Ndili ndi zaka 27 ndipo ndakhala zaka zoposa khumi ndikuledzera zolaula, ndipo ndadwala matenda a ED kwazaka zisanu ndi chimodzi. Nthawi ino chaka chatha, ndimaganiza ngati ndingakhale ndi ubale wabwino ndi mkazi. Ndi ED pokhala vuto lobwerezabwereza, sindinkawona momwe zingachitike. Izi zidandipangitsa kukhumudwa, zomwe zidangowonjezera mavuto.
Ndinali nditataya mtima pa zomwe ndimayembekezera kuti zidzakhala tsogolo langa monga mwamuna komanso bambo wokonda. Tsopano, miyezi yopitilira isanu ndi itatu nditasiya kuonera zolaula, ndachiritsidwa kotheratu. Ndili ndiubwenzi wodabwitsa ndi msungwana wokongola ndipo tonsefe timagonana kwambiri.
Sindikunena izi kuti ndikondwere, koma kuuza aliyense amene akuvutika ndi ED komanso zovuta zambiri zamaganizidwe zomwe zingayambike kuti, inde, mutha kudzikonza. Ndidalimbikitsidwa kwambiri ndi nkhani zopambana izi pomwe ndidayamba ulendo wanga, chifukwa chake ndizochepa zomwe ndingachite kuti ndiyese kulipira.
Chinthu chimodzi chimene ndikufuna kudziwa ndikuti sindine 100% wotsimikiza kuti kusiya zolaula ndicho chifukwa chokha chomwe ndinabwerera. Sindikukayika kuti izi zidagwira gawo lalikulu, koma ndidaganiziranso zopita kukalimbana ndi nkhawa miyezi isanu yapitayo. Zosankha zonsezi (kusiya zolaula ndikuchotsa kukhumudwa kwanga) zidasintha moyo wanga kukhala wabwinoko, koma sindinganene motsimikiza kuti ndi ndani amene amachiritsa ED.
Komabe, ndimanena izi chifukwa ndikutsimikiza kuti payenera kukhala amuna ena kunja uko omwe ali ndi vuto la kukhumudwa limodzi ndi PIED. Ngati ndi choncho, ndikukulimbikitsani a) kusiya zolaula komanso b) lankhulani ndi dokotala wanu za anti-depressant. Ndipo chonde kumbukirani, kupita ku anti-depressants ndizowopsa kwa milungu ingapo yoyambirira. Izi ndizo zomwe ndinakumana nazo. Ndinalibe mphamvu iliyonse, libido yanga yokhazikika, ndipo ndimamva kuti sindingachite chilichonse chopindulitsa. Pambuyo pake kupendekaku kunatha, ndipo ndinatulukirako munthu watsopano.
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