Ndinayamba kuonera zolaula ndili mwana wazaka za 13. Ndinali nditangopeza kumene zomwe zimawoneka ngati golide. Koma zomwe ndimaganiza kuti golide kwenikweni ndi njira yotsika mtengo. Imawala ngati golide koma mawu akale akuti 'Zonse zomwe zimayang'ana si golide' zinali zowona. Kukwaniritsidwa kwabodza kumeneku kunandidyera m'zaka zotsatira.
Zinali zodabwitsa koma posakhalitsa ndidalakalaka zambiri. Moyo wanga wokonda zolaula unali utangoyamba kumene. Poyamba ndinachita izi. Poyamba zinali chabe kamodzi patsiku kapena kupitilira koma zinkapita patsogolo mwachangu. Posachedwa ndidalemba 3 kapena 4 kangapo patsiku. O ndipo sindinadziikire malire pa kompyuta yanga ya amayi anga. Ndinkayiwona pogwiritsa ntchito makompyuta apasukulu, foni yanga, mafoni anzanga apamtima, madera ena, kulikonse kumene ndimapeza intaneti ndimawona zolaula.
Kukhala wokonda zolaula kunali tsoka. Pomwe anzanga apamtima adakhala oponda ma pussy ndidayamba kuwombera video. Pomwe wachinyamata aliyense amasangalatsidwa ndimakhala ndekha m'chipinda changa ndikufufuza kosatha mavidiyo osangalatsa. M'malo mongokula pang'onopang'ono kukhala wachinyamata wogwira ntchito bwino pang'onopang'ono ndinadziwononga ndekha osadziwa. Ndidawononga munthu wanga gawo lomwe silingakonzeke. Ndidayamba kudzikayikira ndipo chidaliro changa sichidakhalako.
Ndikusangalatsanso mosangalatsa ndidapanga chopinga chomwe sindingathe kuthana nacho. Kunyozedwa pagulu ndi anzanga kunali kowopsa. Kusokoneza kusokonekera kwa erectile kawirikawiri komwe anyamata a 50 anali nako kunali kochititsa manyazi. Ziphuphu, kupsinjika kosalekeza komanso kudzipatula kumawononga thanzi langa. Ndinali chidakwa m'malo osowa chiyembekezo omwe ndinachita manyazi nawo. Ndimafuna kuyima koma sindinathe…
Monga ambiri a inu, zolaula zanga zolaula zandilamulira. Ndimamva kuti sindingathe kuchita chilichonse chokhudza vuto langali. Kodi izi zonse moyo wanga zikadakwanira? Kuthera maola angapo pa laputopu yanga? Ayi! Ndikufuna kuwongolera moyo wanga osati mtsikana wokongola yemwe sindinamuone m'moyo wanga. Sindingalole izi kukhala zokhazo zomwe zimandifotokozera. Ndinkatopa kwambiri kupembedza atsikana onyenga pakompyuta yanga. Ndinkatopa kwambiri ndikupatula nthawi yanga, thanzi komanso kudzidalira. Ndidatopa kwambiri ndikupeza chisangalalo chomwe chidatenga mphindi zochepa koma ndidadyetsa zolaula zomwe sizinachite chilichonse kusintha moyo wanga.
Kwa zaka zambiri nditazindikira NoFap ndathana ndi mavuto anga. Ngakhale sindinatumize kuyambiranso kwanga koyambirira ndazindikira kusintha kwakukulu m'moyo wanga kuchokera pamenepo. Ndimadzidalira kwambiri komanso ndimawongolera moyo wanga. Sindikudandaula ngati kale. Ndi chidaliro changa chatsopano ndalowa nawo gulu la Pickup ndipo ndapeza masiku ochepa ndipo posachedwa ndidayamba chibwenzi! Ndinkavutikabe kuti mbolo yanga ikhale naye koma pamapeto pake ndimagonana nawo pafupipafupi. Kumverera kumakhala kodabwitsa! Zithunzi zolaula sizingafanane ndi kugonana kwenikweni ndi msungwana weniweni.
Ndikukhulupirira kuti wina aliyense yemwe ali patsamba lino amamva choncho chifukwa mukazindikira kuti moyo wanu ulibe zolaula simudzafunanso kubwerera. Pakadali pano patsamba ili ndimakhala masiku 104. Mu 2016 ndikuganiza kuti ndidangodzuka ngati nthawi 8 zomwe ndizodabwitsa. Chaka chino ndikuchita bwino kwambiri ku 2017 popeza kupitilira mwezi wa 4 wazaka ziwiri zokha. Pambuyo poyambiranso bwino ndikukakamira kuti ndisakhale ndi PMO chaka chimodzi. Ndikukhulupirira kuti ngati mukuwerenga izi mutha kuyambiranso. Zidzasintha moyo wanu
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