Ndine wokonda zaka 27 wazaka za PMO yemwe wakhala akuyesera kuti achire kwa miyezi 8 yapitayi. Ndakhala ndikulowerera kwa PMO kwazaka zopitilira 12. Kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo kwa masewera a pakompyuta a pa intaneti kwa zaka 10-6 zina.
Age 1-13
-Chizolowezi Kid. Zabwino kwambiri komanso zosangalatsa ndi moyo.
Age 13-16
- Anayamba kwa PMO kwambiri. Makamaka kuzopeka komanso pulogalamu iliyonse ya pa TV, magazini kapena nyuzipepala yomwe imafanana ndi mkazi aliyense wosachedwa kutentha. Kuda nkhawa ndi anthu kunayamba.
Age 17-21
-Anayamba kusuta chamba tsiku lililonse. Kenako Crystal Meth. Meth + Porn ndizovuta kwambiri. Ndingakhale PM kwa maola 24 owongoka .. kapena kupitilira apo ... mungakhulupirire zimenezo? Kenako, ndikulephera kupitanso, ndimapita kukagula malo aliwonse ogulitsa zolaula mzindawu pasanathe maola 10. Kenako PMO kwa maola ena 24. Zinthu zomwe ndachita… sindingathe kuzinena. Kuda nkhawa ndi Anthu kunakula. Choyipa chachikulu.
Age 22-26
-Anasiya meth koma anapitiliza kusuta chamba. Ndakhala ndikugwira ntchito yomweyi pafupifupi zaka 9 tsopano kuti ndilipire chizolowezi changa cha PMO. Kenako ndinalowa m'malo operekera kutikita minofu. Ndikulankhula za kutikita minofu sabata iliyonse kapena kawiri pamlungu ndi "mathero osangalatsa." Nditha kupita kwa mayi yemwe amandipatsa HJ, koma osagonana. Ndinali ndi ED yokhudzana ndi zolaula. Chisokonezo changa cha chikhalidwe cha anthu chinafika nthawi zonse. Ndimadzichepetsera ndekha ndi anzanga ndi abale, kupatula maholide.
Disembala 1st. 2010.
-Ndalipira kuti ndigone ndi mtsikana wotentha kwambiri woperekeza yemwe ndidamuyang'anapo. Koma sindinathe kulimba. Ndipo nditatero, ndidabwera pafupifupi masekondi 30. Ndidachoka kunyumba kwake ndikumadzimva kuti ndiwosokonekera komanso kuwononga ndalama zanga.
Ndidakumana ndi nkhani ya Marnia Kodi Mkango Wamantha Ukhoza Kungoseweretsa Maliseche Kwambiri? komanso yourbrainonporn.com.
Ndinazindikira kuti mavuto anga ambiri mwina anali ochokera ku PMO (ndi mankhwala osokoneza bongo kapena dopamine kuthamangira), ndipo inali nthawi yoti ndichitepo kanthu. Kwerani PMO (Disembala 7th). Masiku XXUMX pambuyo pake (Disembala 9th 16) Ndasiya chamba mpaka kalekale. Ndinayambanso kuthamanga, kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi tsiku lililonse komanso kudya wathanzi. Masiku XXUMX pambuyo pake (Januwale 2010nd 23) Ndidasiya ndudu zosatha.
Chidaliro changa chinakwera kwambiri ndipo zinandipwetekadi, popeza ndinasankha kuti kuli bwino kutikita minofu, yomwe idatha mosadukiza ndikuyambiranso. Kulumwa kolimba.
Jan 1 2011 mpaka Julayi 10th
- Kwa miyezi yotsatira 7 ndi theka ndimapita 1 kapena 2 masabata opanda PMO ndiye BINGE HARDDD. Mobwerezabwereza. Nyimbo imodzimodzi sabata limodzi. Komabe ndinapitilizabe kusuta chamba ndi ndudu. Ndinapitilizabe kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi tsiku ndi tsiku othamanga ndikukweza zolemera, zomwe zidapangitsa mafuta anga kukhala ochepera 9%. Kuda nkhawa kwanga pakati pa anthu kumatha pang'ono, kenako kumakulirakulira. Maganizo anga ndi malingaliro anga anali okwera komanso otsika 100x kupitilira.
Julayi 10th mpaka August 4.
- Tsopano ndili ndi masiku 24 osakhudzidwa ndi PMO onse. Apanso. Kutalika kwambiri sindinakhalepo popanda PMO.
Ndinalembetsa kuti ndidzalembetse masukulu aku koleji ya semester yakugwa, ndipo ndikonzekera kuti ndiziwona izi mpaka nditamaliza digirii. Sindikukhutira ndi komwe ndili mmoyo wanga. Ndinajambula kondomu yanga yomwe ndagula posachedwa ndipo ndakhala ndikuwonjezera zovala zanga. Komanso, ndakhala ndikuyika ndalama mu akaunti yanga yosungira ndalama ndi Roth IRA koyamba pa moyo wanga. (Pafupifupi madola 1). Ndizodabwitsa kuti mumasunga ndalama zingati mukamagula udzu, ndudu komanso zolaula.
Ndimamva mphamvu zambiri komanso nkhawa zanga zocheperako nthawi zonse zimakhala zotsika. Ndimalankhula ndi akazi nthawi zambiri m'malo olimbitsa thupi ndipo kamodzi pa sabata pitani kumakanema ndi bwenzi langa lapamtima.
Sindili komwe ndikufuna. Nthawi zonse ndimakhala ndi lingaliro ili m'mutu mwanga lomwe limanena kuti, "NTHAWI YINA YOMWEYO" - ndikuganiza za PMO. Koma sindilola kuti zichitike nthawi ino. Chondiletsa nchiyani? Ndikupita kukoleji masiku 41. Sukulu ya nthawi ya 1 mzaka 10. Ndikudandaula kwanga komwe kumawoneka ngati lingaliro la CRAZY kwa ine.
Komabe, ndikumva kuti poletsa chizolowezi changa cha PMO nkhawa imatha kukhalapo tsiku langa la 1 litayamba. Zomwe ndikuyembekeza. Ndikayambiranso PMO, ndiziwopa kuti ndikawonekere kumakalasi anga omwe ndinalipira kale. Sindingalole kuti izi zichitike. SIZINGATHEKE! SIYO NTHAWI IYI !!!!!
[Tsiku 30] Ndinkangoyang'ana sewero litangotuluka pomwe kwakanthawi kochepa lidawonetsa azimayi akuvina maliseche pagulu lazovala. Ndinafulumira ndipo mtima wanga unayamba kugunda ngati unali wokonzeka kutulutsa chifuwa changa. Kenako ndinatseka kanemayo ndikuwoneranso zina. Sindinamuyang'ane mkaziyo ngakhale pang'ono ndipo ndinapeza zozizwitsa zonsezi. Ndimakhala "wothamanga" motere kwambiri tsiku lililonse. Mkazi wokhotakhota pamalonda otsatsa mowa m'sitolo yogulitsa mowa? Mkazi wokongola waku Asia mu kanema? Mkazi wokongola mu malonda? ... Kodi izi ndi zachilendo? Kodi ndingamve motere Ngati sindinayambe ndayang'ana zolaula? Kodi zolaula zimasokoneza malingaliro anga? AHHhhhhhhh ndimadana nazo.
PS. Ndakhala ndikugwiritsa ntchito zolaula kwa zaka 10 +, motero ndikuganiza kuti sindiyenera kuyembekeza kusintha kwamasiku a 30.
[Tsiku 35] Tsiku loyamba ku koleji. Kutalika kwambiri ndakhala wopanda PM -AND- O. Ponseponse ndimakhala bwino tsiku lililonse. Ndinganene kuti ndili pafupifupi 50% kuti ndikhale ndi thanzi labwino. Zimandivuta kuseka, nthabwala kuntchito, kucheza ndi kungokhala ndekha. Kulimba mtima kwanga kuli kudzera padenga. Ndimayenda monyadira, ndimayang'ana m'maso ndi aliyense amene angodutse njira yanga, ndipo ndimalankhula mokweza… Mwina mokweza kwambiri.
Mwathupi ndine 100%. Super duper zovuta m'mawa, ngakhale zozizwitsa zokha nthawi zina. Chomwe chiri chodabwitsa kwambiri poganizira kuti ndinali ndi ED yoyipitsitsa pafupifupi miyezi 8 yapitayo. (Kusiya kusuta udzu ndi ndudu mwina zathandiza).
Nthawi yoyamba yomwe ndinakhala wopanda PMO (miyezi 8 yapitayo), ED inali nkhawa yanga yayikulu. Ikangobwerera ndimangokhalira kuigwira ndikusewera nayo yomwe pamapeto pake idandibwezera ku PMO. Nthawi ino ndanyalanyaza mbolo yanga, popanda kuyesetsa kwambiri. Sabata yachiwiri inali yovuta koma kuyambira pamenepo ndimatha kunyalanyaza zosankha zanga. Ndimathamanga kwambiri… KWAMBIRI, ndipo ndimachita zambiri. Ndikutsimikiza kuti ziyenera kuthandizira kuthetsa mavuto.
Wanga womaliza kulowa blog ndinanena momwe kuwona mkazi aliyense wokongola ngakhale wakutali pa TV, malonda, malo ogulitsira zakumwa zoledzeretsa, kuyenda m'misika kungandipatse mpope waukulu wa andrenaline kapena…. kuthamanga kwa dopamine. Mphindi yomwe ndinawona mkazi wokongola, 2-D kapena 3-D, ndimamva mumtima mwanga ngati ndikuyang'ana zolaula. Sindingapeze erection, koma RUSHyo inali pamenepo. Tsopano, ndikumvabe kumverera, koma zochepa. Ndikumva ngati "kuthamangira" komwe kumagwirizana ndi nkhawa yanga.
Lero linali tsiku langa la 1st ku koleji (nditatha kusintha kwa nthawi ya 8- ola). Nkhawa yanga inali yofooka kulingalira za momwe zinthu zimakhalira ndi mkazi wokongola onse akuyenda.
Chiyambireni kusamba kwa PMO komwe kudapangitsa kuti ndisiye udzu ndi ndudu ndataya thupi. Ndine wotsika kwambiri 7 ~ 9% mafuta amthupi, ndipo ndakhala ndi minofu yambiri, yomwe imandipatsa chidaliro. Makamaka lero, nditatembenuza mitu yambiri ku koleji. Zimandipangitsa kuseka kwambiri. Zimandisangalatsa. Ndimakonda kuseka kachiwiri. Kuseka kwenikweni.
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