[Woyamba] Ndilongosola mwachidule nkhani yanga (27yrs, male). Kwa zaka zingapo zapitazi, ndakhala ndikuvutika kwambiri ndi ziwonetsero za ED. Nditatha ndi chikondi changa choyamba pa 21, ndidayamba kuwona zovuta nthawi iliyonse yomwe kondomu idaphatikizidwa, koma popanda izo. Pakati pa 23, ndinayamba chibwenzi ndi mtsikana ndipo sindinathe kukhala ndi erection ngakhale popanda kondomu, ndipo tinasiyana. Pasanapite nthawi, ndinayamba kugwiritsa ntchito mapiritsi a Viagra kuti ndikhale ndi msungwana kwa mtsikana wina yemwe ndinali naye pachibwenzi kwa miyezi ingapo, koma sindinathe kukhala naye popanda izi. Atasiyana ndi ine, ndidamenya nkhondo yazaka ziwiri ndikumva tondovi, manyazi, komanso kudziona wopanda pake zomwe zidapangitsa kuti moyo wanga ukhale wokhazikika. Komanso, ndinali wopanda kanthu mkati. Zinali zoyipa kwambiri kumva kuti sindimatha kugonana, makamaka kukhala pachibwenzi ndi munthu wina. Kodi ndikadakhala chonchi moyo wanga wonse?
Kugwa komaliza, ndinayamba chibwenzi ndi munthu wina, ndipo ndinali kumwa mobisa magawo a mapiritsi a Viagra, kuyesera kudziletsa ndikamalimbitsa chidaliro changa chogonana. Pambuyo pa miyezi 6, sindinathe kubisanso munthu amene ndimamukonda - ndinamuuza zonse. Sindinamvepo pachiwopsezo m'moyo wanga wonse. Anandiuza kuti amvetsetsa, kuti amandikonda, ndipo titha kuchitapo kanthu limodzi. Anasiyana nane patatha milungu iwiri.
Zili bwino, komabe, chifukwa ndazindikira kuti vutoli silidzatha pokhapokha nditayandikira ndikukumana nalo. Kuyambira pamenepo (masabata 6 apitawo), ndaganiza zopanga kena kake za izi. Ndakhala ndikufufuza 'ukondewu kwa milungu ingapo ndikuyesera kuti ndipeze nkhani zopambana za anthu omwe athana ndi izi, mpaka pano, dera lino likuwoneka kuti ndi lokhalo.
[Sabata imodzi kuti muyambirenso] Ntchito yonseyi ili ndi zovuta zake. Masiku ena amawoneka kuti alibe vuto, koma pali nthawi zina kukakamizidwa kwa MO, kapena wopanda P, kumakhala kochuluka kwambiri. M'mawa, nthawi zambiri ndimangodumphira pabedi ndikupita ndi tsiku langa ndipo zimathandiza kuchepetsa kukhudzidwa. Mausiku ena, monga usiku watha, ndimagona tulo tofa nato ndipo ndimangoponya ndikulimbana ndikulakalaka kutsegula kompyuta yanga ndikupeza mpumulo womwe ndikufuna. Sindikukhulupirira kuti P wandigwira / wandigwira, sabata yatha yakhala ikundidzutsa. Nthawi zonse ndimaganiza kuti ndinali wosiyana pang'ono, komanso kuti anyamata ena mwina sanayang'ane zolaula zomwe ndimachita. Tsopano ndikumvetsetsa kuti si zolaula zomwe ndidatsata, zinali zosangalatsa zomwe wokonzanso adandipatsa. Ndizomveka kwa ine kuti ndimavutika ndi ED pomwe ubongo wanga ukufuna china chake cholimbikitsira. Chifukwa chake ndinganene kuti vuto lalikulu sabata yoyamba ndikuyesera kukana kukakamizidwa - tsiku limodzi panthawi.
[Masabata asanu ndi awiri] ndakhala ndikuchita izi kawiri kawiri patsiku kwazaka, ndipo nthawi zonse ndimakhala ngati kuti ndiyenera kuyang'ana pazokongoletsa kuti ndikhale wokhutira momwemo. Nthawi zambiri ndinkakhala womangika pafupi ndi atsikana, ndipo ndinkadandaula kwambiri ndikudziwa kuti sindinathe kukhala ndi erection popanda chithandizo chamankhwala. Ndipamene ndidasankha kuyesa njira yonse yobwezeretsanso.
Ndakhala ndikuthana ndi vuto la PMO ndi ED, chifukwa chake ndimafuna kutumiza ndikulimbikitsa ena pano. Ndikudziwa kuti kuyambiranso zinthu kumakhala kosangalatsa komanso nthawi zina kumasungulumwa, ndipo ndikudziwa kuti zimathandiza kupeza chilimbikitso kuchokera kwa ena omwe adakhalapo.
Pafupifupi milungu isanu ndi iwiri yapitayo, nditatha manyazi komanso kutha chifukwa cha ED, ndidaganiza zosintha moyo wanga ndikuchita chilichonse chomwe ndingathe kuti ndithane nawo. Ndipamene ndidapunthwa pagululi ndipo ndinazindikira kuti mwina ndinali ndi vuto la PMO. Ndakhala ndikuchita kawirikawiri kawiri pa tsiku kwa zaka, ndipo nthawi zonse ndimamva ngati ndiyenera kuyang'ana pazolowera kuti ndikhale wosangalala. Nthawi zambiri ndinkakhala womangika pafupi ndi atsikana, ndipo ndinkadandaula kwambiri ndikudziwa kuti sindinathe kukhala ndi erection popanda chithandizo chamankhwala. Ndipamene ndidasankha kuyesa njira yonse yobwezeretsanso.
Ndakhala ndikuyembekezera kwambiri mpaka tsiku lomwe ndidzalemba nkhani yanga yopambana pano, chifukwa cha kuthokoza kwanga komanso kulimbikitsa ena kuti abwere nawonso.
Ndinakumana ndi mtsikana wodabwitsa kwambiri, ndipo tidadina kwathunthu. Takhala tikuwonana pafupifupi mwezi umodzi tsopano, ndipo sabata yatha, ndidamuuza zakufunika kwanga kugwiritsa ntchito Viagra kugonana. Anavomereza kuti tiyenera kudula kotheratu ndikuyesera kuthana ndi ED limodzi, ndipo tidatero.
Usiku wotsatira, ndidagonana popanda Viagra kwa nthawi yoyamba pafupifupi zaka zinayi. Ndinalephera kuyesanso masiku angapo pambuyo pake, koma ndinachita bwino kuchita zogonana popanda Viagra usiku watha (komanso lero m'mawa).
Kumva kuthana ndi izi ndizodabwitsa kwambiri - Ndine wokondwa kuti pamapeto pake ndinasiya kusewera ndikuyamba kuthana ndi mavuto anga. Ndikufuna kuthokoza aliyense m'derali yemwe adayankhapo pazolemba zanga ndikupereka malingaliro awo, upangiri wawo komanso chilimbikitso chawo. Palibe wina aliyense m'moyo wanga amene amadziwa za vuto langa la PMO, chifukwa chake anthuwa anali mzati waukulu wothandizira m'masabata angapo apitawa. Zikomonso.
Sindikudziwa kuti ndi njira ziti zomwe zasinthira ED, koma Nazi zomwe ndidachita ngati wina akufuna kuyesanso izi. Choyamba, pangani njira yobwezeretsanso. Ndikuganiza kuti mwina ndichofunika kwambiri pazonsezi. Palibe funso, ndizovuta ndipo padzakhala mausiku pomwe ndizomwe simungathe kufikira kompyuta yanu, koma chitani chilichonse chomwe mungathe kuti mupewe. Ndakhala ndi MO'ed kanayi kapena kasanu m'masabata asanu ndi awiri apitawa, chifukwa chake ndikudziwa momwe zingakhalire zovuta, koma ndikukhulupirira kuti mudzachira msanga ngati simutero.
Komanso, dziperekeni kuti musayang'ane zolaula. Sindinawonepo chithunzi kapena kanema kuyambira pomwe ndidayambiranso, ndipo sindikhala ndi chidwi pano.
Chachiwiri, ndimasuta udzu kangapo patsiku, ndipo dokotala yemwe ndimapita kukamuwona za ED nditayamba kuyambiranso anandiuza kuti amaganiza motsimikiza kuti udzu ndiwo umayambitsa. Ndinasiya kuzizira komweko muofesi ya madotolo, ndipo sindinakhudzepo kuyambira pano. Sindikudziwa ngati chamba chimayambitsa ED kapena ayi, koma sindikudandaula kuti ndasiya kapena sindikumva ngati ndikufuna kubwerera. Ndinkakonda kusuta fodya ngati mnyamata wotsatira, koma kukhala pachibwenzi chogonana ndikofunikira kwambiri, chifukwa chake sindimakumananso ndikatero.
Chachitatu, ndinayamba kumwa mavitamini ambirimbiri tsiku lililonse (240mg) a Ginkgo Bilbao. Sindikumva ngati multivitamin idachita zambiri, koma ndidazindikira kuti patadutsa milungu ingapo nditatenga GB zomwe ndimapanga m'mawa ndimamva zolimba komanso zolimba. GB imaganiza kuti imabwezeretsanso mitsempha yaying'ono yamagazi ndi ma capillaries, omwe amalola magazi ambiri kulowa mu mbolo nthawi yakumuka. Monga phindu lina, ndinazindikiranso kuwonjezeka kwakukulu pakumvetsetsa kwanga.
Chachinayi, ndinayamba kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi pang'ono ndikudya bwino. Ndiyenera kunena zowona. Ndidangoyamba kuchita zolimbitsa thupi kamodzi pa sabata kapena apo, koma ndimayesetsa kuyenda malo omwe sindimakonda ndipo nthawi zina ndimatenga saladi pachangu. Ndikuganiza kuti ndibwino kuposa chilichonse.
Chinthu china chofunikira chomwe ndikufuna kunena ndidatchulidwadi ndi munthu wina pa tsambali yemwe adagonjetsa ED, ndipo ndiko kukhala ndi chiyembekezo. Zinthu sizinkawoneka bwino kwambiri kwa ine pamene ndinasankha kusintha izi, ndipo ndinali ndimavuto chifukwa cha kutha kwaposachedwa. Ndipo kuyambiranso kudakhumudwitsa nthawi zina, kusungulumwa kwenikweni komanso kuwopsa kwa ena. Gwiritsani ntchito bwaloli ndi kufunsa anthu ammudzi kuti akuthandizeni; Zimathandizanso kuti ena akuthandizeni kukuthandizani kuti musiye chiyembekezo chanu. Ngati palibe china, khalani pansi ndikuwerenga nkhani zopambana.
Nthawi zonse ndikakhala ndikusowa chiyembekezo, kapena ndikayambiranso kubwereranso, ndimawerenga za ena omwe akupitilira zomwezo ndikumayesa momwe zingamverere kukhala m'modzi yemwe adalemba nkhani yangayi yopambana. Inunso mungathe.
Apanso, ndikungofuna kuthokoza aliyense amene wandithandiza, komanso kulimbikitsa ena kuti apitirize kuyesayesa. Ndikhulupirireni, ndikudziwa momwe zimakhalira zovuta nthawi zina, koma kumva kuti kuthana ndi izi ndikofunikira. Lero, ndili ndi msungwana wamkulu ndipo malingaliro anga ali m'malo abwinoko kuposa momwe anali miyezi iwiri yapitayo. Ndikudziwa kuti padakali malo ena oti ndisinthe, koma nditawerenganso zolemba zanga zoyamba mdera lino milungu isanu ndi iwiri yapitayo, nditha kuwona kuti ndapita patsogolo kwambiri. Ndikukhulupirira ndikhozanso kulimbikitsa ena kuti achite chimodzimodzi. Chonde khalani omasuka kunditumizira uthenga wa chinsinsi kapena kuyankhapo pa positiyi, ndidzabwerako nthawi zina kudzapereka moni ndikupereka malingaliro aliwonse omwe ndingathe. Zabwino zonse kwa wina aliyense amene akuyesera kuthana ndi ED kapena chizolowezi cha PMO; Ndizovuta koma mutha kuzichita, ndipo ndikofunikira kwambiri kumenya nkhondo.
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"Pazaka zisanu zapitazi pomwe takhala tikumva malipoti athu pazizindikiro zazikulu zomwe timalemba: zovuta zakugonana, zokonda zogonana, nkhawa zosagwirizana ndi chikhalidwe cha anthu, kusakopeka ndi omwe angakwatirane nawo a 3-D, ndi zina zotero."
Ndikugwirizana nanu kwathunthu kuti kafukufukuyu ayenera kuzindikira zenizeni zake. Zomwe tafotokozazi ndizomwe zandichitikira, ngakhale ndakhala ogwiritsa zaka zoposa 10. Mbiri yanga yakukwera sikuti ndimanyadira nayo, koma ndamva bwino kwambiri popeza ndapeza dera lino.
Ndimakumbukira pamene ndinayamba kuyang'ana zolaula, ndinali wachinyamata (ndili ndi zaka 28 tsopano) yemwe anali wokhoza kupusitsa makolo anga mwa kungochotsa mbiri yanga pa intaneti pakompyuta yabanja. Nthawi imeneyo, liwiro lalikulu linali lisadapezekebe ndipo ndikukumbukira kudikirira kuti azitha kujambula zithunzi kuti ndizingoyang'ana. Ndimakumbukira ndikumverera kowopsa kotere, kokhala ngati kovutirapo komanso kuda nkhawa koma mwanjira yabwino, nthawi iliyonse yomwe ndimatha kuzemba. Ndikudziwa tsopano kuti uku kunali kuthamanga kwa dopamine, koma panthawiyo, ndimaganiza kuti ndikumverera kwachilengedwe komwe mumayenera kumadzuka, zomwe ndikuganiza mwanjira zina, zinali zowona. Ndidadzipeza ndekha ndikuyamba kuyembekezera nthawi yomwe nyumba izidzakhala yopanda anthu kuti nditha kufunafuna zambiri.
Chomwe muyenera kudziwa ndikuti, nthawi iyi, pachiyambipo, chithunzi cha vanilla chomwe ndidali nacho chokwanira chidali chokwanira kuti ubongo wanga wachinyamata usangalale. Kuthamanga kwa chithunzi chophweka cha mzimayi yemwe amakhala mwachangu mu zovala zake zamkati kunali kosangalatsa, ndipo ndimatha kusunga zomwezo m'maganizo mwanga kuti ndizigwiritsa ntchito mtsogolo ndili ndekha. Nthawi yonse yomwe ndidatembenuka 18, ndidakhala ndi chibwenzi chachikulu ndi mtsikana ndipo ngakhale nthawi zina timayang'ana zolaula nthawi yayitali, sizinali zovuta komanso sizimva ngati zomwe ndimakhala naye.
Zaka zingapo pambuyo pake, tinathetsana ndipo ndinasamukira kumalo kwanga ndi intaneti yothamanga kwambiri komanso nthawi yayitali kwambiri kwa ine, osanenapo kuti ndinali wosungulumwa patatha chibwenzi. Ndinganene kuti apa ndipamene vuto lakukwera kwandiyambira. Poyamba, ndimayang'ana zazifupi zazifupi zolaula za vanilla, koma awa angakhale makanema m'malo mwa zithunzi. Mukupita kwa nthawi, ndinapeza njira zotsitsa makanema onse ndikusaka zowonera zazifupi kuchokera kumawebusayiti, nthawi yonseyi ndikusangalalabe ndi liwiro lomwe ndidapeza komanso masewera omwe ndimawakonda
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Ndikungolemba izi chifukwa cha kusadziwika - Ndine wamanyazi kwambiri komanso wamanyazi gawo lotsatirali lomwe ndikufuna kufotokoza, koma ndikuzindikira tsopano zomwe zidachitika mwa ine ndipo anthu akuyenera kudziwa kuti zisachitike kwa iwo. Munali munthawi imeneyi pomwe ndidayamba kusintha nyengo mwa ine. Ndinali wotchuka kwambiri ku Yunivesite, ndipo ndinkachita nawo masewera ambiri, koma nthawi yanga yowonjezeka ndimagwiritsa ntchito intaneti ndikuchita PMO. Ndinali ndi chibwenzi, koma pamene sanali pafupi, ndi zomwe ndinachita.
Pakadali pano, ndidapeza kuti zinthu zomwe sizinadulidwenso sindizo, ndipo ndipamene ndidayamba kuyang'ana madera ena a intaneti. Ndinayamba kuwonera makanema azakugonana omwe amaphatikizaponso zinthu zina zowopsa, kenako ndidayamba kuyambiranso kumverera momwe ndimabwerera ndili wachichepere koyamba kuwona zolaula. Poyamba, ndimangoganiza kuti ndimakonda kuchita zachiwerewere kuti ndingotsegulidwa ndi zinthuzo, koma ndikuzindikira tsopano kuti ubongo wanga umasokonekera ndipo ukufuna kutulutsidwa kwa dopamine kuti nditseguke.
Ndiyenera kunena kuti pofika pano, ndidayamba kumva kuti sindimaganiza kuti ndingakonde ngati m'modzi mwa anzanga atadziwa zazinsinsi zanga, chifukwa chake ndidasamala kuti ndisunge njira zanga. Nthawi zonse ndimakhala wamanjenje mnzanga kapena bwenzi langa logwiritsa ntchito kompyuta yanga. Nthawi ina, mnzake adandiuza kuti mwangozi adakumana ndi kanema wolaula pa kompyuta yanga ndipo adati adadabwa ndi zomwe ndimayang'ana, ndipo adaziwuzanso bwenzi langa lakale. Zinali zovuta kwambiri- ndimasewera, koma sindinaime pamenepo.
Pa nthawi imeneyi ndinayamba kuzindikira kuti ndikupanga ED. Poyamba, sindinathe kukhala ndi erection nthawi iliyonse ndikamagwiritsa ntchito kondomu, koma ndimanena kuti makamaka ndimakhala ndi nkhawa komanso / kapena kuledzera. Lingaliro loti PMO ndi ED anali pachibale silinapezeke, ngakhale zili zowonekeratu tsopano. M'kupita kwa nthawi ndipo ndinapitilira PMO kupita kuzinthu zowononga, komabe, a ED adakulirakulira. Zinafika poti sindinathenso kukhala ndi kondomu, wosasamala, komanso bwenzi labwino, ndipo panthawiyi ndidalandira mankhwala anga oyamba ku Viagra. Tangoganizirani momwe ndimamvera nthawi imeneyo - ndikutuluka muofesi ya azachipatala ndili ndi zaka 24 ndizomwezo. Zinali zochititsa manyazi mobisa, ndipo zimangobisa chizindikiro chavuto lililonse, koma zidandilola kuti ndigonanenso.
Uku kudali kuyamba kwanga kwa zaka 3-4 zomwe zimayikitsa kwambiri m'moyo wanga. Ngakhale ndimakhoza bwino pamaphunziro ndipo pambuyo pake, pantchito, moyo wanga udasokonekera. Ndinafika nthawi yovuta kwambiri ya kukhumudwa, manyazi, komanso kupanda pake komwe kumamveka ngati msampha womwe sindingathe kuthawa. Kukhala wodwaladwala wa ED ali mwana ndidali kunding'amba mkati, ndipo choyipitsitsa ndikuti ndinalibe Vuto lomwe linali vuto. Ndimaganiza kuti kutha kukhala kusowa kwa testosterone, kuda nkhawa, kusadya bwino, kapena zinthu zina zingapo. Ndidapita kwa madotolo angapo ndi alangizi - palibe m'modzi wa iwo amene adandipatsa yankho lomwe sindimapeza pa intaneti. Ndinkangomva kuwawa mumtima, ndipo ndimamva ngati kuti sindingathe kukhala pachibwenzi chifukwa zogonana sizinali zotheka kwa ine popanda mankhwala osokoneza bongo.
Ndinali nditapanga njira zosavomerezeka pofika pano. Ndinayamba kusuta udzu, kwambiri - poyamba tsiku lililonse, kenako nthawi zambiri patsiku. Ndinayambanso kupita ku PMO mobwerezabwereza, komanso kuzinthu zowoneka bwino kwambiri. M'malo mwake, ndimakhala ndimacheza nthawi zambiri kunyumba ndekha ndikuchita PMO chifukwa ndinali wokhumudwa kwambiri, ndipo zinthu zovutazi sizimandithandizanso. Kenako ndinayamba kuyang'ana makanema omwe anali ndi malingaliro osagwirizana / osagwirizana, ndipo ngakhale sizinali zolakwika zilizonse, ndinali wamanyazi kwambiri. Ndinadana nazo. Sindinakhulupirire kuti izi zomwe zimandinyansa kwathunthu komanso kundichititsa manyazi zimandichotsera. Choyipa chachikulu, sindinathe kusiya kuwafunafuna. Ndinkakhala nthawi yogwira ntchito ndikuganiza za njira zabwino zowafikira, ndipo ndimayembekezera kubwerera kunyumba kuti ndikawapeze. Chonyansa.
Umenewu mwina ndiye unali mdima wovuta kwambiri waukadaulo wanga wa PMO, ndipo monga zidalembedwera pamwambapa, zinali mkati mwa zaka zisanu zapitazi motero kunja kwa kafukufukuyu. Nthawi zonse ndimadziwika kuti ndine moyo wachipani komanso munthu womasuka kucheza nawo, koma panthawiyi, ndinali wosiyana kotheratu. Sindingathe kuyang'ananso akazi m'maso, kungoyankhula nawo konse. Nthawi zonse ndimakhala ngati ndikungoyenda, ndipo ndikuganiza kuti adanyamulapo. Nthaŵi zonse ndinali wokwiya msanga, wotopa, ndi wachisoni. Ndidadzipatula, ndipo moyo wanga umakhala wopita kusukulu / ntchito, kwinaku ndikucheza pang'ono. Ndikatuluka, ndinkamwa mowa mpaka nditalusa, kenako ndikumatha. Kuphatikiza apo, sindinkafuna kwenikweni kukhala ndi chibwenzi chilichonse, ndipo libido yanga kunalibe. Ndinayamba kukonda akazi, ndipo nthawi zonse ndimakhala ndi malingaliro otsika kwa iwo. Sindinkafuna kugonana ndi aliyense wa iwo. M'malo mwake, ndidadutsa nyengo youma yopanda mawonekedwe pafupifupi zaka 3 ndisanapeze munthu amene ndimamukonda. Atsikana sanali kundifuna, ndipo inenso sindinali kuwafuna. Panthawiyi ndinali PMOing kawirikawiri, komanso ndi zokonda zomwe zikukula. Nthawi zakuda, zowonadi.
Pafupifupi zaka ziwiri zapitazo, ndidakumana ndi mtsikana ndipo tidayamba chibwenzi. Chimodzi mwazinthu zomwe zidandikokera kwa iye ndikuti ndidazindikira kuti amakonda kwambiri mtundu wa zomwe ndimakonda kuwona pa intaneti. Izi zikadakhala zosangalatsa kuti ndikhale ndi vuto losokoneza bongo ngati sichingakhale vuto limodzi - ED. Poyamba, ndinkamwa mobisa mapiritsi kuti ndipewe, koma pamapeto pake adasiya kugwira ntchito.
Uku kunali kusintha kwakukulu pakukonda kwanga kwa PMO. Tidagwirizana kwambiri, ndipo patapita nthawi ndidamuwuza kuti ndimadwala ED, kuti ndimamutenga mobisa tsiku lililonse, komanso kuti sindimadziwa chomwe chimayambitsa kapena choti chichitike. Ndidanyozeka kwathunthu. Poyamba anali kumvetsetsa ndipo amafuna kundithandiza, koma adandisiya sabata kapena awiri pambuyo pake. Inali nthawi imeneyi pamene ndinazindikira YBOP ndi gulu ili ndikuyesera kupeza choyambitsa cha ED changa chomwe palibe madokotala omwe amafotokozera.
Zinthu zili bwino kwambiri tsopano chifukwa ndasintha zina ndi zina pamoyo wanga. Chofunika koposa, ndazindikira kuti ndili ndi vuto lodana ndi PMO ndipo ndachitapo kanthu kuti ndithane nalo. Sindimayang'ananso zolaula zilizonse, ndipo MO nthawi zambiri ndimatha. Kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi, kusintha kwa zakudya, mapulani a nthawi yomwe ndimakhala pachiwopsezo chobwereranso, kuyimira pakati, kulemba muzolemba zanga, komanso kukhala wokangalika mdera lino zonsezi zandithandizira kuthana ndi vutoli. Ndapeza munthu yemwe ndimakonda kukhala naye, ndipo chaka chatha nditamuuza zakukhosi, ndinasiya kumwa Viagra ndipo pamapeto pake ndinachita zogonana popanda izi. ED sichipezekabe nthawi zina, ngakhale imakhala ikuchepa nthawi zonse ndipo zomwe ndimaganiza kuti zochulukirapo ndizotsalira magwiridwe antchito. Sindikumvanso kudzichepetsa kwa akazi, ndipo ndilibe vuto lililonse tsopano kuwayang'ana m'maso ndikumwetulira kwinaku ndikupanga nthabwala ndikukambirana momasuka. M'malo mwake, vuto langa tsopano ndikuti atsikana akuyesera kuti andisamalire ndikukhala ndi nthawi yochuluka kwambiri ndi ine (Pepani amayi, ndatengedwa 
), ngakhale atsikana ndimadziwa zaka zingapo zapitazo omwe sankafuna kuchita ndi ine. Ndimaseka nthabwala ndi opambanawo pamasamba ochezera, ndipo foni yanga imangokhalira kukambirana ndi anthu omwe akufuna kucheza nawo. Anyamata amandifunsa upangiri wa atsikana, ndipo atsikana amalankhula nane pazinthu zawo. Ndili bwino momwe ndakhaliramo, m'maganizo ndi mwakuthupi, ndipo chifukwa cha zochuluka izi ndichifukwa ndasiya kusuta. Ndikulakalaka ndikadapanda kuwononga nthawi yanga yayitali komanso moyo wanga ndikuyang'ana pakompyuta, koma ndikuyembekezera, ndikudzidalira ndikudziwa kuti ndagonjetsa izi (kwakukulu).
Mwachidule, kwa ine chiwonetserochi chakhala chenicheni kwambiri, ndipo ndikumva ngati kuti zomwe zatchulidwazi koyambirira kwa positiyi ndizotsatira zakuchulukaku. Mavuto anga amawoneka akuipiraipira pazaka pamene kukwera kudakulirakulira, ndipo mavuto omwewo adasowa nditawona kuti PMO ndiye anali vuto ndikuyamba kusintha moyo wanga kuti ndikonze. Ndingalimbikitse aliyense amene azindikira zizindikiro zomwezo zomwe ndalemba ndekha mwa iwo okha kuti ayambe kuchitapo kanthu kuti zisafike poipa, chifukwa zimangowonjezera kukonza mukamazengereza.
Zolemba pamwambazi zinalembedwa kumapeto kwa Julayi. Ntchito yoyamba yamunthuyu idawonekera mu Epulo chaka cham'mbuyomu.
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