Sindinawonepo nkhani zambiri zachinyamata zoyambiranso, kotero ndinalibe zambiri zoti ndidutse. Nthawi zonse ndimaganiza kuti kukhala wachinyamata zimanditengera nthawi yayitali kuyambiranso chifukwa chosowa zabwino zomwe ndinali nazo munthawi yonseyi. Ndadutsa masiku 90 ndipo ndikufuna kugawana zomwe ndakumana nazo kwa achichepere ena omwe ali pafomuyi kuti awadziwitse kuti sali okha komanso kuti kumapeto kwa ngalandeyi kuli kuwala 
tsamba loyambilira: Takulandilani ku lipoti langa lokhazikitsanso masiku 90 laulendo wanga wopanda PMO. Choyamba ndimafuna kunena kuti paulendo wonsewu, sindinabwererenso kapena kukhala ndi zovuta zina kupatula maloto onyowa. Ndikufunanso kunena kuti poyamba ndidayamba PMOing ndili ndi zaka 13 ndipo ndidazichita kangapo kawiri patsiku mpaka kasanu ndi kawiri patsiku, tsiku lililonse mpaka zaka za 2. Nthawi zina ndimayang'ananso kwa maola ambiri ndipo ingoyang'anani makanema / zithunzi zingapo masana ambiri. Pambuyo pake zolaula zanga zidasintha koma osati mwamphamvu mpaka nditagonana ndi anyamata ogonana omwe adandisokoneza. Zaka zikamadutsa, zolaula zanga zidakula mpaka ma 7 GB omwe anali makanema ambiri a HD omwe amakumbukira zambiri. Sindinadziwenso chifukwa chake sindinathe kuyankhula ndi atsikana ndikukhala ndekha, ndimakhala ndi nkhawa nthawi zonse kuyambira pachiyambi ndipo sindinadziwe kuti PMO ndiye muzu wake. Pa kusaka kambiri pa Google kokhudzana ndi nkhawa za anthu komanso nkhawa zamagulu komanso mantha olankhula ndi atsikana, pamapeto pake ndidapeza YBOP yomwe idasintha moyo wanga. Ndinawonera makanema onse ndikuchotsa zolaula zanga zomwe zakhala zikusunga zaka zapitazi ndikuyamba kuyambiranso pa February 17th, 110.
Masiku 1-17: Masiku 20 oyambilira anali ovuta pang'ono. Ndidakumana ndi zovuta zambiri ndikuwonjezeka kwa ADHD. Nthawi zonse ndakhala nacho ndipo masiku oyamba a 20 adakulitsa kwambiri. Izi mwina zidachitika chifukwa cha kuchepa kwa dopamine, chomwe ndi chizindikiro chosiya. Ndinayesetsa kuti ndisamangoganizira zokhazokha polemba ma skateboard pang'ono komanso kuphunzira kusewera gitala.
Masiku 18-49: Apa ndipamene ndidayamba kuwona kusintha. Ndinafika ku Houston, Texas, kukachita nawo mpikisano wokhudzana ndi zochitika zomwe ndinkapikisana nawo kusukulu. Anthu ambiri anali mgululi, kuyambira kusekondale mpaka ophunzira aku koleji. Ndinali mgulu la sekondale lomwe limachitikira makamaka ku hotelo yayikulu yodzaza ndi anyamata ndi atsikana pafupifupi masiku 4. Ndinatero, paulendo wonsewu, ndinayamba kucheza pang'ono. Ndinaphunzira momwe anthu amalumikizirana ndi ena. Zili ngati ndayiwala bwanji chifukwa chokhala pa kompyuta kwambiri. China chomwe chidachitika ndi mawonekedwe onse omwe ndimapeza kuchokera kwa atsikana ambiri. Ndidazikonda koma sindinayesedwe kutuluka kunja ndikukacheza nawo. Izi zidandipangitsa kumva kuti ndine wocheperako koma kenanso, ndimadziwa zomwe zinali zovuta ndi ubongo wanga ndipo ndimangodzilola kuti ndichiritse.
Masiku 50-85: Zomwe ndinganene ndi FLATLINE. Apa ndi pomwe idayamba ndikutha. Poyamba ndimaganiza kuti masiku anga achabechabe anali kungondipusitsa koma mpaka gawo ili loyambiranso. Izi zidandipangitsa kuzindikira kuti zolaula zidasokonekera muubongo wanga ndipo sindinama, sindinazikonde ndipo ndimamva ngati kulibe PMO kuchita izi. Masiku ena ndinkamva bwino, koma masiku ambiri, ndimangomva kuti sindingachite chilichonse. Ndinayamba kugona tulo komanso kukhumudwa komwe sikunali bwino. Izi zandithandizira kuyambiranso tho popeza sindinalimbikitsidwe kuti ndizionera zolaula. Pa tsiku 75, ndinali ndi maloto anga oyamba kunyowa. Poyamba ndimafuna kukhala ndi masiku pafupifupi 30-50, kuti ndingokhala ndi imodzi ndikumanenso nayo, koma kenako ndidayamba kusasamala za iwo popeza chiyembekezo chokhala ndi mmodzi chongomwalira. Malingaliro ochokera kumaloto onyowa sanali olimbikitsa kwambiri. Sizinamveke ngati zolaula, pamlingo wa 1-10 id akuti inali 3. Ndidakumana ndi kuwonjezeka kwa libido tsiku lotsatira lomwe linkayembekezeredwa, koma sindinamve ngati kuti ndinali Kuchokera pansi mpaka maloto anga onyowa, masiku 10 pambuyo pake, tsiku la 85. Maloto onyentcherawa anali pafupi 7-8 ndipo ndinamva zosiyana tsiku lotsatira. Ndinali ndi "mtendere wamumtima"; wodekha komanso osasamala za chilichonse.
Masiku 86-89: Libido yanga sinayambe, mpaka tsiku la 86. Nkhope za akazi zimawoneka zokopa kwambiri… nkhope ya aliyense kukhala wowona mtima. Zili ngati ndikutha kuwona kukondweretsedwa kwa anthu onse komanso zoseketsa… zinali zabwino. Kwa kamodzi pamoyo wanga ndinali ndikudzimva kuti ndine inenso. Sindinachite mantha ndi anthu ndipo nkhawa yanga yanthawi yayitali inali kutha. Kunena zowona, masiku onse 86-89 ndakhala ndikukumana ndi zovuta zazomwe ndimakumana nazo, chifukwa chake ndikudziwa kuti zidakalipobe. Zina ndiye tho, panthawi yomwe ndinalibe nkhawa, ndimamva ngati ndikudabwitsidwa! Sindinkafunika kuganiza ndisanalankhule, zonse zimatuluka mwachilengedwe ndipo ndinadabwa pazomwe ndimachita ndikamayankhula. Ndinkalankhula ndi atsikana ena patebulo langa zaluso ndipo ndinkasekanso kwambiri. Pomaliza ndinali kukhala ndekha ndipo ndikudziwa kuti adazindikira kuti ndidasintha ndipo ndimatha kuwona kuti amakonda. Komabe, panali nthawi zovuta komanso nthawi zabwino kwambiri tsiku lonse ndikamacheza ndi anthu. Masiku akhala akukhala bwino ndipo libido yanga yabwereranso. Kuda nkhawa kwanga kumatha pang'onopang'ono ndipo ndikupitiliza kukhala wopanda PMO mpaka nditabwerera mwakale. Chinthu chimodzi chomwe ndazindikira ndi momwe ndimadzinyamulira poyenda tsopano. Sindikusamala zomwe anthu amaganiza ndipo sindimaganiziranso zinthu. Kukhazikika kwanga kwakhala kwachilengedwe ndipo ndimayankhulanso malingaliro anga nthawi zambiri.
Tsiku 90: Lero, tsiku 90, ndazindikira momwe zochita zanga zakhala zachilengedwe, mawu anga akumira mozama, komanso momwe ndakhala ndikuchitira zinthu mosazindikira. Ndinkangoganiza kena kake, kenako ndikanachita, ndipo zimandipangitsa kumva ngati zoyipa ... chinali nkhawa. Tsopano mwachibadwa ndimachita zinthu popanda kuziganizira ndipo ndimasangalala. Lero ndimakhala ndikuwonera kanema kusukulu mkalasi ndipo ndimalowa mu kanema, ndimayankhapo pazinthu zina zomwe ochita zisudzo amachita ndipo zimamveka mwachilengedwe. Ndidamaliza kuyankha kwa mtsikana wina mkalasi atafunsa dzina lakanemayo kwa mnzake. Iye ndi mnzake adandiyang'ana pomwe amayankha yankho langa. Kenako ndinamaliza kuyankha funso lomwe adandifunsa lomwe linali lakanema ndipo chilichonse chimamveka chachilengedwe. Ndinamuyankha ndikumuyang'ana m'maso ndipo anali akumwetulira. Ndidadziwa kuti adakopeka nane kudzera mumwetuliro wake wachilengedwe ... mnzake adali akumwetuliranso ndipo ndidawayanjananso ndikumwetulira. Zinali zachilengedwe ndipo ndinadabwa pambuyo pake.
Ndikudziwa kuti pali zambiri zomwe zikuyenera kuchitika, koma monga ndidanenera, ndimangofuna kulola ena omwe ayambiranso ntchito kuti awone momwe ndikuyendera mwachidule kuti akhale ndi mpumulo ngati sakuwona zotsatira zawo. Ndimadzimva kuti ndili ndi zambiri zoti ndichite, koma zina ndiye kuti, masiku a 90 apanga zotsatira zabwino zanga ndisanayambirenso.
LINK - Lipoti Lakubwezeranso Tsiku la 90 (Age 17)
Mwina 7, 2013
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