August 29 - Ndine woimba wazaka makumi awiri, ndipo ndakhala ndikukumana ndi mavuto ndi moyo wanga wogonana kuyambira pomwe ndikukumbukira. Choyamba, sindinakhalepo ndi chibwenzi chenicheni, chifukwa chake mutha kudziwanso kuti sindinakhalepo ndi vuto logonana. Ndakhala ndikuchita maliseche pafupipafupi kuyambira zaka khumi ndi zitatu, ndipo nthawi zambiri sindinachite koma mwina 1-3 nthawi pasabata, pakhala nthawi zina tsiku lililonse komanso kangapo patsiku.
Ndinayamba kugonana ndi mtsikana wanga ndili ndi zaka zapakati pa 23, ndipo pambuyo pake ndakhala ndikugonana kwa nthawi yayitali kuyambira nthawi imodzi usiku ndikukhala miyezi ingapo panthawiyo. Makamaka pachiyambi ndinkakonda kupweteka kwa atsikana, koma pambuyo polephera pang'ono ndinaphunzira kuti ndisakhale ndi malingaliro komanso ndikusunga thupi. Ndinazindikira kuti zinali zovuta kuti ndifike pachimake ndipo kawirikawiri zinali zitangotha nthawi yaitali kuti ndingathe kutero. Patapita kanthaŵi ine ndinasiyiratu pachimake ndipo ndinangoganizira za amayi okhaokha. Monga momwe mungaganizire, zinangokhala zosautsa pakapita kanthawi, ndipo chisangalalo cha kugonjetsa pambuyo pake chinafika pansi.
Pafupifupi zaka za 2 zapitazo ndinayamba kukhulupirira kuti ndiri ndi vuto ndi izi, ndipo ndinayamba kufunafuna moyo ndikuyesera kuti ndipeze chomwe chili cholakwika ndi ine. Ndinapeza zovuta kuti ndikhale ndi malingaliro kwa amayi, ndipo ndinayamba kumverera ngati wopanda chifukwa ndikudzipereka kwambiri pa ntchito ndi zokondweretsa. Ndinapitabe pazinthu, ndipo ndinakhala ndi ubale umodzi ndi mkazi wabwino kwa miyezi pafupifupi 6, koma inakhazikika monga momwe zimakhalira ngati ubwenzi ndi kugonana.
Tsopano chaka chatha ndidasiya kumwa kwathunthu, ndipo ndidayamba kuchita masewera olimbitsa thupi pafupipafupi ndikuyamba kusinkhasinkha komanso masewera andewu. Posakhalitsa ndinayamba kukhala ndi masomphenya onena za ine komanso malingaliro atsopano, ndipo ndinazindikira kuti mwina zolaula ndiye vuto lalikulu kwa ine. Ndinayesa kuzipereka miyezi yapitayi koma nthawi zonse ndinkabwereranso pakatha sabata limodzi kapena apo, popeza ndimalakalaka kwambiri gawo la ma dopamines. Koma panthawi imodzimodziyo ndimafuna zolaula zambiri, chifukwa zinthu zovuta zomwe ndakhala ndikuziwona zinali zonyansa kwambiri. Kenako ndidakumbukira tsamba la YBOP ndipo kuchokera pamenepo ndidayenda tsambali. Ndipo ndiyenera kukuwuzani, zonse patsamba lino ndizomveka kwa ine.
Ndinasiya zolaula pafupifupi masabata a 4 apitawo, ndipo sindinayang'ane kumbuyo kuyambira pamenepo. Masabata awa akhala ovuta kwa ine komabe, chifukwa zotsatira zakubwezeretsa ndizochuluka! Pakadali pano ndakhala ndikusowa tulo, mipira ya buluu, mbolo yopweteka, chilimbikitso chowonjezeka cha kutsekula ndikusinthasintha kwamaganizidwe. Komanso nthawi zina ndimakhala wotentha kwambiri sindimadziwa choti ndichite nazo! Ndizatsopano kwa ine, monga m'mbuyomu ndalumikiza kumverera kumeneko ndi MOing - tsopano ndikuganiza za mkazi weniweni wamoyo. Ndakwanitsa kudzutsidwa ndikungoganiza za mtsikana amene ndimamukonda! Komanso, sindinkafuna kuonera zolaula zilizonse, ndipo ngati ndangoziwona chithunzi chosavala sindinakonde MO. Mitengo yanga yammawa yabwerera ndipo ndi yayikulu 😀 Moti zakhala zovuta kwa ine.
Posachedwapa ndakumananso ndi mtsikana yemwe ndimawoneka ngati ndimamukonda. Sitinagonepo kapena kuyankhulapo kwambiri, komabe ndikuwoneka kuti ndikusangalala kukhala pafupi ndi iye, ndikumva mphamvu zake ndikamugwira kapena kuvina naye. Kusinthasintha kwanga ndi kusowa tulo kumadzetsa vuto koma, chifukwa zimandipangitsa nthawi zina kukhala wokhumudwa, wosaleza mtima ndi zina zambiri. Ndipo nthawi yomwe ndimagona naye mu supuni, ndimavutika usiku wonse - ndikuwonjezera kuvuta kugona 
Ndikukhulupirira kuti izi zikhala zosavuta komanso kuti asandiweruze chifukwa cha izi, koyamba kwa nthawi yayitali ndikufuna kukhala pachibwenzi chenicheni. Ndikumva kuwawa kuti sindinathe kusiya zolaula m'moyo wanga m'mbuyomu, koma ndikuyesera kukhala wokondwa kuti pamapeto pake ndidatero!
Mpira wabuluu - zotsatira zake ndizowopsa, zimawoneka ngati chiwalo chonse chatsala pang'ono kuphulika. Mwamwayi kulibe usiku uliwonse. Zikuwoneka kuti thupi langa likubwezera kuweruza chifukwa cha kufunika koti mukodze, ndipo ndikuganiza kuti kusinthasintha kwa mkodzo ndikosiyana kale. Ulendo wovuta kwambiri kunena pang'ono!
Kusuta udzu + melatonin kumawoneka ngati kukuthandiza tulo, koma kenanso kumadzutsa libido kotero sindikudziwa ngati lingakhale lingaliro labwino pompano. Ngakhale, tsopano pamene ndimamva, sindimayambiranso kuganizira zolaula, koma makamaka kwa akazi enieni omwe ndimawakonda.
Ndimasangalala nazo, kuti ndisanayese kusiya, ndinali ndi chidwi chachikulu kwa MO pafupifupi tsiku lililonse koma tsopano zili ngati zasowa kwathunthu? Sindikudziwa chomwe chidachitika?
August 30
msungwana uyu akusuntha sabata ino. Pambuyo pamsonkhano wathu womaliza masiku angapo apitawa sitinalumikizane zambiri ndipo ndikumva kuti akupita patali kotero ndikumupatsa danga tsopano, ngakhale ndiyenera kuvomereza kuti ikufuna kukhala ndiubwenzi tsopano.
Komabe ndikusangalala kuti ndikumva kuwawa - zimandipangitsa kukhala wamoyo.
Palibe nkhuni zam'mawa, palibe mipira ya buluu kapena zilakolako zilizonse zogonana masiku ano.
August 31
Moodswings ndizambiri. Dzulo, ndinali kumva bwino kwambiri patatha pafupifupi masiku awiri osadzimva kuti ndili ndi nkhawa komanso nkhawa. Flatline ikupitiliza. Popanda kutero.
September 6
Tsopano ndabwezeretsanso moyo wanga wogonana, ndikukhala ndi chipambano china (100% kupambana chaka chino).
Ndikumvabe ngati kugundana konse, kukhudza zina ndiwabwino kuposa momwe zimakhalira. Ingomva wokondwa kukhala ndi mzimayi akumayang'anira thupi lako ndipo amakuposa zonse 🙂
Zimamveka ngati ndagonjetsa chinjoka ichi. Ngakhale ndidayambiranso kukhala ndi moyo wogonana, ndakwanitsa kuwongolera mayendedwe anga ogonana. Sipanakhalepo zovuta zowonekera pambuyo pa O yanga, ndipo palibe chidwi chodzikonda-MO nkomwe. Kumbali inayi (lol) kugonana kwanga komwe kumakhala kotsika kwambiri ndipo sindikhala ndi chidwi ndi mnzake wamkazi. M'malo mothamangitsa P, ndakhala ndikuyang'ana kwambiri pakudzipindulitsa. Ndakhala ndikugwira ntchito molimbika pa masewera andewu (ngakhale kuyesa 4. kyu ku ju jutsu sabata ino) ndi nyimbo nthawi yanga yopuma, ndipo palibe masiku ambiri pamwezi pomwe sindili ku dojo, masewera olimbitsa thupi kapena situdiyo. Sindikufuna kumwa kapena kumwa mochedwa, chifukwa ndimagona msanga kuti ndidzuke ndikutsitsimutsidwa!
Ndikumva ngati chachikazi sichili "chowopsa" monga kale, ndipo sindikumva ngati ndikusowa chakumwa kuti ndizitha kugwira nawo ntchito. Zikuwoneka ngati masiku ena ndimakopeka ndi azimayi ambiri, koma masiku alipo masiku ena ndizosiyana. Nthawi zambiri sindimakhumudwa, kuda nkhawa kapena kusungulumwa.
Chifukwa chake, mwachidule - ndikumva ngati pulogalamu yoyambiranso iyi idali njira yabwino yolumikizira malingaliro. Pambuyo pogonjetsa chinjoka cha zolaula, zizolowezi zina zimawoneka kuti ndizosavuta kuthana nazo. Ndikukhulupirira kuti cholinga ndikugonjetsa malingaliro ndi mphamvu zisanu, mwachitsanzo. kupachika mphamvu kuti asandisocheretse, koma azikhala pansi paulamuliro wamaganizidwe omwe andigwirira ntchito osati kunditsutsa. Kukhala wokonda zolaula kumalumikiza zinthu zambiri - kukhudza, kuwona, kumva komanso malingaliro. Kulamulira tanthauzo la kukoma kumatanthauza kukhala ndi chakudya choyenera komanso kusadya zinthu zowononga zina ndi zina. Zachidziwikire kuti pali magawo ena a izi, monga umphumphu ndi chikondi, koma awa ndi malo abwino kukwera.
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Ndinayamba magazini yatsopano m'dzinja lapitali popeza ndinali ndisanathetse vuto loyambirira lomwe linali DE, ndipo ndimabwerera ku PMOing nthawi zina pafupifupi chaka chatha Okutobala watha ndatsimikiza kuti ndizisiya konsekonse. Kuyambira pamenepo, sindinakhalepo ndi chidwi chilichonse chowonera P kapena MO, ndipo sindikuwoneka ngati ndikugwirizananso ndi kukhudza mbolo yanga. Zikuwoneka ngati malo abwino kukhalapo!
Pazaka zatsopano, ndinali ndi bwenzi langa la tantric (yemwe sindinagonepo naye nthawi imeneyo) ndipo tsiku loyamba la chaka chino machitidwe athu a tantric adafika pomwe tidayenera kusankha ngati ndikufuna kupita 'njira yonse'. Pambuyo pake tidatero. Ndipo zinali zopambana kuyambira pachiyambi mpaka kumapeto. Ndinalibe vuto lililonse la ED, ndipo ndidakwanitsa kupeza "orgasm" yanga yoyamba - patangotha mphindi 15 zokha zogonana!
Chifukwa chake, ndidakhala ndi gawo langa loyamba lachilengedwe ngakhale sichinali chomwecho. Chodabwitsa ndichakuti sichinali champhamvu, makamaka poyerekeza ndi ma PMO ovuta kwambiri omwe ndinali nawo zaka zapitazo, komabe ndikupitabe patsogolo. Zinandipatsa ulemu, chifukwa tsopano ndikudziwa kuti ndikhoza kuzichita ngati kuli kofunika, ndipo mwina ndikhozanso kubereka ngati ndikadafunako.
Ngakhale izi ndi chiyambi chabe cha njira yatsopano, ndimaionabe kuti ndi wopambana! Pulogalamuyi imagwira ntchito, anthu!
Ndikugwirabe ntchito ntchito ziwiri zomalizirazo, koma ndikupeza ndalama zabwino. Ndakhala ndikugulitsa zinthu monga zosangalatsa komanso zovala ndipo ndinakwanitsa kusunga zina. Ndamaliza nyimbo yomwe ndimagwira, ndipo iyenera kutulutsidwa mwezi wamawa, ndikukhala ozizira! Zambiri ndi malingaliro ambiri amatuluka 'm'mutu mwanga, chifukwa chake ndimamva ngati ndatsegula luso langa pomaliza! Ndikuganiza zopanga lol lina ndikuwombera makanema anyimbo pakamera yanga yodalirika ya super8.
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Tsiku 28 - Sabata yatha kuchokera pomwe ndidasinthira komaliza ndikulongosola kwakukulu. Nthawi zambiri ndimakhala wokhumudwa kwambiri, ndikumakhala wokonda kugonana komanso ndimakhala ndi lingaliro lokhala mmonke (ndimachita masewera olimbitsa thupi, ngakhale sindinakhalepo ku dojo chilimwe chonse mpaka dzulo). Kutaya chilimbikitso cha china chilichonse kupatula kudya, ngakhale ndadzikakamiza kuyambiranso zolimbitsa thupi (kuthamanga, masewera olimbitsa thupi & masewera omenyera nkhondo) zomwe zimapangitsa kuti ndizisangalala kwakanthawi nditamaliza masewera olimbitsa thupi. Tidakhala ndi tsiku limodzi kapena awiri abwinoko sabata ino koma chani izi zikukhumudwitsa. Amamwa mwina mowa umodzi ndikusuta maudzu awiri sabata yonse. Kwenikweni sindinayanjane ndi azimayi sabata ino kupatula kukopana mwachisawawa ndi azimayi osowa malo ogulitsira etc. Ndikumverera ngati mtsikana amene ndimamunenayu akuchokapo koma sindikufuna (kapena sindingathe kutero) chitani chilichonse chokhudza izi tsopano.
Kumbali inayo, kusowa tulo kumawoneka ngati kuchiritsidwa, ngakhale ndimakondabe kutenga 5mg ya melatonin pafupifupi usiku uliwonse asanagone.
September 13
Tsiku 35 - Ubalewo tsopano suli pachithunzichi pomwe adaganiza kuti sakufuna chibwenzi pamoyo wake wapano. Zachidziwikire ndidamva chisoni, koma ndidalandira ndikumulola apite. Patatha masiku awiri ndidapita kukalabu, ndidayang'aniridwa ndi atsikana, koma palibe amene adandidandaulira. Anamaliza kupsompsonana ndi m'modzi wa iwo tho koma adaganiza zongozisiya. Mmawa wotsatira ndimamva kuti ndili pansi kwambiri kotero ndidaganiza kuti zochulukirapo ndizochulukirapo, ndipo ndinayang'ana maliseche ena ndikumaliza MO. Zinandithandiza ndipo sindinamve chisoni kapena kunyansidwa pambuyo pake.
Kumbali inayi ndimakhumudwitsidwa pang'ono kuti sindinasungebe PMO koma malingaliro anga onse ndiabwino. Kumvetsetsa kunakula ndipo zotchinga zofewa zinali zolimbikitsa zokwanira. Pafupifupi kukhala wachinyamata kachiwiri! Ndipitiliza opanda P kapena PMO kachiwiri popeza ndidazindikira kuti zandithandiza. Mwinanso nthawi ina ndikakumana ndi munthu, ndidzakhala wokonzeka m'malo moyenda mwachangu.
September 18
Ndiponya ngakhale zotchezera pakadali pano. Ndikumva ngati lingakhale lingaliro labwino kuchepetsa kugwiritsa ntchito facebook kukhala kocheperako komanso kuthera nthawi ndikusinkhasinkha kapena china chake chopanga. Limodzi mwa mavuto anga posachedwapa lakhala ntchito yochuluka kwambiri komanso kugona mokwanira. Ndazindikira kuti ndikatopa ndimakhala wokhumudwa mosavuta ndipo zimakhala zovuta 'kulimbana' ndi malingaliro olakwika. Ndilibenso mphamvu yolumikizirana ndi anthu ndiye ndizoyipa kawiri. Posachedwa tikhala ndi nthawi yopuma yoyendera zomwe zikutanthauza kuti ndidzakhala ndi nthawi yambiri yopuma. Ndikukonzekera kuzigwiritsa ntchito kugona ndi kupumula kwa masiku angapo oyamba. Ndakumanapo ndi mtsikana wina posachedwa yemwe ndimawoneka ngati wokonda, koma nthawi ino ndikutenga zinthu slooow. Pakadali pano tangoyankhula, kutikumbatira pang'ono ndikukhudza pang'ono. Ndimakonda ngakhale kuti khungu langa limamva bwino!
September 23
Tsiku 7- Kumva bwino. Ndimatopa kwambiri komanso kuwonda nthawi zambiri, koma ndikulingalira kuti zimakhudzana ndi kusagona mokwanira komanso kugona nthawi zonse. Lero ndidaganiza kuti ndisachite chilichonse, nditapachikika ndi mzanga komanso anzanga omwe ndimakhala nawo m'chipinda chimodzi, tidakondwera ndi gawo lalitali la jacuzzi. Mapeto ndidapumula kwambiri ndikukhala wamantha, choncho ndidaganiza zopita ku M popanda P. Kukwanilitsidwa kutenga O wanga woyamba wopanda P kuyambira zaka zanga zaunyamata ndikuganiza!
Ndikupitirizabe kusunga MO w / o P mpaka zochepa, koma ndikuwona izi zikupita patsogolo! Monga mbeta ndimayenera kudzilola kusangalala nthawi ina. Ngakhale ndikukhulupirira kuti sikutali kuti ndikhoza kukhala ndi ubale wathanzi ndi amayi mtsogolo. Ndili ndi foni yanga yoyamba m'mbuyomu ngakhale sindinathe kuyankha nthawi ino 8) Chifukwa chake ndikuganiza kuti china chake chasintha patatha miyezi 1,5 yakubwezeretsanso. Mulimonsemo, ndikuganiza kuti ndakhala ndikukhala ndi mphukira katatu munthawiyo - onsewo opanda chidwi / chowonera chilichonse. Zakwaniritsidwa ndithu!
October 14
Kungodutsa kuti ndidziwe kuti ndikuchita bwino! Panopa ndili patsiku 33 pakuyesa kwanga kwachiwiri pa pulogalamu ya noPMO ndi tsiku 2 pa seti yanga ya noMO.
Anazindikira kuwonjezeka kwanthawi yayitali pakulimbikitsidwa m'moyo & ntchito, nthawi zambiri kumakhala bwino, kuyendetsa bwino thanzi lomwe silimayendetsedwanso ku P ndi MO koma makamaka kwa akazi enieni. Ngakhale sindinachite chibwenzi chilichonse kapena zogonana m'masabata 4 apitawa, chifukwa chake ndilibe GF kapena amuna kapena akazi anzawo. Ndakhala ndikulondolera mphamvu zanga zogonana pakupanga zachilengedwe ndi zojambulajambula - ndipo m'magawo onsewa ndikukula!
Chifukwa chake zonse zili bwino, ndikungogwiritsa ntchito nthawi yanu yambiri pa yourbrainrebalanced.com yomwe ikukhudzana ndi mavuto anga pakadali pano. Ndilowanso pano kuti ndidziwitse za kusintha kulikonse. Sindinakhalepo ndi chidwi chilichonse ku MO kapena ngakhale kuwonera P kuyambira pomwe ndidabwereranso komaliza ndipo ndibwino. Kumverera ngati ubongo wanga ukudziyendanso wokha pamapeto pake!
Chifukwa chake khalani olimba abale ndi alongo anga. Ngati muli ndi vuto losokoneza bongo, mutha kuthana nalo chifukwa chokhala ndi mwambo komanso chidwi chachikulu. Madalitsowa amakhala ochulukirapo ngati mungopitiliza kuchita. INGOCHITANI!
December 2
Ndinabwereranso masabata a 2 apitawo nditakhala ndi mtsikana ndipo ndidavutikabe ndi DE zomwe zimanditsogolera ku PMO atachoka kuti athetse mipira yanga yabuluu, koma kuyambira pamenepo. Ndadzipangira ndandanda yamasabata iliyonse yomwe ndimayesetsa kutsatira mosamalitsa, komanso ndidaganiza zodyera zatsopano. Cholinga changa ndikusiya zakudya zopanda mafuta pa zakudya zanga, kuphatikizapo nyama, ngakhale ndimalolera kudya nyama / nsomba nthawi ndi nthawi (ngakhale zitakhala kwa ine, ndipita kukapeza organic). Ndionjezera zosakaniza zosaphika muulamuliro wanga, ndipo ndikulingalira kuti ndizidya ndiwo zamasamba osaphika pamapeto pake - M'nyengo yozizira (tsopano) ngakhale ndiyenera kuwonjezera chakudya chimodzi chotentha pachakudya changa.
Ndimapatula nthawi yanga yambiri yopuma pazinthu zanga zosangalatsa: masewera andewu. Ngati sindikuchita izi, mwina ndikuphunzira za uzimu komanso mavuto / mayankho pamavuto apadziko lapansi akuyembekeza kuti (ndikuyembekeza posachedwa) kuti ndichite zenizeni kuti zithandizire. Mwina polowa nawo pulogalamu?
Ndazindikira kusintha kwanga - tsopano ndikuyamba kumva ngati nditha kuyang'ana pazinthu zina m'malo pamavuto anga. Ngakhale sindinapeze mnzanga wabwino (omwe ndidatchulapo kale adakhala opanda pake) sindidandaula nazo. Sindikumva kuti ndili ndekha, komanso sindikulakalaka kukhala ndi mnzanga panthawiyi. Ndikukhulupirira kuti nofap iyi yandithandiza kuthana ndi kusungulumwa kwanga.
December 4
Zikuwoneka ngati zachizolowezi pano kupita kukagonana mwachangu 'mutachikoka' chifukwa zimafunikira kusintha kwaulamuliro ndi mphamvu kwa ine. Komanso kukhulupirira kuti msungwanayo ndi munthu yemwe ndikufuna kucheza naye nthawi yayitali. Ndimakonda kwambiri kampani yomwe ndimasunga.
February 20
Ndidapita masiku 90 molunjika opanda P, M kapena O.
Zosintha zodziwika kwambiri zomwe zachitika panthawiyi:
- Palibe malingaliro ogonana kapena zithunzi zamaganizidwe zomwe zimadzaza malingaliro anga
- Maganizo anga okhudzana ndi kugonana komanso moyo asintha
- Kusintha kwakanthawi kochepa
- Kuchulukitsa chisangalalo
- Kuchuluka chisangalalo pa moyo
- Kuchulukitsa mphamvu
- Kuchulukitsa kuzindikira kwauzimu
- Ndakhala wosadya nyama
- Sindikuganiza kuti bwenzi ndilofunika kusangalala ndi moyo moyenera
Ndikumva ngati ndikufuna kupitiriza kudziletsa pakadali pano, popeza ndakhala ndikusangalala ndi maubwino awa. Ndinalowa nawo vuto la NoFap2013, koma ndasankha kusiya kugonana pokhapokha nditapeza wina yemwe amandipangitsa kumva bwino! Ngakhale, pakadali pano ndili otanganidwa kwambiri kuti ndingakumane ndi aliyense momwe ndimamverera kuti ndili ndi zochuluka zoti ndichite, ndipo ndikumva ngati ndikufunika kuthana ndi nthawi yomwe ndawononga m'masiku a PMO.
Akumva kukoma kwambiri!
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