Ndine wamwamuna wazaka za 23, ndakhala ndikuchita zolaula zolaula kuyambira ndili 12, 13 wazaka. Panthawiyi, ndidavutika ndi nkhawa yamagulu, kusokoneza zokakamiza ndikugwiritsa ntchito mowa ndi mphika kuti ndikhazikike ndikukhazikika maganizo.
Sindinakhalepo ndi chibwenzi ndipo kawiri ndinayesa kugona ndi atsikana sindinathe kuyimilira chifukwa chamalingaliro anga kundiuza zinthu.
Ndinathedwa nzeru, ndipo sindimadziwa choti ndichite. Ndinasiya kuseweretsa maliseche ndikuwonera zolaula pa 6/4/2014 ngati njira yomaliza. Kusintha kwakhala kopambana. Ndikumva ngati ndikukhala moyo watsopano. OCD wanga wapita, nkhawa zanga zatha ndipo ndili pafupi kukhala ndi chibwenzi. Ndili ndi mphamvu zambiri moti ndimasewera kapena kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi tsiku lililonse.
Kuphatikiza ndi kusinkhasinkha ndidakhazika mtima pansi ndikukhazikika kwanga kuli bwino kuposa kale lonse. Ndinasiya kumwa chifukwa chodzidalira ndikumwamba ndipo ndimamva ngati ndikutha kuyankhula ndi msungwana aliyense masiku ano. Sindikudziwa choti ndinene kenanso. Ndinayesa kuuza anzanga kuti asiye omwe nawonso amakonda zolaula koma sakufuna kumvera. Ndizamanyazi. Ndikungofuna kunena kuti kupitiliza kumenya nkhondo ndikofunikira.
Ndikupatsani moni, NoFapers.
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