Kutalika kwanthawi yayitali kopanda fap. Ndili 19 pakadali pano ndikumaliza kumene mayeso anga omaliza (US). Ndikuganiza kuti yakwana nthawi yoti ndithandizire pagulu lodabwitsa komanso losamala pa intaneti yonse. Tikukhulupirira kuti ena mwa inu mupindula ndi nkhani yanga ndikuwona momwe ndavutikira kuzindikira ndi "kulumikizana" zomwe sizingachitike komanso momwe zimasinthira moyo wanu.
Ngakhale sindinadziwe panthawiyi, sindinayambe kusankha njira yomaliza m'masabata angapo apitawa kusukulu yasekondale. Malangizo anga asanakwane anali okhazikika kuyambira zaka zaunyamata (13-14) nthawi 2 patsiku mkati mwa sabata ndipo nthawi zambiri 7-8 kumapeto kwa sabata. Zaka zanga zapamwamba ku sukulu yasekondale ndipamene ndidayamba kuwonera zolaula, popeza ndidagwiritsa ntchito malingaliro anga pa 90% yazomwe ndidakula (ndakhala ndikugwiritsa ntchito zolaula mpaka pano). Nthawi zina ndimakonda kudya kwambiri, makamaka ndikamadwala, mpaka 6-7 nthawi patsiku zolaula - nthawi zonse makanema apaintaneti.
Sindikukumbukira zomwe zidandipatsa kutsimikiza, koma ndikukumbukira kuti ndidayamba kuwerenga zolemba ndi maumboni patsamba lino www.yourbrainonporn.com (onetsetsani ngati simunapezebe gwero lowopsa lomwe ndi "lasayansi" pang'ono kuposa subreddit.) Komabe, ndidazichita makamaka kuti ndichepetse nkhawa zanga, zomwe zidali zosalamulirika, komanso kuti ndichepetse kunenepa komanso kupirira kwanga mchilimwe maphunziro. Masiku asanu ndi awiri oyamba anali openga (june 2013). Ndikudziwa kuti ambiri owerenga izi adakumana ndi "kuyendetsa" kwamphamvu kwamasiku asanu ndi awiri oyamba, wopangidwa ndi othamanga othamanga kwambiri, kukakamizidwa kosatha komanso chisangalalo chamunthu.
Kenako pafupi ndi dontho, ndidadwala milungu iwiri. Pakadali pano sindinathe kumvetsetsa lingaliro loti kuseweretsa maliseche, ngakhale pamavuto akulu, kumatha kubweretsa zizindikilo zochepa ngati chimfine. Sindinamve ngati kuti ndili ndi chimfine, komabe. Zinali zofatsa kwambiri (kumbukirani, izi zidakali ZIZINDIKIRO ZA FLU - kutentha kwakanthawi, ulesi, zilonda zapakhosi ndi zina zambiri .. OSATI ozizira wamba - ndikofunikira kudziwa ngakhale ndidanena kuti ndi "ofatsa"). Ndinayamba kutuluka tsiku la 15 kuchoka (kuzungulira tsiku 22 la palibe fap) kotero kuti ndimaganiza zokayezetsa matenda a laimu.
Mwamwayi, zochotsedweratu zidatha sabata lachitatu palibe. Pakadali pano ndimamva kukoma kwambiri komwe ndidamvepo zaka zitatu zapitazi. Mwathupi, mwakuthupi, komanso mwamagetsi ndidakhala ngati ndimakhala mchaka changa chatsopano cha sekondale. Kwa milungu iwiri yotsatira (kuyambira kumapeto kwa June mpaka kumayambiriro kwa Julayi) zonse zidayenda bwino. Maphunziro anga, chilimbikitso chowerengera, kupanga, komanso kusinthasintha sizinali zabwino zokha komanso zokhazikika. Kenako ndidayamba molakwitsa.
Tekinoloje yam'manja, ndikukhulupirira, ndi yomwe yakhala ikufulumizitsa ndikuwonjezera chizolowezi changa chowonera zolaula ndikukula. Monga ndidanenera kale kuti nditangotsala pang'ono kumaliza maphunziro anga aku sekondale komwe zolaula zanga zimagwiritsa ntchito, kenako ndikukula. Izi zinali pafupifupi kwathunthu chifukwa ndinali ndi foni yamakono panthawiyi. Ndinali ndi mwayi wopeza zolaula zilizonse zomwe ndimafuna kulikonse komanso nthawi iliyonse yomwe ndimafuna.
Pamene ndimayamba kuonera zolaula pafoni yanga mkati mwa masabata a 4 ndi 5th a kuyesera kwanga, ndinawona kuchepa kwakukulu kwa malingaliro anga ndikuwonjezera nkhawa yanga (ngakhale sikumakula). Potsirizira pake, monga momwe ndikuganizira ambiri pano akudziwa, kusintha kumayambiranso. Ngakhale kuti sindinabwererenso kuzolowera zakale tsiku lililonse, ndimakhala ndi masiku omwe ndimakhala ndi PMO 2-3 patsiku olekanitsidwa mwina sabata limodzi kapena awiri "oyera." Izi zidapitilira nthawi yonse yachilimwe mpaka ndidalowa koleji mochedwa august.
Kwa semester yonse yoyamba yamaphunziro anga aku koleji ine PMO'ed mwina nthawi 4-5 pa sabata. Ngakhale ndinali wotsika kuposa kale, ndinkachita izi kuthana ndi nkhawa zantchito. Izi sizinapangitse chilichonse kupsinjika kwanga ndipo zinangowonjezera (kwenikweni) 25x. Ndinayamba pang'onopang'ono koma mosakhazikika ndikutsika ndikumakhumudwa komanso kuda nkhawa kwambiri. Ngakhale izi, ndidalandirabe 3.6 ku yunivesite yapamwamba kwambiri ku England yatsopano. Unali 3.6 wokhala ndi kukhumudwa kwakukulu, kuda nkhawa, kusowa cholinga, komanso zomwe ndimawona ngati "kuphunzira osasamala" mwachitsanzo, ndidapita mkalasi koma ndimawunikira mawuwo, ndinasiya kuphunzira mpaka usiku watha ndipo ndimakhala nthawi yanga yopuma ndikuwonera makanema pa youtube. Ndinali wokondwa ndi magiredi anga koma sindinkasangalala kwambiri ndi moyo wanga. Ndikangophunzira bwino maganyu amadza "pamtengo" wamtendere. Ndimaika ndalama pamabanja chifukwa chakuti bata, chisangalalo ndi kuyenda bwino zimayendera limodzi ndi magiredi abwino ndi maphunziro (kwa ine osachepera).
Pa nthawi yanga yopuma yozizira, yomwe inali milungu isanu ndi umodzi (musakhale ndi nsanje yanu chifukwa ndidzawona kupyola kubodza kwanu kopanda tanthauzo), ndidayamba zomwe ndimawona kuti ndi "masiku opitilira 80 opitilira moyo wanga." Zomwe zidandipangitsa kuzindikira kuti ndiyenera kuthana ndi vuto langa lolaula nthawi imeneyo m'malo mwanyengo iliyonse m'masabata asanu ndi limodzi kapena asanu ndi awiri apitawo ndilibe. Zomwe ndikudziwa ndikuti ndidayamba chifukwa cha kukhumudwa. Ndinali ndi vumbulutso usiku wina ndikuyang'ana pagalasi. Ndinali wosasangalala kwathunthu ndipo ndinapanikizika kotero kuti sindinathenso kukana. Ndidatsimikiza mtima kuti ndisapange P, M kapena O mpaka nditagonana kapena nditakwanitsa zaka 99 (pa msinkhuwu mwina nditha kudzithokoza ndikadziluma, kutembenukira kumapeto kwa phompho, kudumpha kenako ndikumasula parachute wanga. Inde, 99 yanga yamtsogolo -kudzikonda kumapita kudumpha).
Kotero milungu yotsatira 7 ya moyo wanga inali nthawi yabwino kwambiri m'moyo wanga. Ndidadzipeza ndikutuluka mwezi woyamba, monganso momwe ndidakhalira kale, koma zinali zosavuta kulamulira panthawiyi. Ndimakumbukira patatha pafupifupi tsiku la 45 (lomwe ena amatcha moyenera monga "hump") kunali kovuta kubwerera kumagulu anga akale achisoni komanso kuda nkhawa. Sikuti ntchito sinandipanikize, zinali kuti ndidadzipeza nditha kuphunzira kwa maola awiri atatu popanda "kupeza" kupsinjika. Ngakhale zinthu zopanikiza kwambiri monga mayeso ndi zolemba zimangokweza nkhawa zanga kutsika kwambiri. Kuchoka pakumangokhala ndi nkhawa kuti ndizitha kuphunzira, kugwira ntchito, kuwerenga, kusewera ndi ena ... popanda kupsinjika, kapena mopanda mantha kuti mwina nditha "kukankha" kupsinjika kwanga, zinali zabwino kunena pang'ono.
Magawo abwino kwambiri aulendo wanga anali chidwi ndi mphamvu zomwe ndidapeza. Palibe piritsi, zowonjezera kapena zakudya padziko lapansi zomwe zingakusinthe ngati palibe fumbi. Mwadzidzidzi ndinatha kudzuka ku 6: 00 am, kupita ku masewera olimbitsa thupi, kupita kukalasi, kucheza ndi anzanga, kuwerenga komanso kukhala ndi nthawi yosangalala. Ndinawonjezera ntchito yanga ndikusewera koma ndinamva mphamvu ZAMBIRI kuposa momwe ndimakhala kuchipinda kwanga ndi PMO.
Ndi mphamvu zinadza kukulitsa chidaliro. Ndinkatha kuyang'ana atsikana m'maso (china chomwe ndimaganiza kuti ndi placebo pomwe ndimawerenga nthawi yoyamba), kugwirana chanza, ndikuseka ngati momwe ndimakhalira ndikuseka. Kukumana ndi anthu atsopano kudakhala kosangalatsa osati ntchito. Ndinkakonda kupita kunja kwa nyumba yanga ndi anzanga. Ndinkakonda kucheza ndi anthu nthawi yayitali kwa nthawi yayitali.
Chodabwitsa, panthawiyi ndinaiwaliratu kuti zolaula zawononga moyo wanga. Panthawiyi ndinali pafupi sabata limodzi kuchokera pa baji yanga ya masiku 90. Ndinali kunyumba patchuthi cha sabata limodzi ndipo ndandanda yanga idatseguka mwadzidzidzi. Ndinaganiza kuti kuyang'ana makanema ena omwe ndimawakonda kwambiri pa intaneti sikungandivulaze popeza ndinali kutali ndi moyo wanga wakale wokhumudwa komanso wovutika. Pambuyo pa tsiku limodzi lokha ndinadzitsimikizira kuti kusuta zolaula sikungakhale kathanzi. Pambuyo pake ndinali goner. NDINALI PMO'ed mwina nthawi 10 sabata yamawa. Chomwe chinali chosangalatsa ndichakuti zinali zowonekeratu kuti zikupita patsogolo. Nthawi yoyamba yomwe ndinakula, ndinabwereranso "mwachibadwa" 7-8 sabata osadzikonda m'masiku awiri. Chachiwiri chinanditengera pafupifupi masiku 2-3. Pambuyo pake ndidayamba kukumba dzenje lakuya, lomwe ndikutulukabe mpaka lero.
Kuyambira Epulo 20th ndakhala woyera pa P, M, ndi O. Ndayamba kuchira pang'onopang'ono koma sindimakhala komwe ndidali kale. Izi zili bwino ndi ine, ndipo muwona chifukwa posachedwa. Ndisanamalize, ndikufuna kunena china chake momveka bwino / kupereka malangizo othandiza.
1st: Lamuloli ndilapamwamba ndipo ndazindikira kuti ndi lotchuka kwambiri: Ngati mukufuna PMO ndiye m'malire. Zosavuta monga choncho. Pokhala zodabwitsazi zomwe tili, SITINGATSITSE. Sindinapulumuka masiku owonjezera a 3 kapena 4
2: Pangani izo kupitilira "tsiku lanu la hump" Kwa ambiri ndikukhulupirira kuti apa pali pafupifupi zaka 45. Izi zikugwirizana ndi mantha oti "nditani mwadzidzidzi ndikasiya kusintha ndikukhala pamzere wokhazikika." Mukuyenda bwino sabata iliyonse mukamaliza kukonza komanso kusiya ntchito. Izi sizikutanthauza kuti simukhala ndi nthawi yokhazikika koma kuchokera pa zomwe ndakumana nazo mudzasintha tsiku lililonse mwanjira ina. Palibe fap yemwe samadziwa za ungwiro ndikukhala patsogolo
3: Osadandaula ngati zingakupindulitseni kapena ayi. Ndimamva ena akudandaula za kusawona zotsatira zomwe akufuna / kumva. Ngati muli pano ndiye kuti muli pano chifukwa mwana wamng'ono wochititsa mantha mkati mwanu wapeza kulimba mtima kuti apirire ululu wanu ndi chizolowezi chanu. Lolani izo zikhale zokwanira. Ngati simukutero, tsiku lililonse kapena sabata iliyonse yoyipa idzakhala chowiringula kwa PMO chifukwa "sichikhala choyenera." Tikudzichiritsa tokha, iyi ndi njira yomwe siyimayima. Pali zambiri zofunika kukwaniritsa.
4th: Khalani ndi mwayi womaliza woteteza womwe si k9. Ichi ndichinthu chomwe chidzaimitse PMO pomwe zina zonse zalephera. Ndimasungabe chithunzi cha ine, amayi anga ndi mchimwene wanga patchuthi zaka khumi zapitazo ndi kompyuta yanga. Ndikovuta kwambiri kuletsa kutengeka kwanu kuposa momwe zimalepheretsa kusefa pa intaneti. Komanso, ndapeza kumvetsera nyimbo yaunyamata kapena ndikungopuma, nyimbo zanthunzi kudzera mumathandizidwe kwambiri ngakhale mutadzilonjeza nokha mulole PMO nyimbo yonse itatha (yomwe sindinakhalepo nayo).
5th: Pezani pateni. Ndikudziwa kuti nthawi zina ndizovuta kwambiri padziko lapansi, koma khalani okhudzidwa. Mwinanso izi zimangotengera kugona pamaso pa 10 pm ndikudzuka pamaso pa 7 am Zikhala zopanda phindu mukadzagonjera izi
6: Zowonjezera zimathandiza. Ndikulangiza kwambiri kutenga 200-400 mg ya magnesium citrate musanagone, makamaka mwezi woyamba. Anthu ambiri ndi osowa mmenemo ndipo ndiyopumula kwambiri / imathandiza kwambiri kugona. Mosiyana ndi zothandizira zina zakuthupi monga melatonin, sizimawoneka ngati zosokoneza. Ngati mukuchita mantha, ingodyani saladi yayikulu yamasamba akuda musanagone. Mutha kudya mopitilira 200-400 mg ya magnesium (osachotsa masamba anu ndi ma boiz ndi gurlz. Amatchedwa zowonjezera koma osadya pazifukwa.)
7th: Dziwani nokha. Ndimatha kudziwa nthawi yomwe ndingayambirenso. Ikani kompyuta yanu patali kwambiri kuti musayifikire kapena makamaka pena pake pomwe pamafunika njira zingapo kuti mutuluke. Ngati simuyenera kugwiritsa ntchito intaneti konse- china chake ndingayesere chilimwe.
8th: Dzikhulupirireni! Ichi ndicho chinthu chovuta kwambiri kuchita. Ndabwereranso ndikuvutika movutikira pafupifupi chaka tsopano, ngakhale nditazindikira kuti ndimakhala wachisoni pamene ine ndi PMO ndikusangalala pomwe sinditero. Zomwe zingakusungireni nthawi yayitali ndikudziwa kuti ndinu oyenera kukhala osangalala.
Pomaliza, ndangomaliza semester yanga yachiwiri ku koleji. Sindinalandire maphunziro anga pano koma ndikudziwa kuti adzatsika kuposa semester yomaliza chifukwa cha kalasi imodzi yotsika mu req. kalasi (ngakhale sikowononga). Ndinkadzifotokoza ndekha kutamandidwa komwe ndimalandira kuchokera kwa ena. Kutamandidwa ndi kwabwino koma simuyenera kufotokozera moyo wanu wonse monga momwe ndidapangira. M'malo mwake, ndinakhala semester yomaliza iyi ndikusangalala ndi abwenzi, aphunzitsi, mabuku komanso kukhala ndekha kuposa nthawi ina iliyonse m'moyo wanga wachinyamata. Ndikudziwa tsopano kuti ngakhale nditayambiranso kangapo sindidzabweranso ku PMO chifukwa chabwino ndikukuyamikani nonse!
Mawu akuti, ndikuganiza, ndi njira yabwino yotsirizira izi: "Inunso, monga wina aliyense m'chilengedwe chonse, muyenera kukondedwa ndi kukondedwa" -Buddha
Zabwino zonse paulendo wanu!
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