Oo. Kotero izo zinali zokongola kwambiri. Pambuyo pa zaka 20 zobwerezanso kuledzera ndatha kugonjetsa ziwanda zanga. Ndikamba nkhani yanga mwachidule, kenako ndikupereka upangiri, kenako ndikukhala zenizeni ndikusangalala ndi nthawi iliyonse yomwe ndatsala pano.
Gulu la 5th, ndinali mwana watsopano. Amatsutsidwa mwachisawawa, amasankhidwa, okha, ndipo amatsutsidwa ndi mmodzi wa aphunzitsi. Nditha kupulumuka, ndipo sindinayambe kukhala ndi chidziwitso chokhalira ndi mwana wamba. College ikundipulumutsa ine ndipo ine ndinakula nthawi yayikuru, ndinayikidwa tani ndipo ndinabwereranso pa njira yamphamvu.
Kenako ndinamaliza maphunziro. Amayi anga omwe analinso bwenzi langa lenileni anamwalira. Izi zidandiponyera mchira womwe udandipangitsa kuti ndizilowerera kwambiri zolaula. Sindinkaganiza zokhala pafupi ndi kwathu pambuyo pa koleji koma matenda ake ndi chizolowezi chake zidandigwira pano. Mpaka pano. Ndidalimbana ndikubwerera m'mbuyo mobwerezabwereza, zolephera zambiri ndipo pamapeto pake ndidakhazikitsa mndandanda womwe ndidakumana ndi zovuta zanga zonse. Zovuta kwenikweni sizovuta kwa ife, ndimaganiza kuti tiyenera kusintha mawebusayiti awa kukhala "chizolowezi chomanidwa pakati pathu" timakonda kubisala ndikuthawa zenizeni. Zolaula, masewera apakanema, intaneti, ndi zina zambiri
Umu ndi momwe ndakhalira pano
1.NYE chaka chatha ndidadziwa kuti china chake sichili bwino koma sindimatha kuchizindikira. Ndidapanga dongosolo loti ndichite chinthu chimodzi mwezi uliwonse kuti ndiyesere kundithandiza kuzindikira zinthuzo ndikuyembekeza kuti nditsegula zomwe zinali zovutitsa ine.
- January: idyani saladi yanga yoyamba (inayamba yaying'ono ndikusonyezerani kuchuluka kwa chidutswa chimene ndinali)
- February: fulukani ku California kuti mukachezere mnzanu
- March: yesani kuyima comedy
- April: Phunzitsani ngati wodwala m'chipululu
- May: lowani mu tanka lokhalokha
- June: Lembani nyimbo yoyambirira
- July: Pitani ulendo wautali wautali wopanda mapulani
- August: kudzipereka kugwira ntchito pa njira ya Appalachi
- Sept: kugonjetsa kuledzera kwanga
Palibe mwa izi zomwe zidakonzedweratu pasadakhale. Ndidangochita imodzi kenako mwamatsenga mantha ena adadzuka. Lingaliro ili linali chinthu chachikulu kwambiri chomwe ndidachitapo, ndipo ndidakula misala. Mutha kuwona kulumpha kwake kwakukulu kuyambira Januware (kudya saladi) mpaka Marichi (Kuyamba kupita patsogolo ndikuyesera kuyimirira!)
Zomwe ndidapeza ndikuti mukangoyamba kumene kuchita chinthu china, chinthu chilichonse chowonjezera chimakhala chosavuta. Ndinali ndi mantha opusa pankhani ya kudya zakudya zinazake: ndimaganiza kuti ndikadya saladi ndikhala gay. Ndikudziwa, ndine wopusa. Koma zitatha, zinali ngati zitseko zina 20 zatseguka. Ndipo ndizowona, tonsefe tili ndi mantha ang'onoang'ono omwe sitimaganiza kuti amatipweteka kwambiri, koma ndimantha ang'onoang'ono omwe amatibweza m'mbuyo!
Pochita izi zonse ndinakwiya kwambiri mu August. Monga wokwiya kwambiri. Mchemwali wanga adalongosola za izo, ndipo ndinadetsedwa ngati masiku a 2 ndipo ndinatha kumsonkhano uno. Palibe lingaliro, koma ine ndinatero. Ndinazindikira kuti ndinali wosokoneza ndikawerenga magazini yoyamba.
Kotero ine ndinayamba ulendo. Icho chinali gehena. Chinthu chachikulu chomwe ndinazindikira chinali choti ndikuyenera kusintha zambiri. Ndikanati ndiyandikire mofanana ndi momwe ndinasinthira New Years Resolution. Chinthu chimodzi chaching'ono pa nthawi yomwe ikutsogolera ku masitepe aakulu.
1. Bwerezaninso zoyesayesa zitatu zoyambirira. Zolaula zabwino zanditengera kawiri. Ndikuganiza kuti tsopano ndikulamulira komwe ndimakhumba, osati anapiye okhala ndi zidole. Amandimenya ndikumagwiritsa ntchito mwayi wanga kuyambira ndili mwana, mwana uyu amandimva bwino.
2. Tachotsa zolaula zonse, zatsekedwa malo onse.
3. Anayamba journaling
4. Anauza anthu m'moyo wanga za chizoloŵezi changa. Mchemwali wanga, ndiye bambo anga, ndiye antchito a 2, ndiye wanga wakale-gf. Ena anangonena kuti ndinali mu rehab, ena ndinamuuza nkhani yonseyo.
5. Kukulitsa luso labwino. Ndinayimba gitala, ndikudzipereka, ndikugwirizananso ndi anzanga achikulire, ndinapita kumisonkhano yotsutsana, ndinkayenda ndikuyankhula ndi anthu ndikuyenda.
6. Kudula. Ndinali ndi anthu ambiri olakwika m'moyo wanga, ndipo phunziro limodzi lofunika lomwe ndidaphunzira ndikuti mumakopa zomwe muli. Ngati mukukhala moyo wosasangalala, mumakopa anthu osayenerera. Ngati mumakhala moyo wabwino, mumakopa anthu abwino. "Ndidataya" anzanga atatu akale, koma sanali abwenzi enieni, anali anthu wamba okhaokha omwe ndimacheza nawo chifukwa ndinali wamanyazi.
7. Pezani zilakolako zanu. Posachedwa ndikugwiritsanso ntchito ndikuzindikira zomwe ndikusangalala nazo m'moyo. Ndimakonda nyimbo, chilengedwe, kuwerenga, kuphunzitsa ndi kuyenda. Izi ndi zinthu zokha zomwe ndikuyenera kuziganizira, osati zolaula, Facebook, YouTube, zokopa, maswiti, etc.
8. Kuchotsa zosokoneza. Ndilibe tv, kapena intaneti yothamanga kwambiri, kapena maswiti, kapena ps3. Mutha kunena kuti "sindingathe kukhala ndi zinthu izi !!" Chotsani chinthu chimodzi nthawi imodzi ndipo mudzadabwa ndi zokonda zomwe mungakhale nazo.
9. Imani nokha. Chakumapeto kwa 50-60 ndinayamba kudzidalira ndikuyamba kufotokoza ndekha. Peoe wambiri sanakonde chatsopano ine kapena kuchimvetsa. FUCK KUTI. Khalani munthu yemwe muli. Kwa ine nthawi zonse ndimamva kuphatikizika uku. Monga momwe ndinali anthu awiri, chizolowezi changa komanso moyo wanga weniweni. Mukayamba kuchotsa mutu wanu pitirizani. Musaganize, ingolankhulani zomwe mukuganiza ndikuchitapo kanthu!
10. Ndikuganiza kuti apa ndi pomwe anthu ambiri amayamba kulankhula ndi amayi, ndipo mwina kwanthawi yoyamba m'miyoyo yawo. Ndakhala ndi mwayi wokhala ndi mwayi wambiri wogonana panthawi yakumwa, koma kwa iwo omwe ali atsopano ndiloleni ndinene izi: monga momwe zimayambiranso zolaula, mukamayambira kwambiri koyambirira? Zomwezo zimachitika ndi akazi. Mukanena chinthu chopusa, kuchita manyazi, osachita zoyenera, ndi zina zotero koma kungoganizira chiyani? Pali akazi 4 BILIYONI kunjaku. Osatengera matenda amtundu umodzi, lankhulani ndi ambiri momwe mungathere, ndi momwe mumaphunzirira. Ndipo ngati mungazindikire, pafupifupi nkhani zonse zopambana pano zimagwirizana ndi anyamata omwe asokoneza zinthu ndi mtsikana ndipo tsopano akuchira.
10. Pezani "muzu wanu". Chinthu chomaliza chomwe chidandipangitsa kuti ndipambane ndikupeza kuti chizolowezicho chidayamba. Kwa ine anali mphunzitsi wa giredi 5 yemwe amandinena kuti ndaba buku lake la kalasi. Kukumbukira uku kunandizunza, ndipo pamapeto pake ndidaganiza zolimbana nawo. Ndinamulembera kalata, ndikumufotokozera momwe ndinazunzidwira komanso zomwe zinandichitikira kusukulu yapakati. Ndidamuuza kuti ndikuyesera kuti ndichiritse, ndikhululuka ndipo ndili ndi moyo wabwino pakadali pano. Ndidatumiza ndikuganiza kuti sindidzamvanso za iye.
Patatha masiku anayi mphunzitsi wanga wamkulu anandiitana. Anati a Superintendent adatumiza kalata yonena za ine ... kalata yanga, idapeza komwe ndimaphunzitsako ndipo ndiyenera kuti ndidadandaula ku distilikiti!
Apa ndi pomwe karma ndipo nthawi zonse kuchita zabwino zimachitika. Izi zitha kukhala zomwe zingapangitse kuti wina achotsedwe ntchito, ndipo ndinali wamanjenje ndikulowa kukawona wamkulu wanga. Koma kodi simukudziwa, iyenso anali atadutsamo. Sanachite nawo, koma tidayankhula kwa mphindi zochepa, adati abwera kudzathandiza ndipo ndi zomwezo. RAHBHHHHHH !!! Munthu kufuula !! Chitani zoyenera, ndipo ngakhale mukuganiza kuti zingayambitse mavuto zonse zidzakhala bwino pamapeto pake.
Umenewo unali gawo lomaliza kwa ine. Anandipezerera zomwe zidapangitsa kuti ndimalimbana ndi zolaula kwa moyo wanga wonse, zomwe zikuyamba kulira. Zolimbikitsa zanga sizikupezeka. Ndimaseka tsopano ndikaganiza zogwiritsa ntchito zolaula. Pali zinthu zina zambiri zomwe ndikadakhala kuti ndikugwirira ntchito kapena kuchita PMO. sizingagwiritsenso ntchito malingaliro anga pompano ubongo wanga umati "dikirani, mukufuna kuwonera zolaula kwa maola 2? Zoonadi? Iwe bwanawe, tili ndi zina zoti tichite. ”
"Nkhondo" yanga yatsopano ngati mukufuna kuyitanitsa ndiye ndikuganiza kuti ndiyambiranso. Kuti ndipeze dera lomwe ndikufuna kukhalamo, kuti ndikhale ndi anzanga, kuti ndikhale wokonda zanga ndikupeza akazi omwe ndimawakonda.
Zikomo chifukwa cha chithandizo cha mudziwu, zikomo kwa olenga, ndikuthokozani Pred, Delightful, ndi wina aliyense amene wandithandiza kapena amene anaika mayankho ku mafunso anga, zikomo onse pokhululukira pamene ndinganene chinachake chopusa, zikomo zonse kuti andilole kuti ndiwerenge magazini anu, ndikuthokozani nonse chifukwa chokhala ndi mipira kuti muyang'ane ndi mankhwalawa.
Komanso malangizo amodzi, ndinawona wogwira ntchito zachipatala chaka chonse amene anathandiza mwamsanga kuthandizira. Ndikupempha kuyesa ochepa ndikuwona yemwe mumamasuka naye.
Kuphunziranso kuzindikira ndi kulumikizana ndi "mawu osokoneza bongo" kunali kofunikira. Kukhoza kusiyanitsa ndi malingaliro abwinobwino kumathandizira kuchira.
Mafunso ndi ndemanga zimalandiridwa.
LINK - Kupambana pa tsiku 72. Kuchokera ku gehena ndi kuwona
by kulandira30
Ndemanga kuchokera ku Journal Kuyamba Moyo #2 (Cholinga choyamba chinakumana, tsopano chikupita ku 90!)
August 16, 2013
Kapena ndizomwe zimamveka.
Kotero nayi njira yayitali, yokhotakhota yofuna zolaula.
Ndinasamuka kuchoka kolala yabuluu kupita kolala yoyera ndili ndi zaka 14. Kusintha kunali gehena. Ndinamenyedwa, kunyozedwa, kuzunzidwa, kunyamulidwa, ndinalibe anzanga ndipo ndinali wamwano kwambiri. Sindikudziwa zomwe ndidapanga pano kapena ndikadakhala nazo kale, koma ndinali ndi china chake pamatenda amisala / othandizira. Ndinakopeka. Ndimakumbukira nthawi yoyamba yomwe ndinayamba kumwa mowa: Ndinali mchimbudzi chapamwamba nditatha kusamba; osadziwa kuti ndinali ndi zaka zingati, mwina 13-14. Ndikukumbukira ndikungokhala ndi magazini ndikuyamba kwa M ndi boom! Ndinali nditalumikizidwa, ndimamva zodabwitsa.
College inapulumutsa moyo wanga; Ndinataya unamwali wanga, ndinali ndi zibwenzi, ndinkamwa, ndinapeza anzanga, ndimakhala ndimacheza, NDINKAKONDA kusodza ndi kusewera gitala ndi poker. Ndinali komweko koma sindinakhaleko. Ndimatha kukumbukira mausiku ambiri abwino, komanso mausiku ambiri obwera kunyumba ndikungogogoda kamodzi ndikumangokhala ngati zoyipa.
Nditamaliza maphunziro ndidataya amayi ndi agogo anga, ndikuyesanso kudzidzidzimutsa osakumana ndi zinthu. Zinaipiraipira pang'onopang'ono, ndipo kuwonera zolaula kwanga kunasokonekera kwambiri mpaka zonse zitandivuta ndipo ndinali ndi mantha. Ndinadutsa koma sindinadziwe chomwe chinali vuto ndi ine. Pamene ndinali 28 ndinali ndi chibwenzi changa choyamba kwakanthawi. Tinayamba chibwenzi ndipo zinthu zinakhalanso zosangalatsa, ngati ndinali mwa iye, koma sizinatero chifukwa sindinathe kuthana ndi malingaliro. Ndidadziwa kuti pali china chake chalakwika ndi ine koma sindimatha kuchizindikira. Zinatha ndipo ndinadziwanso kuti panali china kumbuyo kwake koma sindimatha kuchizindikira. Mothandizidwa ndi wogwira nawo ntchito komanso mwayi wamsheya ndidapeza malowa. Nditayamba kuwerenga magaziniwa anali amisala. Yall ali ngati ine.
Kotero ndili pano. Pambuyo pochuluka, mobwerezabwereza, ndikuganiza kuti ndimalimba mtima kuti ndipirire izi. Mzere wanga wautali kwambiri unali masiku 28. Magaziniyi mwachiyembekezo idzandithandiza kufikira pacholinga changa cha masiku 30 kapena kupitilira apo. Ndiyambira tsiku 3 popeza ndakhala ndikupita kwanthawi yayitali. Zikomo chifukwa cha ena omwe amagawana pano ndi aliyense amene akuthandizani.
August 8, 2013
Moni nonse, ndine "P" ndipo ndangotenga zaka 30.
Ndakhala ndikulimbana ndi zolaula zaka 9 zapitazi, ndipo ndimavutika kuti ndizimenye. Zinayamba mosavomerezeka ndi zolaula zoyambirira, koma kenako zidatuluka ndipo zidakhala ndi zovuta ngati zolaula komanso ulamuliro. Sindinadziwe chomwe chinali "cholakwika" ndi ine, ndipo nthawi zonse ndimayesa njira zosiyanasiyana kuti ndithane ndi zolakalaka.
Tsamba lino ndi anthu omwe ali pamenepo asintha malingaliro anga kwathunthu. Zinali zabwino kupeza tsamba momwe anthu anali otseguka komanso osamala, kotero kuti pali zidziwitso "zoyambitsa" m'malo ena. Ndipo kunali kuchiritsa kumva ngati anthu akumagulu achiwerewere ndi amuna kapena akazi okhaokha akuyankhula zakusiyana kwakugonana ndikuwononga zina mwazinthu zomwe ndimada nazo nkhawa muubongo wanga.
Kwa ine zomwe ndidazindikira ndikuti ndimangokhala munthu wopulupudza, wamantha, wodziona kuti ndi wotsika kuchokera kumidzi yomwe sinakhale ndi chidwi kapena kudziwa momwe angakhalire moyo wake kapena kudzifufuza. Kuti ndibisalire ndi ululuwo ndinayamba kumwa mowa komanso zolaula.
Ngakhale ndimakhala ndi zibwenzi ndi amayi, atsikana okha omwe ndimatha nawo chibwenzi anali mitundu ya "nyama zovulala"; akazi omwe anali ndi mavuto okulirapo ngati sali ofanana ndi ine. Tidakhala ndi nthawi yoyesererana kapena kungokhala ndi toni yogonana, ndipo osagwirira ntchito mpaka pachibwenzi.
M'chilimwechi ndidadutsa US kwa mwezi umodzi, ndidachita maphunziro am'chipululu, ndidakonza zosintha ntchito ndikuyamba kukulitsa chidaliro changa ndikulumikizananso ndi anthu abwino m'moyo wanga. Ndikumva kuti ndine wosiyana koyamba m'zaka, zili ngati kuti ndikuchita zonse zomwe ndikadayenera kuchita mu 20 yanga tsopano.
Ndinazindikira kuti zolakalaka zoterezi zimabwera ndikakhala wosungulumwa, ndikumva kukhumudwa, ndikamagwa mvula kunja, ndi zina zambiri. Tsopano m'malo mwake ndimayimbira anthu, kusewera gitala yanga, kuwonera kanema woseketsa kapena kuwerenga nkhani yolimbikitsa pano.
Ndikulingalira ndikungofuna kuthokoza y'all chifukwa chokhala ndi dera lino ndikundipangitsa kukhala omasuka ndi zomwe ndikukumana nazo.
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