Ndi lipoti langa loyamba labwino chifukwa ndimaganiza kuti sindidzatha kulemba limodzi, popeza Chingerezi sichilankhulo changa choyamba. Ndichita zonse zomwe ndingathe. (Pomaliza ndi yayikulu kuposa momwe ndimaganizira. Pepani chifukwa cha gawo lalitali la "Context", koma sindinalembepo ndipo ndimasangalala kutulutsa.)
MUTU
Ndine 18, ndipo ndidazindikira ndikukula ndili ndi zaka 11. Posakhalitsa ndidazindikira kuti aliyense adachita izi ndipo zidakhala zokambirana ndi ana amsinkhu wanga omwe adazipezanso. Chidwi changa kwa amayi chidakula ndipo ndimayang'ana zolaula koyamba m'moyo wanga. Ndimakumbukirabe momwe zinthuzo zinkawonekera zovuta. Sindimadziwa masamba aliwonse kotero ndidapunthwa patsamba loipa lomwe limasokoneza kompyuta yanu ndi chilichonse. Pambuyo pake ndinapatsidwa malo "abwino" ndi abwenzi, koma sindinakonde kwenikweni mpaka nditakwanitsa zaka 16. Komabe sindinkafuna zolaula kuti ndizichita ndipo ndimachita zomwe anyamata ambiri mumachita: Ndinayang'ana atsikana otentha kusukulu ndikuzisunga m'malingaliro mwanga kuti zikule pambuyo pake. Msungwana yemwe ndidakumana naye kusukulu amandikonda ndipo ndimamukonda, koma ndidadikirira nthawi yayitali (kumudziwa kunali kosavuta kuposa kusunthira) ndipo pamapeto pake ndinakanidwa mwaubwenzi: "Ngati itasweka sindikufuna kukutaya ngati bwenzi ”. Ndinali wabwino kwambiri. Kuyambira pamenepo ndidataya chidaliro chochepa chomwe ndinali nacho ndipo kudzipha kwa mzanga kunandipangitsa kukhala wotseka kwathunthu padziko lapansi: kuyambira pamenepo ndidayamba kuchepa tsiku lililonse. Sizinasinthe pafupifupi zaka 4, ndipo ndidapanga anzanga otayika monga momwe ndinaliri (pamaganizidwe: sindinayambe ndagwiritsapo ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo nawonso).
Ndinkadziwa kuti ndiyenera kuchita ndekha ndipo sindingathe kudana ndi anthu moyo wanga wonse. Ndinasamukira ku sukulu ina ndili ndi zaka 16, sukulu yomwe ili ndi anthu ambiri. Anthu amtundu wina: anali chabe WABWINO, ochezeka, oseketsa ndi onse. Ndimaganiza kuti kukhala ndi anthu otere kungakhale kwabwino kwa ine ndipo ndikunena zowona. Ndalumikizidwa mwachangu ndipo abwenzi atsopanowo adandipangitsa kupeza maphwando. Zinali zosangalatsa.
Zachisoni, sindinachotse zokolola ndikamafika kusukulu imeneyo. M'malo mwake zinthu zinaipiraipira: panali atsikana ambiri kumeneko, anali okongola, ndipo ndinkakonda kucheza nawo tsiku lililonse, kamodzi kapena kawiri (sindinkaganiza kuti msungwana weniweni akhoza kukhala ndi chidwi ndi ine, ndimangoganiza kuti anali apa kuti ndidziwe ndipo tinali am'magulu awiri osiyana "ogonana. Kupatula apo ndimatha kuyankhula nawo mosavuta. Panali chopinga m'malingaliro mwanga chomwe chidandilepheretsa kupitilira kapena kuwawona ngati china chilichonse kupatula kuyenda mafinya). Pambuyo pake ndimaganiza kuti sikokwanira ndipo ndinayamba zolaula. Ndinayamba kusunga zithunzi m'malo ambiri omwe mumadziwa, ndikuwona zinthu zosakhala zolaula nthawi ndi nthawi zomwe zimandichititsa kukhumudwa ndi zoyipa zina zoyipa. Izi zidandimasula. Koma sindinathe kusiya kuyendera masamba amenewo, tsiku lililonse: Ndinkafuna kusunga zolaula, zochulukirapo, zochulukirapo. Idapitilira mpaka Marichi 2013.
Ndinazindikira kuti ndimakopeka ndi mtsikana yemwe nthawi zambiri ndimaphunzira nawo Chingerezi ndi Biology. Iye anali (iye ali) woyera kwambiri ndi wokongola. Ndinadziuza ndekha kuti: "Simudzamupatsa iye kapena mtsikana wina aliyense. Cholakwika ndi chiyani ndi iwe, ukufuna kuti ukhale moyo wako wekha ndi dzanja lamanja ngati mnzako yekha? Palibe njira, zikhala zovuta koma ndizofunikira kuti musinthe. ”
Zinali pa Marichi 23rd 2013, masiku a 150 apitawo.
NoFAP
Chifukwa chake ndidayamba NoFap ndikupeza subreddit sabata lomweli kuchokera ku YBOP. Ndinaphunzira kuti nditha kusintha kukhala wabwino, kuti ena adazichita pamaso panga ndi zotulukapo zabwino. Inu anyamata mumandithandiza kuti ndisabwererenso tsiku lililonse milungu iwiri yoyambirira. Ndapeza pano chilimbikitso chopitilira. Ndidachita masewera olimbitsa thupi kwambiri mwezi woyamba, kuthamanga, kuchita ma push ... Ndidakhala wokondwa komanso wonyadira koyamba m'moyo wanga. Ndinali wotsimikiza, wotseguka kwambiri kwa anthu, mumkhalidwe wabwino nthawi zonse, ndipo ndimatha kuyang'anitsitsa (zozizwitsa) ndi akazi. Sindinadziwe kuti ndikuchita manyazi, palibe chobisala. Ndinali ndekha, weniweni ine, wabwino kwambiri mwa ine ndikugwirabe ntchito kuti ndikhale bwino. Sindinkafuna kuti ndikhalepo, ndinazindikira kuti ndinali wokondwa kwambiri kutaya chilichonse kwa masekondi a "chisangalalo".
Kenako pakubwera mwezi wachiwiri, ndi wachitatu. Mzere wokulirapo, wosachita chidwi ndi zinthu zambiri ndikutaya zina mwazolanga. Ndinayamba kuyerekezera nthawi ndi nthawi zomwe zidapangitsa maloto anga oyamba kunyowa. Ndinasiya kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi nthawi zonse koma sindinataye NoFap popeza ndimadziwa kuti ndichinsinsi changa chachisangalalo, ndikuti chibwerera mwanjira ina. Ndinkangoganizira zogwirira ntchito mayeso anga. Ndinagwira ntchito kwambiri ndipo ndinali wotanganidwa nthawi zambiri. Tsiku 75, mayeso. Tsiku 90, zotsatira: kuchita bwino ndi ulemu. Ndine wotsimikiza kachiwiri, ndi nthawi yoti ndibwezereni chilango changa.
Kuyambira pamenepo, ndimayeseranso kuyambiranso zizolowezi zanga zabwino, koma kukhala patchuthi sikungathandize. Ndicho chifukwa chake ndimayesetsa kwambiri. Izi ndi zomwe ndimakonda kunena:
- Kugona tulo tabwino: Ndidawerenga momwe kugona kumagwirira ntchito ndikudziwa kuti amapangidwa ndimayendedwe angapo pafupifupi 1h30. Ndinaganiza zokonzekera tulo langa poganizira kuchuluka kwa mayendedwe ndipo ndikufuna kuchita ndipo tsopano ndimagona 7h30 (masekondi 5) usiku umodzi koposa. Ndikumva kukhala wogalamuka ndikuchenjeza pambuyo pa 6h kapena 7h30 kuposa 10h30 yakugona. Izi zimandipangitsa kuti ndizichita bwino pabedi. Kukhala atsopano komanso okonzeka kugwira ntchito…
- Mvula yozizira: Ndili ndi masiku 81 pano, ndimatenga mvula yozizira kwambiri momwe ndingathere, kutengera komwe ndili. Ndizodabwitsa kuti imapha bwanji matabwa anu am'mawa komabe imakupangitsani kumva kuti ndinu amuna. Chikhumbo chanu chotulutsira apa ndichamphamvu, koma mumakana, ndikutuluka kusamba ngati ndinu mfumu yadziko lapansi. Ndinu oyera, odzidalira, onyada, ndipo mutha kuyamba tsiku lanu mwanjira yabwino kwambiri.
- Masewera ocheperako: Ndasiya kusewera pa PS3 yanga (kenako ndidamupatsa) ndipo ndatsala pang'ono kusiya World of Matanki, ndipo ndiyenera kufufuta. Chinthu chabwino ndikuti tsopano ndatopa pambuyo pa theka la ola lake. Choipa ndikuti posachedwapa ndapeza Pokémon pa Android (yoyeserera) ndipo sindingathe yokwanira. Ndizovuta zina pakudziletsa kwanga ndikudziwa kuti ndidzachita.
- Werengani zambiri: Sayenera kukhala yongopeka kapena china chovuta kwambiri, ingowerengani mabuku pamitu yomwe mumakonda. Zitha kukhala mabuku odzikongoletsa, mabuku, chilichonse. Kuwerenga kumawonjezera mawu anu ndi luso lanu lolemba. Ndi njira yosavuta yolimbikira mukamasangalala.
- Chitani masewera olimbitsa thupi: Ndizovuta kuyambiranso chizolowezi chimenechi. Sindikufuna kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi kuti ndichepetse thupi, koma kuti ndikwaniritse. Ndine wamtali 6'2 I ndipo ndimalemera 135lbs okha. Sindine wowonda, koma ndili ndi kapangidwe kamodzi. Ndikufuna kupanga minofu. Ndimathamangiranso ndikukonzekera 10km yampikisano wa tawuni yanga m'miyezi iwiri.
- Idyani bwino: Ndiyamba kuphika chakudya changa inenso, kuti ndizitha kuyang'anira zomwe ndimadya. Ndimadya kadzutsa kopepuka, nkhomaliro yayikulu, ndi chakudya chamadzulo chochepa. Mwanjira imeneyi sindimamva kulemera ndikagona.
- Pitani zambiri: Ndizosavuta komanso zosavuta. Ndinali munthu wamwamuna yemwe amapewa kucheza ndi anthu ena. Tsopano NDIKUFUNA kutuluka ndikakumana ndi anthu, kusangalala. Osati chizolowezi, koma malingaliro omwe ndili nawo tsopano, sindinatsekenso. Ndimatha kuyang'anitsitsa maso mosavuta ndipo kucheza ndi anthu mwachilengedwe. Ndimavalanso bwino ndipo zimathandiza kudalira.
Malangizo a fapstronauts atsopano:
- Chotsani zolaula zanu pompano ngati simunatero kale. Mutha kuganiza kuti: "Chabwino, nditha kuzisunga, sizoyipa kwenikweni. Sindidzayang'ananso, chifukwa chake palibe chifukwa chofufutira…. ” WROOOOONG. Simudzayang'ananso kotero kuti muchotse pompano, ndizosavuta monga choncho. Mudzayamba kumverera nokha koma posakhalitsa mudzamva kuti dziko lapansi likugwera pamapewa anu. Palibe choti mubisenso, ndinu mfulu.
- Yesetsani kukhala ndi zizolowezi zabwino monga zina mwazomwe ndatchulazi. Zimapangitsa kuti musamaganizirenso ndipo pamapeto pake (ubongo wanu ukayambiranso) chizolowezi chokula chidzatha, monga momwe zinachitikira kwa ine.
Pomaliza, nditha kunena monyadira kuti ndamaliza ndi PMO, ndipo ngakhale ndikulakalaka kuti nthawi ina ndiziwonekere, chizolowezi chonsecho chakufa ndipo kupita patsogolo kwanga m'moyo weniweni kumandipangitsa kuti ndizipitilizabe. Kwatsala milungu iwiri kuchokera chaka changa choyamba ku yunivesite, ndipo sindingathe kudikira.
Sindikukhulupirira kuti ndafika potengera komwe ndidayambira. Sindimadananso ndi anthu, sindifunanso akazi, sindine wachisoni komanso ndekha. Ndine wamoyo ndipo ndi chiyambi chabe. Ndatsala ndi moyo wanga wonse kuti ndikhale wokhazikika, ndipo ndimazitenga tsiku limodzi. Tithokoze NoFap ndi fapstronauts onse. Pitilizani kulimba, mutha kusintha kuti mukhale abwino. Mudzachita.
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