi 2-3 ndipo mwina pang'ono ndikamagonananso ngati theka la ola pambuyo pake, ndimangoganiza ngati izi zipita kapena ine muyenera kuchita kanthu?
Ndasowa kulowa pa 120, ndimaganiza kuti ndidumpha mpaka 150 koma china chake chodziwika chidachitika posachedwa. Chiyambi: Ndine 40 ndipo ndikuchita nofap kuchiza ED. Ndinali mtundu wosungulumwa wamuyaya wopanda zachiwerewere. Ndakhala ndi SO kwakanthawi ndipo nthawi zonse timagwiritsa ntchito ma ED kuti tigonane. Pambuyo masiku 90 sindinayambirenso kuti ndizipitirirabe.
Ndili ndi ED koma SO yanga inatha kundichotsa tsiku lina. Izi zinali zisanachitikepo kale, mtsikana akundichotsa pamanja, chifukwa chake ndimatcha kupita patsogolo kumeneko. Ndikuyambanso kupeza zokhazokha zokhazokha, palibe zovuta zonse komabe.
Komabe, khalani mmenemo abale, zimakhala zosavuta mukamayenda, koma tiyenera kukhala tcheru!
Tsiku 10: Chikumbutso cha Washington
Wokondwa kwambiri ndi zotsatirazi, sindinayambe ndamuwonapo mwana wanga wamwamuna wamng'ono komanso wowoneka bwino. Khalani olimba zimangokhala bwino!
Masiku ano kwatsala milungu isanu ndi iwiri popanda mb kapena p. Masabata asanu , ndakhumudwa kwambiri, ndipo zimandipangitsa misala. Ndikuwona zotsatira zabwino kwambiri. Njirayi imagwira ntchito bwino kwambiri. Chomwe ndiyenera kuchita ndikungoganiza za kugonana ndipo zimakhala zovuta ... zovuta kuposa kale ... ndipo izi zinali ndi kulimbitsa thupi. Chifukwa chake zotsatira zake ndi zabwino kwambiri, ndipo ndikudziwa kuti ndifika kumapeto ndipo sindidzabwereranso, koma zimandikwiyitsa kwambiri kusakwanitsa kufika pachimake. Kunena zoona, njira iyi imakhala yovuta kwambiri pamene nthawi ikupitirira, mumawona zotsatira zabwino sabata iliyonse. Ndipo ngati ndikupeza zotsatira zabwinozi tsopano ganizirani momwe zidzakhalire ndikamaliza kuthamanga kwa miyezi itatu yonse, koma kukhumudwa kumakulirakulira ndikukula. Gawo lovuta si kupewa zolaula ndi kusachita bwino. Ndikudziwa kuti positi iyi ili ndi chifukwa choipa koma ndimangofuna kwina komwe ndingatumize zokhumudwitsa zanga - haha. Khalani olimba anyamata, ndikuwonani mbali ina.
Kuseweretsa maliseche si nkhani yonse, kapena gawo lalikulu la nkhaniyi. Ndingalole kuyika ndalama zomwe amuna ambiri amaseweretsa maliseche, m'malo mopanda izo. Chotsani zolaula ndipo nthawi zambiri zoseweretsa maliseche zimachepa. Ndafika potsimikizanso kuti kuseweretsa maliseche popanda zolaula sikuvulaza chilakolako chogonana. Ndi zolaula komanso kuseweretsa maliseche komwe kumapha chilakolako chogonana.
(Zaka 20) 17-20 ali ndi zambiri. Ngakhale pakhala pali mavoti mazana atatu okha pazomwe zitha kukhala masauzande eyiti kuphatikiza. Ngakhale panali mavoti awiri okha. Ndikadakhalabe wodabwitsidwa kwathunthu.
Kuyambira pomwe ndinali 15 mpaka miyezi 3 yapitayo (pomwe ndidazindikira nofap) ndimaganiza kuti munthu yekhayo amene akukumana ndi mavutowa ndi ine ndekha. Ndikudziwa kuti ndi kinda kuti ndikhulupirire izi, koma mwana wachinyamata yemwe ali ndi vuto la erectile samamvekanso. Ndine wokondwa komanso wothokoza kuti ndapeza nofap chifukwa ndimatha kusiya zolaula zomwe zidandichititsa zaka 5. Ndizosangalatsa kukhala ndi chithandizo chonse pano.
Monga munthu amene amaganizira za nthawi ya zolaula pa intaneti isanayambe, komanso nthawi ya zolaula zothamanga kwambiri, ndikukuuzani kuti sindinali ndi vuto lililonse kuphatikizapo kugonana ndi maliseche m'zochita zanga kuyambira kumayambiriro mpaka pakati pa zaka za m'ma 90. Pamene ndinayamba kuonera zolaula pa intaneti kumapeto kwa zaka za m'ma 90 mpaka kufika pa nthawi yogonana, ndipamene vuto langa lolephera kugwira ntchito bwino linayamba. Kuchedwa kutulutsa umuna kunali vuto lalikulu: Sindinkathanso kufika pa kugonana mkamwa ndipo nthawi zina ndinkavutika kufika pa kugonana m'chikazi. Ndinadzipeza kuti ndiyenera kudziseweretsa maliseche nditagonana ndi mkazi wanga chifukwa sindinkatha kusiya njira ina iliyonse, ndipo nthawi zina ngakhale kudziseweretsa maliseche sikunagwire ntchito bwino. Mu nthawi ya intaneti isanayambe, pamene ndinali ndi malingaliro anga okha, kudziseweretsa maliseche chinali chinthu chomwe ndinkachita kawirikawiri, koma zolaula zothamanga kwambiri zinasintha chilichonse - ndinkachita kangapo patsiku. Ngati sindinkafuna kudziseweretsa maliseche, koma ndikufuna kuchepetsa nkhawa kapena kugona, zolaula zinandithandiza kuti ndiyambe kusangalala. Ndinadzipezanso ndikuonera zolaula ndisanayambe kugonana ndi mkazi wanga, kuti ndiyambe kusangalala chifukwa sankatha kundichitiranso zimenezo. Nditachotsa zolaula mu equation (zomwe sizinali zophweka), nthawi yanga yogonana inachepa ndipo moyo wanga wogonana unasintha.
Ndikhoza kunena mosakayikira kuti inachiritsa zolaula zanga zinachititsa ED. Ndakhala ndi masiku 90 masiku angapo, ndipo ndidapitilira 100 posachedwa. Ndikhoza kugonana ndi mkazi wanga kangapo kamodzi madzulo ndipo sindikhala ndi vuto lokonzekera. Ndinali ndi mavuto a ED zaka zambiri ndisanapeze tsamba la YBOP. Ndakhalanso pazaka zopitilira 2 tsopano. Chaka changa choyamba chinali kulimbana kwenikweni, ndipo sindinachiritsidwe kwathunthu ku ED mpaka chaka chatha.
Ndinali ndi mankhwala a Cialis zaka zingapo zapitazo ndipo sindinkakonda kugwiritsa ntchito. Ngakhale kupita kukaonana ndi dokotala kunandichititsa manyazi kwambiri chifukwa pansi ndikuganiza kuti ndimadziwa kuti ndi PMO yemwe amayambitsa vutoli, ndipo izi zinali zisanachitike ndidakumana ndi yourbrainonporn.com.
Lolani aliyense,
Ndikufuna kulongosola za momwe zinthu zilili, chifukwa ndikuganiza kuti zingakulimbikitseni ena a inu . Ndiyesetsa kuti zikhale zazifupi komanso zosavuta kuwerenga momwe ndingathere.
Ndinazindikira ulusiwu pa 3rd ya Januware - tsiku lomwe ndidatumiza koyamba - ndipo tsiku lomwelo ndidaganiza zopita kwa miyezi iwiri osakhala ndi zolaula kapena maliseche. Ndipo ndinatero; 2 ndi theka miyezi kukhala yolondola.
Munthawi imeneyi libido yanga inali yosinthika kwambiri. Nthawi zambiri kunalibe, koma, milungu iliyonse ya 3 kapena apo, imafikira pamlingo wosafikapo ndipo ndimamverera modabwitsa (kungokhala wamaliseche kusamba kungandipangitse kukhala Wovuta kwambiri). Izi zitha kukhala masiku 3-4, kenako libido kubwerera ku zero. Ndimakumbukira kuti ndinali wachisoni pa izi. "Ndi chiyani choti mupewe, ngati libido yanga ili ngati 90% ya nthawiyo?"
Pambuyo pa nthawiyi ndinabwerera kunyumba (ndinali kugwira ntchito kunja), zomwe zikutanthauza kuti ndibwerere kwa bwenzi langa. Ndipo zinthu zina zomwe zimabwereranso ndikumverera kwanyumba yanga yoyesedwa, nkhawa komanso malingaliro ofuna kudzipha ndisanakumane naye, ndi zina zambiri.
Chizindikiro choyamba cha kusintha chinali libido. Kuyambira pokhala pamwamba pamasabata onse a 3, idayamba kukhala yaikulu mlungu uliwonse.
Kenako, pa 2 Epulo, ndiwo masabata awiri apitawo, chinthu chodabwitsa kwambiri chidachitika. Potsutsana ndi zomwe ndimayembekezera, ndikutsatira madzulo okayikira komanso malingaliro olakwika ngakhale tili nawo), ine ndi bwenzi langa tidagonana ... Ndikutanthauza kulowa. Nditapusitsika pabedi mbolo yanga inali yolimba kwambiri. Adakumanabe kuyika pang'ono, koma atangochita ndikuyamba kuyenda chokwera ndi chotsika, zinali zosangalatsa - ndidajambulidwa mphindi 2. Kwa inu nonse omwe simunayeseko izi, ndikukuuzani kuti kupwetekedwa kwa nyini kumatha kukhala chinthu chabwino kwambiri. Zili ngati zidamangidwa kuti mbolo ituluke.
Zitatha izi libido yanga inapitiliza kwa nthawi yaitali. Zinali zovuta sabata yatha, ndipo Lachisanu ndinakumana ndi bwenzi langa, ndipo tinapezanso kugonana kosangalatsa kwambiri. Yokanidwa kawiri, nthawi yachiwiri chifukwa cholowera. Mmawa wotsatira, ine ndinali ndi imodzi mwa mitengo yayikulu kwambiri yomwe ine ndinayamba ndakhala nayo. Mphamvu ya libido ndi nkhuni zamphamvu zakhala zikupitiliza kumapeto kwa sabata ndi lero.
Iyi ndi nkhani mpaka pano. Nazi mfundo zanga zazikulu:
1) Nthawi yolaula ya miyezi ya 2 komanso kusasula ziwoneka ngati kofunikira kuti munthu ayambe kuchira. Zinali zovuta nthawi zina, koma ndimatha kudzidziwa ndekha kuti ndichite. Ndinali wotanganidwa ndi zinthu zina panthawiyo, zomwe zinathandiza maganizo anga kupeŵa malingaliro.
2) Munthawi imeneyi, libido idawonetsa zikhalidwe zabwino kwambiri, kuyambira rocket rocket mpaka kunalibe. Ndikukhulupirira kuti izi ndi zachilendo ndipo zimangokhala momwe thupi limasinthira mwadzidzidzi poyambitsa P & M.
3) Pambuyo pa miyezi iwiri, libido ikuwoneka kuti ibwerera mwakale, yomwe ndiyokwera, kapena nthawi yayitali kwambiri. Kusintha kwakukulu komwe ndidazindikira ndikuti, chifukwa cha zolaula, atsikana ambiri mumsewu amawoneka okongola ndipo adangondipangitsa kuti ndigone nawo. Izi sizinachitike monga momwe ndimaonera zolaula. Ndipo ndimadzimva kukhala wokonzeka kulandira ndi kusangalala ndi thupi la mtsikana “wabwinobwino,” ndipo ndimakhala womasuka kwambiri ndi thupi langa.
4) Pambuyo pa miyezi iwiri, ndinayambiranso zolaula kamodzi kokha, ndipo tsopano ndikufuna kupitiliza nthawi yayitali popanda izi. Ponena za kuseweretsa maliseche, ndakhala ndikuzichita kamodzi pa sabata. Ndikuganiza kuti izi sizowopsa, zitha kukhala zopindulitsa "kupitiriza makina kugwira ntchito"; ngakhale ndimatha kupitilira pang'ono, nenani milungu iwiri kapena iwiri iliyonse. Ndikachita maliseche, ndimagwiritsa ntchito pang'ono kuti ndisawononge mbolo.
5) Kukhala ndi bwenzi lomuthandizira kunali kofunika; ndizothandiza kwambiri ngati munthu apambana ndipo, ngati zizindikiro za nkhawa zilipo, monga momwe zinalili, ndikukhulupirira ndizofunikira. Adanenetsa kuti ayimirira pafupi nane ndipo sanandikakamize. Kuphatikiza apo, amakhala yekha (makolo ake amakhala atachokapo nthawi zambiri), zomwe zikutanthauza kuti titha kugwiritsa ntchito malo ake pamaulendo athu apakatikati opezera zogonana, popanda zovuta.
Ndiye mfundo yanga ndi yotani?
Mfundo yanga ndiyakuti ndizotheka, anyamata. Sindikuganiza kuti ndatulukanso m'nkhalango, koma ndikumva bwino kwambiri. Chinsinsicho ndikupeza msungwana, kuyimitsa kuseweretsa maliseche kwa miyezi 2 ndikumachita izi pafupipafupi (pafupipafupi zimadalira munthuyo, cholinga chake ndikukhala ndi libido yanu), komanso kupewa zolaula, ngati zingatheke kosatha. Kwanthawizonse. Zonse zomwe amachita ndizovulaza.
MUNGACHITE.
Ndili pa tsiku la 70. Ndikayang'ana m'mbuyo ndekha moona mtima, ndiyenera kuvomereza kuti pamene ndinayamba izi mwina ndinali ndi chidwi chachikulu chofuna "kuchita" kachiwiri. Ndinkafuna kuti chilakolako changa chogonana chibwererenso, ndipo ndinkafuna kukhala wokonzeka kuchitapo kanthu.
Koma lero, patadutsa miyezi iwiri, ndapeza kuti libido yanga sikukwiya.
Ndimamva chisoni kwambiri, chifukwa ndili ndi gawo lachinyamata limene ndimakonda kwambiri kuganizira za mkazi aliyense amene ndakomana naye, ndikupitirizabe kuona zithunzi zolaula zomwe ndimakonda, ndikukongoletsa, kukongoletsa, ndikumverera monga ndinasungunuka chifukwa ndinali wotentha kwambiri.
Ndikuwona tsopano — zonse zomwe zinali zachichepere. Ndi achichepere kukhala otanganidwa kwambiri ndi kumasulidwa kwa chiwerewere. Pambuyo pake, malingaliro onse amasanduka nthunzi, ndipo ngati simukukonda munthu amene muli naye, mumazindikira msanga m'maso mwawo, chifukwa fumbi la mngelo lomwe linakonkhedwa ponseponse ndi mamiliyoni a zaka zosinthika likupita… .POOF… ndipo mukuyang'ana moyo weniweni, womwe siwowoneka bwino nthawi zonse komanso wosangalatsa.
Kwa inu achichepere okwapula, "fumbi la angelo" ndi mankhwala, ndipo ndikuganiza kuti ndibwino kuganiza zodzutsa ngati mankhwala. Chifukwa imasokoneza zenizeni. Ndipo ife oyambiranso tonse tinayamba kuzolowera. Ndipo kenako kuzolowera. Ndipo zina mwazinthu zofunikira mthupi zidasokonekera, ndichifukwa chake tonse tili pano tikucheza patsamba lino.
Koma mfundo ndiyakuti, ndimamva ngati milingo yanga ndi madzulo kwanthawi yoyamba m'moyo wanga, ndipo ubale wanga ndi chikhalidwe changa chogonana ukusintha kukhala bwinoko. “Hei, kugonana sikunayenera kumeza umunthu wanga wonse! Ndi gawo chabe la moyo! ”
Osadandaula, horndogs. Makina amabweranso ngakhale mutakhala a pansy ngati ine. Masiku ano, nthawi zina ndimayenera kukhala mgalimoto kwa mphindi kapena ziwiri ndikafika kwinakwake chifukwa, ndili wokonzeka kuchita kanthu. Zinthu zamtunduwu sizinachitike kwanthawi yayitali. Zinthu zina zimachitikanso, koma sindilemba zonsezi, chifukwa sichofunikira kwambiri padziko lapansi.
Khalani pamenepo ndipo mukafika kumeneko. Khalani atcheru za izi. Ndikukhulupirira kuti mupezanso ndalama zatsopano, chifukwa mudzakhala olimba, komanso omasuka ndi inu nokha, ndikudziyang'anira nokha, ndipo, amuna, izi ndizabwino kwambiri.
[Awonjezera] Ndikuganiza kuti nthawi yayitali yosiya kugonana ndiyo njira yabwino kwambiri. Mwangozi ndinachita chinthu choyambitsanso kugonana nthawi ndi nthawi. Ndinkachita PMO kapena MO kwa masiku angapo, kenako ndinkakhala osachitapo kanthu kwa sabata imodzi kapena ziwiri. Ndikabwerezabwereza kwa chaka chimodzi kapena kuposerapo. Sindinaone kusintha kulikonse. Ndikuganiza kuti zinthu zinaipiraipira kwambiri.
Sindinayambe kumva ngati zinthu zikuchira mpaka nditasiya PMO ndikudutsa nthawi yayitali. Patatha mwezi umodzi kapena apo ndidayamba kuwona zosintha zina zabwino. Tsopano ndatsala ndi miyezi iwiri ndikusintha kwambiri.
(Tsiku 44) Tsiku lililonse, kukhwima kwanga kwa m'mawa kumakhala kolimba kwambiri. Ndikadzuka, ndimakhala nditaledzera kwambiri. Uku ndi kumva kwatsopano kwa ine; sindinamvepo chonchi kale. Ndikadzuka manja anga amakhala odziyimira pawokha koma ndimadziletsa ndikupewa kudziseweretsa maliseche. Pa tsiku la 40 ndinali ndi kukhwima kwamphamvu kwambiri komwe ndingakumbukire m'moyo wanga. Kunali KWAULERE!!! Tsoka ilo, sindinathe kukana chilakolako changa chodziseweretsa maliseche, ndipo ndinapita kukafika pachimake (palibe zolaula). Tsiku lonselo, ndipo ndinamva mahomoni anga akusokoneza malingaliro anga, nawonso. Ndinali wokhumudwa pang'ono pa tsiku la 41, pafupifupi ndikuvutika maganizo pang'ono. Umenewo ndi mkhalidwe wamaganizo womwe sindinakhalepo kuyambira nditayamba vutoli, koma tsopano ndikayang'ana m'mbuyo pa moyo wanga pamene ndinali kuchita PMO ndinali nawo kwambiri. Maganizo anga anakwera kwambiri pa tsiku la 42 ndipo ndikuganiza kuti nthawi inangopita mofulumira kuyambira pamenepo chifukwa zikuwoneka kuti lero ndi tsiku la 44. Ndinadzuka ndi kukhwimanso lero ndipo sindinathe kuletsa kuseka mokweza. Ndikumva ngati ndikuchita nkhanza kwambiri, moyo suyenera kukhala wosavuta chonchi, koma ulidi ndipo yankho lake linali pomwepo pamaso panga nthawi yonse!!! DOH =)
[Zambiri] Ndikuganiza kuti ndili mu nthawi yanga yokhazikika, ngakhale ndikuyamba kuwona kuwala kumapeto kwa ngalande. Ndadzipereka kwathunthu kuti ndisagwiritse ntchito zolaula. Kunena zoona, sindingathe kudzichitira ndekha izi tsopano, popeza ndaona kusintha kwabwino komwe kusiya kwabweretsa. Nditadzuka nditagona, ndimangofunika kupeza njira yomasuka. Sindingakumbukirepo kuti ndinagona mwamphamvu chonchi, ndipo sindinkadziwa choti ndichite nazo. Pamene ndikupitiriza njira iyi ndikuganiza kuti ndiphunzira momwe ndingathanirane nazo. Ndili ndi zaka 22, ndipo ndakhala ndikuonera zolaula kuyambira ndili ndi zaka 15, makamaka bola ngati ndakhala ndikugonana. Ndizodabwitsa kuti kugona kwanga kumakhala kolimba tsopano kuposa momwe kunalili kusukulu yasekondale, koma ndikukhulupirira kuti zolaula zidandithandiza kwambiri pa neurochemistry yanga pamene ndinali kukula.
Ndikudziwa kuti ndidakali pansi pompano chifukwa ndizomwe ndimatulutsa thupi langa. Ndikakonzeka, ndidzadziwa. Pansi panga panali poyipa mbolo yanga. Sindikuganiza kuti ndidakhala ndi zosankha mpaka tsiku la 30 kapena kupitilira apo, komanso m'mawa. Masabata oyamba a 2-3 adachepa koma sindidasamale kwambiri. Ngati mukukumbukira, ndimavutika kusiya zolaula kangapo izi zisanachitike, kotero ndinakumbukira magawo oyamba, omwe anali ofanana. Popita nthawi, ndidayamba kuyambiranso, nthawi zonse, osayambitsidwa ndi chilichonse. Ndipo mbolo yanga idatsikanso ndikubwezeretsanso girth. Zosinthazi zidakhala zolimba komanso zowonjezereka. Tsiku 40 Ndinadzuka ndipo ndikanakhoza kubaya winawake ndi chinthucho. Ndipo sizinali m'malingaliro mwanga zenizeni mpaka pano.
Kuyambira tsiku la 40, malingaliro anga adabwerera mwachangu, ndipo ndidachulukitsanso kudzipereka kwanga - osakhudza kwambiri mbolo yanga masiku angapo, nthawi. Ndikuganiza kuti zochitikazo zikuthandizadi pankhaniyi. Komabe, zovuta zanga sizinabwerere ku mphamvu yomweyo, zomwe ndizokhumudwitsa, koma ndikudikirira. Ndakhala ndikumwa moledzera tsiku lonse tsiku lililonse sabata ino, chifukwa chake mwina zimachokera pamenepo. Sindikumwa kwambiri. Nditha kuchepetsa kumwa sabata yamawa kuti tiwone zomwe zichitike pamenepo.
Ndidzayang'ana malangizo okhudza kuyenda kwa mphamvu ndi maliseche , koma mwina ndidzakhala chete kwa nthawi yayitali. Pamene ndinayamba izi ndimaganiza kuti sipangakhale njira yoti ndikwanitse masiku 30, koma tsopano ndikufuna kupatsa thupi langa chikondi ndikulipatsa nthawi yochuluka momwe ndingafunikire. Pagulu komanso m'maganizo, ndakhala ndikuchipha, kotero sindikufulumira konse.
[March] Ndinayamba kudziseweretsa maliseche ndili ndi zaka pafupifupi 12-13. Banja langa linatha nthawi yomweyo ndipo mwina ndinkagwiritsa ntchito kudziseweretsa maliseche ngati njira yothawira zenizeni. Nthawi zonse ndakhala wamanyazi ndi akazi koma zikuwoneka kuti ndimakonda kwambiri. Ndikuganiza kuti chizolowezichi chikugwirizana ndi mantha anga oti ndikhale pachibwenzi chenicheni.
Bwenzi langa lapamtima linali lopweteka kwambiri atazindikira kuti ndinali ndi zolaula. Ndinadziletsa ndekha ndipo ndinanena kuti izi zinali zachilendo, koma anakhumudwa kwambiri atapeza kalata yokhudza kugonana kwa foni. Chiyanjano chinatha pambuyo pa zaka 5 ndipo kuledzera kwanga kunakhala koipitsitsa pambuyo pa izi. Panopa ndili ndi zaka 31 ndipo ndikukumana ndi ED komanso nkhawa pamene ndikugonana. Anasiya kutentha kwa masabata a 2 apita pambuyo polephera kugona ndi msungwana wabwino kwambiri.
Ndinayambanso kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala a nicotine a 2 apitalo kotero ndikukumana ndi zozizwitsa ziwiri: Miyendo yopanda mpumulo, kugona koipa, mkwiyo, kupanikizika ndi kusungulumwa. Pazifukwa zabwino ndili: Kuphunzitsa zambiri, kumayambiriro kwa kama, kugona kwambiri ndi mphamvu zambiri. Zikuwoneka ngati kumverera kwanga kuli ponseponse mpaka pansi.
[Meyi] Iyi ndi nthawi yanga yachiwiri yoyesera kuyambitsanso mowa, ndipo ndinakhala pafupifupi milungu inayi nthawi yoyamba. Pa nthawi yoyambitsanso mowa ndinadzisamalira bwino mwakuthupi komanso m'maganizo. Zingamveke ngati zopusa koma nthawi ina ndinayamba kudzilemekeza. Anthu anazindikira zimenezo ndipo ndinalandira ndemanga zabwino kuchokera kwa anzanga, abale ndi atsikana. Nthawi ino ndidzasiya kumwa mowa kwathunthu panthawi yoyambitsanso mowa. Sindikutenga mwayi uliwonse nthawi ino popanga zisankho zopusa ndikamwa mowa.
[Kumapeto kwa Julayi] Tsopano ndakhala wopanda PMO kuyambira tsiku loyamba la Julayi, inde pafupifupi mwezi umodzi. Ndizoseketsa momwe izi zimagwirira ntchito, koma ndakhala ndikukopeka kwambiri ndi atsikana. Ndinakumana ndi mtsikana wokongola kwambiri milungu iwiri yapitayo ndipo tinagonana bwino popanda kufika pachimake. Mavuto anga okhudzana ndi ED anali atangotha ndipo zinachitika mwachibadwa.
Tinakumana ndipo tinasambira pamodzi pagombe masiku angapo kenako. Ndinayenera kukhala ndekha m'madzi ozizira titatha kumpsompsona za maminiti a 5, ndisanayambe kuyenda pamtunda wambiri. Iye ankaseka ndipo akusangalala ndi zochitikazo podziwa kuti ndikuyesera kuti ndisamangidwe. 😉
Kuyambiranso kumeneku kwakhala kosavuta kuposa koyambirira, ndipo ndikuyandikira mbiri yakale yamasabata a 4 PMO aulere. Ndinali ndikumverera kwachilendo m'miyendo yanga patatha masiku O osagonana, koma tsopano zapita.
Mmodzi mwa makoleji anga adati ndikuwoneka kuti ndili ndi vuto lochepa (sakudziwa za njirayi) koma kuti amakonda mbali yanga. Mwinamwake chinthu ichi cha PMO chinangondipangitsa ine kukhala pussycat wabwino ndi wokhumudwa? Kugwa uku ndikupita kusukulu kuti ndikamalize digiri yanga ya masters. 🙂