Ndisananene chilichonse, ndiyenera kunena kuti zikomo. Pakadapanda dera lino sindikudziwa ngati ndikadatha kupha chiwanda ichi. Pomwe ndimadutsa gawo loyipa la kuyambiranso kwanga nonsenu pano pomwe mudandisunga. Koma ichi sindicho chifukwa chokha chomwe ndiyenera kukuthokozani nonse.
Chinanso chimene ndimaganiza ndi chakuti nonse munandithandiza kupeza cholinga cha moyo wanga. Osachepera cholinga changa momwe ndikumvetsetsa. Ndalimbana ndi moyo wanga wonse ndikuyesera kuyankha funso loti ndiyenera kuchita chiyani ndi ine ndekha. Ndadalitsidwa m’njira zambiri zimene ndingaŵerenge. Ndili ndi luso, mwayi, ndi zilakolako zomwe ndayesera kuti ndisamachite mopepuka. Komabe, kufikira tsopano, madalitso ameneŵa andidzaza ndi mantha ndi nkhaŵa. Zimakhala ngati sindingathe kugwedezeka poganiza kuti ndangotsala pang'ono kukumana ndi ngongole yayikuluyi. Ndinkaona kuti ndapatsidwa zochuluka kwambiri ndipo pokhapokha ngati ndikanachitapo kanthu kena kabwino ndi zonsezo, ndiye kuti ndikanakhala chiwonongeko chachikulu.
Maganizo awa adandipangitsa kuti ndizikhala wofatsa kwambiri pakukula. Ndimamva ngati ndikufunika kudzilimbitsa ndekha kuti cholinga changa chitadzakwaniritsidwa. Komabe, chilakolakochi chinayamba kutuluka mu zolaula zanga. Vutoli pakati pamakhalidwe anga ndikulephera kuthana ndi vutoli (komanso libido yanga yonse) lidadzetsa mkangano waukulu wauzimu mkati mwanga. Ulendo wotsatira wa chowonadi ndichinthu chomwe ndingangonena kuti "chamtchire".
Ndidaphunzira nzeru zilizonse zomwe ndingafikire - Chihindu, Chibuda, zamatsenga, nthano zaku Norse, masukulu akulu akulu azafilosofi, ndi machitidwe ambiri azodzithandizira amakono & zapamwamba zauzimu. Gawo lirilonse limandibweretsera zochepa zomwe ndimamvetsetsa kuti ndi "Choonadi".
Ngakhale ndikukula kwamkati uku, ndinali nditagwirabe khola lopangidwa ndi PMO. Zomwe ndikudziwa tsopano ndikuti ndinali mndende yamalo abwino. Ndidayimitsa ntchito akangofika povuta kwambiri. Ndidakhala ndikulankhula mwamantha chifukwa cha mantha. Kunali kuopa kukhala wopanda pake & osakwaniritsa cholinga changa chomwe chidapitabe patsogolo. Koma mutha kungopita patali ndikuopa kuti ndichokhacho chomwe chikukukankhirani.
Nditamaliza koleji ndinayesa kugwiritsa ntchito digiri yanga ndipo ndinapeza ntchito yayikulu yopanga mapulogalamu. Sindingasinthe dziko lapansi pamalowo, choncho ndidasiya miyezi itatu pambuyo pake kuti ndikwaniritse maloto anga oti ndidzakhale mphunzitsi wa moyo. Ndinachita zinthu zambiri molakwika, koma mantha anali chinthu chachikulu kwambiri munjira yanga. Sindingathe kudzipereka, ndipo sindinathe kuyika maola tsiku lililonse kuti ndizigwiritse ntchito. Nthawi zonse ndinkatha kugwira ntchito kusukulu chifukwa ndimaopa kuti tsiku lomaliza lindikakamiza, koma pomwe ndimapanga ndandanda yanga, zolinga zanga, ndi ntchito yanga, sindimatha kudziwa momwe ndingagwiritsire ntchito molimbika.
Ndikuzindikira tsopano kuti izi zinali zotsatira zachindunji zomwe ndimakonda zolaula komanso moyo wokonda kusewera makanema apa vidiyo. Ndinali kapolo wokonda kukhutira pompopompo ndipo lingaliro lofunitsitsa kudzipereka mwaufulu chifukwa cha phindu lalitali (popanda mantha akundiyendetsa mtsogolo) zinali zopinga zokhazokha komanso zowoneka ngati zosagonjetseka. Ndimamva kuti ndinali mphunzitsi wabwino kwambiri (kuphunzitsa kumabwera mwachilengedwe ngati madzi akumwa), koma kuyendetsa bizinesi ndipo kupeza makasitomala kudagwa kunja kwa malo anga achitetezo kotero ndidatsekedwa.
Kuphatikiza apo, ndizovuta kwambiri kukhala mphunzitsi wopanda chidwi kapena omvera. Ndinkangomva ngati sindimadziwa yemwe ndimayenera kumatumikira. Chifukwa chake poyesa kulephera kumaloto ndi mantha obwerera kuntchito yosakondera ya 9-5 ikundiyang'ana pankhope - china chake chinadina mkati mwanga. Sindikudziwa momwe ndingafotokozere zina kupatula "kaphatikizidwe mozizwitsa". Ndinabwereranso ku Chikatolika, chipembedzo chomwe ndidabadwira, koma ndikuwona chowonadi cha zipembedzo zina zonse ndi malingaliro anzeru kuposa kale. Kuti ndigwiritse ntchito chingwe, ndinapeza Yesu. Kapena, Anandipeza.
Kuchoka pamenepo ndidadalitsika ndikutha kuwona zolakwitsa zanga zonse ndikumveka kochititsa chidwi kotero kuti ndidatsitsidwa munjira yozama kwambiri kotero kuti idandisinthira pachimake. M'malo moyesa kukhala wamphamvuyonse kudzera mukukweza nokha, ndimangofuna kuphunzira momwe ndingatumikire mawu abwino kwambiri. Inali nthawi imeneyi pamene ndinayamba kufunafuna kwamasiku a 90. Ndinayamba kuphunzira kuthamangitsa mavuto. Ndidaphunzira kuthana ndi ziwanda zanga ndikuziwalola kuti azindisilira ndikundilala. Ndaphunzira momwe ndingamupezere Yudasi mkati mwanga, ndikumukumbatira mwachikondi. Podzipereka ku Izi, ndapeza cholinga changa.
Mwina ena ainu mukuwadziwa Ntchito Yopatulika Yogonana. Ndidayamba kuchita a vlog pa youtube. Mothandizidwa ndi dera lino, ndikuyandikira kuwonera 40k & pafupifupi olembetsa a 1k. Sindingathe kuthokoza nonsenu chifukwa chothandizidwa mokwanira! Pamwamba pa izo, ndakhala ndikuti anthu azikhala pamzere wophunzitsira popanda kufunsa. Ndikumva ngati gawo lililonse la moyo wanga landitsogolera mpaka pano ndikundikonzekeretsa kuti ndithandizire potengera nkhaniyi. Ndikuganiza kuti vutoli lakwanitsa kupanga zinthu zokwanira, ndipo ndikufuna kuchita zonse zomwe ndingathe kuti ndiyambe kupanga zinthu kukhala zabwino.
O, ndipo ine nditha kuyang'ana ndi kung'amba ntchito ngati chinjoka chamasamba tsopano. The chizolowezi chaukadaulo ndiye amene akuyendetsa ntchito yanga tsopano ndipo mantha oti ndende idaphwanyidwa chifukwa cha NoFap! Ndikukonzekera zinthu zabwino zomwe ndasangalala kwambiri kugawana nanu nonse
Cholemba ichi chikutalika kwambiri, chifukwa chake ndikungofuna kukuthokozani nonse kuchokera pansi pamtima. Pali zambiri zoti tinene, koma ndizisunga nthawi ina. Mwachidule, ndikungofuna kukutumikirani nonse momwe ndingathere.
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