Ndinalembetsa ku ulusi wa No Fap m'mawa uno nditatha kuyang'ana tsambalo masabata angapo apitawa. Ndinayendetsedwa pano m'mawa uno chifukwa usiku watha, nditatha masiku 98 osachita zolaula komanso palibe maliseche, pamapeto pake ndinamaliza dzulo, mkati mwa mnzanga.
Ndinkafuna kupereka chiyembekezo kwa mamembala atsopano, ndi iwo omwe akuvutika. Atsikana, zitha kuchitika.
Ndakhala ndikuchedwa kuthamangitsidwa kwazaka zambiri momwe ndakhala ndikugonana.
Nthawi yoyamba yomwe ndinagonana ndi mtsikana, ndili ndi zaka 17, sindinachite umuna. Ndinachotsa icho ku misempha. Inali nthawi yanga yoyamba. Ndinali wachinyamata komanso wosadziwa zambiri. Zachidziwikire, amuna samabwera nthawi iliyonse, sichoncho? Izi zinali bwino.
Komabe, zinapitilirabe. Kapenanso sizikuchitika momwe zingakhalire.
Ndinakula, ndinali ndi zibwenzi zina zingapo, ndipo sizinachitike. Chitsanzocho nthawi zonse chimakhala chimodzimodzi. Nthawi yoyamba yomwe ndimagonana ndi mnzanga watsopano, ndikadakhala wokondwa kuti ndimagonana ndi msungwana wowoneka bwino, kuti kumaliza sikungandivute. Chinali chinthu chomwe ndimatha kupirira nacho. Komabe, nditakhala muubwenzi wanthawi yayitali, zidayamba kunditopetsa.
Nthawi yoyamba yomwe ndidabwera ndi mtsikana yemwe adakhalapo ndi pomwe ndimagona ndi mtsikana ndili paulendo. Tinagonana, ndipo adanditembenukira nati, "Kodi ubwera?" Takhala tikugonana pafupifupi mphindi 45 pakadali pano. Ndinamuuza zazing'ono zanga. Nthawi yotsatira titagonana, adadziseweretsa maliseche patsogolo panga ndipo ndidamaliza. Ndimamva bwino kwambiri, koma tsoka, sitinakumanenso pamene tinali osiyana.
Sizinachitikenso.
Ndidali ndi abwenzi angapo ogonana nawo, koma osati nthawi yayitali kuti ndithane ndi vutoli.
Zaka zisanu ndi chimodzi zapitazo, ndidakumana ndi mnzanga wapano, mkazi yemwe ndikudziwa ndidzakhala naye moyo wanga wonse. Tinayamba kugonana pafupipafupi, ndipo sanayenera kukhala Hercule Poirot kuti azindikire kusapezeka kwa mtundu uliwonse wamtundu wanga.
Pazaka zisanu ndi chimodzi zomwe takhala limodzi, tidayankhula zautali. Tidutsa magawo omwe sangativutitse konse, ndipo amatha kukhala ndi ziphuphu ziwiri kapena zitatu usiku chifukwa cha kutalika komwe ndimatha osamaliza. Tikadutsanso magawo omwe amativutitsa; amadzimva wosakondedwa komanso wosasangalatsa, ndimamverera ngati bambo wamwamuna, nthawi zonse kuyesera kumutsimikizira kuti, "sindinu, ndine."
Chinthuchi ndikuti, sindinaganizepo mozama kuti zizolowezi zanga zogonana zimalumikizidwa. Sindinaganize kuti ndachita maliseche mopitirira muyeso. Ine ndimangozichita kamodzi kamodzi masiku angapo. Komabe ndidazindikira kulumikizana pomwe ndidayamba kukhala ndi chizolowezi chodziseweretsa maliseche - mwachangu, momwe ndimakhalira, ndikugwira etc. Palibe munthu amene angagonane mwachangu momwe ndimakhalira maliseche.
Komabe, ulalo utapangidwa, ndimayesayesa kuti ndisiye kudziseweretsa maliseche, nthawi yayitali sabata kapena apo. Masabata asanu ndi limodzi anali kwenikweni mbiri yanga panthawiyi, koma ndidangopereka ngongole, chifukwa ndidadziwa kuti pali poti zitha. Zomwe zinalinso ndisanapangane ubale pakati pa chizolowezi / chizolowezi changa komanso moyo wanga wogonana.
Pa Feb 8 chaka chino anali pa ndege kubwerera kuchokera sabata limodzi kunyumba. Ndinali ndi nyumba yanga ndekha ndipo anali atabwerako m'mawa. Ndidakhala sabata lathunthu ndikukhala moyo wosangalala, kumwa, kudya pizza komanso, kuseweretsa maliseche pafupipafupi. Pa Feb 8th ngakhale, ndidadziwuza ndekha kuti, aka ndi komaliza.
Ndipo zinatero.
Pitani patsogolo mwachangu masiku a 98 oyesera pambuyo pake, ndipo usiku watha, kwanthawi yoyamba CHOONSE, ndinalumikizana ndi mnzanga.
Ndili wokondwa kwambiri.
Ndikudziwa uku si kutha kwa nkhaniyi. Sindikukonzekera zamatsenga tsopano, ndipo ndikuyembekeza kuti nthawi ina ndikagonana naye, mwina sindimaliza.
Komabe, ndikumva kuti cholemetsa chachikulu chachotsedwa paphewa panga. Kupsinjika kwatha ndipo ndikukhulupirira kuti sindiyenera kudikiranso masiku ena 98 kuti ndikhale ndi gawo lotsatira. Gahena, ngakhale zitatenga masiku 97, ndichizindikiro chakuchira.
Anyamata, ndizovuta! Kukonzanso kuli kovuta. Mudzawona kugonana kulikonse. Mudzakhala ndi maloto amphamvu komanso zozizwitsa. Mudzayang'ana mwachidwi azimayi omwe ali m'basi. Nyengo ikakhala yabwino, ndipo masiketi afupika mudzawona. Mudzapezeka mukuganiza zakugonana nthawi zonse.
Ingodziwa, kuti tsiku lililonse mumayandikira kuti mudzichiritse. Zovuta zilizonse ndizofunikira kwambiri chifukwa mukadzafika, mudzayiwala masiku onse oyipa.
Lero ndimamva ngati tsiku loyamba la moyo wanga wonse. Mavuto azaka 10 zapitazi, osamaliza, kumverera ngati theka lamwamuna, kuda nkhawa ngati ndingamenyepo, ngati ndidzakhale bambo ndi zina zonse zapita. Tsopano, ndine wokonzeka kupitiliza kugwira moyo ndi mphamvu zatsopano.
Amuna inu, khalani olimba !!
ulusi: Chilimbikitso cha iwo atsopano ku NoFap
Wolemba - senornofap
PEZANI
Kupindula
Kutsatira kupitilira kwanga monga momwe tafotokozera mu ulusi wanga womaliza, ndakhala ndikupambana. Ndatha kutulutsa umuna kudzera mwa mnzanga pogwiritsa ntchito manja ake komanso kamodzinso pogonana.
Ndikupitirizabe kusangalala ndi kupita kwanga mpaka pano.
Zopindulitsa zomwe ndikuzitchula zimakhalanso zodabwitsa ndipo ndikuyembekeza kuti omwe ali atsopano paulendo uno, kapena ngakhale omwe akukokapo kuchokera pa izi.
Ndakhala ndi mnzanga kwa zaka 6. Nthawi zonse ndimamupeza wokongola ndipo ndimadziona kuti ndine wodalitsika komanso mwayi woti ndimutche kuti ndine wanga. Kuyambira pomwe ndinasiya PMO ndikuyamba ulendowu, ndimawona kuti ndimamukonda kwambiri kuposa kale.
Ndimakalibe maliseche, ndipo ndikuganiza za kugonana nthawi zonse. Pamene maganizo anga asintha ngakhale kuti tsopano ndikuganiza ndi zilakolako zanga zimangoganizira za iye. Poyamba, ndimayang'ana kugonana kulikonse !! Mafupa onse omwe anawonekera anali oyenerera kuyang'anitsitsa, kumbuyo komwe kumayang'aniridwa komanso nyengo ikuyamba kutentha ndipo zovala zimakhala zikuwonekera kuti zinali zovuta kuposa kale kuti ndisunge maganizo anga.
Loweruka, ndinali m'modzi mwazomwezo. Pambuyo Lachisanu momwe sindinadziwe chilichonse kapena aliyense, ndinadzuka kuti ndikagwire ntchito Loweruka m'mawa mosakhazikika. Sindinkafunanso kuzonda odutsa, m'malo mwake ndimakhala Loweruka kuntchito ndikulota zonyamula mnzanga. Ndinamulembera mameseji akumva, ndikuyesa madzi titero, ndipo ndinali wokondwa kumuwona ali wofunitsitsa ngati ine.
Ndinafika kunyumba usiku womwewo ndipo tinali ndi kugonana kosangalatsa komwe ndimachita bwino kuthana ndikulowerera pafupipafupi. Zinali zodabwitsa komanso zosafunikira kwenikweni. Ndinakhutitsidwa kwathunthu ndipo ndinayambiranso kukhala ndimakhalidwe abwino.
Mpaka nditayambitsa ulendo wanga, zofuna zanga zikanakhutitsidwa kudzera mwa PMO ndipo zidzasamalidwa mofulumira komanso mosaganizira kuti alibe akazi amaliseche kumalo osiyanasiyana. Panthawiyi, malingaliro anga ndi thupi langa ankafuna kugwirizana kwenikweni ndi chiyanjano chenicheni kuchokera kwa mnzanga ndipo izi zinkakwaniritsidwa.
Zikumveka zosavuta, koma zinali zomveka. Izo zinandidzera ine komwe PMO inandisiya ine wopanda kanthu. NoFap sichimangokhala thupi. Zingathe kukufikitsani pafupi kwambiri ndi okondedwa anu m'njira zomwe mwinamwake munasiya nazo.
Pitirizani kuyenda!
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