Ndinazindikira koyamba ndisanadziwe kuti ndinali ndi vuto lochita zachiwerewere zaka 2 zapitazo. Ndimatha kudzipangitsa kukhala masiku ochepa kapena masabata angapo nthawi imodzi kenako ndikumadyana kwakanthawi pakati poyesera.
Ndinali wopsinjika komanso wokhudzidwa ndi anthu ndipo sindinadziwe chifukwa chake. Kenako, ndinakumana ndi mtsikana, ndipo ngakhale ndimamukonda kwambiri, sindinathe kuvuta. Ndinachikoka ndikumenyetsa kachasu ndikutopa ndipo pamapeto pake ndinapeza njira yobwererera kuzikhalidwe zakale. Patatha miyezi ingapo, ndinali nditakhala milungu ingapo opanda PMO ndikufunsa mtsikana wina masiku angapo. Tidakondana kwambiri ndipo zomwezo zidachitika ndikuchotsa kutopa ndi mowa. Ndinaganiza kuti mwina kusuta kwanga maudzu pafupipafupi ndiye chifukwa chake ndinasiyiratu ndikumutsimikizira kuti ndidzakhala wokonzeka THC ikamaliza kachitidwe kanga m'milungu ingapo… Masabata angapo adadutsa ndipo sindinasangalale. Kenako ndinazindikira kuwonongeka komwe PMO adandichitira kwamaganizidwe ndi thupi. Sanangonditumizira zolaula ngakhale anali wokongola.
Patadutsa mwezi wopitilira umodzi ndikuyesera kangapo "kulephera", ndinakhala wokhoza kulowa ndikumagonana naye mwachidule. Komabe kugonana! 😉 Kwambiri, nthawi zonse tikamagonana zitakhala zabwino komanso zabwino. Tsiku lina asanapite ku tchuthi, tinagonana pafupifupi theka la ola. Ndikumva kuti ndatsala pang'ono kuchiritsidwa.
Ndinatenga mwayi pambuyo pake kuti ndiyankhule ngati tingakhale oyanjana okhaokha. Adayankha, "Ndikuganiza choncho". Ndinayang'ana. Anati sakuganiza kuti agonana ndi wina aliyense koma zikhala bwino ndikamawona anthu ena. Ndikuganiza kuti anyamata ambiri amasangalala koma ndimamva kupsinjika. M'mbuyomu usiku womwewo adalankhula moseketsa koma osaseka kuti akhale ndi 4-ena ndi banja lomwe ndidangomudziwitsa. Nditamufunsa za izi mtsogolo, adawulula kuti anali wotsimikiza koma adadziwa kuti sizingachitike (chifukwa cha ine). Sindingachitire mwina koma kumverera kuti akufuna kungocheza ndi mnyamata wina. Akuyamba kuwonetsa kudzidalira ndipo ndikuzindikira kuti ubale ndi mtsikanayo sukhala wathanzi. Chifukwa chake ndidachoka ndi mgwirizano kuti tangokhala anzawo. Tidataya unamwali wina ndi mnzake kotero zimandipweteka kuti samandisamala ndikamacheza ndi atsikana ena. Gawo la ine silimukhulupirira iye. Gawo lina langa likufuna kudziwa.
Ngakhale adandipweteka, ndikuthokoza kwambiri pazomwe zachitika. Ndinasiya chizolowezi choledzeretsa chomwe chimandisokoneza moyo. Pakhala nthawi yayitali kuyambira pomwe ndimamva kukhudzidwa motere ndipo sindinawalandire monga momwe ndikuchitira pano. Sindimazindikiranso kapena kuzilola kuti ndizivulazidwa. Ndikumva ngati mwamuna tsopano. Ndinayesa nofap kwa zaka 2 ndipo ngakhale ndidalephera pambuyo polephera, sindinataye mtima. Ndikutsamwa ndikulemba izi tsopano. Zinali zovuta kwambiri koma ndinazichita ndipo sizinathe. Tsiku lililonse ndimenya nkhondo. Osataya mtima.
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