Ndinayamba Nofap zaka 2 zapitazo. Ndine wamwamuna wazaka 27, ndipo ndakhala ndikukumana ndi mavuto a ED ndi azimayi kwa zaka pafupifupi 5. Choyipa chachikulu ndimakhala ndikudzuka, ndikugunda bong, kutulutsa adderall, ndikukongoletsa / kuseweretsa maliseche / kusaka ndikutsitsa zolaula nthawi zina tsiku lonse.
Ndinali ndi nkhawa kwambiri ndikulephera sukulu. (Ndidamaliza kutenga tchuthi chosamukira ndikusamukira kwawo, yomwe ndi nkhani ina.)
Nthawi zosowa zomwe ndimapita ku bar ndikulimbikitsa msungwana kuti abwere nane kunyumba, Dick wanga anali atafa kale, ndikuwonjezera usiku wina wamanyazi. Pazovuta zanga zonse, ine moona mtima wamkati mwamtima sindinawone kuwala kumapeto kwa msewu ndipo ndimaganiza kuti mwina ndibwino nditafa. Zolaula zomwe ndimazifunafuna zidayamba kuyenda pang'onopang'ono komanso zopanda thanzi zomwe zimangowonjezera gawo lina mwamanyazi anga.
Ndikulemba izi tsopano kuchokera kwa bwenzi langa la nyumba ya miyezi isanu ndi umodzi. Ndabwerera kusukulu, ndikuchita bwino. Vuto langa la ED silikupezeka. Ndimagonana pafupi tsiku ndi tsiku, nthawi zina kawiri kapena katatu patsiku mwina pafupifupi miyezi 4. Ndasiya kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo, ndipo ndayambanso kudzidalira. Kodi zonsezi zinachitika motani? Zowonjezera. Ndalephera kangati kukafika kuno? Nthawi zambiri.
Kodi ndimamva kuti sindingagonjetsedwe? Ayi konse. Ndikufufuzabe tsambali, ndikufunafuna zolimbikitsa kuti ndisayang'ane zolaula. Ndizomvetsa chisoni, kwenikweni. Koma sungakhale ndi keke yako ndikudyanso, ngati ukadakhala wokonda keke. Ndikhulupirireni, ndayesetsa. Ndiye pali, upangiri wina kuchokera ku "mbali inayo".
Pakali pano ndipomwe, zaka ziwiri zapitazo, ndinalota kuti ndikhoza kukhala. Sizongopeka. Ndi moyo weniweni. Ndipo ngati ndikufuna kuteteza, ndiyenera kukhala tcheru. Malangizo anga amamatira ku nofap, komanso yesetsani kusintha madera ena m'moyo wanu. Ndipo ngati mukuyenera kungoseweretsa maliseche, chitani izi popanda zolaula kapena zongoyerekeza. Ngati simumachita manyazi mukawombera katundu wanu, mukuchita bwino.
Komabe, ndiwo masenti anga awiri. Ndikufunirani zabwino zonse.
KULUMIKIZANA - Upangiri wina kuchokera kumbali inayo.
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