4-10 Ndinakumana ndi bwenzi langali ndipo inali nthawi yanga yoyamba kugonana. Chilichonse chidayenda bwino mpaka kulowa: Ndidalowa koma kenako ndidataya.
Lingaliro la izi limandivutitsa ndipo ndidayamba kukayikira zolaula komanso kuseweretsa maliseche ngati amisala. Ndili mkatimo ndinayamba kutaya mtima. Komanso chibwenzi changa chinkandipsompsona ndikundigwira, komabe sindinadzuke. Izi, ndikuganiza, ndi zolaula.
Pambuyo pake, patatha pafupifupi mwezi osachita zolaula kapena kuseweretsa maliseche, maukadaulo anga amabwerera kuchokera kumpsompsono chabe koma ikafika nthawi yolowera, nthawi zambiri ndimalingalira ngati ndingakhale bwino. Chifukwa chake ntchito nkhawa.
Ndikukumbukira, komabe, kuti patatha mwezi umodzi osayesa kugonana, pomwe timangopanga, maubwenzi anga abwerera. Usiku wina ndidakakamira ndikugwedeza, koma posakhalitsa ndimawopa kuti nditha, ndikusilira kuti ndisiye.
Sindinawone chibwenzi changa kwa miyezi iwiri yapitayi. Pakati pa miyezi iwiriyi ndakhala ndikuchita maliseche nthawi 2: kamodzi koyambirira ndi nthawi 4 lero, ndipo kamodzi ndi zolaula lero mwatsoka.
Ndili ndimasabata a 9 ndisanawone bwenzi langa motero funso langa nlakuti, "Ngati ndachita maliseche lero ndi zolaula (mwachangu, ndimangoyang'ana pafupifupi masekondi 30) ndikupita patsogolo. Kodi dopamine yanga idzachira!?!? !!? Ndikukhulupirira kuti ndikapewa zolaula ndidzadzuka ndikadzakhala ndi gf yanga. Chifukwa chake malingaliro anga adzakhala olimba ndipo kudzera mu izi nditha kuthana ndi nkhawa yanga.
5-7 Ndikupitirizabe kukhala ndi mphamvu. Lero ndili ndi sabata imodzi ndi theka popanda M ndi zina zambiri popanda zolaula. Ndayamba kuchita mantha. Kunena zoona ndimaona chibwenzi changa patatha milungu pafupifupi 6, ndipo ngakhale ndaona kusintha ndikuopa kuti sindidzakhala wokonzeka. N'zosasangalatsa, chifukwa kuti ndione momwe ndikupitira patsogolo ndiyenera kuyesa mtsikana. Koma sindingathe chifukwa cha ubale wanga! haha
Chinthu china ndi chakuti, pamene ndikutha kuona mtsikana ndikuganiza kuti ndi wokongola, sindimakhala wolimba nthawi yomweyo. Mwina sindidzabwereranso pamenepo, koma ndikuyembekeza kuti pakadali pano ndidzatha kuchita!
Njira yobwezeretsayi yathandizapo ena ndipo ndikhulupilira kuti inenso iyenso atero! Ndipitilizabe kutumiza ngakhale nditapita kukacheza ndi bwenzi langa!
5-14 [masabata 5+] Monga tanenera, njira yanga yochira ikhoza kukhala yosiyana pang'ono ndi ina, popeza ndatha kupewa kumwa P ndi M pafupipafupi m'miyezi 4 yapitayi. Izi zimapangitsa kuti masabata awiri akhale oyera kuchokera ku M komanso nthawi yayitali kuchokera ku P.
Ndikumva ngati kuti chisangalalo changa chikutha. Ndimamva ngati kupewa zolaula zimangokhala zosavuta komanso zosavuta, mwamwayi, ngakhale ndikuyenera kukumbukira kuti choyambitsa chimodzi chaching'ono chimatha kunditumizira lero! Ndiyenera kupitiliza kupita.
Ngakhale ndiyenera kunena kuti zimasangalatsa kuti pamapeto pake ndinasiya chizolowezi. Ndikuwona kuti ndimatha kukhala ndi nthawi yambiri ndi banja langa komanso abwenzi, ndipo ndimadzimva kuti ndili ndi chiyembekezo! Zitha kukhala kuti ndasiya chizolowezi, kapena kungoti ndidadzipatula ndekha pakulakwa kwa chizolowezicho.
Palibe njira iliyonse yomwe ndimanyadira ndekha kuti ndakwanitsa kuchita izi, ndipo ndimakhala ngati ndakwanitsa kufikira zomwe ndingathe kukana zofuna zanga!
Ndimangopanikizika pang'ono pokha ngati ndidzakwanitsa kuchita nthawi yoyenera. Ndakhala ndikudzuka ndimtengo wam'mawa, ndikupeza zinthu zazing'ono zomwe sizimandichititsa tsopano zimandilimbikitsa. China ndikuti kuyang'ana atsikana pagulu ndikwabwino, ndipo ndimachita, koma sindimva ngati anditembenukira nthawi yomweyo. Tikukhulupirira kuti izi zibwera posachedwa.
Ndine 19 ndipo zogonana zanga zomaliza zalephera mu ED, mwina chifukwa chofunitsitsa kutsatiridwa ndi kuda nkhawa, koma nthawi zambiri ndimamva kuti ndakwanitsa kusiya chizolowezi ichi ndikuyembekeza. Ndikukhulupirira kuti ndichinthu chabwino kupatukana ndi zolaula. Ndimamvabe kuti kusinthaku kumandipatsa mwayi wanga wokhala ndi moyo wabwino wogonana!
5-15 Ndangomaliza kulankhula ndi chibwenzi changa za zomwe tinakumana nazo zomwe sizinatheke. Ndidzamuona pa 17 June. Sindinamuuze kuti anali kuchita zolaula komanso kudziseweretsa maliseche, koma ndinamuuza kuti ndakhala ndikugwira ntchito yokonza mavuto anga. Kulankhula naye kunandibweretsera malingaliro osasangalatsa. Ndinamva nkhawa pang'ono, koma ndikuyembekeza kuti ndidzatha kupitirira zonsezi nthawi ikakwana. Ndidzakhala nditayeretsa pafupifupi milungu 7 ndikamuona. Ndikupemphera kuti zikhale zokwanira, chifukwa ndimamukonda kwambiri.
Amamvetsetsa komanso amandithandizira koma ndikudziwa kuti akufuna kugonana ndi ine, ndipo ndikufuna ndikhale osatha kuchita chifukwa cha ine komanso za iwonso. Ndikukhulupirira kuti 100 ipesedwa pofika nthawi yomwe ndimuwona. Kuyeretsa masabata a 7 ndikwabwino kuposa kukhala mukumawotchera katatu patsiku kuti muwone zolaula zaka XXUMX zomaliza!!?? Haha.
5-16 Ndikumva ngati ndikumva kutopa pang'ono, chifukwa sindinavutike koma nthawi zina ndimadzuka m'mawa, ngakhale ndikuwona kusintha kwina. Ndikuyamba kuzindikira chikhumbo chokhala pafupi ndi atsikana komanso momwe amachitira zinthu zabwino. Chinanso chomwe ndazindikira ndichakuti zinthu zolaula zomwe mwina zidandichititsa mantha kale tsopano zimandichititsa mantha! Haha. Ndinaziona bwanji zinthu zimenezo ndikuzikonda?
Komabe, sikuti ndikungopeza mayendedwe ndimangoyang'ana aliyense wamkazi, ndipo libido yanga sinali momwemo. Mwinanso popeza sindionera zolaula, ubongo wanga sukudziwa zoyambira. Pambuyo pake imayamba njira kukhala akazi enieni.
Zomwe ndakumana nazo kale ndi ED zimawoneka kutali kwambiri. Munthawi iyi kutali ndi iye, ndakhala ndi nthawi yothana ndi nkhawa ndipo pang'ono ndi pang'ono ululu ndi nkhawa zimatha. Ndazindikira kuti kugonana sikwabwinobwino, ndipo mwachiyembekezo ndidzatha kuchita mokwanira nthawi ina ndikadzawona bwenzi langa.
Ndidalemba masiku anga awiri ndikulemba lero ntchito. Zayamba kukhala zenizeni kwambiri kuti ndidzamuonanso. Pomaliza! Ndisiya 15th ya June ndipo ndipitiliza kutumiza, mwachiyembekezo ndi nkhani zopambana !!! Ndikukhulupirira kuti nditha kulimbikitsa ena! Mundifunire zabwino. Damn zolaula komanso zoyipa kuchita.
5-18 Maloto ochokera ku gehena lero. Ndinali kulota ndipo ndinadzuka pamene ndinali kulota, ndipo pamene linayamba panalibe choletsa.
Ndikuyamba kukumbukira maloto anga ndipo zinali ngati zolaula. Asa! Ngakhale m'maloto anga ubongo wanga umalephera. Ndikuganiza kuti mwina vuto langa la ubongo wanga likufunafuna china chake kuti chindilimbikitse, ndipo popeza ndilibe zokhudzana ndi kugonana zomwe zidasungidwa, zidandipangitsa kuganiza zolaula. Asa. Ndikukhulupirira kuti izi sizikuwerengera ngati kubwerera m'mbuyo! Ndipo ndikhulupilira kuti kupita kwanga patsogolo sikunangokhala maloto osamveka.
5-20 Ndakhala ndikulimbana ndi chilakolako chaching'ono chowonera zolaula lero. Sindikudziwa ngati ndi "kuthamangitsa," kapena ngati ndangozindikira kuti kwatha nthawi yayitali bwanji kuchokera pamene ndaziyang'ana, ndipo malingaliro ang'onoang'ono oopsawo adalowa m'mutu mwanga. Komabe, ndakana chilakolakocho.
Sindikukhulupirira kuti kukakamira kumachoka kapena kumakhala kosavuta kuti ukhale wowona mtima. Ndikuganiza kuti ndikofunikira kuti tipewe kukana ndikulangidwa.
Ndili wokonzeka kudziyesa ndekha koma ndili ndi mantha nthawi yomweyo. Haha. Ndikulakalaka wina aliyense. Zomwe ndimafunikira tsopano ndizokhala ndi chidziwitso chabwino. Ndimamva ngati kuti ndakhazikikanso, ndipo kwenikweni ndikungofuna chidziwitso !!!!!!
Ndikuwona bwenzi langa pafupi ndi June 15th ndipo ndiri wokondwa kwambiri !!! Ndimamusowa, ndipo ngati nditha kukhala ndi moyo wabwino ndikugonana naye zitha kutanthauza dziko kwa ine!
5-23 Chabwino, ndagula tikiti yanga, ndapeza kuti ndionane ndi mwamuna wanga pa 9! Ndili wokondwa komanso wamantha. Ndatsala pang'ono kuona zomwe kudziletsa kumeneku kwandichitira. Ndikuganiza kuti mantha amabwera makamaka chifukwa chofunitsitsa kuti izi zindithandize. Ndikumva ngati ndili pa mphambano. Ngati ndipambana ndidzakhala ndi moyo wanga wonse patsogolo panga. Kupsinjika maganizo ndi vuto lomwe ndimakhala nalo nthawi zonse zidzathetsedwa, zomwe zingandipulumutse. Ndikumvanso kuti ngati ndilephera ndidzakhala ndi nkhawa kwambiri, chifukwa ndidzakhala nditalephera pamene ndikuchita mtundu wokhawo wa kuchira womwe ungandithandize kapena ungandithandize.
Vuto lina ndikuti popewa sindimadziwa ngati njirayi ikubala zipatso. Ngakhale izi zidakali choncho. Ndine 19, ndipo ndimayang'ana pa iwo omwe ali ndi moyo wachiwerewere ndipo ndimaganiza, "Kodi pali kusiyana kotani pakati pawo ndi ine?" Yankho: Zambiri zakugonana zikukula, komanso maliseche komanso kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula. Chifukwa chake, ndasiya yachiwiri kwathunthu, ndipo ndidzagwira yoyamba yoyamba.
5-27 Ndili ndi nkhawa kwambiri. Ndikhala naye m'nyumba kwa miyezi iwiri. Nthawi yomaliza yomwe ndidachita izi, sindinathe kuima chifukwa cha kusamva bwino kwa thupi. Kenako, chifukwa cha izi, ndinagwa chifukwa cha nkhawa yokhudza momwe zinthu zilili. Ndinamva kupsinjika maganizo ndipo ndinamangidwa. Nthawi ino ndikuyembekeza kuti zinthu zidzakhala zosiyana. Ndakhala ndikukhala wopanda PMO kwa miyezi pafupifupi 4, ndikutsika pafupifupi katatu. Posachedwapa, ndakhala ndili mfulu kwa milungu pafupifupi 4.
Ndimachita mantha komanso mantha. Wowopa kulephera. Koma ndine wonyadira kuti ndimalimba mtima kuti ndipirire ndi izi, ndipo osayang'ana, ndikulandira kulephera kumeneko mwina zomwe zikundiyembekezera.
Mpaka pano sindinafike pamalopo pomwe azimayi mumisewu amanditsegulira, ngakhale ndili ndimalingaliro am'mawa ndipo ndakhala ndikulota. Ndiyambanso kukhala ndi vuto pang'ono mthupi langa lamanja. Nthawi yatha izi zidachitika ndidalota maloto. O, ndimamvabe ngati ndili ndi kuwombera kwabwinoko kuposa nthawi yathayi. Nthawi yotsiriza, ndidakhala ndi 4 mpaka zaka za 5 za PMO tsiku lililonse, nthawi zina kangapo patsiku. Tsopano ndangochita izi kangapo m'miyezi yapitayi.
5-28 Ndikuganiza kuti chomwe ndingamuuze ndichakuti ndikufuna kuchita zinthu motsatira liwiro langa—makamaka kuyesa mpaka nditamva bwino ndi kulowa mu kugonana. Kenako pitirizani mpaka kufika pachimake.
6-1 Yandipangitsa kuti ndikwere ulendo wanga. Ndidzamuona mawa! Mundipatse mwayi.
6-7 [masabata 8] Usiku watha tinagonana bwino ndipo tinasangalala kwambiri!
Ine ndinakwanitsa kukhala ovuta tsiku loyamba koma masiku ena onse m'mene timapusitsa momwe ndimapangira anali osalimba. Zitha kukhala kuti timangogona kwambiri komanso kupusa. Chifukwa chake sizimandibwezera ine mochuluka. Koma dzulo tinapita kukamwa, ndipo tikabwerako, tinapusitsidwa. Anaziyika. Sindimakhulupilira momwe zidalokeramo ndipo kusangalatsidwa ndikokha kudali kokwanira kuti ndikhale bwino. Sindikudziwa ngati ndinali 100 peresenti. Komabe, tinasinthana maudindo katatu ndipo ndinakhalabe wolimba, ngakhale kuchita bwino!
6-9 Kupambana kachiwiri usikuuno. Kugonana kwambiri. Ndinachita orgasm ndipo kenako ndinatha kukhalabe wolimba kwa mphindi pafupifupi 15 pambuyo pake. Chabwino, ndikusangalala ndi kupita patsogolo kwanga mpaka pano ndipo iyenso akuoneka wokondwa.
8-13 Ndabwerako kuchokera kukakhala ndi chibwenzi changa nthawi yonse yachilimwe. Patatha miyezi iwiri ndikusamukira komwe amakhala kuti ndikakhale naye.
Pafupifupi tsiku lililonse timakhala ndi iye, ndipo ndidachira kwathunthu patatha nthawi yayitali kuti ndisiye zolaula.
Momwe nkhawa yanga inachepera, ndidapeza kuti ndimatha kuchita zina nthawi zina mpaka masiku a 5 molunjika. Kukhala kutali ndi zolaula kunapangitsa kuti zikhale zosavuta kupeza mamangidwe ake. Kupsompsona kosalakwa, ndi kudandaula! Chinthu chotsatira mukudziwa kuti ndinu ovuta!
Ndakhala ndikuchoka kwa bwenzi langa latsikana kwa sabata limodzi ndi theka tsopano. Chowopsa ndichakuti, popanda kugonana, ndidabwereranso kanayi sabata latha ndi theka. Ndayesera kuzilungamitsa, koma chowonadi ndichakuti, popanda kugonana, malingaliro anga tsopano akuyesa kupeza "mankhwala" ake. Ndili ndi mantha ngati gehena tsopano.