Chakumapeto kwa chaka chatha ndidayamba nofap koyamba, ndinali wazaka 24 ndili ndi zibwenzi za 3 zomwe sizingandipangitse kuti ndibwere. Sindinali wowonera kapena wowonera zolaula koma ndimawona ngati vuto kwa ine, ndinalibe kudzidalira pankhani ya akazi koma m'malo ambiri m'moyo wanga chilichonse chinali chabwino. Ndinabwereranso patatha masiku 49. Pambuyo pake ndimabwereranso masiku angapo kapena mpaka pano pafupifupi masabata a 3 kenako mwadzidzidzi ndinatha kumamatira. Kutalika komwe ndidakhala wotsimikiza mtima kwambiri. Pomwe ndimayandikira masiku 90, ndidakumana ndi mtsikana ndipo chifukwa cha zochitika zapadera tonsefe tinkakhala nthawi yayitali limodzi m'masiku 8 oyamba. Tinapsompsana koyamba ndikupitiliza kucheza limodzi. Pambuyo masabata a 2 ndidamupempha kuti akhale bwenzi langa. Sitinagonane milungu iwiri ina. Zinali zofunika kuti ndikhale wokonzeka ndisanagone naye ndipo ndikofunika kuti atsimikizire kuti chibwenzicho chilidi chisanagone.
Ndisanayambe kugonana ndinamuuza kuti ndinali ndi vuto logonana komanso kuti palibe china koma dzanja langa lidandipangitsapo ziwonetsero kale, amaganiza kuti ndimayankhula zoyipa kuti andikonde kwambiri. Nthawi yoyamba yomwe tinagonana zinali zoyipa, sindinakondwere nazo ndipo sanathenso kubwera. Pambuyo pake adafuna kudikirira asanagonane. Tidakambirana zavuto langa ndipo amandithandizira ndipo timangopatula nthawi kuti tikhale bwino wina ndi mnzake popanda kugonana.
Nthawi yotsatira titagonana ndimakhala womasuka naye ... Chifukwa nditatha masekondi 30 ndidabwera. Ndinadabwa komanso kusangalala… Anakhumudwa. Pambuyo pa izi tidapitilizabe kugonana ndipo nditabwerako koyamba ndidakwanitsa kukhala nthawi yayitali ndikutuluka ndipo zocheperazo zidayamba kuchepa za ine ndikubwera kudzamupangitsa kuti abwere. Sindikukumbukira nthawi yoyamba yomwe ndinamupangitsa kuti abwere koma ndikukumbukira masabata a 2 nditangomva kumene ndinamupangitsa kuti abwere nthawi 3 ndipo kumapeto kwake anandiuza kuti anali kugonana kwabwino kwambiri kuposa kale lonse. Kwa miyezi yotsatira tinagonana 3-4 pa tsiku ndipo ndidapitilizabe kusintha.
Tsopano tili pachibwenzi kwa miyezi 4 ndi theka ndipo tangoyamba kumene kukhala limodzi. Chilichonse ndichabwino, timagonana nthawi zonse koma zimangokhala kamodzi kapena kawiri patsiku osati kangapo konse. Tsopano akundiuza kuti ndine bwenzi labwino kwambiri logonana naye.
Ndikukhulupirira kuti vuto langa loyambirira linali m'mutu mwanga, sindikukhulupirira pmo ndiye amene adayambitsa vutoli koma m'malo mokokomeza vutoli. Vuto langa linali kusadzidalira mwa ine ndekha ndikuphatikizidwa ndi kusadziwa zambiri zomwe ndinkachita nazo manyazi chifukwa cha msinkhu wanga.
Nthawi zina ndakhala ndikusowa chibwenzi koma ndikangomva kuti ndachiritsidwa. Koma ndimangoganiza ngati tikhala kuti tikhala masiku ochepa, ndipo ndimangochita naye pafoni. Osati ndekha. Ngati ndili ndi moyo wogonana wokhutiritsa sindiyenera kusefa. Posachedwa tinayamba kuonera zolaula limodzi koma sindidzawonanso zolaula popanda kumuonera ndi iye. Chifukwa chokha chomwe timaonera zolaula ndikupeza malingaliro pazinthu zatsopano zomwe tingayesere.
Chifukwa chaulendo wapafupifupi chaka chimodzi ndikupita komwe ndili. Moyo ndi wodabwitsa, kugonana ndi kodabwitsa ndipo ndine wokondwa.
LINK - Palibe kupambana kwakabodza, kugonana kodabwitsa komanso ubale wautali.
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