Ine ndakhala ndiri manambala nthawi zonse…
Ndisanayambe nofap, ndinkasewera maliseche pafupifupi 2 patsiku. Ndizo maulendo 730 pachaka. Ndipo ndakhala ndikuchita kuyambira zaka 13 zomwe zimapangitsa maulendo 9490. Iliyonse imatha mphindi 1 mpaka 15. Tiyeni tizinena zotsutsana mphindi 5 (kuphatikiza kuyeretsa komanso manyazi pambuyo pake). Mphindi 47450 kapena maola 791 kapena masiku 32. Ndipamwezi umodzi wokha wamoyo wanga maliseche.
Osati onsewa adawononga zolaula koma kumapeto kwake ONSE adawonera zolaula. Zolaula zoyipa kwenikweni, zomwe mungachite manyazi kulankhula ndi anzanu apamtima. Ngakhale omwe analibe zolaula, anali ndi zolaula zomwe ndidaziwona kale. Kulowetsedwa kwathunthu. Nditha kugwiritsa ntchito nthawi yomwe ndimakhala ndikuchita maliseche m'moyo wanga, koma sindingathe (kapena ndikuwopa) kudziwa kuchuluka kwa nthawi yomwe ndakhala moyo wanga wakale ndikudzipukuta chifukwa chotsatira zolaula. Sikuti zidangowononga nthawi yanga yamtengo wapatali ndikusintha mwachidule zogonana koma koposa zonse zidawononga ulemu wanga kwa amayi.
Monga bambo wazaka 26, sindinakhalepo ndi chibwenzi chanthawi yayitali. Ndili ndi zovuta zenizeni zapafupi, kudzipereka komanso kukondana kunja kwa chipinda chogona. Nthawi iliyonse ndikagonana, ndimangoganiza za zolaula m'mutu mwanga. Tonsefe timadziwa chizolowezi, zimayamba ndikupsompsona kenako mawere, kenako pakamwa, kenako pamwamba, kenako ndikupusitsa kenako ndikumangirira. Amagwira ntchito zonse ndipo tikamaliza tatseka laputopu, kutsuka ndikugona. Koma alipobe…
Zinanditengera kanema kuti ndiyambe kuwerengera zochitika zomwe zidanditsogolera ku tsiku langa la 90. Kanemayo anali Don Jon. Matimuwa atagona, ndinatulutsa foni yanga ndikusaka gulu lomwe lingandithandize kusiya zolaula. Ndinadabwa kuti analipo wina, ndipo anali wamkulu. Ndinawerenga nkhani za anyamata achinyamata ngati ine omwe amafuna kusiya. Kuwerenga kwa anthu omwe asiya kusiya zaka zambiri pazaka zolaula tsiku lililonse kumandilimbikitse. Chifukwa chake ndidayamba.
Masiku angapo oyamba anali osavuta, ndinali nditagona kanthawi kochepa kale. Patapita kanthawi ndinali wosakhazikika, wokhumudwa. Ndinadutsa munthawi zosakwiya, ndimakhala mchipinda changa kwambiri, ndikuopa kucheza. Sindinayang'ane akazi ndipo malingaliro a zolaula adasokonezabe malingaliro anga nthawi iliyonse ndikawona wokongola. Ndidayamba kutchova juga sabata imodzi, ndidawononga $ 2000 usiku umodzi. Ndi chinthu chomwe sindinaganizepo kuti ndichite isanachitike nthawi ino koma ndimatha kungochotsa kusowa kwakumverera koti ndikhale ndi moyo. Ndimaitcha kuti nthawi yanga yolimba ndipo idatenga mwezi umodzi.
Zachitika bwanji kuchokera pomwe ndidafika kutsidya? Ndakhala ndikuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi tsiku lililonse, ndimadzuka ndimphamvu m'mawa uliwonse ndikumenya miyala panjira kuti ndithamange. Kapena ndimakweza zoyala mchipinda changa. Kenako ndimayenda kupita kuntchito, ndimawona akazi panjira koma sindimawayang'ana monga kale. Sindikuwona zolaula m'mutu mwanga, ndikungowona cholengedwa chokongola. Ndi chinthu chovuta kwambiri kufotokoza koma ndichinthu chabwino kwambiri chomwe ndakumana nacho.
Kuntchito, azimayi anzanga amakhala achilengedwe kwa ine ndipo ndimayankha machitidwe awo. Ndinalembera ngakhale kalata wina yemwe ndimagwira naye ntchito chifukwa amachokapo. Zinandikhudza kwambiri chifukwa ndimamukonda ngati mnzanga. Sindikukayika kuti pakadapanda nofap, sindikadakhala wolimba mtima kuchita zoterezi. Anandiuza kuti chinali chinthu chokongola kwambiri chomwe aliyense adalembapo za iye.
Ndimakondanso kucheza kwambiri koma ndimapanganso nthawi yanga yokhayo, kusewera gitala, kuwerenga mabuku, magazini chilichonse chomwe ndingathe kuyika. Ndimakhala nthawi yambiri ndikuuza anzanga ndipo abale anga ndimawakonda.
Nofap sangakhale yoyeserera yasayansi ndi zotsatira zotsimikizika. Ndikukutsimikizirani kuti sikuchedwa kwambiri kuti musinthe moyo wanu. Ndikumva ngati ndikubwezeretsanso moyo wanga kuyambira pomwe ndinali 12 ndisanawonere zolaula. Mukukumbukira masiku amenewo? Masiku abwino kwambiri m'moyo wanu sichoncho?
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