Ndikumva ngati moyo wanga wonse umakhudzana ndi kugonana komanso zolaula. Ndinayamba kukula ndili wamng'ono kwambiri, sindikudziwa ndendende zaka zingati koma ndikuganiza za zaka 7, sindimadziwa zomwe ndidachita nthawi imeneyo, koma ndikukumbukira kuti zidamveka bwino (mtundu winawake wamankhwala).
Ndili ndi zaka 10 kapena 11 kapena kotero makolo anga adalandira zolembetsa kumagazini, zomwe zimaphatikizapo Donald Duck, zomwe ndidawerenga nthawi yomweyo, komanso magazini odetsa a 2 kapena 3. Nthawi zonse makolo anga komwe kulibe, ndimakhala kuseri kwa kama kuti ndione zithunzi. Sabata iliyonse magazini atsopano amabwera ndipo ndimangodikirira kuti nthawiyo ndikhale ndekha.
Ndili ndi zaka pafupifupi 12, ndinali ndi kanema wawayilesi yanga mchipinda changa ndipo chifukwa chimodzi chomwe ndimafunira chimenecho, chinali choti ndiziwonera zowonera pa TV pambuyo pa 23: 00. Tsiku lililonse ndimayang'anitsitsa chiwongolero cha TV kuti ndione ngati pali chodetsa chilichonse.
Ndikuganiza kuti panthawiyo nawonso intaneti idabwera, ndipo timalumikizana nawo molawirira kwambiri (sindinasamale za izo tikamapeza). Nthawi ina ndidaganiza zofufuza zithunzi za anthu otchuka achikazi ndipo posakhalitsa ndidapeza zithunzi zamaliseche, zomwe ndimafuna kuzilemba, koma sindinathe, chifukwa kompyutayo inali muofesi yanga ya abambo. Koma kenako ndidasindikiza zithunzizo, ndikuzilemba pakama ndisanakagone.
Ndinaika zithunzi zonse m'magazini yonyansa yomwe ndidasunga, yobisika kwinakwake m'chipinda changa. Nthawi zonse ndikatopetsa chithunzi, ndimayang'ana ina pa intaneti, ndikusindikiza. Ndipo abambo anga anali osokonezeka chifukwa chake inki ya chosindikizira inkachoka mwachangu nthawi iliyonse.
Ndili ndi zaka 15 kapena ndili ndi kompyuta yanga mchipinda changa, ndipamene zinthu zinaipiraipira, ndimasintha kuchokera pazithunzi kupita pamavidiyo ndikutha kamodzi patsiku. Makolo anga amatha kubwera kuchipinda changa nthawi iliyonse chifukwa ndikukumbukira kuti ndinali nditawayimbira pafupipafupi kuti andipeza.
Komanso panthawiyo ndimafuna chibwenzi. Sindinadziwe za zomwe zolaula zimabweretsa muubongo wanga, koma ndimaganiza kuti ndikakhala ndi chibwenzi, zogonana zenizeni zikhala bwino ndipo sindifunikiranso zolaula. Chabwino, ndinali kulakwitsa za izo.
Msungwana woyamba
Ndili ndi zaka 17 ndinali ndi bwenzi langa loyamba. Sanatenthe koma ndimangofuna chibwenzi nthawi imeneyo. Nthawi yoyamba kugonana kunali kowopsa. Ndinkadziwa tisanachite izi, choncho ndinadziuza kuti ndisamawonere zolaula tsiku lomwelo, chifukwa ndimafuna kuchita zabwino nthawi yoyamba. Maola angapo asanabwere kwa ine sindinathe kukana ndi PMO'd. Sindingathe kuzimva titagonana, zinali zoyipa basi.
Koma wopusa monga ine ndinali, ndimaganiza kuti ndichifukwa sanakhale wokonda mokwanira, ndipo ndidamutaya.
2nd bwenzi
Patapita miyezi ingapo ndinapeza bwenzi langa lachiwiri. Anali wokongola kwa ine panthawiyo, mosiyana ndi bwenzi langa loyamba ndipo ndimamukonda. Ndinagonana naye kwambiri ndipo ndinalibe mavuto a ED kapena chilichonse. Ndinataya zolaula zanga ndipo ndimaganiza kuti zolaula zitha. Sindingakhale wolakwika kwambiri.
Ndinayamba kuwonanso, zinthu zowonjezereka komanso zolimba kale. Pambuyo pake bwenzi langa lachikazi lidadziwa izi ndipo adandiuza momveka bwino kuti samazikonda ndikundiuza kuti ndisiye. Chabwino ndidamuuza kuti ndisiya koma sindinatero, ndimangoyesera kuti ndimubisalire. Ngakhale nthawi zina ndikakhala komweko ndimayang'ana zolaula akakhala kuti palibe.
Ali ndi zaka 20 (ndikadali naye pachibwenzi) ndidazindikira koyamba kuti ndinali ndi vuto. Ndinayesa kusiya kangapo, koma sizinatenge nthawi yayitali kuposa milungu ya 2 kapena apo. Zilimbikitso zake zinali zolimba.
Ndinali paubwenzi wabwino kwambiri ndi bwenzi langa koma chifukwa cha zolaula sindinakopeke naye ndipo ndimangofuna wina.
Msungwana wachichepere #1
Kenako china chake chidachitika ndikudzidanabe, mtsikana wazaka 14 adayamba kuwonetsa chidwi ndi ine. Poyamba ndimaganiza kuti ndizabwino, koma sindimamusonyeza chidwi. Pambuyo pake ndimayamba kumukonda, koma zinali zoyipa kwenikweni, chifukwa ndinali wamkulu zaka 7. Koma pamapeto pake ndidakhala pachibwenzi naye, makolo anga sanavomereze izi poyamba koma pambuyo pake anali okey nawo.
Koma choyipitsitsa ndichakuti, chikhalidwe chake sichinandisangalatse, ndimangofuna kuti ndigone naye. Tinagonana mwachangu titakhala pachibwenzi ndipo zinali zodabwitsa, chifukwa ndimagonana ndi mtsikana yemwe anali wosiyana ndi mtsikana aliyense mu kanema wolaula, popeza anali wachichepere kwambiri, anali gawo la chizolowezi changa. Ndinali kuyang'anabe zolaula kwambiri komanso zolimba kale kale ndipo zimayamba kusokoneza chikhalidwe changa. Ndinkachita mantha kukumana ndi anthu komanso kuyankhula ndi anthu, mochulukira. Sanadziwe zakumwa kwanga, koma adandithetsa chifukwa cha momwe ndimakhalira chifukwa cha chizolowezi changa: chidani chodzikonda kwambiri, komanso mantha.
Msungwana wachinyamata #2
Izi sizinasinthe malingaliro anga, patatha mwezi umodzi ndinapeza chibwenzi china chachichepere kwambiri, anali 16, ndinali 22 nthawi imeneyo. Panthawiyo, ndimaganiza kuti anali wodabwitsa, kugonana kunali kwabwino, ndipo amafuna kuwonera zolaula ndi ine. Chifukwa chake tidayang'ana limodzi ndipo ndidakondwera kukhala ndi gf yemwe amafuna kuchita nane. Koma chifukwa cha chizolowezi changa, ndimangofuna zambiri ndipo ndimamupempha kuti achite zinthu zolaula zomwe ndimakonda. Ndipo (chifukwa anali atasokonekera m'mutu) adachita zonse zomwe ndidamuuza.
Koma ndimangopitiliza kufuna zambiri. Pambuyo pake, adasiyana nane, sindikutsimikiza kwenikweni, koma ndikuganiza kuti ndichifukwa ndimangofuna kugonana naye ndipo sindinachite chidwi ndi china chilichonse.
Monga momwe mungadziwire pakalipano, zolaula zimandipangitsa kuti ndizisilira atsikana kwambiri.
Kuledzera kwanga sikunaleke. Makolo anga adasudzulana ndipo kuti athane ndi vutoli ndidangopanda. Ndinkawona zinthu zolimba kwambiri mpaka sindinapeze zinthu zotuluka panonso. Ndinkadzilamulira ndekha kuti sindidzalowa muzinthu zowopsa kwambiri. Ndinawonera zinthu zachilendo ngakhale.
Mkazi wanga
Kenako, patapita nthawi, ndinakumana ndi mtsikana, tsopano ndi mkazi wanga. Ndinali 23, anali 22. Sanali wotentha ngati atsikana omwe ndinali nawo kale, koma anali, tinene, anali wabwinobwino kwa ine. Sachita zolaula ndipo samandiletsa kuti ndiziziwonera, koma sakonda zomwe ndidachita.
Kuyambira ndili ndi zaka 21 ndinali ndi ntchito yokhazikika, ndimasunga ndalama zambiri (ndimakonda kutsitsa zolaula zanga kuchokera ku usenet) ndipo kumapeto kwa chaka, ndidagula nyumba. Ili linali gawo lalikulu kwambiri pamoyo wanga. Chifukwa gf yanga sinandikonde ndikuonera zolaula ndipo ndinali ndi ntchito zambiri zoti ndichite mnyumba yanga yatsopano, ndidasankha kusiya zolaula, kwamuyaya.
Nyumba yanga
Ndinasiya ntchito kwa miyezi isanu ndi umodzi. Moyo wanga unasintha kwambiri. Ndinatha kuyankhulanso ndi anthu, anthu omwe anali pafupi ndi ine anati ndasintha ndipo ndimamva bwino ndikukhala ndi mphamvu yogwira ntchito molimbika pantchito yanga komanso kunyumba yanga.
Koma zinthu zitakhazikika, ndinayambiranso zolaula. Ndili ndi chipinda changa chamakompyuta mnyumba yanga, ndipo chaka choyamba ndimakhala ndekha, bwenzi langa lili kumapeto kwa sabata. Kotero mkati mwa sabata, ndimatha kuwonera zolaula nthawi iliyonse ndikafuna, popanda wondisokoneza. Awa anali masiku anga akuda kwambiri. Ndinapita kuntchito, ndinafikira kunyumba, ndinadya chakudya ndipo ndimapanga zolaula kuchokera ku 18: 00 mpaka 01: 00, ndidadzuka ku 07: 00, caps mpaka 08: 00 ndikupita kuntchito. Ndinali kuonanso zolaula ndili pantchito pafoni yanga ndili kuchimbudzi. Kunali kwamisala.
NoFap
Kuyambira ndili ndi zaka 26 mpaka 28 (Julayi chaka chino) ndinayesetsa kusiya kangapo, koma osatinso mwezi umodzi kapena apo. Koma tsopano, pamapeto pake, miyezi itatu yapitayo, ndidaganiza izi kuti ziyime. Ine ndi mkazi wanga tinakwatirana chaka chatha, ndipo tikuganiza zodzabereka ana. Sindingakhale osokoneza bongo ndikukhala ndi ana. Iwo unkayenera kuti uyime, kwathunthu. Chifukwa chake ndinatero. Ndipo ndidayimilira masiku 90 tsopano. Ndipo ndikudzinyadira ndekha ndipo moyo wanga wasintha kwambiri nthawi ino.
Chifukwa chake ndikuuzeni zomwe zinachitika m'masiku amenewo a 90 (palibe superman shit):
- Kuyambira pakugonana mosagonja mpaka kugona kwambiri ndi mkazi wanga.
- Wosangalala kwambiri ndi moyo wanga
- Mkazi wanga ndiwosangalala kwambiri
- Ndimagwira bwino ntchito
- Ndidapanga dongosolo latsopano la kampani yathu (ndipo abwana adakonda izo)
- Ndidathandiziradi munthu wina wa pabanja lomwe likufunika kwambiri
- Yayamba kutenga nthawi yozizirira (ndizodabwitsa)
- Yayamba kusinkhasinkha (poyambirira)
- Yayamba kuchita zinanso
- Zingakhale zovuta kwambiri kuyankhula ndi anthu osadziwika
- Kuda nkhawa nthawi zonse
- Mutha kuthana ndi mavuto mabvuto
- Dziwani zambiri zam'derali
Momwe ndimachitira
Kusinkhasinkha ndi mvula yozizira ikundithandiziradi kuthana ndi vutoli. Ndipo ndaphunzira zamaubongo atatu omwe tili nawo. Ndipo ndimawonadi ubongo wakale kwambiri (ubongo wa buluzi) ngati nyama tsopano, yomwe ndi yotayika. Izi sizimangokhudza zolaula zokha, koma kuzinthu zonse zomwe mungafune TSOPANO ndikusangalatsa, koma osakhala osangalala pakapita nthawi.
Chifukwa chakuti ine ndi mkazi wanga sitigonana kwambiri, sindinadziwe zambiri m'masiku a 90, koma osaganizira, ndipo ndikungofuna kusiya zolaula kwa ine.
Komabe, masiku otsatirawa a 90 ndipita mode olimba. Palibe kusefa zomwe zingalole.
Ndine wokondwa kuti ndalemba izi. Ndizolemba zambiri koma kungolemba ndikuthandizira kuchira.
Malangizo ena a ppl omwe akuvutika:
- Sinkhasinkhani, zimathandiza
- Dziwani momwe ubongo wanu umagwirira ntchito, ingophunzirani momwe thupi lanu limagwirira ntchito, limathandiza
- Lembani, sindinalembepo zoyipa, koma tsopano ndimagwira, zimathandiza
- Werengani zolemba za nofap tsiku ndi tsiku, kotero zimakhazikika m'mutu mwanu
- Pezani bwanawe wa nofap kuti adzayankhepo
- Osangotha, osangochita ...
TL; DR: Kulimbana ndi PMO kwa zaka za 17, adakokera asungwana a 2 mumankhwala anga, ndikumva bwino chifukwa chosiya masiku a 90.Glad ndidalemba.
LINK - Masiku a 90, nkhani yanga
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