Nkhani yanga ikufanana ndi ambiri. Ndine 27. Pafupifupi chaka chapitacho ndinataya chilakolako changa chogonana ndipo sindinathe kukhala ndi mnzanga. Zomwe zinali zamanyazi chifukwa ndinali ndi zibwenzi zambiri zokopa komanso zofunitsitsa. Zinandipangitsa kumva kuti "ndikusowa moyo." Ndinkaganiza kuti ndizokhudzana ndi zolaula, choncho ndinadula kenako ndinasiya. Koma nditakhala bwino pang'ono ndidabwereranso. Sindinakhalepo wotsimikiza kuti zimakhudzana ndi zolaula. Ndidawerenga zambiri kuchokera kwa "akatswiri" omwe amati zolaula sizidziwika kuti zimakumana ndi zovuta.
Tsiku 8: Sabata yatha sizinali zabwino, koma osati zoyipa kwambiri. Zizindikiro zanga zazikulu ndikutopa, kulephera kuyang'ana kwambiri pantchito, ndikufuna kudzipatula osayanjana ndi aliyense. Lero ndi tsiku loipitsitsa pano. Koma zilibe kanthu chifukwa nthawi ino ndikudziwa KODI ndikumva chonchi. Izi zimapangitsa zinthu kukhala zosavuta kwambiri.Ndinakhala zaka zambiri ndikuyesera kufotokoza kufooka kwanga, ubongo wanga muubongo komanso kusachita chidwi. Ndakhala ndi nthawi m'moyo momwe ndimaganizira bwino kwakanthawi. Chifukwa chake ndikudziwa kuti ndikhoza kutero. Ndimaganiza kuti ndili ndi vuto la kugona ndipo ndinapita kukayezetsa tulo - palibe vuto. Ndinayesa zakudya khumi ndi ziwiri kapena zosiyana, ndikuwonjezera ndikuchotsa omwe angakukhumudwitseni - palibe kusintha. Ndidayesa mitundu yonse yazowonjezera. Ndinafufuza zinthu zosiyanasiyana.
Ndinasiya caffeine ndi udzu kuti ndiwone ngati zingathandize - sizinathandize. Koma mwina lidali lingaliro labwino kusiya kugwiritsa ntchito zinthu ziwirizi. Ndidaphunzira bwino pamitu ingapo pakufuna kwanga, koma palibe yankho kutopa kwanga komanso kusowa kwa vuto.
Chokhacho chomwe ndidakwanitsa kuzindikira motsimikiza patatha zaka zingapo ndikuyesera ndikuti kutopa kumabwera ndikumayenda. Sabata limodzi loyipa, bwino sabata lotsatira. Masabata ena sanali oyipa konse, ngakhale amakhala nthawi zonse. Tsopano ndili ndi chiyembekezo chifukwa zidutswazo zimakwanira. Ndinali ndi chiyembekezo kale, koma sindinakhale ndi chiyembekezo monga momwe ndiliri lero.
Ndidali dalitso pobisalira kuti ndidayamba kupanga ED ndikuti mitunduyo idazimiririka pamoyo wanga. Ndidawona kuti zolaula zitha kukhala ndi chochita ndi ED, koma sindinkaganiza kuti kutopa kungayambike chifukwa chodzipatula nthawi zonse pa zolaula / zolaula. Zabwino kuwona kuti ambiri akuwonetsa kutopa ngati chizindikiro chochoka.
Tsiku 17: Zinthu zikuyang'ana kuti ziwone pang'ono pokha. Ndayamba kuwona kuwala kumapeto kwa mumphangayo. Ndimatopa kwambiri, koma zochepa. Ndimatha kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi ndikuyang'ana kwambiri ntchito. Ndimaona kuti akazi m'misewu ndiosangalatsa kuyang'ananso. Ndikuzindikira kuti ndikufuna kuseweretsa maliseche ndikamamva kuti ndibwezeretse. Koma tsopano ndazindikira kuti zingoyambitsanso ulendo wina. Ndikosavuta kukana kulakalaka ndikudziwa izi.
Kuchoka kumayamwa, koma kukana zolakalaka sikunakhale kovuta kwa ine konse. Ndikuganiza kuti mwina ndi chifukwa chakuti ndimadziwa kusiya zinthu zosokoneza bongo ndipo mwina chifukwa ndinafikira thanthwe langa pomwe ndimadziwa kuti zinthu ziyenera kusintha. Chinthu china ndikudziwitsa zomwe zikuchitika komanso chifukwa chomwe ndimamvera.
Tsiku 23: Zikuwoneka ngati kuchoka kumabwera mafunde. Dzulo linali labwino kwambiri. Mwina tsiku loipitsitsa pano. Chifunga chaubongo, sichingayang'ane pa chinthu, kudzuka pakati pausiku, kungotuluka..Lero linali bwinoko pang'ono. Tikukhulupirira kuti mawa zikhala bwino kwambiri. Ndikuganiza kuti izi zitenga kanthawi, koma zikhala zofunikira kwambiri.
Ndikuzindikiranso kuti nthawi zonse ndimayang'ana za kugonana kwa pafupifupi mkazi aliyense yemwe ndimawawona. Sili wathanzi. Sindinaganizirepo zambiri, koma tsopano ndikuwona kuti ndiyenera kuyesetsa kusintha izi. Kumbali ina ndizabwino kuyang'ana akazi ndikuwapeza achigololo. Ndiye mzere uli kuti kwenikweni? Sindikudziwa, koma ndikudziwa ndadutsa ndipo ndiyenera kubwerera pang'ono.
Ndipezekanso ndikulowerera m'malingaliro okhumudwitsa. Mwamwayi zakhala zikundichitikira m'mbuyomu ndipo ndimatha kuzigwira ndikudzikumbutsa kuti ndichinthu chosakhalitsa chomwe ndikukumana nacho. Chinyengo sichikudzilimbikitsanso, koma ingodula ulusi wokhumudwitsa wamaganizidwe ndikupitilira ndi moyo.
Day27: Sabata yonse (sabata 4) yakhala yovuta. Koma zidakhala zosavuta kumapeto. Sindingagone bwino. Dzukani kamodzi usiku. Malo anga akhala madzi abwino kwakanthawi, koma tsopano ayamba kuwoneka bwino kwambiri. Palibe njira yoti ndibwerere ku zolaula. Lingaliro langa lochotsa makanema akunyumba likulimba, koma osati pamenepo.
Ndinayamba kuwona mkazi - wokongola weniweni komanso wanzeru. Kwenikweni zomwe munthu aliyense amafuna. Tsopano ndili ndi nkhawa yotsika iyi chifukwa sindinasinthidwe kwenikweni ndi akazi enieni. Ndizowonera chabe momwe zidakhalira kale ndipo zili kutali ndi "zabwinobwino". Ndiwokongola ndipo ndiyenera kuyatsidwa kwambiri, ndipo mwanjira ina ndili, koma zili ngati siginolo siyenda mbolo yanga.
Kotero monga ndanenera, ndikumva nkhawa iyi kuti adzayembekezera zogonana posachedwa kuposa momwe ndakonzera. Ndinamuuza kuti ndakhala ndikuchita zolaula posachedwa ndipo ndikusiya kugonana, koma sindinatchule kukula kwake ndipo sindinamuuze kuti ndapanga ED. Zoseketsa kwambiri chifukwa nthawi zambiri bambo amakhala akukakamira zogonana ndipo mkaziyo samakonzeka. Momwe magome asinthira hahaha.
tsiku 42: Ndidakali P ndi M mfulu. koma masabata angapo apitawa akhala ovuta. Dzulo ndi lero ndi masiku abwino kwambiri oyamba. Sikuti ndikulakalaka zolaula. Kungoti ndimakhala ndikusowa kotere. Palibe chomwe chidandisangalatsa. Ndikungokhala kusasangalala nthawi zonse ngati mungafune. Zolakalaka zilizonse zomwe ndinali nazo sizinali chifukwa chofuna kusangalala, koma chifukwa chofuna kuthana ndi mkwiyo - kumverera kwakusowa komwe kudzipatula kumabweretsa.
Ndiwerenga buku, koma ndimatha mphindi 10-20 zokha. Kenako yang'anani pulogalamu, koma ingopita 20 min. Zimavuta kupeza chisangalalo chilichonse. Zovuta kumangoyang'ana pachilichonse. Tili ndi ntchito yaying'ono kwambiri.
Komanso pakhala pali nkhawa iyi. Ndikungomva jittery. Dzulo ndidakumana ndi mzanga yemwe adati: "Lero zikuwoneka kuti ukupumula." Sindinazindikire kuti nkhawa inali kuwonekera. Ndimaganiza kuti ndichinthu chomwe ndimangomva mkati.
Komabe, nkhawa imatha, komabe ndizovuta kuyang'ana pantchito. Icho chakhala chiri dongosolo. Pamwamba ndi pansi, mmwamba ndi pansi, koma mukuyenda mmwamba kwathunthu. Mtundu wofanana ndi kufanana kwa pendulum: kusunthira mmbuyo ndi mtsogolo, koma kutaya pang'onopang'ono mphamvu ndikubwera pakatikati. Ndikungoyembekeza kuti zipita kumapeto ndipo ndibwerera mwakale.
Kugonana kwanga kumabwereranso pang'ono ndi pang'ono. Ndimamva kukhala wopanda chodetsa chilichonse m'mutu mwanga (zolaula). Kutalika ndikupita kuyeretsa ndimamva. Osati oyera mwamakhalidwe, koma "mwamaganizidwe" oyera ngati izi zingakhale zomveka. Zolaula ndi poyizoni wama psyche, monga chikonga chimakhala poizoni mthupi.
Chibwenzi changa chatsopano ndipo tidachimenya. Amamvetsetsa, koma samadikirira kuti agone. Sindinakonzekerebe pano. Ndikudziwa kuti ndikhoza kuzichita, koma ndikuganiza kuti ndibwino kuti ubongo wanga ubwerere moyenera. Cholinga choyambirira chinali kupita masiku a 60 opanda orgasm ndipo ndikukonzekera kutsatira zomwezo. Ndinamupatsa chilankhulo pakamwa ngakhale.
tsiku 60: Kumva bwino lero. Osakhala wabwinobwino - sindinamve choncho kwa zaka - koma zabwino. Ndidagonana kawiri kawiri sabata yatha. Pomaliza zimamveka bwino ngati kale. Ndikukhulupirira kuti izi zikupitilizabe kusintha. Sindimayesedwa pambuyo pake ndipo ndimatha kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi molimbika. Osabwereranso kumachitidwe akale kuti azimenya mwamphamvu, koma kupita pang'onopang'ono.
Kuwona kusintha pang'ono pamaganizidwe ndi kuzama. Ntchito sikugwira ntchito. Tsiku lantchito limakhala losavuta kutha.
Nkhawa ndizakuti jitter yatsala pang'ono kutha. Kumva kuchepa pang'ono. Zinkakhala zocheza nthawi zonse ndi abwenzi apamtima komanso abale, koma tsopano akumva ochezeka. M'mawu akuti ndikumva Chiyembekezo.
Zithunzi zolaula zikutha kukumbukira sizingathetsedwe, koma nditha kuyandikira kwambiri. Chifukwa chake ndichidziwikire kuti ndamaliza zolaula moyo wanga wonse.
Ndimakhalanso wopanda maliseche. Sindikudziwa kuti nditha kupitiliza liti, koma sindimakonda kuseweretsa maliseche. Ndi chinthu chimodzi chocheperako kuganizira. Osanena kuti zimasokonekera nthawi zina ndipo zinthu sizimabwera mosavuta. Pepani pazowoneka.
I ndili pano pafupifupi miyezi 4 yopanda zolaula komanso ngakhale kuseweretsa maliseche. Chilichonse chikupitabe patsogolo pang'onopang'ono, koma zowonadi. Nditatha ntchito, ndimakhala wopanda mphamvu yoti ndituluke mnyumba kupita kumalo ochitira masewera olimbitsa thupi omwe ali pafupi. Kenako ndinayamba kupita kumalo ochitira masewera olimbitsa thupi pafupipafupi, koma ndinkatha mphamvu ndikangomaliza kumene. Tsopano ndimapita kumalo ochitira masewera olimbitsa thupi ndikupita kukacheza.
Kugwira ntchito tsopano kumandipatsa mphamvu monga kale m'malo mondipatsa mphamvu. Ndimathabe kulimbitsa thupi 50% molimbika monga kale, koma kuyambira 20%.
Ndimatha kugwira ntchito zambiri kuntchito yanga komanso ku bizinesi yanga ya maola ochepa. Nditha kuyang'ana kwakanthawi.
Kugonana kwanga kukuyenda bwino. Ndakhala ndikupeza zosankha popanda chifukwa masabata angapo apitawa. Ndimakumbukira osati kale kwambiri ndili wamantha kwambiri ndisanachite zogonana poopa kuti sindingathe kuzimva. Osatinso.
Zizindikiro zokhudzana ndi kuchepa kwa dopamine / low receptor kumabwerabe m'mafunde. Maganizo anga ndi mphamvu zanga sizinakhazikike, koma ndizowopsa kuposa kale. Ndine wokondwa chifukwa ndikuganiza kuti ndazindikira chifukwa chake ndatopa kwambiri ndipo sindinatengeke mtima kwazaka zingapo zapitazi. Tsopano ndikutsimikiza kuti zinali zizolowezi / zizolowezi zanga zingapo: chamba, caffeine, zolaula. Porn ndiye womaliza kupita ndipo ndikuyembekeza kuti ndiye gawo lomaliza lazosokoneza.
Zolaula ndizopusa pang'ono. Sindikadalumikizana ndikanapanda webusaitiyi. Zikomonso.
Kwa wina aliyense kunja komweko zomwe zili choncho - MUSATAYE MTIMA! Zinthu sizingasinthe mwachangu momwe mungafunire, koma zimawongokera.
Kotero yakhala miyezi 6… Wow time ntchentche. Imeneyo ndi miyezi 6 yopanda zolaula komanso kuseweretsa maliseche. (Zovuta zina ndi mnzanu.) Ndikumvabe ngati ndikubwezeretsa zamaganizidwe ndi thupi. Zochitika zina: palibe maliseche = chilimbikitso chokumana ndi akazi.
Anyamata, ngati ndinu amanyazi pozungulira akazi. Simudzakhala wamanyazi kwambiri pokhapokha atangopeza njira yokhayo yogonana ndi mkazi weniweni. Mudzakhalabe ndi agulugufe, koma kugonana kwanu kumakupatsani mphamvu zotsutsana ndi agulugufe. Mudzakhala otsimikiza kwambiri.
- otembenuka kwambiri kukhudza kuposa zowoneka
Ndikakhala "pa zolaula" ndimatha kuwona otentha ndikufuna kumumenya nthawi yomweyo. Sizofanana ndendende. Tsopano ndasintha kuyanjana kwanga ndi kukhudza kwathu kwakanthawi ndipo sindimatsegulidwa ndi zowonera. Tsopano musandilakwitse. Ndikadali wamwamuna ndipo ndimawoneka ngati wofunika kwambiri pakudzuka kwanga, koma amatenga gawo lochepa popeza ndasiya zolaula.
- azimayi enieni ali ndi zolakwika
Izi ndizokhudzana ndi zolaula komanso media. Anthu enieni ali ndi zofooka zathupi. Simukuwona zolakwika izi pazenera lanu. Ndikamalumikizana ndi azimayi enieni ndimawawona ndikuganizira za akaziwo. Tsopano zayamba kundimenya kuti akazi opanda cholakwa kulibe. Ndimakhala ndi akazi ena okongola kwambiri padziko lapansi lino (toot, TOOT!) Ndipo onse ali ndi zolakwika.
Nthawi zonse ndimazidziwa pamlingo waluntha, koma tsopano ndikuyamba kuzimva pamatumbo. Zolakwika tsopano zikundiwonetsa kuti uyu ndi mayi weniweni yemwe ndimalumikizana naye, zomwe zimamupangitsa kuti azigonana kwambiri.
- mphamvu
Mphamvu zanga zamagetsi zikupitilizabe kupitilizabe kusinthasintha zochitika.
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