Ndili ndi zaka 28 ndipo ndimakonda zolaula. Ndinayamba ndili wachinyamata, ngakhale 56k modem ndi kukhala ndi makolo anga analetsa zinthu. Ndinkadziwa kuti ndili ndi umunthu wokonda chizolowezi, chifukwa ndimakonda kuseweretsa maliseche ndi zithunzi za digito ndi magazini 5-6 pa tsiku ndili wachinyamata. Choncho ndinachita zinthu mosamala nditasamuka. Ndine wothokoza kwambiri wotchipa, kotero sindinapiteko kumakalabu ochita mahule/mavula. Ndidachita zotheka kuti ndisakhale ndi kompyuta kunyumba. Sindinagulepo basi. Ndinadutsa ku koleji bwino, M'd kamodzi kapena kawiri patsiku kumaganizidwe am'maganizo okha. Fine ndi wachibale, chifukwa ndinali ndi zilakolako zoipa miyezi ingapo iliyonse ndipo momvetsa chisoni ndimalowa pakompyuta ya mnzangayo akakhala palibe ndi kupita pa intaneti. Koma kuwonekera kwathunthu pa intaneti kunali kocheperako kapena kumayang'aniridwa, kotero kuti chizoloŵezicho sichinafike "kuthekera" kwathunthu.
Kenako ndidapita kusukulu ya med, ndidakumana ndi bwenzi langa loyamba zaka 22 ndipo ndidataya unamwali wanga kwa iye. Chaka choyamba cha med sukulu inali yotanganidwa kwambiri ndipo sipanakhale nthawi yodzipusitsira ndi PMO wambiri. Chaka chachiwiri cha med kusukulu ndi chilichonse pambuyo pake sichinatenge nthawi yambiri. Ndimalowa mu labotale yamakompyuta, ndimakhala ndi chipinda chapayekha, maola otayirira nthawi imodzi ndikutuluka wosokonezeka, mwakuthupi ndi m'maganizo. Nthawi zambiri ndimayenera kulemba malipoti kapena kulemba zolemba, chifukwa chake ndimagula laputopu wazaka 15 wazaka zakubadwa zomwe zimayendetsa purosesa ya 33mhz. Chojambulacho chinali chakuti sichingagwirizane ndi intaneti. Panthawiyi, ndimakhala ndi ED kamodzi mumwezi wabuluu ndi bwenzi langa lapano ndikuganiza kuti kunali kusowa tulo kapena kupsinjika kapena china chake. Koma zinthu zinali bwino, ndimagonana 4-5x patsiku.
(mulungu, pokha pokha pamene ndikulemba izi ndi pamene zonse zimawoneka ngati kupita patsogolo kotsogola kapena kuwonekera pakulowerera kwanga.)
Nyumba za sukulu zimatha pambuyo pa zaka 2 kotero ndidayenera kupita kumalo anga komwe sindinapite kusukulu. Ndikufuna kompyuta yeniyeni kuti ndigwire ntchito ndikuyankha maimelo ophulika… Mutha kulingalira zomwe zidachitika. Wayyyy kwambiri PMO, pafupipafupi PIED. ndinayamba kukhala ndi chidwi ndi zinthu zolimba komanso zovuta. Ndinadabwitsidwa kuwona momwe ndidayambira pazinthu zankhanza komanso zowonongera moona mtima. Ndinkadziwa kuti zinali zoipa komanso kuti ndinali nditavala zipsera zakuya kwambiri muubongo wanga. Ndinayesa kuyima, sabata pano ndi apo, koma palibe chomwe chinalimbikitsidwa. Ndimaika zosefera pachilichonse koma ndimapezabe njira yoti ndithandizire, ndikudina mawu achinsinsi kapena kusintha mafayilo pakompyuta. Ndidang'ambanso khadi yopanda zingwe mu laputopu yatsopano kamodzi, kuti nditenge adaputala ya usb wifi pambuyo pake. izo zinali ZOIPA. Ndinkamva ngati anthu awiri. Mmodzi womvetsa chisoni ndipo winayo amakhala womvetsa chisoni kwambiri.
Chifukwa cha ndalama mu banja langa, anthu anga anasamukira nane zaka 2. Ine ndinaganiza: zabwino, izi zidzakuthandizira. Ndikuyika makompyuta kuchipinda. Ndinkayembekezera zovuta za chirichonse kuti andichiritse ine.
Cholakwika. Ndinangoyenda usiku kumeneko. PMO ali m'mawa kwambiri, kenako amatenga mapiritsi a caffeine kuti akhalebe maso masana. KUKHALA ndi chibwenzi kumawonjezeka, ndimakhala wopanikizika kwambiri komanso wopanda nkhawa ndikufunanso PMO. Nthawi yonseyi ndimagwira ntchito yaumisala ndikumva za anthu omwe ali ndi vuto losokoneza bongo la meth ndi mowa tsiku lililonse, nthawi yonseyi ndikumadzimva ngati wopusa komanso wofooka chifukwa chazomwe ndimakhala kuti sindinathe kuzigwedeza patatha zaka 10.
Gawo la pulogalamu yokhalamo yomwe ndimakhala imandipangitsa kugwira ntchito pulogalamu ya methadone kwa mwezi umodzi. Ndidayamba masabata angapo apitawa. Poyamba sindinkafuna chifukwa ndimamva ngati ndikungowapangitsa kuti azizolowera mwanjira ina. Nthawi zambiri ndimamvabe choncho, koma powona amuna azaka 50, 60, 70 omwe anali atangomanganso miyoyo yawo atatha zaka makumi ambiri ndi heroine, chisoni chomwe chidandithandizira kuti ndithandizire zolaula .
Ndinayesapo kusiya koma nthawi zonse ndimakhala wokwiya komanso wofooka panthawi yodziletsa. Koma osatinso. Ndimangodwala nthawi yonse yomwe ndikuwononga ndikungoyenda ndisanayang'ane pang'ono. Ndimadwala kugona pafupi ndi bwenzi langa ndili pabedi nditapita mofewa. Ndatopa ndikusiya ubongo wanga ndikupitilizabe kubwereza zinthu zodetsa m'mutu mwanga kulikonse komwe ndingakhale, aliyense amene ndili naye.
Chotsatirachi chikhoza kutchula chipatala chomwe ndimagwirako, koma ndi YBR ndi YBOP kwenikweni ndikuwerenga zolemba zanu zonse zomwe zidandipatsa chilimbikitso chowonjezera kuti ndisiye ndikumva zamphamvu potero. Zikomo kwa aliyense amene adatumizidwa pano. Ndikuyamikira kwambiri nthawi yanu komanso kumasuka kwanu ndipo ndikuyembekeza kuti nditha kuthandiza odwala anga monga nonse mwakhala mukundithandizira.
LINK - Chotsitsimutso chatsopano choyambiranso pamene mukugwira ntchito kuchipatala cha methadone
June 18, 2013
nditatha 10 yrs kutchera makompyuta, ndidayamba kugwiritsa ntchito mankhwala osokoneza bongo ndikukhazikitsa PIED !!
July 06, 2013
moni inu anyamata / atsikana / abambo / akazi,
ndimangofuna kuti ndilembe zankhani yanga yopambana chifukwa makamaka ndizotsatira zolimbikitsira zomwe ndapeza patsamba lino. Nkhani yanga ili pano: http://www.yourbrainrebalanced.com/index.php?topic=10524.0
koma mwachidule, nkhani yofananira nonse a inu pano, mudayang'ana zolaula zochuluka kwambiri, mudayamba kulowerera pazovuta komanso zovuta, zidayamba kusokoneza maubwenzi, ndi zina zina X 10 yrs. anali atatopa ndi kuwononga nthawi ndi mphamvu komanso kuchita manyazi kukhala ndi ED ku 28!
kotero ndidasiya kuyang'ana zolaula kwa miyezi ya 2, ndikadali ndi mavuto ndi PIED, ndiye ndidapeza tsamba ili ndikuzindikira kuti ndiyenera kukhala wozama komanso PMO kwathunthu. Ndidachita izi kwa miyezi yotsiriza ya 2 ngakhale ndidangolemba mwezi umodzi wapitawu.
Sindinagonepo mwezi watha koma bwenzi langa (mtunda wautali) adayendera sabata yatha ndipo takhala tikugonana kawiri kapena katatu patsiku sabata yatha popanda zovuta, ku 90 mpaka 100% kuuma. ndikumva bwino; ngati kuti ndine wachinyamata kachiwiri. ndikusintha kwakukulu kuchokera pazomwe zinali, zomwe mwina zinali za ED, zimayenda msanga mutangolowera, kapena kukhala ngati 70% kuuma nthawi yonse ndikuyenera kuchita zachiwerewere moopsa komanso mopanikizika kuti musamangidwe. kugonana tsopano kumatenga nthawi yayitali. palibe zidule kapena mapiritsi kapena china chilichonse, kulibe PMO. Ndiyenera kumveka ngati membala wachipembedzo kapena wamalonda.
sanakhale ndi zolakalaka panthawi ya PMO. Ndinali ndimafunso ambiri m'miyezi yoyamba ya 2 yopanda zolaula ngakhale. tsopano ndilibenso zolakalaka. Zolaula zimayenderana kwambiri ndi zamanyazi komanso kusungunuka kwa moyo ndi kusasangalala ndi mayendedwe kotero ndimazipeza kuti sizikuchita bwino.
adakhazikika mwezi wabwino mwezi woyamba wa PMO. Uko kunali kovutirapo, koma kunapita pambuyo pa nthawiyo.
Ndinkakhala wotanganidwa pang'ono kuposa masiku onse munthawi yonseyi. anakonza nthawi yochulukirapo ndi abwenzi, adakwaniritsa zina, adadya bwino, werengani zambiri. M'milungu ingapo yoyamba, ndinawerenga nkhani zambiri patsamba lino kuti zindilimbikitse ndipo ndidalemba zolemba!
Komabe, sindinayende bwino. pazifukwa zazing'ono, Ndine wokondwa kuti wopanga nyumbayo akugwiranso ntchito kachiwiri, ndine wokondwa kuti ndayamba kumwa mankhwalawa. zinali kulanda malingaliro anga. ndimaganiza mozama ndikuwona zolaula masiku angapo nditawawona. inali yoopsa kwambiri.
Izi zasintha moyo wanga. nthawi yambiri masana, kulimba mtima, mphamvu zambiri, kulimbikitsidwa. ndani adadziwa kuti kuthina kwa 20-30min patsiku kungakhale ndi zotsatila zambiri? mulimonse, ndiwopenga chifukwa cha tsamba ili kwa aliyense amene walemba.
khalani omasuka ku PM ngati muli ndi mafunso kapena mukufuna kulankhula. -minh
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