Choyamba, ndikufuna kunena kuti pali zifukwa zingapo zochitira NoFap. Mutha kukhala kuti mumalimbana ndi chizolowezi, kuyesera kudzipindulitsa nokha (kapena chamtsogolo china), kapena kungoyesa kuyesa kutsimikiza kwanu. Osatengera chifukwa chomwe mukuchitira izi, nonse ndinu anthu olimba omwe muyenera kunyadira nokha. Ndikungofuna ndikuuzeni anyamata kuti musunge izi komanso kuti mutha kutero.
Tsopano, ndikufuna kugawana ndi zomwe ndakumana nazo, kuyambira chifukwa chomwe ndidasankhira kuyamba.
Ndinawona kuti malingaliro anga kwa akazi anali owononga. Ngakhale sindinawawonepo chabe ngati nyini zokhala ndi zowonjezera zina, ndidadzipezera gawo lodziwononga. Izi zikuwonetseredwa ndikukhala ndi chilakolako chogonana nthawi zonse, chomwe chidapangitsa kuti ndikhale wokakamizika kuyang'ana atsikana nthawi zonse, zomwe sizomwe ndimafuna kuchita.
Kuphatikiza apo, ndinapezeka kuti ndikuyembekezera zinthu kuchokera kwa akazi m'njira zomwe sizinali zenizeni, ndipo nthawi zambiri sizinali zogonana. Mwachitsanzo, ndisanayambe ndidayamba kukopana ndi mtsikanayo, ndipo ngakhale nditayamba kuzindikira kuti sitimagwirizana, ndimangokakamira kuti ndikhale pachibwenzi naye. Sindinkafuna kwenikweni, ndinaziwona ngati chinthu choti ndichite chifukwa ndimayenera kutero. Kwenikweni, PMO inali ndi gawo lalikulu pakupangitsa amayi kukhala ena osakhala anthu wamba. Osati nthawi zonse moyipa kapena m'njira yonyoza, komabe m'njira yomwe ndidadzipeza ndekha.
Chifukwa chotsatira ndikuti ndidazindikira kuti ikulamulira moyo wanga kuposa momwe ndimafunira. Sindinganene mwatsatanetsatane, chifukwa ndicholinga chofala ichi, koma kwenikweni ndimayang'ana zolaula tsiku lililonse. Zotsatira zake zinali zolakalaka nthawi zonse, sindinakhutire, ndipo ndinali wotopa komanso wopanda chidwi.
Pomaliza, ndine wachi Buddha, kotero panali chikhumbo china chodula "zachiwerewere" chifukwa zimalimbikitsa kulakalaka, komwe Abuda amawona ngati gwero la mavuto. Sindikufuna kulalikira za Chibuda, koma izi zidachita gawo lalikulu.
Ndikufuna kuyambitsa lipoti langa laza zotsatirapo ponena kuti zimakhala zosavuta. Ndikukumbukira tsiku la 6, komanso mphamvu zodabwitsa zomwe ndimayenera kuchita kuti ndisabwererenso. Koma masiku ano, sizili kwenikweni pa radar yanga. Chilakolako chimatha. Pafupifupi tsiku la 20, nditawona mtsikana wotentha adasiya kukhala "Ndikufuna kuwabera" kapena "Ndiyenera kuthawa" ndikukhala "Ndikufuna kupita kukalankhula nawo." Masiku ano, ndimakhalabe ndi thanzi labwino, koma sizimandilimbikitsa kuti ndiyembekezere chilichonse kuchokera kwa akazi, ndipo sichidziwonetsa ngati ndikulakalaka kwakanthawi kochepa chabe. Ndine wokhutira kwambiri ndi kugonana tsopano (pamene sindinapite masiku 95) kuposa kale lonse.
Ndidazindikira kuti amapeza mphamvu komanso testosterone, koma zatsopanozi zimangovala mwachangu, ndipo zimayamba kukhala zachilendo. Koma ndibwino kukhala ndi tsiku lotanganidwa osabwerako nditatopa kwambiri.
Ndinayamba chibwenzi ndi mnzanga wapamtima pafupifupi mwezi wapitawu. Ndinganene moona mtima kuti zabwino zonse za NoFap zawonetsedwa muubwenziwu. Sindingayembekezere chilichonse kuchokera kwa iye. Ndimangosangalala kucheza naye. Ndizosangalatsa kuti mumatha kuuza mtsikana moona mtima zakugonana kwanu, kuti mumangomuyang'ana, komanso kuti simukufuna kuti akhale chilichonse (mwakuthupi) kupatula momwe alili. Kwenikweni ndimamva ngati NoFap yandithandiza kukhala munthu wabwino kwambiri momwe ndingakhalire, ndipo chifukwa chake ndimatha kukhala bwenzi labwino kwa msungwana wodabwitsa.
Nditadutsa tsiku 90, sindinkaganiza kuti inali ntchito yayikulu. Zinali zabwino kukwaniritsa lonjezo lomwe ndidapanga. Ndili ndi ntchito yambiri yoti ndichite, ndipo sindikuganiza kuti ndasiya izi masiku 95 ndiye kuti ndathana nazo.
Akuluakulu anyamata, izi ndizofunika kwambiri. Ndikudziwa zovuta momwemo, koma mutha kuzichita. Mukukhala olimba mtima kwambiri kuposa amuna ndi akazi ambiri padziko lapansi masiku ano, ndipo mukukumana ndi gawo lanu lomwe simukufuna kuvomereza. Kaya mukuchita izi kwa inu nokha, kapena kwa wina aliyense, ndizopindulitsa kwambiri ndikuyenera nthawi yanu, ndikulimbana.
Pitirizani kugwira ntchito kuti mukhale anthu abwino kwambiri omwe mungakhale; Ndikudziwa kuti ndapeza masiku 90 oyamba akuchita zolimbikitsa komanso zopindulitsa.
KULUMIKIZANA - Chosonyeza tsiku la 90
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