Sindibwereza zambiri zomwe ndidalemba kale [pansipa], koma mwachidule, ndimasinthasintha zolakwika m'moyo wanga kwanthawi yayitali kwambiri. Poyamba sindinkadziwa chifukwa chake, koma ndidayamba kudandaula zazomwe ndimakhala nazo zomwe sindinazindikirepo. Wanzeru anzanga ndinakunkha chigolopolo. Sukulu zanga zidatsika.
(Chabwino, makalasi awiri adatsikira. Palibe mtengo waukulu, koma zokwanira momwe zidandikakamiza kuti ndisiye sukulu kwakanthawi.) Ndidanyalanyaza ma bizinesi anga, ndipo moyo wonse udali wosasangalatsa. Ndikudziwa kuti matendawa siali ovuta monga ena mu tsambali, koma mosatengera momwe zinthu ziliri, ndimadziwa kuti kusintha kunali kofunikira zinthu zisanachitike. Tsiku lina ndinapumira m'mabuku ena okhudzana ndi PMO ndipo nthawi yomweyo ndinamva kuti ndiyenera kuwombera chinthu chomwe si cha PMO. [Pazosalemba, ndimangokhala ndimatimu ndi zinthu za lesbo.]
Poyamba ndimakonda kuwerengera masiku anga kwa sabata ndi theka, koma zitatha izi ndidayima ndikuti 'fuck it.' Palibe njira yoti musiye. Pambuyo pa masiku pafupifupi 10 ndidayimitsa kutsatira, ndikuchotsa zonse zomwe zidandichitikira, ndikusiya kuzizira. Sindinkafuna kuti izi zikhale za PMO basi. Izi zinali zakuti ndikhale wabwino. Masabata angapo oyambilira anali ovuta kumenya nkhondo, koma nditafika pachiwonetsero choyamba, kunali kochokera koyambira komweko kupitilira. Miyezi ingapo pambuyo pake ndipo tsopano ndimakhala ngati ndikulambiranso. Ndikuphunzira zambiri pa maphunziro, ntchito, komanso moyo wanga. Kuwala kwam'maganizo, kumveka bwino, ndi chidaliro chomwe ndidasiya kale zatsala pang'ono kubwerera.
Ndabwereranso sukulu posachedwa ndipo ndimagogoda chilichonse mwachangu, moyenera, komanso ndimamayendedwe apamwamba. Ndipo ngakhale luso langa lolankhula pagulu siliri lofanana ndi lakale, nthawi zambiri ndasiya nkhawa zonse zomwe zidamangidwa chifukwa chakuza PMO. Mutha kuyiwala zamtundu wanthawi zonse, chifukwa ndikudziwa bwino kuti sindinawaperekenso. Atsikana okongola mwanzeru amandinyengerera pang'ono, koma ndizabwinobwino. Kwa gawo lalikulu ndimakhala wodekha komanso omasuka kuzungulira azimayi okongola kwambiri. Ndizovuta kufotokoza, koma zili ngati ndili womasuka koyamba m'maganizo ndi m'malingaliro kwa nthawi yayitali. Ndikumasulidwa ndikapanda kukhala ndi moyo wopupuluma kuti ndikagwire pansi pa mati. Ndipo chifukwa ndilibe chobisala, ndimakhala ngati nditha kudziletsa ndekha komanso yemwe ndikufuna kukhala.
inu
Nditha kupitilirabe za ine ndekha, koma ndimalola zotsalazo zikhale za inu. Kwa inu omwe mukuvutika, ndikukulimbikitsani kuti musunge zolemba ngati simunatero. Posachedwa ndidasamukira ku SkyDrive, koma ndimagwiritsa ntchito Google Docs kotero zimakhala nane nthawi zonse. Chilakolako chofuna kudya kapena kulowa nawo mu khola la akalulu chikuyamba, imani, kuganiza, ndikulemba kwa mphindi zochepa chifukwa chomwe mwatsala pang'ono kuchita zomwe mungakonzekere. Mwina sizingakuletseni kwathunthu, koma zidzakupatsani mphindi yakufunika kofunikira ndikumveka kwamaganizidwe.
Malangizo anga akulu kwambiri kwajambulidwe sikukulola kukhala pakati pa PMO. Khalani ndi zolinga zanu zazifupi, zapakatikati, komanso zazitali. Khalani ndi mapulani azolinga ndi kukwaniritsa. Mtolankhani uyenera kukhala wabwino. Inemwini, ndikukhulupirira kuti mukamaganizira kwambiri zopewera PMO ndizotheka kuti mungobwerera. Apanso, izi zikuyenera kukhala kuti mukhale bwinoko. Pezani chilimbikitso, china chake chomwe mukufuna kuchita m'moyo, ndipo lolani kuti zizingokhala. No-PMO iyenera kungokhala gawo lochepa chabe la zomwe mumapanga. Mukamaona kusintha kwina m'moyo wanu, ndizosavuta kusayang'ananso m'mbuyo.
Pomaliza, pokhapokha ngati muli pano kuti muthandize ena kupyola nthawi yovuta, chokani pagululi ASAP. Ndikutanthauza izi m'njira zabwino kwambiri. Ngati mukudziwa kuti simukuchita nawo PMO ndiye kuti simukufunikiranso tsambali kuti mudzitsimikizire nokha kapena kutsatira mayendedwe anu. Osati zokhazo, koma udzu ndi wobiriwira kwambiri ndipo mpweya wake umakhala wowonjezereka kwambiri pomwe simumayang'ana pazinthu zokhudzana ndi PMO nthawi zonse. Tsambali ndilabwino kukhala nawo ngati poyambira koyamba, koma mukakonzeka, ingoyimani, pitilizani, ndikuyang'ana pa moyo. Mapeto ake, mphamvu zakulekerani ndi kukhala munthu wabwino zili mwa inu. Kaya zikhala mwa mawonekedwe a ah-ha mphindi kapena masabata omwe mumadzipeza nokha kudzera mu nyuzipepala, muyenera kupeza mawu anu amkati omwe akunena kuti ndikwanira.
Mulimonse, zabwino zonse kwa inu omwe mukumenyera. Kuzindikira komwe ndapeza patsambali ndi ena monga izi pachiyambi chaulendo wanga wopita kudzikongoletsa kwakhala kopanda phindu, kotero ndimangofuna kuthokoza kwa aliyense ndi anthu ammudzi.
LINK - Pomaliza Moyo Wanga Wabwerera
by smitherine
October 02, 2013
Kutumiza Koyambirira - Kuyambanso Kuyang'anira Moyo Wanga Komanso
March 07, 2013
Kutsiriza Zabwino. Kapena osachepera ndikhulupirira. . .
Ndikungolemba izi ndekha. Sindikusamala ngati wina angawerenge, koma ngati wina akufuna, chonde. Ngakhale ena angawone ngati nkhondoyi yolimbana ndi vuto losokoneza bongo, ndimaona kuti ndikofanana ndikubwezeretsanso moyo wanga. Dulani cholinga cha masiku 90. Ndikukonzekera kuchita izi kwa 300 (Ndiko kulondola, mpaka kumapeto kwa chaka.) Masewera anga omaliza, komabe apita kwamuyaya popanda zolaula. Ndikufuna kufika poti ndimaiwala za kuwerengera masiku ndipo ndimangokhala.
Komwe ndidali
Aliyense akuwoneka kuti ali ndi nkhani, ndiye nayi. Ndine 24 pakadali pano. Kuyambira pomwe ndinamaliza maphunziro a kusekondale mpaka pafupifupi zaka zitatu zapitazo ndinali wokalamba wa soB. Sukulu zanga nthawi zonse zinkakhala pakati pa zabwino kwambiri koleji. Cholinga changa sichinali kungopambana, koma kuti ndikhale wopambana pa chilichonse chomwe ndidatenga nawo gawo. Ngakhale sindimatuluka kawirikawiri nditaimirira pachiwonetsero pamwamba pa enawo, ndimagona mwamtendere ndikudziwa kuti ndimayesetsa kwambiri. Ndinalinso ndi chinthu chachilengedwe ndi anthu. Amangowoneka ngati amandikonda. Ndipo ngati akanapanda kutero, nditha kutsimikiza momwe gehena adzafikire.
Munthawi imeneyi ndinazindikira kuti sindinachite bwino kupitilira chaka chimodzi mosadziwa. Ndinkapeza zolaula, zachiwerewere komanso zanyazi. (Mwachidule, ndinakhala wosakhulupirira kuti kuli Mulungu kuyambira ubwana wanga.) Mwamwayi, ndinasangalalanso ndi intaneti ndi makompyuta. (Zotsalazo zinali zida; palibe china.) Ndimamva kuti ndikutaya. Sekondi iliyonse inali yofunika kwa ine, chifukwa chake ndinayipewa, kuiwalako, ndikuwonongera nthawi yanga kuchita zinthu zopindulitsa.
Ndi nthawi yambiri yopuma, ndidatola zilankhulo zakunja za 3 kukhala zolimba. (Ndimawerenga Anna Karenina waku Chijeremani ndipo ndimatha kusangalala ndi mabuku achinyamatawa m'Chisipanishi ndi Chifalansa. Inde, nditha kukhala wamisala. Ndiye chiyani?) Ndinkakonda kusewera m'zilankhulo, choncho ndinalibe vuto kusewera mozungulira ndi Chidatchi, Chitaliyana, komanso chonse kupha ena. Ndinkagwiranso ntchito ndikusewera basketball nthawi zonse. Ndimamva kuyang'anira chilichonse, motero moyo unali wabwino. Sindinakhalepo wokondwa koposa. Dziko lidamverera ngati kuti linali m'manja mwanga. Ndinali pachimake thupi komanso m'maganizo. Nthawi zonse ndimalalikira kuti ndikhale wolimba thupi, wamaganizidwe komanso kupewa mayesero akulu kwambiri. Kunena mwachidule, ndinali ndi chikumbumtima chotsata.
M Semu itangotha, sindinangotenga maphunziro a pa intaneti. Sikuti ndimadziwa, uku ndikakhala kuti ndikusunthika.
Kugwa
Poyamba zonse zinkayenda bwino. Moyo unapitilira monga mwa masiku onse. Ndinkacheza pang'ono ndi kale kuposa kale, koma ndimamvabe ngati momwe inenso ndilili. Sindinakhalepo wojambula wotakataka, koma ndinatenga zojambula za kanvas panthawiyi kuti ndizisangalala. Ndidakondwera nazo ndikudutsa gawo loyaka kumene ndidalimva limodzi ndi chilengedwe. Ngati pali chilichonse chomwe ndidasowa kuchokera panthawiyi, ndikumverera kuti ndikhale womasuka komanso wamtendere. Malingaliro anga anali aufulu komanso omveka ngati mzungu. Masikuwo nthawi zonse ankayamba mwachangu pa 5 koloko m'mawa, ndipo nthawi zambiri zimathera pabwino kwambiri. Pambuyo pa miyezi ya 2-3, komabe, ndidayamba kutsikira pansi. Mwina zinali chifukwa cha kusungulumwa komanso kukhala ndimakompyuta kwambiri kuposa china chilichonse, koma pamapeto pake ndinadzikhazikitsanso zolaula.
Nditayamba kuyang'ana zolaula ndinayamba kuona masamu akutsika. Moyo wanga unatenga 180 yathunthu koyipira. Ngakhale ndimachita bwino m'makalasi anga ambiri, sindinachite bwino m'modzi; yomwe inali kalasi ya pre-med. M'malo mochira, ndinapitilira kuyenda pansi. Ndidatenganso semester pambuyo pake, koma sizinali chimodzimodzi. Ndinadutsa, koma sindinamvepo chikhumbo chofuna kuchita chilichonse. Kuyesetsa kwanga sikunali kokwanira konse; pamene homuweki imakhala ikuchitika nthawi yomaliza. Ndinkadzuka nthawi zambiri ku 10 koloko ndikuyamba kuchita maphwando ku 12 masana. Ndinkasinjirira masiku anga ndikuyenda zolaula kapena kuwerenga zopanda pake ndi zoyipa zopusa pa intaneti. Ndinaleka kusamala zilankhulo zakunja. Zida zanga zojambulidwa zidayikidwa pakona kwinakwake, ndipo zimatha kusonkhanitsa fumbi kwa miyezi yambiri. Ndinasiyanso kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi. Zinthu sizinkawoneka zokongola.
Pansi pa Mbiya
Pambuyo pa semester yachiwiri kumapeto ndidasiya maphunziro onse. Ndidakhala chilimwe chonse ndichita zoyipa zofananira; zambiri zolaula ndi intaneti. Sindikudziwa zomwe zandikhudza chilimwe chitatha, koma ndinamaliza kuyenda pafupifupi chaka chimodzi pambuyo pake. Koma pamapeto, ndinkaona ngati ndikuthawa ndi moyo. Chimodzi mwazomwe mumatenge mwachangu pamayendedwe atali ndikuti oyenda maulendo ataliatali akuwoneka kuti akuthawa kuchokera kwawo. Zikuwoneka kuti zimakondwera, koma nthawi zonse mumamva ngati pali china chosowa mkati mwawo. Ine? M'malo moyang'anizana ndi mavuto anga kunyumba, ndinali kuthawa zoyipa zamitundu yonse. Sindikanatha kukhala masiku opitilira osawonetsa zolaula panjira. Ndipo zachisoni, ndinapumira masiku angapo nditagona m'chipinda changa ndikuchita chimodzimodzi-kale m'malo mongofufuza.
Nditabwerako, ndidaganiza zofunafuna bizinesi, choncho sukulu idasesedwapo pachithunzicho. Chilichonse chinali chosasangalatsa poyamba, koma mavuto a moyo wanga anayamba kuphimba zinthu zina zonse. Ndinali nditakhazikika mu dzenje la kalulu. Ndisanadziwe, ndinayamba kugwera pansi. Bizinesi yanga inafika posachedwa kuterera, kotero ndinakhala chilimwe chatha kupyola mu Disembala ndimakonda kusewera zolaula ndikuwonera intaneti. Nditamaliza, ndakhala ndikugwiritsa ntchito zolaula zoposa zana. Ndinkangomva ngati ndilibe chilichonse choti ndizingokhala. Palibe kuwongolera. Palibe. Tsiku lililonse ankamva chimodzimodzi. Masabata ndi miyezi ndiye sizingakhale kanthu koma chimphona chachikulu. Mu Januware, komabe, ndidaganiza kuti ndakhala nazo zokwanira. Ndiyambanso kuwongolera moyo wanga. Zikomo zabwino ndidakali mwana.
Njira yopita kuchipatala
Nditayang'ana pazomwe ndalemba, ndimapeza zodabwitsa momwe munthu angagwe mofulumira. Sindikubisa. Ndakhala usiku ndikulira ngati mwana ndikayang'ana zomwe zandichitikira pazaka zingapo zapitazi. Ndikufuna kuliranso ndikungoyang'ana pa iwo. Zonsezi vuto langa. Koma ndatha kuthawa. Ndamaliza kulola moyo wanga kukhala wopanda mphamvu. Ngakhale njira yobwezeretsa idzakhala yayitali komanso yovuta, ndikudziwa kuti ndili ndi mphamvu zofunitsanso kukhalanso ndi moyo wanga wakale.
Kuyambira kumapeto kwa Januwale ndasiya kusiya kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula. Kuchotsa chopereka changa kunali kovuta, koma tsopano kwapita. Ndasiya kutaya mtima kuti ndione chilichonse chokhudza zolaula. Ndipo, moona zokwanira, zimandipangitsa kuti ndikhale wodwalanso. Komabe, kuyambira pomwe mnzanga adandiwonetsa kanema wa Abiti Delaware kumapeto kwa sabata yapitayi, ndabwezeretsa mwawotchi mawotchi ndipo ndili lero 6. (Ndivomera. Ndinkachita chidwi pang'ono. Zinali zowopsa, kungonena zochepa.) Zokhudza momwe ndimakhalira, sindinamvepo bwino m'malingaliro kwakutali. Malingaliro anga samamvekabe osokonezeka komanso olemedwa, koma ndikudziwa kuti kumveka kwathunthu kumadza ndi nthawi. Ndikukhulupirira kuti kumveketsa malingaliro kumafunikanso kukulitsa kwina kwambiri kunja kwa kupewa zolaula.
Ponena za moyo wanga, ndikulembetsanso makalasi posachedwa ndipo ndikuyembekeza kumaliza sukulu mchaka ndi theka. Sindingathe kudikirira kuti ndiyambirenso kugula moyo wabwinobwino. Ndikusunga buku langa lomwe limakhala ndi nthawi yambiri yazomwe ndimachita ola lililonse la tsiku. Ndikudutsa gawo ili la kuchira, ndikupeza kuti ndikofunikira kukhala ndi zochitika zina zomwe zimathandizira kukwaniritsa cholinga chokulirapo. (Ndipo ngati mulibe zolinga, khazikitsani!)
Kutumiza Mtsogolo
Apanso, ndili ndi masiku 6 okha pachinthu ichi (mwalamulo), chifukwa chake ndimatumiza pano pafupipafupi kuti ndiwunikenso momwe ndimaganizira. Monga ndawonera pamwambapa, ndikulimbana ndi chizolowezi chogwiritsa ntchito intaneti komanso ulesi. Ndimawawona omwe atchulidwawa kukhala ndi ubale wokhazikika ndi zolaula-ndimankhwala osokoneza bongo a dopamine ndi chiyani - kotero ndikulembanso za iwo pakadzafunika kutero. Ndipo ngati nditalephera kuchita izi, ndilembanso za izo.
Ponena za omwe mukuyang'ana kuti mupeze kuchira kapena pakadali pano mukuchira, godpeed. Njira yakutsogolo ikhoza kuwoneka ngati yosatha. Koma chonde osaziwona motero. Onani ngati chiyambi chatsopano. (Ichi ndichifukwa chake ndimadana ndikuwerengera.) Izi ndizochulukirapo kuposa zolaula. Izi zakuyenera kuyambitsanso moyo wanu.
Masiku a 6 opanda PMO ndikuwerengera. . .
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