Moni, zakhala masiku a 210 kuyambira wank yanga yomaliza ndipo ndikuganiza kuti ndiyenera kupereka mwayi kwa anthu am'derali kuti andifotokozere zomwe zandichitikira chifukwa malangizowo komanso zidziwitso zomwe ena adalemba zandithandiza kututa zabwino zodabwitsazi.
Ndidayamba ndikuyamba mosazindikira kuti gululi lidakhalapo. Miyezi ya 7 yapitayi ndimadziwa zowawa kuti nthawi iliyonse ndikagonana sindimatha konse kudzimitsa ndipo ndimataya zomangira zovala zikafika pafupifupi 50% ya nthawi. Izi zinali zochititsa manyazi komanso zodetsa nkhawa ndipo zidandipangitsa kukayikira zachiwerewere. Izi zidandipangitsa kudana ndi zogonana komanso kusasunga chakukhosi.
Ndinali ndi zolaula zomwe zimachitika chifukwa chosavuta, ndikakhala mtsikana, sindimamva chilichonse ndipo ndimangotopa. Ndinayamba kuseweretsa maliseche pafupipafupi ndikumangokhalira kusewera ndikamasewera zithunzi, palibe chovuta. Ndimakumbukira ndikuyang'ana pagalasi ndikudziuza ndekha, "kodi ndiwe amene mukufuna kukhala kapena ndiwe wanker?" Yankho lowona mtima linali loti ndinali, wanker.
Ndimakonda kufufuza zinthu pa intaneti. Kugonana, nzeru, ndale, sayansi, ndili ndi mwayi woti ndikhale ndi wikipedia koma zidadza kwa ine kuti sindinayang'anepo maliseche ngati chizolowezi ndikumvetsetsa bwino. Ndimaganiza kuti ndichizolowezi, mpaka kugonana, chinthu chenicheni, kudabwera.
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Kuyambira tsiku limenelo mpaka lero sindinachite maliseche. Ndinali kukhala m'modzi mwa anyamata omwe samangogonana ndipo sindinalole kuti izi zichitike. Ngakhale tsopano, ndikuyang'ana kumbuyo, chifukwa chosafunira kukhala m'modzi mwa anyamatawa ndichifukwa chakuti kugonana ndichinthu chokhwima komanso chosangalatsa mukachita bwino, m'malo mongodandaula zomwe ena angaganize za ine.
Sindikukumbukira momwe mwezi uliwonse unkasiyanirana ndi wina wotsatira kotero ndingoyesa kuwerengera zabwino zonse zomwe zidachitikira. Zakhala nthawi yayitali kwambiri kuyambira pomwe ndakhala ndikumva kukhumudwa kwa post-wank kuti sindikudziwa kuti phindu ndi chiyani komanso moyo wabwinobwino ayi koma ndikupatsani.
Phindu lalikulu ndikuchepa kwakukulu pamalingaliro azimayi. Pazithunzi zanga ndinkakonda kuwonera makanema kuyambira ma 70s ndi ma 80s ndikuganiza kuti 'anyamata okongolawa amapita bwanji ndi atsikana wamba, omwe nthawi zina amakhala opanda ma boob akulu kapena bulu wamkulu ndipo amangowoneka amaliseche'. Ndizomvetsa chisoni kuti ndidadzipangitsa kukopeka ndi zolaula zolaula zachilendo. Ndikulakalaka ndikadayamba nofap kusukulu ndili ndi zaka pafupifupi khumi ndi zisanu ndi chimodzi, chifukwa ndikudziwa kuti ndidaphonya mwayi ndi atsikana osangalatsa komanso anzeru omwe sanali owoneka bwino padziko lapansi koma tidalumikizana. Ndikadakhala kuti ndikukula msinkhu wogonana ndikadakhala kuti ndimagonana kwambiri, koma koposa zonse, maubale anga akanakhala aumwini, osangalala, kuphunzira zokumana ndi atsikana omwe ndimawakonda ngati anthu, m'malo moledzera usiku umodzi ndimangokhala chete atsikana azigulu omwe sanakwaniritse.
Phindu lachiwiri ndikugwira komwe kwandipatsa pakugonana kwanga. Ndili ndi ma quirks ena osamvetseka ndikafika pazomwe zimanditembenukira ndipo zimandipangitsa kuti ndizikhala wokhumudwa komanso wosakhazikika ndikalowa nawo. Poyamba ndimaganiza kuti sindingakhale woonamtima ndi anthu za momwe ndimakhalira chifukwa izi zimatanthauziridwa ndipo nthawi zonse ndimabisira zomwe ndimachita. Tsopano, chifukwa sindimawagwiritsa ntchito, ndimatha kuwayendetsa ndipo ndikuyamba kuyang'ana mbali yatsopano yogonana yomwe ndilibe chifukwa chochitira manyazi chifukwa ali ndi azimayi ena omwe amafuna kugona ndi ine, m'malo ndi dzanja langa ndi kompyuta.
Crucially nofap yandilola kukhala munthu amene ndimamuwona patali koma osadziwa momwe ndingafikire. Zizolowezi zanga zakugonana komanso kusachita bwino ndi azimayi zidandipangitsa kudandaula kwamaganizidwe komwe kumandibweza m'mbuyo. Tsopano, ndimachita zinthu zomwe ndikadasowa kudzidalira ndikudzilemekeza pochita zinthu bwino komanso kutsatira mfundo zanga za makhalidwe.
Nofap itha kukuthandizani, sindinganene. Ndinali wokonda kwambiri zolaula komanso kuseweretsa maliseche, kulephera kwa mbolo ndi malingaliro anga kunatenga pafupifupi miyezi isanu, ndipamene ndimalota koyamba konyowa. Pambuyo pa miyezi isanu ndi umodzi wopanda PIV kapena MO ndidagonana ndi bwenzi langa lapano. Sizinali zosalala, ndinataya erection ndipo tinkayenera kukambirana ndisanakhale ndi chidaliro chokwanira kuti ndiyambirenso koma kenako kugonana kunali kwakukulu ndipo ndidamaliza mwa iye. Tsopano sindimataya chilichonse ndikumaliza nthawi zonse, koma izi zikuwonetsa kuti ngakhale ndikadapanda kuyang'ana kapena kuyang'ana zolaula ndikadakhalabe ndi nkhawa zakugonana. Kukula ndi kusintha kunangochedwetsa nthawi yomwe zinanditengera kuti ndikwaniritse zovuta izi.
Zikomo, gulu la nofap! Ndikulemba nkhani yanga (yayitali kwambiri) kotero kuti ikalimbikitse ana anzanga ena kuti asiye chizolowezi chomwe chitha kuwalepheretsa kugonana komanso malingaliro abwino, chifukwa ambiri omwe ndidawerengawa adandithandizanso kuchita zomwezo!
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