Moni anzanga anzanga anzanga, ndimangofuna kuti ndidutse nanu ndikugawana usiku wanga nanu, ndikukuwuzani zazomwe ndakumana nazo.
Ndakhala ndikukondana ndi mtsikana yemweyo zaka 3 zapitazi. Kuyambira pomwe ndidakumana naye, ndakhala ndikufuna kukhala naye. Semester yoyamba yomwe ndimayesa kuyambitsa chibwenzi, ingonena kuti ndataya mnyamata wina. Koma sindinali wachiwiri, ndinali ngati 4th (monga anandiuza pambuyo pake). Pakadali pano, sindinkachita bwino kwambiri kukoleji, ndipo ndinkakonda kwambiri zolaula, ndimazigwiritsa ntchito kuti ndizingodzisala, ndikuiwala zina zazakale. Pambuyo pake, atandipweteka, chifukwa ndinali munthu womvetsa chisoni yemwe sindinathe kumva, ndinapita kunyumba kukagwira ntchito kwa semesters pang'ono ndikudzimanganso.
Munthawi imeneyi ndidayamba kukhala moyo pang'ono, ndikupita kokasangalala, ndikusangalala, ndipo ndidazindikira kuti zolaula zimandilepheretsa, chifukwa nditalimbana nazo kwa chaka chimodzi, ndidasiya kugwiritsa ntchito. Kwa nthawi yoyamba yomwe ndikukumbukira, ndinali mfulu kwa izo, ndipo zinali ngati ndinali munthu watsopano. Ndimabwereranso nthawi ndi nthawi, koma pamapeto pake sindinkafuna kuti ndikhale wosangalala, kapena wabwinobwino. Ndi mphamvu zowonjezera, ndidakwanitsa kukhala wabwinoko. Ndataya 60 lbs, ndipo ndinali munthu wochezeka kwambiri.
Nditabwerera kukoleji, ndidakumana naye, ndipo tidayamba kukambirana. Ndipo pa semester, tinakhala abwenzi apamtima, ndipo tinkachitira zonse limodzi. Ndinazindikira kuti ndiyambanso kukondana naye, koma sindinkafuna kusokoneza ubale wathu. Mwanjira inayake, adandiyika m'malo momwe ndidamuwuza kuti ndimamukonda, ndipo sanathawe monga ndimaganizira.
Kwa miyezi ingapo, ndimakondana ndi mnzanga wapamtima. Anali msungwana woyamba yemwe ndinamupsompsona (ndikudziwa kuti ndili ndi zaka 25, koma sizinachitikepo kwa ine, ndipo chipembedzo changa sichimakhulupirira zogonana ndisanalowe m'banja), komanso msungwana woyamba amene adavomereza kuti amandikonda. Inali nthawi yosangalala kwambiri m'moyo wanga. Koma pamapeto pake semester idatha, ndipo adapita kwawo. Tinkasewera tsiku lililonse ndipo anali akadali bwenzi langa lapamtima, koma ndidayamba kukhumudwa. Ndipo ndisanadziwe, ndinayambiranso zolaula, ndikuyesera kuti ndikhale bwino. Amatha kudziwa kuti china chake chasintha, ndipo inenso ndimatha. Mwadzidzidzi, ndinali wokonda kutengeka kwambiri, nthabwala zanga zidasokonekera, ndipo pang'onopang'ono ndidamva chotchinga chikukwera pakati pathu. Ndinayambanso kunenepa.
Ndiyeno, tsiku lina, ine ndinapita kukamuchezera iye, ndipo iye amakhoza kunena kuti chinachake chinali cholakwika. Sindinali munthu yemweyo yemwe anali pachibwenzi naye. Chidaliro changa chonse chinali chitatha, ndipo adathetsa chibwenzi nane tsiku lomwelo, akunena kuti sakuganiza kuti ubale wapatali ungagwire ntchito.
Ndinakhumudwa kwambiri, ndipo nditabwerera kunyumba, ndimapitilira ku zolaula kuti ndisiye dzanzi. Ndinasiya kumva, kapena kusamala za chilichonse. Ndinasiya ntchito chifukwa sindinathe kutenga mphindi yachiwiri yokhala ndi anthu ena, ndipo ndinabwezeretsanso kulemera konse komwe ndinataya.
Sindinazindikire kuti zinali zolaula zomwe zimayambitsa zonsezi, koma ndimamva ngati china chake mkati mwanga chikuyamba kuda, ndikupotoza, ndimadwala, ndipo sindimadzilemekeza. Ndinapita mozama kwambiri kuposa momwe ndakhalira, ndipo sindinasamale.
Pambuyo pa miyezi 6, ndinayambanso kuganiza bwino. Ndakhala ndikugwiritsa ntchito tsiku lililonse tsiku limenelo, koma ndimayamba kutha, ndipo malingaliro anga adatsitsimuka pang'ono ndipo ndidazindikira zomwe ndidachita. kotero ndinayamba kufufuza zinthu zokhudzana ndi zolaula, koma sindinapeze chilichonse chothandiza, anthu ambiri amangoti zili bwino, kuti sizinapweteke. Ndinadana nazo chifukwa ndinadziwa kuti zinatero! Ndinayamba kugwiritsa ntchito zochepa, ngakhale sindinayime kwenikweni, ndipo ndinayambiranso kupita patsogolo m'moyo wanga.
Ndipo masiku angapo apitawo, ndidapeza nkhani ya TED pa YouTube, kudzera cholumikizira mbali, ndipo ndidamva za inu anyamata kwa nthawi yoyamba. Pambuyo pa zonse zomwe ndinali nditamva kuchokera pa intaneti kuti zolaula sizikutikhudza, ndinadabwa kupeza anthu ambiri omwe adazindikira zomwe ndinali nazo: kuti zolaula zitha kuwononga zomwe inu muli.
Usikuuno kunali kutha kwa tsiku langa lachitatu pa / nofap /, ndipo ndayamba kale kukhala wotsimikiza kwambiri. Mtsikanayo ndi inebe tidakali mabwenzi, ndipo usikuuno tidapita pagalimoto ndipo tidayamba kukambirana, ndipo m'malo modalira mwamunthu, wosadzidalira yemwe ndakhala posachedwa, ndinali munthu wolimba mtima, woseketsa yemwe adakondana naye ndi, ndipo ngakhale tidakakamira m'galimoto ya chisanu kwa maola awiri, kudikirira kuti titulutsidwe. Tinkaseka, kuseka, komanso kulimbana nthawi yonseyi (inde, amakonda kulimbana). Adavomereza kuti amakonda mnzake wina, koma ndikudziwa kuti kundiona ndidadabwitsidwa, ndipo ndimuthamangitsanso.
Ndine wokondwa kuti ndapeza tsamba ili, ndi anthu ena omwe amamvetsetsa. Sindikudziwa ngati ndingapezeko mtsikanayo, koma ndikudziwa kuti moyo wanga ukupitiliranso ndipo ndili / nofap / kuti ndithokoze chifukwa cha ichi. Zimakhala zosavuta kwambiri mukakhala nokha.
KULUMIKIZANA - Zolaula ndi Bwenzi Labwino.
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