Ziri zovuta kukhulupirira kuti kwakhala chaka chimodzi kuchokera pomwe ndidawonera zolaula zilizonse. Uwu unali ulendo wovuta wazaka 7 koma pamapeto pake ndidakwanitsa. Ndiloleni ndikuuzeni nkhani yanga ndi vutoli.
Nthawi yoyamba yomwe ndidawonera zolaula inali kubwerera ku 2004 ndili ndi zaka 12. Mnzanga adasewera DVD ya mchimwene wake pa TV kwa mphindi 15 asanachotse. Sindinamve chilichonse pambuyo pake ndikupitiliza ndi tsiku langa. Koma patadutsa zaka 2 mu Novembala 2006 ndili ndi kalasi ya 9th kusekondale m'modzi mwa anzanga adandiwonetsa zolaula pa PSP yake ndipo pazifukwa zopanda pake ndidaganiza ndekha kuti ndiyenera kuwonera zolaula ndikafika kunyumba kuchokera kusukulu. Nditangofika kunyumba ndinayamba kugwiritsa ntchito kompyuta ndipo Google inafufuza zolaula ndipo pamene ndinali kuyang'ana ndinayamba kuseweretsa maliseche ndikuyamba kuchita maliseche m'moyo wanga.
Nditangolowa mathalauza anga ndinamva kuti ndine wodabwitsa ndiyeno pambuyo pake ndinayamba kupita ku PMO zolaula pafupifupi tsiku lililonse ndikamaliza sukulu makolo anga kulibe. Izi zidakulirakulira kwa ine ngakhale kuseweretsa maliseche a anime "Ya Ndinali wodwala yemwe ndimayang'ana dopamine", zolaula zolaula, komanso zolaula zachiwawa. Pambuyo pake ndinasiya kuonera zolaula za Shemale, komanso zolaula zankhanza zomwe zimandipweteketsa ndikamaziwona. Ndinayamba kuwona momwe zolaula zimakhudzira ine nditayamba kukhala wamanyazi komanso wamanjenje mozungulira anthu makamaka atsikana. Panthawiyo ndinali wokhumudwa nthawi zonse chifukwa ndinali kuponderezedwa kusukulu yasekondale ndipo izi zidapangitsa kuti PMO azizolowera kwambiri chifukwa ndimadandaula PMO ndikapenga, kupsinjika kapena kukhumudwa.
Sipanafike chaka cha 2010 pomwe ndidazindikira kuchokera pa Google kusaka kuti zolaula ndizotani komanso zomwe zidakhudza ubongo wanga ndipo ndipamene ndidafuna kusiya kuonera zolaula koma zinali zosavuta kuti zichitike. Ndinapitiliza kubwereranso patatha masiku awiri kapena anayi opanda PMO. Chifukwa chake ndidasankha kuti ndimvetsetse bwino za zomwe zimachitika ndikumwa bongo ndimomwe zimakhudzira ubongo. Nditapeza tsamba lawebusayiti lotchedwa feedtherightwolf lidandionetsa momwe chizolowezi choonera zolaula chinali komanso momwe ndingathanirane ndi zolimbikitsira kuonera zolaula. Zinandithandiza pang'ono chifukwa panthawiyi ndimangokhala PMOing kawiri pamlungu zomwe zinali kusintha komwe ndinali kale.
Mu 2012 ndinatha kupewa zolaula pafupifupi miyezi iwiri koma ndinabwereranso ndikupitilizabe kuchita izi kawiri sabata mpaka chaka chatha. Chaka chatha zidandisokonekera pomwe ndidayamba kulira nditatha PMOed ku zolaula za anime ndipo ndinadziuza ndekha kuti ndi izi ndipo sindidzachitanso izi chifukwa ndikudzivulaza ndikungowononga nthawi yanga pochita izi. Chifukwa chake ndidapanga njira zowonetsetsa kuti sindingayambitse zolaula.
Masabata angapo oyambiranso adandigwira mtima anali ovuta chifukwa ndimavutika kwambiri ndizizindikiro zochotsa nkhawa popanda chifukwa, kukwiya popanda chifukwa, komanso kumva kuti ndili wopanda kanthu m'moyo wanga. Koma patatha miyezi ya 2 ndinasiya kukhala ndi malingaliro amenewo ndipo ndinayambanso kumva bwino.
Kuthamangira lero mpaka pano ndikusangalala ndi moyo kuposa momwe ndidalili kale. Sindimachitanso mantha ndikakhala ndi anthu makamaka atsikana, ndipo ndimakhala wosangalala kwambiri kuposa momwe ndidachitiranso m'masiku anga a PMO.
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