MAFUNSO - Ngakhale ogwiritsa ntchito omwe sali osokoneza bongo nthawi zambiri amafotokoza zabwino zomwe amapeza posiya zolaula.
Panopa ndili ndi zaka 17. Sindinakhalepo kwa nthawi yayitali monga anthu ena pagawoli, koma mwina kungoyambira ndili ndi zaka 13 kapena 14. Ndimakumbukirabe nthawi yoyamba yomwe ndinabwera. Ndidawonera kale makanema olaula chifukwa ndikukumbukira zochitikazo.
Kubwerera kumapeto kwa february, masiku 90 apitawo: Ndakhala ndikukula tsiku lililonse malinga ndikukumbukira. Madzulo alionse, m'mawa ndi masana. Kwenikweni nthawi iliyonse yomwe ndimamva. Kenako ndidapunthwa pa subreddit iyi. Ndinali nditangofika kumene monga momwe ndimachitira usiku uliwonse, ndipo sindikukumbukira zomwe zidachitika koma ndimawerenga zolemba zingapo apa ndikuganiza kuti ndiyesere; zimawoneka kuti zitha kundipindulitsa (Spoiler: sindinali kulakwitsa).
Sindinakhalepo ndi vuto lolaula. Nthawi zambiri ndimakhala wopanda zolaula, ndipo ngati ndimayang'ana zolaula nthawi zambiri zimakhala zofewa. Vuto langa linali loti ndinkakonda kuzikwanitsa kotero kuti ndimazichita ngakhale sindinatope, chifukwa ndimachita tsiku lililonse.
Pa tsiku 2 ndimatha kumva kusiyana kwakukulu. Mwadzidzidzi ndinali ndi mphamvu yochulukirapo yomwe ndimamva ngati ndinali nayo kale. M'malo mokhala pakompyuta yanga ndinayamba kuchita masewera. Ndinali ndisanachitepo masewera mwaufulu kale. Ngati ndikadachita ndichifukwa ndimayenera kutero (Dziwani: izi zinali zitachitika kale ndisanayambe kufota. Sindimakonda masewera). Mosakayikira ndinakhala womasuka nditamva kuti kalasi yanga ya PE idzaima sabata 1 ya 2013. Chifukwa chake february 26 (pomwe ndidayamba NoFap) ndidachita masewera kawiri mu 2013. Izi sizabwino kwenikweni ndipo ndimadziwa kuti koma sindinkakonda masewera. Tsopano mutha kulingalira kusintha kwakukulu komwe kungakhale kwa ine kuti ndiyambe masewera ndekha. Koma ndizomwe ndidachita tsiku limenelo. Pambuyo pake zotsatira zake zidachepa koma sizinathe konse. Ndimachita masewera olimbitsa thupi tsiku lililonse, monga ma push. Ndikufuna kupita kumalo ochitira masewera olimbitsa thupi koma malo omwe ndimachita masewera olimbitsa thupi amangondipatsa chaka chilichonse ndikapambana komaliza (zomwe ndikuyembekeza ndichomwecho) ndidzakhala ndikusamukira mumzinda wokulirapo miyezi ingapo kotero sindinkafuna ' ndikhozanso kupita kukachita masewera olimbitsa thupiwa. Ndikuganiza kuti ndidzalembetsa ku masewera olimbitsa thupi mumzinda waukuluwo ndikasamukira kumeneko (sindingathe kudikira kwenikweni, ndimakonda kwambiri kugwiritsa ntchito minofu yanga).
Masabata awiri oyamba anali ovuta kwambiri, koma ndimapita kukacheza tsiku lililonse ndipo izi zandipatsa chilimbikitso chopitilira. Panali cholembedwa chomwe chimati "Musanene nokha kuti: Kuyambira pano ndiyesera kuti ndisapezeke, koma nenani mumtima mwanu: Kuyambira pano sindidzatha". Chifukwa chake sindinathe. Ndipo sindikukonzekera kuzichita posachedwa.
Pamphamvu zazikulu: Si matsenga. Ndikungobwerera kwanu, komwe thupi limayenera kugwira ntchito kuti liyike. Ndiye ndizomwe zimachita. Komabe, musayembekezere kuti ikubwerereni mutakhala mchipinda chanu kusakatula Reddit osangopeza. Pitani kunja uko mukachite china ndi mphamvu ndi chidaliro! Panokha ndilibe chibwenzi ndipo sindinakhalepo nacho. Koma ndine wotsimikiza kwambiri tsopano ndipo ndimatha kuyankhula ndi atsikana mosavuta momwe ndimatha kuyankhulira ndi anyamata pano, zomwe ndizosiyana kwambiri ndi Nofap wakale. Zina zomwe ndazindikira ndizakuti ndimasamala kwambiri za ukhondo wanga lero. Ndikufuna kukhala waukhondo ndikuwoneka bwino osawoneka ngati ndangodzigudubuza pakama panga. Ndimayesetsanso kudya chakudya chopatsa thanzi ndikupitiriza kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi.
Panali upangiri wabwino pano pano kanthawi kapitako yemwe adati muyenera kuchoka kumalo anu abwino ndikukhala omasuka ndi osavutikira. Ndi momwe mumapezera zotchedwa zopambana. Sali opambana. Amachokera mkati mwanu. Inu mwakhala nawo iwo nthawizonse. Aliyense ali nawo. Sikuti aliyense amawagwiritsa ntchito.
Ndakhala ndikukumana ndi mipira ya buluu nthawi ndi nthawi, zomwe zinali zokhumudwitsa kunena pang'ono. Koma ndimangoyesa kuwanyalanyaza. Sindiyenera kuti mipira yanga izindiuza zomwe ndiyenera kuchita. Ndiyenera kuuza mipira yanga choti ndichite m'malo mwake.
Chifukwa chake, ndiye nkhani yanga ya NoFap yomwe ndikuganiza. Zakhala zovuta nthawi zina, nthawi zina sindinaganizirepo kwamasiku angapo, koma chonsecho zakhala zofunikira. Tikuwonani masiku 180!
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