Moni uwu ndi gawo langa loyamba paulendo wanga watsopano kuti ndikabwezeretsenso chidaliro chomwe ndidakhala nacho kale. Kuti ndiyambe ndinene kuti ndakhala ndikugwiritsa ntchito zolaula kuyambira zaka za 14, pomwe ndidapeza makolo anga akuchita manyazi. Munthu ngati ine ndikanangobwerera mu nthawi kuti ndidziime ndekha ndikanatero.
Ndili ndi zaka 23 tsopano ndipo ndikunena zowona kuti zolaula zawononga ubale uliwonse womwe ndikadakhala nawo ndi mkazi. Ndipo chifukwa cha nkhawa yanga komanso chidaliro changa chomwe ndidakali namwali mpaka lero. Ndabwera pafupi nthawi zambiri kutaya khadi yanga ya v koma mantha oti sindingathe kuchita nthawi zonse amandilepheretsa kusindikiza mgwirizano. Komabe izi sizongokhudza kugonana, ndikufuna moyo wanga ubwerere. Ndili ndi maloto ndipo ndine wofunitsitsa kuwamenyera.
Ndine Woyimba ndipo ndikuyamba kuwona kuti ndikugwiradi ntchito yanga ndipo zolaula sizingakhale chifukwa chomwe ndalephera. Ndiyenera zambiri kuchokera m'moyo kuposa izi. Ndikukhulupirira ndili ndi mphamvu zokwanira tsopano kuti ndikumane ndi chiwanda ichi ndikupambana. Ndimadzikhulupirira. Pomwe ndikulemba izi ndatsala masiku asanu ndi limodzi kuti ndikhale wodekha. Cholinga ndikupanga mpaka moyo wanga wonse osagwiritsanso ntchito zolaula, Kuti ndipitilize kupanga nyimbo ndikupanga ntchito yanga ndikupeza msungwana wabwino woti ndigawane naye chilichonse.
Sindilephera. Ndataya nthawi yochuluka monga momwe zilili. Ndikonza zonse ndili mwana. sipadzakhalanso chinthu chakale chomwecho. Moyo wanga watsopano ukuyamba tsopano.
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Tsiku 31 No PMO
Moyo wopanda zolaula siophweka, komabe si zolaula zomwe zimapangitsa kuti zikhale zovuta. Kusintha kwake kwamphamvu komanso mphamvu. Sabata yatha mwina inali sabata yanga yotsikitsitsa kwambiri, ndimangomva kuti ndili ndekhandekha komanso wokhumudwa ndikakhala ndi nkhawa. Koma kwa tsiku limodzi kapena awiri apitawa malingaliro anga akuwoneka kuti akubwerera kuzinthu zabwino pazinthu. Ndinawona kuti ndiyambanso kukopa akazi, zomwe zili zabwino. Ndilibe bwenzi la atsikana koma ngati izi zikupitilirabe bwino ndikukhala olimba sindikuwona chifukwa chomwe sindinapeze.
Tsiku 44 - Chifunga
Kuyambira pomwe ndidayamba ulendowu ndakumana ndi magawo ambiri. nthawi zina zinthu zimangokhala ngati chimwemwe chenicheni, nthawi zina ndimakhala ndikungoyenda mumdima wachisokonezo. Zomwe zachitika tsopano ndikuti maiko awiriwa agundana. Ndili ndi imvi, malo akuda kwambiri osasangalatsa. Ndikuganiza kuti anthu amatcha izi. Kaya ndi chiyani sindimachikonda. Ndimasowa masiku amenewo pomwe ndimamva kucheza komanso kukhala wamphamvu ngati ndili ndi mphamvu zambiri zondizungulira. Pakadali pano ndikumva kuti ndili kutali ndi chilichonse. Sikumverera kofananako komwe ndinali nako kale, koma nthawi yomweyo kumverera kosungulumwa chimodzimodzi.
Tsiku 52 m'maola awiri. Odwala izi kuyambiranso
Ndakhala ndi maloto awiri onyowa sabata latha. Zomwe ndimasankha zimachitika pafupipafupi, komabe osati pamlingo womwe ndimayembekezera kuti adzakhala. Ndikuganiza kuti zisintha pakapita nthawi. Ndatopanso kwambiri masiku awiri apitawa. Sindikudziwa kuti ndi chiyani koma zikundikwiyitsa. Ndimakhala ndi mtsikana amene ndimamukonda ndipo amandikonda ndipo ndimamva ngati izi zikuwononga chilichonse. Palibe chomwe chimangokhalapo ndi izi popanda china koma chokwera komanso chokhazikika. Ndikufuna kufika pamalo abwino ndikachira komwe ndingathe kupita patsogolo ndi msungwana uyu, koma pakadali pano sindikukhulupirira kuti ndikonzeka. Ndipo sindikufuna kuti amudikire. Ndikumva kukhala wokakamira, Zachidziwikire sindibwereranso sindikufuna kuonera zolaula. Ndine wokonzeka kwenikweni kupita patsogolo koma ndimamva ngati ubongo wanga suli. 🙁
Tsiku 62 - Ndikufuna abwenzi abwinoko
Kuwunikira pang'ono za njira yanga mpaka pano. Zomwe ndimasankha zili bwino, komabe ndikuwoneka kuti ndikulowa ndikutuluka. Mzere waposachedwawu wakhala wowala bwino. Nthawi zambiri pamakhala kukhumudwa komwe kumalumikizidwa nawo. Ndazindikira kuyambira pomwe ndidayamba ulendowu kuti nthawi yanga yolumikizana imakhala yocheperako. Tikukhulupirira kuti izi zikutanthauza kuti ubongo wanga watsala pang'ono kuchira. Kutha kwanga kuphunzira zinthu kumawonekeranso kuti kwakula. Ndimamva kukhala wolimba mtima. Ine kokha ndikungogonabe pang'ono. Pali masiku omwe ndimakumana ndi zomwe zimamveka ngati mphamvu yayikulu, nditha kugwira ntchito pazinthu zambiri ndikukwaniritsa zambiri. Komabe masiku ambiri mphamvu zanga zili pafupifupi theka. Sindimakhalanso ndi nkhawa kwambiri ndi anthu, koma posachedwapa sindimafuna kulankhula kwambiri, makamaka ndi amuna ena.
Mwina mwina masabata awiri apitawa ndakhala ndikulankhula mosadukiza, ndikundiuza mokweza kuti "Mukufuna abwenzi abwino !!! Nchifukwa chiyani mukungokhala pafupi ndi otayikawa? ukuchita chiyani? " Liwu limenelo limangokhalira kundifuula ndikundifuula mpaka zomwe sindingachitire mwina koma kuchitapo kanthu. ndikuganizira momwe anzanga omwe amawatcha kuti amawoneka opanda ulemu nthawi zonse. Ndikuganiza kuti ino ndi nthawi yabwino kuti mupite patsogolo. Tsopano nditha kupitiliza kulemba njira zomwe anthu awa ali amisala, koma ndimakonda kuziyika motere ndikusintha ngati munthu, ndimagwira ntchito molimbika ndikuphunzira, ndimalota ndikusunga ndalama ndili ndi zolinga zanga zamtsogolo, ndikupeza ntchito yanga yamazinyo, ndakhala munthu wabwinoko koma anthu omwe ali pafupi nane sali, sachita zomwe ndikuchita, sikuti amangoyimira zomwe ndikuyesera kuti ndichokemo koma ndi mphamvu chabe osesa madzi ambiri. Ndikufuna kudziwa komwe ndingapeze anzanga abwino, koma m'malo mwake ndikuganiza kuti ndiwalola kuti andipeze, ndikuganiza momwemo momwe chilengedwe chimagwirira ntchito nthawi zina. timapeza zomwe tikufuna tikasiya kuzifunafuna.
Lero ndi Tsiku 90 palibe zolaula
Chodabwitsa chake ndili nacho mpaka pano. zimawoneka ngati dzulo lomwe ndidayambitsa zonsezi koma ndidazipanga, sizinali zophweka koma ndidazichita.
Ndikuganiza kuti Ill ndichita pang'ono tsopano ndikulemba mtundu wazinthu zingapo zomwe ndapeza kuyambira kusiya zolaula.
Pamaso:
- Matumbo oyipa tsiku lililonse
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- Kukhumudwa Kwofatsa
- Nditha kugona tsiku lonse ndikudzutsa ngati ndikusowa
- osayang'ana
- ndinamverera kuti ndafa mkati
- amadzimva kuti anyalanyazidwa ndikuwoneka
- kupweteka kumutu kwambiri
Tsopano:
- Palibe nkhawa konse
- Palibe Kukhumudwa
- Palibe Okhala ndi ED (Komabe osati 100%)
- Kwambiri zosavuta kuyang'ana ndi kukhala ndi chidwi
- Ndimaphunzira ndikumvetsetsa zinthu mosavuta.
- palibe kusintha kwa malingaliro
- Ndine wamoyo mkati
- sindinakhalepo ndi mutu kwa kanthawi
- m'mimba ndibwino
- Komabe osati gulugufe wachikhalidwe koma kulikonse komwe ndimapitako anthu amalankhula kwa ine, makamaka azimayi 😀
- kugona ndikwabwino ndipo nthawi zambiri ndimatha kusiya zochepa
- mawu okuya
- tsitsi zambiri
Kusintha kwakukulu komwe ndikutsimikiziranso ndi malingaliro anga athanzi. Ndimadzimva kuti ndili ndi nkhawa zambiri ndipo ndimadzilamulira ndekha. Anthu omwe ali pafupi ndi ine sangathe kundipotoza ndi chilichonse chomwe achita. Ndimatenga zinthu zochepa pandekha ndipo ndimakhala wokondwa kwambiri ndi ine ndekha, sindikuwona kufunika kopangitsa aliyense kusangalala kapena kuyesa kuthetsa mavuto awo. Anthu atha kundilandira kapena kutulutsa chiwembucho, ndipo ndauza angapo "Omwe amatchedwa abwenzi" kuti achite zomwezo. Sindine wopusa.
Pakhala pali kusintha kwa malingaliro anga okhudza kugonana ndi akazi. Zonsezi zandipangitsa kuzindikira kuti ndimakonda komanso kusilira akazi. Ndimawakonda, ndimawalemekeza ndipo sindimakonda kuwawona akuchitiridwa nkhanza. Komabe kuchoka pa zolaula kwapangitsa kuti ndisadzapusitsenso mkazi. Ndimadzilemekeza kwambiri. Ndikuvomereza azimayi ena m'mbuyomu kuti ndakhala "inde bambo". Ndimawapatsa chilichonse chomwe angafune, chilichonse; kungoti ndisonyeze kuti ndimasamala. Poyembekeza kuti andikondanso. koma sizinagwire ntchito. Ndinazindikira kuti kalekale za ine. Sindinathe kumvetsetsa chifukwa chake ndimakhala wopusa pankhani ya azimayi omwe ndimafuna. Sindinakhale choncho nthawi zonse. Koma tsopano chifukwa chosiya zolaula nditha kunena kuti ndachoka. Ndikuganiza kuti amayi atha kutenganso izi chifukwa ndikulumbira kuti amandiyang'ana mosiyana kwambiri tsopano. Ndikulakalaka zokhumba zanga zikadakhala 100% kachiwiri ndiye ndikadakhala wabwino.
Komabe ndizo zonse zomwe ndiyenera kunena. Masiku 90 ndi chiyambi chabe, moyo wanga wonse ndiyenera kusunga izi, kotero kondwerani ndi izo!
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