Hey anyamata,
Ndinangofuna kulemba mawu ochepa ponena za ulendo wanga (kukhala nkhani yopambana) ndi mawu angapo a uphungu omwe ndikuganiza kuti si atsopano koma osakayikira kwambiri.
Ndikhala 27 chaka chino. Chaka chatha mu Januware ndidataya unamwali wanga kwa msungwana wokongola wosakhalitsa yemwe adatsalira phwandolo litatha. Ndinayesa naye kwa nthawi yoyamba titabwerako kuphwandoko ndikulephera - ED yonse. Ndinakhala ngati ndidayimba mlandu alkohol chifukwa cha izo. M'mawa ndinayesanso kanthawi kena ndi zotsatira zomwezo. Kenako ndinkaganiza kuti ndi zolaula ndipo ndinayimitsa PMO kwa sabata limodzi mpaka ulendo wotsatira. Atafika, tinafika, ndinayika kondomu pa cholembera chokongola ndipo mwanjira inayake ndinayitanitsa erection ndikumusisita. Ndidazigulitsa ndipo nditangomaliza kumeneku ndikuziyika, nthawi yomweyo ndinabwera. Sitinayesenso. Ndinayambanso ntchito yanga ya PMO.
Patadutsa miyezi iwiri ndi theka ndikubwera ku chipinda cha dorm. Tinamwa vinyo pang'ono. Zinthu zinatentha ndipo zikafika pa izo ... zodzaza ED kachiwiri. Anasiya PMO pambuyo pake. Patatha sabata iye anabwera ndipo anakhala usiku. Sindikukumbukira ngati usiku tinkayesa kalikonse koma m'mawa pamene adagona pamimba, ndinamusiya ndikumuyang'ana, ndikumukhudza iye ndi ine ndekha ndinali wovuta. Ndinamukweza pa malowa popanda kondomu. Zinali zodabwitsa! Ndinagonana moyenera. Ndilola ndekha ndikubwera pambuyo pa mphindi zingapo. Ine sindinalibe PMO. Ndimamuwona msungwanayu kwa miyezi yambiri ya 3. Pambuyo pa choyamba choyamba sindinakhale ndi vuto lalikulu kusunga erection naye. Nthawi zina ndimatha kutayika koma sizinali zovuta kwambiri kwa ine, sindinkaganiza zambiri za izo. Ndimakumbukira usiku wathu wachitatu adandigwira, ndinakhala wovuta ndipo tinagonana. Ndinabwera mofulumira koma ndilakwitsa kwanga, ndinayang'ana pa nthawi yanga yonse, osati payekha. Tinagonana ndi 1-2 kamodzi pa sabata pokhapokha ndinganene. Sindinadziwe kwenikweni zomwe ndikuchita pogonana, koma ndinali ndi vuto lalikulu ndi zozizwitsa zanga. Ndimakhala ndi cocky ndi PMO'd nthawi zingapo pakati pa kumuwona wopanda mavuto. Pambuyo pa miyezi iyi ya 3 ndinayambanso PMO mwakhama.
Pambuyo pake, miyezi ya 2 kenako (ndi miyezi ya 2 ya PMO) ndinakumana ndi mtsikana wina. Ine ndinamukoka iye kuchokera ku phwando ndipo usiku umenewo ine ndinali nditamwalira kumeneko kachiwiri. Ndinali woledzera, sanali kuchita chilichonse chamoyo kotero sindinkaganiza zambiri za izo. Pafupi patapita sabata, iye anakhalapo. Panthawiyi iye adatengeka ndi onse. Sindinamupezeko wokongola koma komabe sindinasowe kanthu kuti ndigonane naye, ndipo ndikutani, ndikumufuna. Chabwino, ine sindingakhoze kuchita izo, palibe erection. Tsopano ndikulingalira kuti mwina chifukwa chakuti sindinathe kudzuka bwino ngati ndikupeza mtsikana wosakongola kwambiri. Komabe, palibe chomwe chinachokera pamenepo. Sitinayesenso kachiwiri. Ndinayambiranso ntchito yanga ya PMO.
Patapita nthawi (miyezi iwiri ya 1-2 ya PMO), ndinali ndi mwayi wopusitsa pafupi ndi atsikana ena awiri. Sindinagone nawo, koma nthawi zina ndinkangokhalira kumanga. Ndikhoza kumalankhula kudzera mwa HJ ndi BJ (osakhala ochuluka kwambiri) ngakhale opanda malingaliro. A HJ ndi a BJ anali atsopano kwa ine, kotero mwina ndichifukwa chake, zofanana ndi zochitika zanga zogonana pachiyambi. Nthaŵi zonse ine ndinali PMOing.
Ndipo tsopano gawo losangalatsa kwambiri, miyezi 4 yapitayo ndidayamba kuwona bwenzi langa tsopano. Patsiku lathu loyamba, tidagonana mwanjira inayake. Ndidakhala kumbuyo ndipo nditawona bulu wake wabwino kwambiri ndidakwanitsa kudziseweretsa maliseche kuti ndikhale ndi kondomu. Tinagonana mwina kwa mphindi zochepa ndikumangokhalira kufooka ndipo ndidamaliza. Icho sichinali chokumana nacho chachikulu. Ndidakhala PMO komaliza tsiku lotsatiralo ndipo ndidayimiranso mpaka lero (ili ndiye tsiku langa la 118th la No PMO). Kenako tidagonana 2-3 pa sabata ndikuganiza. Pakadali pano ndidazindikira za YBOP ndi YBR. Nthawi iliyonse ndikachita maliseche kuti ndikhale erection (ngati ndinali ndi mwayi ndipo nthawi zambiri ndimagwiritsa ntchito zongopeka) ndipo ndikangosiya kukondweretsako ndidakhala wofewa. Ngati nditagonana sindinalimbikitsidwe mwanjira ina, ndimataya nthawi yomweyo. Sakanakhoza kukhala pamwamba panga, sizimangogwira ntchito kwa ine. Nthawi zambiri ndimamverera kuti ndafa kumusi kuja ndipo nthawi yanga yotsutsa inali ya masiku ochepa ndikuganiza, zomwe zimandigwira bwino, chifukwa sindimamuwona tsiku lililonse. Ndinamuuza patsiku lathu lachiwiri chifukwa chake sindingakhale wokonzeka kukakamizidwa. Ndinamuuza kuti ndi chifukwa ndimakhala ndikuonera makanema olaula. Sankafunsa mafunso, amangovomera. Ndinamupempha kuti andilezere mtima ndipo anavomera. Ndikuganiza kuti nditha kusiya kudziseweretsa maliseche pakatha miyezi 2,5. Zinali zosavuta kuti adzuke ndikukhala ovuta.
Mkhalidwe wanga tsopano:
Kuyambira mochedwa ndapeza boner mwa kumpsompsona ndipo imakhala mpaka kulowa nthawi zambiri ngakhale ndiyenera kusamala kuti ndikhale naye kwakanthawi. Makondomu ovala panthawi yoyenera si vuto kwa ine, ngakhale amandipangitsa kuti ndibwere mwachangu kwambiri. Ndimatha kugonana kulikonse, ngakhale ena amandipangitsa kubwera mwachangu kwambiri. Sindikukumbukira nthawi yomaliza yomwe ndimayenera kuseweretsa maliseche kuti ndikwaniritse erection (kupukutira pang'ono kumachita ngati kuli kofunikira). Munthawi yanga yamasiku 118 yopanda PMO (ndikuyang'ana pafupifupi 10sec yonse panthawiyi) ndimasewera maliseche (kumangomverera kokha, kulibe malingaliro, nthawi yoyamba) nthawi ina masiku 21 apitawo. Ponseponse ndine wokondwa kwambiri ndi kupita patsogolo kwanga. Nthawi yanga yotsutsa siyabwino kwambiri, koma pang'onopang'ono imayamba kufupikirapo. Ndikuganiza kuti ndizomwe zingaoneke ngati zabwinobwino, koma sindikudziwa chifukwa gf yanga sakonda 2 yozungulira kutatsala maola ochepa kuchokera koyambirira, ndipo ndimatha kuthana nayo bwino. Ndikuganiza kuti ngati ndingagone ndi mtsikana watsopano, sangadziwe kuti ndili ndi zovuta zina zokhudzana ndi kugonana. Dick wanga akumva kuti ndi wamoyo kwambiri pomwe ali wopanda pake.
Malangizo anga:
Osangoganizira zopewa. Yang'anani pa kuchira koma ndi mtsikana. Ngati mwakhala ndi PIED, ndiye mwa lingaliro langa cholinga chanu chachikulu ndikupeza msungwana womvetsetsa. Pomwepo ndiye kuti adzakhala ndi chidwi chodutsira ndikusiya PMO kwathunthu. Ndikudziwa tsopano kuti ngati ndikadachita popanda gf yanga, sindikadachita bwino. Nthawi zonse ndinkabwerera ku zolaula atsikanawo akachoka. Sindinakhale ndi chifukwa chodziyimira ndekha. Ndikudziwa kuti anyamata ambiri akulimbana ndi P osati tsopano ndipo ndikukuuzani - simuyenera kuchita nokha. Ndikudziwa bwino kuti zingakhale zovuta kwa ife omwe timakonda zolaula kuti tipeze mtsikana (pali chifukwa chomwe ndidataya v-khadi yanga chaka chatha) koma tsopano iyenera kukhala patsogolo panu ngati vuto lanu ndi zolaula. Ngati mukufuna kutaya zinthu zabodza (zolaula) m'malo mwake pangani zenizeni (atsikana enieni). Ndikulimbikitsidwa kuti ndiwonere zolaula, kuti ndisachitenso maliseche, koma kuti ndiwonere. Ndikukhulupirira kuti zolimbikitsazi zitha kuchepa pakapita nthawi. Chifukwa cha gf yanga sindine wamantha chifukwa ndimagonana pafupipafupi 2 pa sabata tsopano. Ndikadzipezanso ndekha, ndikuyembekeza kuti ndikanatha kupewa zolaula. Ndimakonda kuseweretsa maliseche kuti ndikhale wosungulumwa ndekha (ndingathe tsopano, wow!) Chifukwa cha kulira kwanga. Koma ndikadakhala wosatetezeka ndipo ndikadakhala choyambirira kukhala ndi mtsikana m'moyo wanga kachiwiri. Osangofuna kuti ndisazengereze komanso chifukwa ndizabwino kukhala ndi munthu wapafupi ndi inu komanso kuti winawake akhale mtsikana yemwe mungagonane naye yemwe ndiwonso wabwino.
Sindingathe kupirirapo mokwanira. Chitani chirichonse mu mphamvu yanu kuti mupeze msungwana wabwino. Izi zikhale zoyambirira. Simuyenera kusamala ngati mukudzichititsa manyazi pazomwe mukuchita. Icho chidzakulimbitsani, icho chidzapangitsa chofunikira chofunikira kuti muyambe kukonzanso. Ndawona ambiri anyamata akulemba kuti sali okonzeka, kuti ayeneranso kuyembekezera mpaka atachiritse. Ndizolemekezeka kuti safuna kulemetsa wokondedwa wawo ndi vutoli. Ine ndikunena izi ziribe kanthu. Mumanena kuti muli ndi vutoli ndipo ngati sakufuna kukuthandizani mukakhala bwino, ndiye kuti simukufunika nthawi komanso mphamvu. Monga ndinanenera poyamba, ndinachita monga choncho ndipo amamvetsa. Ndikuzindikira kuti anyamata ambiri ali ndi maganizo olakwika chifukwa cha zolaula ndipo amakhala ndi mavuto oyankhulana ndi anthu. Ndinalinso ndi izo, koma mwa ine izo zikuwonetseredwa kukhala wamanyazi ndi kutsegula. Sindinayambe ndakhala ndikuvutika maganizo kapena ndinkakhala ndikusowa mtendere. N'kutheka kuti chifukwa chakuti ndinkakhala ndikugwiritsira ntchito ndalama zambiri nthawi zambiri. Kugonana kunandichititsa kuti ndisamapanikizike komanso nthawi zina ndimakhala wozunzika kwambiri. Mfundo yanga ndi yakuti, mungapeze mtsikana wina, muyenera kuchita izo panthawi ina, bwanji osati mwamsanga? Zidzakutengerani patsogolo pa PMO.
Ndikhululukireni ponse pamaganizo anu. Ndinangofuna kulemba zokhuza zanga ndikulimbikitsa anyamata kuti ayese zofanana ndi ine. Mfundo yokhala, ndi mtsikana ndizosavuta. Ndikudziwa sindikanachita ndekha.
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