Ndili ndi zaka 28. M'mbuyomu ndakhala ndikukula tsiku lililonse osaganizira kuyambira ndili ndi zaka 14. Mwinanso ndidazindikira kuti ndiyenera kusiya za 5 - 6 zaka zapitazo pomwe zidandizindikiritsa kuti ndinali wovuta kucheza ndi anthu kwakanthawi ndipo sindingathe kupeza bwenzi.
Nditha kupanga abwenzi koma ndimangokhala wopanda umuna, china chake chimandiletsa, ndinalibe kudzidalira. Ndinawona kuti PMO inali kukhala njira yanga yosatha yopulumukira kumakana. College inali mwayi woti ndikhale ndi maluso ochezera, sizinachitike m'maganizo mwanga kuti PMO ikulepheretsa changu changa kuti ndipite kukacheza.
Kuyambira pamenepo ndakhala ndikupeza zovuta zake pa intaneti ndi zina zotero. Pamenepo, ndimafuna kusiya ntchito, ndimatha kungolemba zochepa chabe. Zinali pang'onopang'ono, ndinatha masiku angapo opanda PMO. Ma streaks ang'onoang'ono apa ndi apo, ndimaphunzira zambiri. Ndidayamba kuwona kusintha pakudzidalira kwanga. Nthawi zina ndimabwereranso ndikumadya kwambiri.
Chodumphira chachikulu chomwe ndidatenga chinali kuyamba kuchiritsa koposa chaka chapitacho chifukwa ndimachoka kwa makolo anga kuti ndiyambe kukhala ndekha ndikuyamba ntchito yatsopano, ufulu umandipatsa mwayi wokhala ndi PMO, ndimaganiza. Therapy idathandizira ngakhale inali yokwera mtengo ndipo nthawi zina malangizowo anali abwinobwino. Kumayambiriro kwa chaka chino, ndimabwereranso ngati 2-3 pa sabata.
Kukhala ndekha kwakhala dalitso ngati, ndikuganiza maudindo andisamalire andipangitsa kuti ndikhale munthu wambiri. Ndi ntchito yanga, ndimatha kugula zinthu. Ndidakumana ndi anthu atsopano ndipo ndidapeza mwayi wokhala munthu wochezeka, pamlingo woyenera. Mavuto anga anali kuchepa, komanso kufunikira kwanga kwa PMO. Zitha kukhala zovuta nthawi zina, koma ndimakhala wokondwa kwambiri tsopano. Ndakhala ndiku chibwenzi ndi mtsikana yemwe ndimamudziwa zaka zingapo zapitazo, akuphunzira dziko lina kotero timangolankhula, kuti kutonthoza kwathandizanso kwambiri. Ndikufuna ndichotse chizindikiro chilichonse cha flatline ndi PMO tisanakumane pamapeto pake, chimenecho ndi chilimbikitso chachikulu kwa ine.
PS Zonsezi pomwe ndakhala ndikuyesera zinthu zambiri osalowa nawo noFap pano pa reddit. Ndinajowina kuno pasanathe mwezi wapitawu nditamva nkhani yokhudza Kugwiritsa Ntchito Zolaula Kwambiri kwina, kunanenedwa kuti palibe amene angachiritse yekha ndikulowa nawo gulu lothandizira ndilofunikira. Ichi ndi chinthu chomwe sindinayeserepo pamavuto anga mpaka pano.
Uwu wakhala umodzi mwamizere yanga yayitali kwambiri kuyambira pomwe ndinayamba kuzindikira kuti PMO ndiyabwino kwa ine. Ndakhala ndi zotere mmbuyomu koma nthawi ino ndimangomva zosiyana. Sindinasowe zolaula kwambiri, kumayambiriro kokha. Ndayesera zinthu zambiri m'mbuyomu, kuphatikiza mankhwala, adathandizira, mwanjira ina ndakhala ndikubwereranso kapena ndikadzipeza ndasowa PMO woipa kwambiri. Poyamba ndinali ndi chidwi chobwezera, koma nthawi ino, nditha kukhala wololera ndipo ndiko kusiyana kwakukulu kwa ine. Siyo chiwerengero cha masiku, ndiye mkhalidwe wamaganizidwe anga nthawi ino. Sizikusowa kudziletsa pakadali pano.
Izi ndi zina mwazinthu zomwe ndidachita mosiyana ndi kale, mwina adandithandiza kwambiri.
- Ndinkasunga kalendala ndikulemba masiku obwereza. Mwanjira imeneyi njira idayamba kutuluka. Ndinayamba kuwona chizolowezi chokwera kubwereranso kumapeto kwa sabata, kumapeto kwa sabata kunali koopsa kwambiri. Nditha kubwerera Lolemba mosavuta ndikulimbikitsa komanso kutsimikiza kuti sindidzayambiranso. Nditayesera zolimba, ma fayila angapo aafupi aFF, ndinadziwa kuti ndiyenera kuchita zinazake kumapeto kwa sabata, motero ndinayamba kudzikonzekeretsa.
- Ndatseka zolaula kwathunthu. Ndidapeza pulogalamu yabwino yoyang'anira makolo ndikukhazikitsa chinsinsi champhamvu, chokhala ndi dzina la Mulungu mmenemo. Sindingathe kubweretsa ndekha kugwiritsa ntchito chizimba ngati chimenecho kuti nditsegule zolaula. Pokhala chidakwa, ndimakhala ndikupeza njira zopezera zinthu zoyipa, nthawi iliyonse ndikapeza njira yolowera, ndimayika pulogalamu yoyang'anira makolo pazida zomwezo. Pang'onopang'ono ndidatseka mwayi wotsegulira ma social media nawo, ndiye kuti ndasiya kugula kwanga pa intaneti. Kusowa kwa zinthu izi kunathandiza kwambiri kukhala wowona mtima. M'mbuyomu, ndimayamba ndikusakatula zinthu zosalakwa, popanda chinyengo chilichonse ndipo musanadziwe kuti ndasiya kudziletsa. Chifukwa chake, kuletsa chilichonse kunathandiza kwambiri. Izi mwina zandithandizira kutsimikiza kuti zolaula sikulinso njira
- Ndinayesetsa kuthetsa vutoli. Ndinaganiza kuti kugwiritsira ntchito zolaula kungakhale chifukwa cha kusatetezeka, nkhawa kapena kupsinjika mtima. Panali china pansi pake. Ichi ndichinthu chomwe ndakhala ndikuchiyang'ana kwazaka zingapo, ndikungophunzira kuvomereza ndekha. Posachedwapa, ndapeza kusinkhasinkha kungathandize kwambiri. Poyamba ndinkamva kupweteka pachifuwa, pansi penipeni. China chake chomwe sindingathe kufotokoza. Nditayamba kusinkhasinkha ndidapeza kuti kuchepa kwachepa moona mtima, ndimamvabe nthawi zina koma ndimayesa kuzindikira zomwe zimandikwiyitsa ndikuchitapo kanthu ndikuvomereza. M'mbuyomu, ndikakhala kuti ndikumva zonyansa ndimaonera zolaula, tsopano ndatsimikiza kuti sizichita zabwino chifukwa ndimamva kuwawa pambuyo pake.
Sindinganene kuti ndazindikira mphamvu zamphamvu zanthawi yomweyo, iyi ndi nkhondo yomwe ndakhala ndikuchita kwazaka zambiri tsopano. Koma ndikuyang'ana kumbuyo ndachokera kutali kwambiri moona mtima. Kwa zaka zingapo zapitazi ndakhala ndikudzikwaniritsa kwambiri, ndipo ndikunena zowona kuti kulipira. Ndinawona chinthu chimodzi chaching'ono, m'masiku 30 apitawa, ndinasiya kutafuna misomali yanga. O, ndipo flatline idandigunda ngati galimoto, yopanda nkhuni zammawa kwa masiku opitilira 40, ndimapeza maboner mwachisawawa tsiku lonse.
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