Ngati panali kukayika kulikonse kotsalira m'malingaliro mwanga za nofap, zonse zidatuluka pazenera pa Novembala 26 Lachiwiri, nthawi ya 9:30 pm… Chonde ndipirireni, ndikadali ndi mantha ndi zomwe zidachitika tsikulo (mwabwino njira).
Tiyeni titenge tsamba loyambilira, ndili ndi zaka 29, ndidayamba kuyambira 19 kukhala zongoyerekeza kenako zolaula ku 20 (ndachedwa kwambiri koma ndikumapeto kwa nthawi yayitali, waluntha m'maganizo) kwa zaka 10, ndidakwanitsa zaka 3 -4 nthawi patsiku, nthawi zina ngati zoyipa zidachitika nthawi 5-6, makamaka tsopano ndikamaganiza mmbuyo, sindimangokhala wokhumudwa, ndimakhalanso wosangalala, wokwiya komanso wosungulumwa kwambiri.
Kuyambira pamenepo, monga ambiri a inu "omwe mumakhala osokoneza bongo" pano, ndidayamba ED, kukhumudwa, kuda nkhawa komanso kudzidalira kosadziwika ndi zolaula, zaka zisanu zapitazi zakhala zowopsa kwambiri kuti ndimapezeka ndi ADHD komanso kukhumudwa kwakukulu (ndinali wofuna kudzipha ) adayikidwa pa wellbutrin, xanax, lexapro, concerta ndi ritalin…. eya ndinali wosokonezeka kwambiri, ndinali omega womvetsa chisoni, mukudziwa, wopondereza, osakhoza kuyang'ana anthu pamaso ... yadda yadda
Ndinayamba nofap chaka chino ndipo inde… mukuganiza kuti, zolaula zinali muzu wamavuto anga onse chifukwa tsopano NDAKHALA WABWINO pamankhwala onse, chinali chiyambi chovuta komanso nkhani yayitali, ndingofotokoza kuti njira yanga yochira ndi buku lolembera, ulendo womwe anyamata mumamva zambiri kuno.
Izi ndi zomwe zidachitika, lero: Ndinkangocheza ndi bwenzi langa lapamtima kuyambira ndili kusekondale, nthawi zonse amakhala ndi mwayi kwa ine kuyambira pomwe tidakumana (ndine munthu wowoneka bwino koma wowonongedwa ndi zolaula, ndikuusa moyo…) koma sindinakopeke naye, sindine mtundu wanga, ndipo kunena zowona ndimamupeza kukhala oyipa nthawi zina, chifukwa chake tidakhala abwenzi m'malo mwake.
Ndiye tidapachikika kumalo osungira nyama, kumakhala tsiku lonse chillin, mukukumbukira kuti ndidati ndine omega? kuyambira pomwe tidakhala abwenzi nthawi zambiri amandibweretsera nthabwala, kundinena nthabwala zopusa, kumandikwiyitsa pogonana ndipo ndimapilira, koma zomwe zidachitika tsiku lomwelo zidasinthiratu, anali kuchita ndi bulu wopanda zolaula. .
Pamapeto pa tsiku lomwe amandithamangitsa kunyumba, tinacheza kwa mphindi zochepa kenako anayambanso nthabwala zake zachiwerewere:
"Mukudziwa anon, ndimatha kudziwa kukula kwa mbolo yamnyamata ngati akuvala mathalauza olimba, ngati wakale wanga, malo ozungulira, malo otsetsereka a mbolo yosanja ikukankhira pankhotopo…"
kenako adayang'ana crotch yanga ndimanyazi onyoza nati
“Palibe kuyiwala kugwirana tikhala alongo abwino nthawi zonse ahaha ”
Adadutsa mzere, simUMASEKA konse phukusi la anyamata, palibe njira yowonera, makamaka osati kwa mnyamata yemwe ali mu FLATLINE yayikulu wokhala ndi dick wakufa wolimba.
Tsopano chonde kumbukirani kuti kuyambira pomwe ndidayamba nofap, ndakhala CHinyama, monga ndidanenera pamwambapa kuti ndichira, ndili ndi ZONSE zotchedwa "mphamvu zazikulu" ndipo sindingathe kuimitsa, chinthu chimodzi ngakhale, ambiri za inu pano mudalimbikitsidwa ndikudzidalira, inenso ndidatero, koma pambuyo pake zidayamba kukhala zankhanza… china chomwe sindinachionepo kuyambira ndili ku pulayimale, zili ngati ndasandulika kukhala munthu wina ndipo sizowopsa koma chabwino… sindikudandaula
Lang'anani, abambo anga, umulungu wanga monga munthu adawonedwa ndi MUKAZI ndipo njira imodzi yokha yodzitetezera.
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Ndidamugwira mawere, HARD, ngati momwe ndimakhalira chimwala chomwe chimagwiritsitsa miyala iwiri yakuwala kuti adzigwetse kuti asamwalire, inali miyala iwiri yofewa kwambiri, yolimba komanso yosangalatsa (ma shes wamkulu) ndipo BOY adatero zinali bwino!
Adafuwula ndikuyesera kundimenya koma ndidatuluka mgalimoto asanatero, nkhope yake idachita manyazi kwambiri ngati kuti imawoneka ngati bulu wa nyani.
Ndinatambasulira manja anga kwa iye mwa "bwerani kwa ine mawonekedwe a abale" ndikuti:
“Ndi zomwe alongo amachita”
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Zikomo kachiwiri, Nonse INU, ndidzipereka ku reddit iyi, ndikuthandizira komanso chikhalidwe momwe ndingathere !!! Osataya anyamata, ayi! Ndinali m'modzi mwa anthu omwe amakonda kwambiri zolaula ndipo ngati ndingathe kutero mungathe!
MUSATULUMUKE
TL; DR anali omega wofuna kudzipha aliyense yemwe amayenda, amakhala chirombo cholusa cha Alpha pambuyo pake
- epilogue: adandilembera mameseji ndikunena kuti ndine "mwana woipa" komanso kuti "andipatse" nthawi ina tikadzakumana, mwanthabwala, ndife abwenzi kwazaka 10x pambuyo pake, komabe, BRING IT PANSI pang'ono
LINK - Nofap adandipangitsa kuti ndizichita zosaneneka (Kupambana kwamalingaliro)
by Agalu
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