Nayi nkhani yanga.
Anaphunzira za kukula msanga kusekondale, ndipo adayamba kusuta msanga. Mpaka nditakhala zaka 17, sindinathe kupita tsiku popanda PMO. Ndizo zonse zomwe ndimaganizira, pafupifupi nthawi zonse. Ndinalibe chidaliro. Zinafika poti sizinayang'ane msungwana m'maso kwanthawi yopitilira masekondi ochepa. Ndinali womvetsa chisoni kwambiri.
Chilimwe chitatha chaka changa chachinyamata, ndinasiya kuonera zolaula mozizira pazifukwa zachipembedzo komanso zamakhalidwe. Koma ngakhale sizinali zokwanira. Maganizo anga amatha kukhala owopsa kwambiri ndikasiya kusamala. Chidaliro chinali chabwino pang'ono, koma kuchepa kumayendetsabe moyo wanga.
Ndidakhala zaka zambiri kusukulu yasekondale, komanso 3/4 chaka changa choyamba ku koleji ndikutsutsana ndekha ngati kumenya bishopu wamaso amodzi ndichimo kapena ayi, popeza ndimatsatirabe chipembedzo changa. Chifukwa chokha chomwe mkanganowu udakhalapo bola udali chifukwa sindinawone Lemba lililonse lomwe limatsutsana nalo motsutsana. Sindinkadziwa kuti kukula kunali vuto lalikulu pamoyo wanga.
Potsirizira pake, kutsutsana kumeneko kunatha. Sabata imodzi kapena kupitilira apo ndisanakwanitse zaka 19, lingaliro linafika m'mutu mwanga. Ndikhala ndikukula mpaka liti? Mpaka zaka 25? 30? Ngakhale ndimatengeka nazo, ndimazindikirabe kukula ngati chinthu chomwe sindinkafuna kupitirizabe kwamuyaya. Pamenepo, sindinasamale kuti ndi tchimo kapena ayi, ndimangofuna kusiya chizolowezicho.
Izi zinali pafupi nthawi yomwe ndidaphunzira za / r / NoFap. Ndidamvapo za anthu akuchita miyezi ya NoFap kuyambira pomwe ndidapita pa 4chan kwambiri. Sanazitengere mozama, komabe. Nditawerenga zina mwazomwe ndalemba apa, ndidaganiza zophatikizanso nawo. Nditha kudziwa kuti imagwira ntchito chifukwa cha testosterone spike patadutsa sabata, popeza zoyankhula zomwe ndimayenera kupereka m'kalasi zidayamba kukhala zoyipa mpaka zozizwitsa, kenako nkubwereranso. Mwezi woyamba kapena kuposerapo unali wovuta kwambiri. Zinkawoneka zachilengedwe kuti zisinthe. Mudapitilira izi mwa kusinkhasinkha ndi pemphero. Ndinaganiza kuti ndikafika pa Tsiku 90, ndikhoza kuyamba kukula kamodzi pa sabata. Nditafika kumeneko, malingaliro amenewo adasintha. Sindinkafunanso kutha. Ndinayamba kusachita chidwi ndi izi. Zachidziwikire, ndimakhala ndi mipira ya buluu zambiri, koma ndidaziwona ngati chigonjetso. Mpira uliwonse wabuluu chinali chizindikiro kuti ndikubwezeretsanso moyo wanga.
Tsopano ndili pano, masiku 180 ndirimo. Ndikusiyirani ndime iyi ya pa Agalatiya 6, yomwe yandilimbikitsa kwambiri paulendo wanga. Ndikudziwa kuti gawo labwino la Reddit siligwirizana ndi zomwe ndimakhulupirira, koma chonde ingotenga momwe zilili:
Munthu amakolola zomwe anafesa. Wofesa kuti akondweretse thupi lake, adzatuta chiwonongeko; Wofesa kukondweretsa Mzimu, kuchokera mwa Mzimu adzatuta moyo wosatha. Tisaleme pakuchita zabwino, chifukwa pa nthawi yake tidzatuta tikapanda kusiya.
LINK - Masiku a 180 opanda P, M, kapena O, ndipo ndikumva bwino.
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