Ndazindikira kuti ndili patali kwambiri kuposa lipoti langa la masiku 180. Zoti ndachedwa kwambiri kutumiza izi ndichinthu chomwe ndimanyadira nacho. Osandilakwitsa, ndimakonda maofesiwa ndipo ngati ndikadakhala ndi nthawi yochulukirapo, kutenga nawo mbali mderali pafupipafupi ndichinthu chomwe ndingakonde kuchita.
Koma kukhala ndi ufulu wopitiliza ulendo wanga wa NoFap osapitako ku subreddit tsiku lililonse, mpaka pomwe ndimayiwala kuchuluka kwanga kwathunthu, ndichinthu chomwe m'masiku anga oyamba a 90 sichikanatheka. Pazindikirani masiku anga oyambirira a 90, ndikuthokoza nonsenu omwe mumapereka nawo gawo pamisonkhano yomwe idandithandizira mwanjira ina, anthu inu simukuzindikira momwe mwathandizira pamoyo wanga mpaka mutawerenga patsogolo…
Choyamba, zomwe zinandibweretsa ku nofap. Monga anthu ambiri pano, ndinali ndi PIED, pamlingo woti kukhudza kapena zowonera sizingathandize. Zaka zomwe zidanditsogolera ndimavutika ndi PIED koma sindinali m'mabwenzi omwe amalimbikitsa kusintha kwakukulu, mpaka pomwe ndidakumana ndi msungwana yemwe ndili naye tsopano. Ndisanayambe tinayesa kugonana kangapo ndipo sizingagwire ntchito. Ndinkadziwa kuti ndimamukonda msungwanayu koma sindinathe kumugonana. Anali woleza mtima nane, ndipo anali bwino ndi zinthu zina zomwe ndimachita kuti ndimusangalatse, koma ndimafuna kuti ndimupatse zambiri. Tiyenera kudziwa kuti panthawiyo anali atangokhala mdzikolo kwa zaka zingapo, anasamukira ku UK kuchokera kumaboma, ndipo anali ndi zolinga zobwerera. Chifukwa chake, ndidaphunzira za NoFap ndikuganiza, ngati ndikufuna kuyesa kusintha malingaliro ake, ndiyenera kusintha mwa ine, ndikutha kukhala naye pachibwenzi. Ndinasinthanso, monga kusiya kusuta chamba, komanso kusiya kumwa. Zonsezi zidabwera nthawi yomweyo kuyambira nofap kotero inali nthawi yayikulu pakusintha kwa ine.
Ndinali ndi mavuto ambiri ndi NoFap. Osandilakwitsa, izi ndizabwino kwambiri, koma nthawi zina ndimaganiza kuti NoFap ndi yabodza. Ndinazindikira pang'onopang'ono kusintha ndi PIED yanga koma mpaka tsiku 90 kuti ndigone naye, ndipo sizinali zogwirizana. Ndidalepherabe ndalama zokwanira ndipo munthawiyo, ndidatsutsa nkhani zopambana zomwe ndidaziwerenga patsamba lino. Ndinkaona kuti ndine wosiyana ndi ena. Ndikosavuta kulowa mumalingaliro amenewo ndikubwerera m'mbuyo, ndimaganiza ngati zabodza ndiye bwanji ndikulimbana kwambiri? Koma ena momwe, nthawi zonse ndinkalimbana ndi kubwereranso. Pitani patsogolo mpaka pano ndipo moyo wathu wogonana ukutukuka. Kulephera kwanga kuli kochepa kwambiri ndipo mwina 'kwabwinobwino' 10%. Izi zikachitika ndimakhala ngati mowa wambiri, kutopa, ndi zina zambiri. Ngati ndikanati ndiyesere kunena kuti izi zitasintha, ndinganene kuti pofika tsiku la 150 zakhala zikuyenda bwino koma zandilowerera pang'onopang'ono.
Ndiye zasintha bwanji ubale wanga ndi msungwanayu? Usiku watha ndinali ndi usiku wokondana womwe ndinakonzekera. Magetsi amakandulo, vinyo wofiira, chokoleti chamdima wapamwamba, ndikukhala panja ndi nyenyezi zikutiyang'ana Nthawi, tidagwirizana kuti azasamukira kunyumba kwanga mwezi umodzi, ndipo ndidamuwuza kuti ndimamukonda ndipo abweranso! Tidakambirana motalikitsa zakukhosi kwathu ndi chilichonse, ndipo zidapezeka kuti adaganiza kuti sabwerera ku America. Iye ndi wokondwa kukhala ndi moyo pano, ndi ine.
Sindikunena kuti kugonana kwathetsa izi kwa ine. Icho chinali gawo limodzi chabe la izo. Pali zambiri zochuluka kuposa nofap kuposa kugonana, ndipo zambiri mwazomwezi zandipangitsa kuti ndikhale lero. Mutha kufunsa aliyense amene akundidziwa ndipo angakuuzeni kuti ndasintha kwambiri kuchokera kwa munthu yemwe ndinali ku 2013. NoFap idasewera kwambiri. Pazifukwa izi, ndinali nditachoka kwa wina yemwe amaganiza kuti ndipatsa 'zovuta za masiku 90' kupita, kwa munthu amene amasangalala ndi izi ngati gawo la moyo wake wololeza. Ndikupempha ena kuti ayilandire chimodzimodzi chifukwa pokhapo mudzawona zabwino zake zonse.
Ndikufuna kumaliza ndi malingaliro amodzi. Chaka chathachi chakhala chovuta kwambiri, ndinali ndi chikondi cha moyo wanga poyamba kundiuza kuti ndisakhale ndi chiyembekezo cha tsogolo langa, ndinayenera kusiya zinthu zomwe zinali zofunika kwambiri pamoyo wanga watsiku ndi tsiku, ndipo ndakhala nazo kukhala moyo wanga kuchokera kumalo anga abwino, ndipo zonse zimalipira. Chikondi cha moyo wanga chizikhala ndi ine, ndipo iyenso amandikonda. Ndikukhulupirira zopambana zofananira kwa aliyense amene akuyamba ulendowu!
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