Ngati ndingakhudze munthu m'modzi ndi izi ndiye kuti ndachita ntchito yanga. Ndiudindo wanga kufotokozera zanga zolaula / intaneti / nkhani ya ED; weniweni komanso waiwisi momwe ndingathere.
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Nthawi zonse ndimakhala mwana wopanda pake. Sindinali wamkulu ndipo ndimakhalabe wokangalika, koma sindinali woyenera. Poyang'ana m'mbuyo, ndikuzindikira kuti ndinali mwana wamkulu, koma malingaliro anga sanali choncho nthawi zonse. Msuweni wanga wamkulu adandinyamula (chifukwa cha kusatetezeka kwake), zomwe zidadzionetsera ndekha. Ndikakumbukiranso, ndicho chifukwa chokha chomwe ndingaganizire chomwe chimandipangitsa kuti ndisamadziderere; mwa zina zazing'ono zomwe zimachitika ndi atsikana. Nthawi zonse sindinkakhala ndi nkhawa ndi thupi langa. Sindinayese kwenikweni kuchita chibwenzi mpaka nditachepetsa thupi. Nthawi zonse ndimakhala ndi chidwi chodabwitsa ndi kukula kwa mbolo yanga; Ndinkaona kuti kanali kakang'ono kochititsa manyazi. Sindikudziwa kuti kumverera kumeneko kunachokera kuti, koma kunangoipitsiratu zinthu.
Pafupifupi 15/16, ndidapeza bwenzi langa loyamba. Ndataya pafupifupi 20 lbs. nthawi yotentha ndipo ndidabwereranso ku junior chaka chatsopano ndili ndi moyo watsopano. Ndinkasamalidwa kwambiri ndi atsikana. Yemwe amandikonda kwambiri, ndikuyesetsa kuti andidziwitse, adakhala mtsikana wanga. Timalumikizana ndikugwirana chanza ndi zinthu zonse zabwinozi. Ndingapeze maboner amphamvu chifukwa chokhala pafupi naye. Mahomoni anga anali osalamulirika ndipo sindinayembekezere kutaya unamwali wanga kwa iye. Zinangokhala nthawi yochepa. Panali masiku omwe timabwerera kunyumba kwake tikamaliza sukulu, ndipo ndimalimbikitsa kuti ndipite kuchipinda chake. Sindinadziwe zomwe ndimafuna kuchita, koma ndimadziwa kuti ndikufuna kukhala ndi iye, kumumva, kukhala pachibwenzi.
Kuthamangira kwa mwezi wa 1 mkati mwaubwenzi, sitinagonebe, koma zinali kubwera. Pazifukwa zina (Nthawi zambiri ndimakhala wamanjenje komanso wosakhala womasuka), ndidaganiza zothetsa naye banja. Ndinadziwa pansi pake kuti sindinkafuna kukhala naye kwamuyaya, komanso, ndinkachita mantha ndi kugonana. Kunali kupatukana kovuta, sanafune kundilola kuti ndipite, ndipo ngakhale sitinali limodzi, amafunabe kutenga unamwali wanga. Ndikukhulupirira kuti amaganiza kuti athana nane mwanjira imeneyi. Ndinavomera monyinyirika. Ndinafunadi kutero, koma ndinali wamisala wamanjenje nazo.
Mwinamwake masiku a 2 ndisanabwere kumalo ake kudzataya unamwali wanga, ndinali ndi mantha ndi zomwe ndingachite. Mwachidziwikire, sindimadziwa zomwe ndimachita. Anali atagonana kale kale. Ndinadzipeza ndekha ndikuwerenga webusayiti usiku kwambiri pomwe banja langa linali mtulo. Sindikudziwa momwe ndinapezera zithunzi zolaula, koma zinali pamenepo ... ndipo ndinali wolimba. Zomwe ndidachita ndikukhudza mbolo yanga ndipo ndidabwera. Kunali kumverera kopambana kumene sindinamvepo. Kuyambira usiku womwewo ndipamene ndinayamba kugwiritsa ntchito zolaula pa intaneti.
Lamlungu limenelo, ndinapita kunyumba kwa wakale. Makolo ake kunalibe, tinapita kuchipinda chake, tinayamba kupsompsona, ndipo ndikukumbukira kuti ndinali wamanjenje kwambiri. Nditavula mathalauza anga, Dick wanga anali atatsimphina kwathunthu. Sindinadziwe choti ndichite. Kenako mchimwene wake amayesa kubisalamo mchipindacho, zomwe zidapangitsa kuti zikhale zovuta kwambiri. Kunali kulephera kwathunthu. Ndinachita manyazi kwambiri. Sindinadziwe chifukwa chake zidachitika. Mwalingaliro langa lodzichepetsa, ndikukhulupirira Zinali zochititsa mantha. Sindikumva kuti zolaula zanga zomwe zidapangitsa ED ndizolakwa pakadali pano.
Kuyambira pamenepo, ndinapitilizabe kuseweretsa maliseche usiku uliwonse ndimatha. Zidakula mpaka zolaula za Tranny. Ndinali kufunsa za kugonana kwanga molawirira kwambiri chifukwa cholephera kudzutsidwa ndili ndi mkazi. Pafupifupi msungwana aliyense amene ndinkachita naye zachinyengo, sindinathe kukhala wolimba. Mtsikana wina, ndinapita kunyumba kwake kanayi kapena kasanu poyesa kugona naye .. ndipo timangomangocheza ndi ine mopanda tanthauzo. Ndimamwa mowa pafupifupi nthawi iliyonse kumasula. Ndinali ndi zaka 4. Nthawi zonse ndimaganiza kuti ndi chifukwa chamanjenje.
Pofika zaka 19, ndinali nditaledzerabe ndipo ndinayamba kutola mbedza za m'misewu. Ndili nawo, zipsinjo zanga zidatayidwa kwathunthu pazenera. Sindinkachita mantha chifukwa panalibe zoyembekezera, zomwe zinandilola kuyesa kugonana kwenikweni. Nthawi zoyambilira ndi mahule sizinali zabwino kwambiri, koma usiku umodzi, ndidanyamula mzimayi yemwe anali akugwedezeka. Mutha kudziwa kuti anali atagona masiku ambiri chifukwa anali wokonzeka kugona. Pambuyo pake adadutsa pampando wanga wokwera, ndipo atagona, ndidasunthira patsogolo pake, ndikutsitsa buluku lake, ndikulowerera. Ndinalowa mkati mwake ndipo ndinali nditataya unamwali wanga.
Pofika zaka 20, ndidaganiza zosinthanso moyo wanga, kuonda (ndinali nditapeza zonse kale), ndikuyamba zatsopano. Ndinakwanitsa kukumana ndi atsikana angapo owoneka bwino. Ena mwa iwo ndimagonana nawo. Ndili ndi bwenzi latsopano. Ndinali ndikudzimva pang'ono. Ndinkavutikabe kukhala ndi 100% yokwaniritsa zogonana. Gawo limodzi mwa magawo asanu aliwonse, mwina ndimachita bwino. Ena onse, ndimatha kukhala ofewa pakati pa kugonana, kapena osalimbana konse. Pambuyo pake ndinathetsa chibwenzi changa panthawiyo chifukwa sindinali womasuka naye. Nthawi zonse zimakhala ngati ntchito yogonana naye. Sindinali 1% mmenemo.
Nthawi zonse ndinali zolaula. Ndipo mahule nthawi zonse anali osavuta kukhala nawo bwino; ngakhale ndimakhala ndi zovuta kukhalabe zovuta kwa iwo nthawi zina. Ndimatha kunyamula mathalauza. Pambuyo pake zinandipangitsa kuti ndiyambe kusuta fodya. Tsopano ZINatsala pang'ono kundipha. Zinakhala zolakwika kufuna kumva bwino. Nditha kumamwa mowa kwambiri, kumayendetsa galimoto kuti ndipeze cholakwika choyamba, kuti amugulire zonse. Zinakhala zoyipa kuti onse azitha kugonana. Zodabwitsa ndizakuti, kusweka komweko sikunandilolere kuti ndikhale ndi chibwenzi, koma ndimakonda kukondana ndikakhala kuti ndimakondana kwambiri. Zinali zabwino kwambiri zomwe ndidamvapo. Kukhala ndi zibwenzi zenizeni ndi atsikana enieni kudali kochulukira komanso zopanda nkhawa kwa ine. Ndinagwera pansi.
Ndinasamukira kudera lina kuti ndithane ndi zizolowezi zanga. Zonse zinali za kusiya mowa ndikumwa choyamba. Imeneyi inali nkhani yanga yayikulu. Pakadali pano, ndili ndi zaka 22 ndipo ndikuganiza kuti nkhawa yayikulu komanso kusowa chitetezo mthupi ndizo zifukwa zazikulu zomwe sindingathe kudzipereka kwa mtsikana wabwinobwino. Koma pofika 23, ndidadzipeza kuti sindingathe kukhala wovuta PAKATI PONSE; monga zoyipitsitsa kuposa kale. Ndinkatha kukhala wovuta kenako ndikumwalira. Ndidakumana ndi zokumana nazo zingapo zingapo pomwe sindimatha kukhala wovuta ngakhale sindinadzimva kukhala wopanda nkhawa kapena wosakhazikika. Ndinadziwa kuti payenera kukhala mizu yakuya pamavuto anga.
Komanso, zizolowezi zanga zolaula zidakulirakulirabe mpaka pachiwopsezo chomwe sindimalemba. Koma ndikutsimikiza kuti anyamata mungaganize zamagulu angapo osavomerezeka. Izi zidandipangitsa kudzimva wosatetezeka, wosatsimikiza, komanso wosakhazikika. Ndimalephera kuyanjana ndi azimayi onse, chifukwa ndimadziwa ngakhale nditayamba kutumizirana mameseji ndi mtsikana ngati ndingathe kuchita naye kapena ayi; Ndinkadziwa kuti sindikhala wovuta. Ndinali wotsimikiza. Panalibe chifukwa choti ayesere.
Ndapeza lingaliro la NoFap chaka chino. Ndine 25 tsopano. Nthawi yomweyo ndinamva kuti zolaula pa intaneti ZINALI vuto langa. Maumboni onse ndi nkhani izi zinali zondilankhulira kwambiri. Ndinapanga chisankho chosiya kuseweretsa maliseche.
Zinali pafupifupi miyezi 3 yapitayo. Ndinabwereranso nthawi 3 kale osapitilira masiku 6 nthawi imodzi. Ngakhale sindinachiritsidwe kwathunthu, nditha kunena kuti ndabwezeretsanso libido. Msungwana yemwe ndili naye tsopano, ndimacheza naye NDIPO NDIPO NDIPONSO ANAKHALA NDI IYE. Kugonana Kwenikweni. NDINALI WANG'ONO KWAMBIRI NDIPO MWA IYE. NDIKUMVETSA KWAMBIRI MU MOYO WANGA!
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Nditha kuyambiranso mosavuta tsiku lililonse. Sindinapulumutsidwe kwathunthu .. koma ndawona kuwala! Zonsezi zinali zovuta zanga zolaula pa intaneti. Ndizosangalatsa kudziwa kuti ndakhala ndikumenya nkhondoyi ndipo pamapeto pake ndidachita bwino.
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