Zaka 24 - Kumenya HOCD = Kupulumutsa moyo wanga

Ndikamba nkhani yanga apa. Ogasiti 23, 2012
 
Zaka zapitazi pang'onopang'ono ndinayamba kukhala ndi malingaliro ogonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha - ndizosowa kwambiri. Nthawi ina, ndikubwera kuchokera kuphwando, ndimaganiza "bwanji ngati ndigonana ndi mnyamata?". Ndipo inde, ndinali ndi chizolowezi zolaula, nthawi zonse kuseweretsa maliseche ndikuganiza zongopeka zamisala (kuphatikiza amuna okhaokha). Koma sizinasokoneze malingaliro anga azakugonana. Chifukwa chake, nditakhala ndi ED ndi mayi wina wachikulire, adandifunsa "kodi ndiwe gay?". Kenako malingaliro anga adachotsedwa. Chifukwa ndimaganiza ndekha "kodi Tanthauzo la malingaliro amiseche omwe ndinali nawo kale ndi ati?". Kodi ndingatani ngati ndili ndi mbali yogonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha? HOCD yanga ndi Spectrum imodzi, pomwe simungaleke kukayikira ngati muli ndi "ohter mbali".
 
Kotero ine ndiri ndi OCD. Kupemphako kunali kovuta, ndidadzipha, ndidawononga moyo wanga ndi zonse zomwe mudazolowera.Sanathe chaka chimodzi ndidamenya OCD, ndimagwiritsa ntchito njira ya Schwertz ndi ena. Ndazindikira YBOP ndipo ndikudziwa ndapanga ulalo. Chifukwa chiyani zovuta zanga nthawi zonse zimakhala ZOKHUDZA ndipo samayendererana ndi mnyamata? Zachidziwikire chifukwa womaliza ndimatha kutaya nthawi yomweyo ngati chinthu chomwe ndimanyansidwa nacho ndipo sindidzachita. Chifukwa chake ndidayamba kuganiza kuti kukondweretsedwa ndikumatha kutsimikizira muubongo wanga kuti kugonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha kumakhala kopindulitsa kenako ndikukhala ndi moyo wanga - chifukwa sindine gay, sindinakhalepo, sipadzakhalanso.

Kodi ndizotheka kuti chizoloŵezi chokwera chimachititsa HOCD?

LANGANI PAKUTI PA LERO- Kudana

 

August 23, 2012

Hei anyamata, zikomo chifukwa cha mayankho. Pakadali pano, ndidamenya HOCD. Ndimakhala ndi lingaliro limodzi nthawi zina koma ndimawachotsa mosavuta. Ndikumva ngati kale komanso zozizwitsa. Chowonadi chokhudza OCD ndikuti simungathe kuzolowera mantha omwe amakupangitsani kumva. Ndinali nacho kwa chaka chimodzi ndipo sindinazolowere mantha, kusamva bwino ndikukaika, poganiza kuti ndiyenera kuvomereza kuti ndine amuna okhaokha. Izi sizili mbali yathu, sitidzakhala omasuka nazo ndipo ndizomwezo. Ndimamukhulupirira Gary kuti malingaliro azakugonana sasintha, adalemba zaka zathu zoyambirira. Chifukwa chake ngakhale atakhala ndi malingaliro angati azakugonana ndi zolaula chifukwa chodzutsa chilakolako, palibe chomwe chingasinthe momwe mumakhalira komanso malingaliro azakugonana. Ndikuvomerezabe akamati HOCD itha kuchitapo kanthu. Nkhaniyi ili motere, anyamata a HOCD amangogwira ntchito ngati OCD ili yovuta, ndipo sadzachitapo kanthu chifukwa amafuna mopitilira muyeso koma kuti athetse mavuto osatsimikizika. Nthawi zambiri, kufunikira kodziwa HOCD kubwezera njira zingapo.

Zomwe zikuchitika kwa ine ndikudziwa ndikusintha kwamaganizidwe. Tsatani malingaliro awa okhudzana ndi kukondweretsedwa, nthawi zonse kufunafuna zolaula kapena kanema wotsatira, pewani moyo wamatsenga.

Kwa inu anyamata omwe muli ndi HOCD, ngati mukufuna nditha kutumiza zinthu zomwe ndidalemba ndili pachimake pakuzigonjetsa. Ingofunsani. Ndipo ngati munthu wina akukhulupirira kuti kukopeka kumeneku kukhoza kusokoneza malingaliro ena ndikuyambitsa OCD, lembani!

 

August 23, 2012

Inde ironworld, ndinkakonda kukhala ndi malingaliro komanso zokonda zambiri - chinthu chatsopano - kenako, pang'onopang'ono, ndidayamba kufunsa kuti "ngati ndingadzutsidwe ndi zokhumbazi, mwina pali gawo langa lomwe limakondwera nazo". Pomwe ndikupemphako, ndinali wotsimikiza za kugonana kwanga monga inu koma kenako, pang'onopang'ono, ndinayamba kukayikira ndekha. Ndinayamba "kumva" kugonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha, kumva kuti pali gawo lina la ine lomwe lingasangalale. Kenako imafika tsiku lomwe mkazi uja adandifunsa kuti "ndiwe gay?". Ndipo ndidati "ayi!". Ndipo ndidadziwa kuti sindinali. Koma nthawi yomweyo funso linabwera "ndipo izo ndi izo ndi zongopeka?". Chifukwa chake ndimaganiza zokweza malingaliro. Adabwera 1000 worser kudzandisaka. Ndili ndi OCD.

Oyera O, OCD amangotchula zowonera zokha, ndizokhudza kupondereza malingaliro. Zogonana, zotukwana, zogonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha. Ichi ndichifukwa chake 100% ndimakhulupirira kuti zolaula zimatha kuyambitsa OCD. Zithunzi zolaula zimatha kukupangitsani kukhala ndi malingaliro okhudzana ndi zinthu zomwe mumawona ngati zonyansa poyamba, kuti inu mukukhulupirira kuti ndizosayenera. Monga gay. Anthu ogonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha ndi amuna okhaokha, amakonda amuna anzawo monga momwe timakondera akazi. Kuyambira ndili mwana, sindimaganizirapo ndipo nthawi zonse ndimawawona amuna ndi amuna odabwitsa kwambiri. Koma nditatha zolaula, ndimayamba kukondweretsedwa ndi zinthu zoterezi. Chifukwa chake mumadzichitira mantha ndipo simungathenso kuthana ndi zoyipa. Ngati sindimagonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha, ndichifukwa chiyani ndimadzutsidwa ndi chidwi chogonana ndi amuna kapena akazi okhaokha? (malingaliro olakwika)

Mukakhala ndi OCD mumaganizira za kugonana, kugonana amuna kapena akazi okhaokha, chilichonse, nthawi zonse. Monga onse m'moyo ndi izi. Zowonera ndizopenga zomwe simudzachita. Ndipo mukakhala ndi OCD, ndikukuuzani, ndibwino musakhale nazo chifukwa zikuvuta kuti muchepetse nkhawa. Ndinkakhala maola 6 patsiku ndikuyesa kusanthula ndikuzindikira momwe ndimakondera - kukakamizidwa kwakukulu, kuthana ndi malingaliro.

 

September 22, 2012

KULUMIKIZANA NDI POST: KUTHANDIZA munthu wa 1001 kuchiritsa ED - Zikomo YBOP & YBR chifukwa chopulumutsa moyo wanga!

Zizindikiro za nthawi za PMO ndi zotsatira zake

- Amakhala wotopa nthawi zonse, osakhoza kupumula, amafunika kugona nthawi yayitali

- Osachepera pang'ono opsinjika, nthawi yambiri atapanikizika kwambiri, adalira kwambiri

- Zowawa zambiri ndi mphekesera zikuchitika

- Khalani ndi nkhawa zamagulu, ndikumverera kuti sindingathe kudzitchinjiriza kwa anthu ena

- Libido ikuchepa pazaka, mpaka pomwe palibe libido

- Ndinkakonda kucheza ndi atsikana ambiri (ndipo ndimawakonda), koma libido yanga itatha, ndinayamba kuda nkhawa kwambiri ndikakhala pafupi nawo

- Sindinathe kusewera pabedi ndipo ndinataya atsikana angapo omwe ndimawakonda

- Ngakhale ndimatha kuchita bwino, pitilizani kutaya zovuta panthawi yophatikizana kenako ndikupanga Kuda Nkhawa

- Ndataya zaka zabwino kwambiri zaunyamata wanga ndipo sizidzabweranso

- Nditapeza zero libido, ndinapanga HOCD, ndinataya chaka chimodzi cha moyo wanga ndikuphunzira kumenya ndikuchepetsa ubongo wanga

- HOCD yanga inali Spectrum imodzi, mukamadzifunsa kuti "ndili ndi mbali ina?", Chifukwa cha zomwe zikukwera ndikulakalaka

Pambuyo Kuyambiranso

- Chepetsani maola anayi usiku uliwonse, dzutsani mpumulo wambiri, ndi mphamvu zambiri

- Sipadzakhalanso zokhumudwitsa, zowawa ndi nkhawa - ndipo ndizomwezo!

- Palibenso nkhawa zamagulu, kumverera "alpha" ndikudzidalira nthawi zonse

- Kumva bwino nthawi zonse, zomwe zinali zatsopano, kusangalala ndi zochitika za tsiku ndi tsiku

- Kupititsa patsogolo kukumbukira ndi kusinkhasinkha

- Libido wabwerera, wakopedwanso ndi atsikana enieni

- Zosintha zingapo masana

- Zosavuta kwambiri kukhala ndi zosunthika - ndipo ndi momwe ziyenera kukhalira!

- Mutha kupeza zovuta ndi malingaliro okondana osati zongoganizira zogonana zokha

- Pezani ma horny, erections, koma osati zikhumbo zazikulu zamatsenga

Malangizo pa Kuyambiranso

-Udzaonanso zolaula. Mukasiya kuwona zolaula mpaka kalekale, ngakhale mutakhala kuti mukuyambiranso kuyenda, kusisita maliseche sikungafanane ndipo mwina kukubwezerani bwino

- Muyenera kuyesayesa KUSAIMA MASITI momwe mungathere. Ndikuwona anthu ambiri akubwereranso pambuyo pa masiku 15 ndipo ndichinthu chopusa kuchita, chifukwa masabata a 2 ndi nthawi yomwe thupi lanu limafunikira

- Muyeneranso kupewa chiwerewere pogonana nawonso! Dikirani mpaka mutayambiranso ndikuganiza za kugonana mtsogolo. Kapena mudzakhala ndi chiwerewere pakati pa PE, DE, ED kapena china ndikupangitsani kuti muyambirenso nthawi yayitali

- Pewani, pewani, pewani

- Pewani malingaliro panthawi yoyambiranso (koma osapanikizika kwambiri, inu OSA sinthani ufulu wanu ndi malingaliro anu)

- Sindinadziwe momwe ndingayambitsire ndendende, chifukwa chake ndinayambiranso kugonana nthawi zina! Chifukwa cha izi mwina kuyambiranso kwanga kumatenga nthawi yayitali. Koma ndikukulangizani anyamata, zimatenga nthawi, kwa ine kuli bwino kuganizira miyezi 6-8 kuposa miyezi 2-3

- Mukamapita patsogolo, zofuna zanu zimakhala zofooka, ndiye kuti ichi ndi chizindikiro chabwino. Kukhala wokhoza kupirira zilakolako ndi kusiya popanda kubwereranso ndiye maziko osinthika

- Pazomwe zandichitikira, mukafika pamalo otsetsereka osalakalakanso chilichonse, mwatsala pang'ono kuyambiranso

- Mukayambitsanso kwathunthu muli ndi zovuta makumi masana masana, zimakhala zosavuta, mudzakhala ndi vuto alibe iwo

Iyi ndi njira yovuta komanso yokhumudwitsa, ingolumikizani! NDI YOFUNIKA KWAMBIRI

SIPADZAKHALANSO ZOTHANDIZA KWA PORN ZOTHANDIZA ED, TIYENERETSE YBOP

 

ZOCHITITSA: Marichi 23, 2014

Zaka 2 tsopano - ndakhala ndikuchita chiyani? ; D (atsikana oyamwa, ndi zomwe)
Ndinakhala nthawi yayitali kutali ndi msonkhanowo. Sindinkafuna kubwerera koma imakhalabe ndi imelo yanga kotero anyamata ena andifunsa inbox za moyo wanga tsopano. Kenako ndidaganiza zobwerera kudzanena zomwe zikuchitika. Ndiyambiranso zonyamula zanga kuno: Ndinakhala kutali ndi zolaula chaka chimodzi molunjika. Chaka chimodzi osayang'ana wosewera. M'chaka chachiwiri ndimayang'ana makanema olaula nthawi yayitali mchaka. M'chaka choyamba ndidakhala masiku a 1 opanda zolaula komanso maliseche koma ndimakhala ndi vuto la atsikana. Sindinakhalepo masiku opitilira 60 opanda zolaula. Sindikulimbikitsa izi, ndi nkhani yanga chabe. Ndidayambiranso izi kwa miyezi isanu ndi itatu mpaka chaka chimodzi. Zimandithandiza. Ngati inu mukufuna kudziwa zambiri werengani zolemba zakale- - Sindinganene kuchuluka kwa ED yanga inali nkhawa yakuchita komanso kuchuluka kwa zolaula komwe kunapangitsa ED. Koma sizinali kokha nkhawa zantchito. Chifukwa chake izi zidandithandiza. Komanso nditayambiranso zinthu, kusowa kwa chiwonetsero kumakupangitsani kuti mufune kutulutsa umuna. Chifukwa chake nditakumana ndi mtsikana wanga Dick wanga anali ovuta 1050%. Chifukwa chake ndimakhala wolimba komanso ndimathamanga ngakhale ndili ndi nkhawa yayikulu panthawiyo. Izi zidakulitsa kudzidalira kwanga. 

- Kuti mumalize kudandaula nkhawa zimatha kukhazikitsa pansi malingaliro anu ndi MINDFULNESS MEDITATION. Ngati muli ndi 1% yamavuto amachitidwe Chitani izi tsopano! Phunzirani ndipo tsanzirani ku nkhawa. Chilichonse chimayenda bwino mukakhazikika. Iyi ndi mfundo yofunika kwambiri, musaphonye. Ndinaphunzira ndikusinkhasinkha tsiku lililonse munthawi yazaka ziwirizi. Zimandithandiza kwambiri.

- Pazaka zanga ziwiri ndikuchira ndidakumana ndi ma ED angapo. Koma tsopano ndikumva bwino, sizinachitikenso. Ndipo tsiku lina likachitika, sindidzasamala chifukwa silabwino.

- Sindimakhala ndi ma horny ambiri masana. Sindinakhale "chilombo chogonana" koma ndikagona ndi atsikana ndimagwedezeka. Ndichoncho. Sindinakhalenso wazaka 15 zakubadwa mopitilira muyeso wamafuta. Kapena munthu wapamwamba kwambiri momwe ndimaganizira ndikadayambiranso. Ndine wazaka 24 yemwe adagwa pakama. Ndine wabwinobwino. Ndizomwezo.

- Ndimachita maliseche tsiku lililonse. Nditha kuseweretsa maliseche tsiku lina ndikuthamangitsa mtsikana tsiku lina. Palibe vuto. Ingolimbani kuti mumve koma ndizo zonse.

- Sindikufuna kuwona zolaula. Ndikalowa malo oonera zolaula ndimawona kuti ndi olumala. Ndizopusa kuwona anthu ena akuyamba kufuula. Makanema olaula ndi achinyengo komanso abodza kapena onyansa. Musawone zolaula. Ndichoncho.

Malangizo anga kwa anyamata pano ndi awa: chitani zomwezo. Chitani mwachifatse. Phunzirani kusamala kuti muphunzire za thupi lanu komanso kuti muchepetse nkhawa za kunenepa.

Zabwino zonse kwa onse!